Nanoo Nanoo
5th May 2013, 02:55
Hello Dear Friends
i have discovered a document on helping those with Meth addiction. It seems to be prevalent today. I how this helps.
Methamphetamine
A report
In June of 2012 I set out to understand the addictive qualities of Methamphetamines
Because I believed I was mostly immune to addiction I believed it would be difficult for this substance to get a hold of me. As it turned out for the greater part, I was wrong.
Methamphetamine is a hugely powerful drug and its charisma captures you with its effects. It releases huge deposits of dopamine which gives an amazing feeling of presence, confidence, even spirituality. The draw back is once the dopamine is used up these euphoric feelings tend to eventually flat line over a period of time dependant on the frequency of use and amounts during usage.
The greater problem with Methamphetamine is that the resource it calls on, being dopamine predominantly, takes far longer to regenerate naturally than it’s consumed during meth usage. So there is a definite slow and slippery slope backwards to the point of Zero gain or good feelings which is when there is a tipping point. Once a person has reached this place they either decide it’s of no use or the stuff they are getting is not as good so they search for better supplies or they just need to use more because the body is used to it and or all of the above.
All of which have strains of truth in them however the greater problem lies in being un educated in its effects and in knowing this can help make a better decision at this point in the meth romance. I call it a romance because meth can be a very tantalising drug. It can help change perspectives, gain focus, and get through mundane tasks of which we are exposed daily. The danger lies in chronic use as its addictive qualities are indeed ones that can challenge the most disciplined of monks.
I limited my self to 1 point per week. 1 point is 1/10th of a gram. Eventually this became harder to adhere to and as time went on I gave in to using more as it was very more-ish. This went against my decisions however the pull to use more to get the feeling was strong.
I was lucky because I decided to try it and had a good supply of decent meth to use and indeed have a regular supply at a good price. In the beginning it felt amazing, it flushed me out i.e. it made me go to the toilet and boy was that fun! I had deep connection to people, amazing conversations, spiritual feelings of connectedness and so much more.. But after say about 3 months it started to become a different experience. The tingles I got in my brain were gone, instead of feeling focussed on my tasks I felt focussed on tweaking. Tweaking is a process that meth users do to feel like they are accomplishing something. It can range from making silly inventions like a better shaped spoon to looking on the floor with a magnifying glass to find pieces of meth crystal that may have been dropped on the floor.
By this time you are hooked. And it’s a really diabolical drug from here on in. What happens is your basal feeling of normality is reduced down to a lower level. In turn your expectancy of quality in life is reduced to a level that is hugely unchallenging. Indeed you will prefer to be left alone smoking meth than turn up to work or talk to friends or do anything that’s remotely challenging like buy milk. I have met and spoken to people hooked on meth so much so that they would defend its use with their life. In the 6 months I experimented with it I knew 2 people to commit suicide as a direct result of meth use and its negative aspects. And even just before they died they defended meth to the enth degree as being the only thing that kept them sane. But from an outside view you can but think that their life may be over in one way or another and sadly this became a reality for two lovely people I knew.
Meth eventually depletes your dopamine to the point that you are left with hugely remorseful feelings of guilt, suspicion and un scrupulous thoughts leading to sexual gratification amongst other things. Just remembering and writing these things almost makes me nauseous.
I witnessed a dear friend of many years who was an astute business man who accumulated great wealth had slowly become an addict shortly after a divorce. He left work, he smoked it daily and then became a dealer to help supply him self of more for a good price. He became such a huge dealer that he was easily making 4 to 5 times more per week than he ever could work a 9 to 5. I tried everything to help him get off it but he defended it to the hilt. He left his beautiful woman to shack up with another meth addict and together they dealt and defended meth use as a couple who between them could think their way out of a shopping centre on a good day. His mind went from being sharp to having trouble paying a bill on time. It wasn’t from lack of funds , it was because meth or rather lack of dopamine stops your sequential thought processes and leaves you with a truly baron mind in terms of completing tasks.
One day I asked him about his estates in London and his collection of classic cars of which was a total value close to 5.5 million pounds. He answered “I don’t know " . . . he had lost all interest in managing his estates and couldn’t be bothered to even check up on them. When I asked him if I could assist he just looked at me blankly and continued to fidget with his ipad.
One day I turned up with a box of vitamin and mineral supplements to help his brain get back to some semblance of normality.. You know what he asked me? “Is this stuff safe?” I bellowed a laugh that almost offended his little pea brain. I was actually amused for a second that he could acknowledge id just had laugh at his expense. Yes I have a slight distain for him as in turn I am really disappointed in my self for not finding a way to help my dear friend from ruining his life.
But is it my job to help him? Traditionally yes, but karmic ally, no. I had to save my self as it had gotten to a point that I was starting to compromise my ideals and goals.
So what did I do to get out of it? You know I tried everything from deleting numbers to doing other drugs, to exercising but nothing helped till one day I started to think about how I could be letting my fiancée and family down. The remorse of them not knowing or even telling them was huge. Thinking that I am losing all semblances of my goals in life created such a major turn for me that it gave me an edge to try. So what I did was take stock of all the things I used to do and now couldn’t. I took stock of all the things I thought Meth helped me with but realised I used to do it better when I didn’t have any. I realised that instead of doing mundane tasks that make me feel bored to the point im happy to take drugs to desensitise myself to them, I decided to just try life without it. With my small amounts of use it took me about 2 weeks of gradual abstinence to get back to normal. It was like waking from a coma. Slowly I got back my good thinking process, confidence, relationship problems were no longer problems but challenges, I worked better and more efficiently and eventually I got stronger and happier. The key is that it was a process of self observation and evaluation. Micro comparisons of the self, from things I did while on meth to things I did without it and then the honest appraisal of the difference. One word to take note of and is the power of becoming a non addict of meth. Honesty, the ability to be honest to my self was a big turning point in my kicking the habit. That and I was slowly going broke because I spent about $250 a week and didn’t work!
I would have eventually become a derelict in not coping with working and I had every resource avail to become a dealer my self. What a world of bad karma that would have been.
In the end do I think Meth is addictive? No its not, the effects however, are. What’s more addictive is the reason for its use. I found with exploring these reasons was my door to the exit. I then dealt with the reasons and eventually the need for use became obsolete.
Author
Unknown
i have discovered a document on helping those with Meth addiction. It seems to be prevalent today. I how this helps.
Methamphetamine
A report
In June of 2012 I set out to understand the addictive qualities of Methamphetamines
Because I believed I was mostly immune to addiction I believed it would be difficult for this substance to get a hold of me. As it turned out for the greater part, I was wrong.
Methamphetamine is a hugely powerful drug and its charisma captures you with its effects. It releases huge deposits of dopamine which gives an amazing feeling of presence, confidence, even spirituality. The draw back is once the dopamine is used up these euphoric feelings tend to eventually flat line over a period of time dependant on the frequency of use and amounts during usage.
The greater problem with Methamphetamine is that the resource it calls on, being dopamine predominantly, takes far longer to regenerate naturally than it’s consumed during meth usage. So there is a definite slow and slippery slope backwards to the point of Zero gain or good feelings which is when there is a tipping point. Once a person has reached this place they either decide it’s of no use or the stuff they are getting is not as good so they search for better supplies or they just need to use more because the body is used to it and or all of the above.
All of which have strains of truth in them however the greater problem lies in being un educated in its effects and in knowing this can help make a better decision at this point in the meth romance. I call it a romance because meth can be a very tantalising drug. It can help change perspectives, gain focus, and get through mundane tasks of which we are exposed daily. The danger lies in chronic use as its addictive qualities are indeed ones that can challenge the most disciplined of monks.
I limited my self to 1 point per week. 1 point is 1/10th of a gram. Eventually this became harder to adhere to and as time went on I gave in to using more as it was very more-ish. This went against my decisions however the pull to use more to get the feeling was strong.
I was lucky because I decided to try it and had a good supply of decent meth to use and indeed have a regular supply at a good price. In the beginning it felt amazing, it flushed me out i.e. it made me go to the toilet and boy was that fun! I had deep connection to people, amazing conversations, spiritual feelings of connectedness and so much more.. But after say about 3 months it started to become a different experience. The tingles I got in my brain were gone, instead of feeling focussed on my tasks I felt focussed on tweaking. Tweaking is a process that meth users do to feel like they are accomplishing something. It can range from making silly inventions like a better shaped spoon to looking on the floor with a magnifying glass to find pieces of meth crystal that may have been dropped on the floor.
By this time you are hooked. And it’s a really diabolical drug from here on in. What happens is your basal feeling of normality is reduced down to a lower level. In turn your expectancy of quality in life is reduced to a level that is hugely unchallenging. Indeed you will prefer to be left alone smoking meth than turn up to work or talk to friends or do anything that’s remotely challenging like buy milk. I have met and spoken to people hooked on meth so much so that they would defend its use with their life. In the 6 months I experimented with it I knew 2 people to commit suicide as a direct result of meth use and its negative aspects. And even just before they died they defended meth to the enth degree as being the only thing that kept them sane. But from an outside view you can but think that their life may be over in one way or another and sadly this became a reality for two lovely people I knew.
Meth eventually depletes your dopamine to the point that you are left with hugely remorseful feelings of guilt, suspicion and un scrupulous thoughts leading to sexual gratification amongst other things. Just remembering and writing these things almost makes me nauseous.
I witnessed a dear friend of many years who was an astute business man who accumulated great wealth had slowly become an addict shortly after a divorce. He left work, he smoked it daily and then became a dealer to help supply him self of more for a good price. He became such a huge dealer that he was easily making 4 to 5 times more per week than he ever could work a 9 to 5. I tried everything to help him get off it but he defended it to the hilt. He left his beautiful woman to shack up with another meth addict and together they dealt and defended meth use as a couple who between them could think their way out of a shopping centre on a good day. His mind went from being sharp to having trouble paying a bill on time. It wasn’t from lack of funds , it was because meth or rather lack of dopamine stops your sequential thought processes and leaves you with a truly baron mind in terms of completing tasks.
One day I asked him about his estates in London and his collection of classic cars of which was a total value close to 5.5 million pounds. He answered “I don’t know " . . . he had lost all interest in managing his estates and couldn’t be bothered to even check up on them. When I asked him if I could assist he just looked at me blankly and continued to fidget with his ipad.
One day I turned up with a box of vitamin and mineral supplements to help his brain get back to some semblance of normality.. You know what he asked me? “Is this stuff safe?” I bellowed a laugh that almost offended his little pea brain. I was actually amused for a second that he could acknowledge id just had laugh at his expense. Yes I have a slight distain for him as in turn I am really disappointed in my self for not finding a way to help my dear friend from ruining his life.
But is it my job to help him? Traditionally yes, but karmic ally, no. I had to save my self as it had gotten to a point that I was starting to compromise my ideals and goals.
So what did I do to get out of it? You know I tried everything from deleting numbers to doing other drugs, to exercising but nothing helped till one day I started to think about how I could be letting my fiancée and family down. The remorse of them not knowing or even telling them was huge. Thinking that I am losing all semblances of my goals in life created such a major turn for me that it gave me an edge to try. So what I did was take stock of all the things I used to do and now couldn’t. I took stock of all the things I thought Meth helped me with but realised I used to do it better when I didn’t have any. I realised that instead of doing mundane tasks that make me feel bored to the point im happy to take drugs to desensitise myself to them, I decided to just try life without it. With my small amounts of use it took me about 2 weeks of gradual abstinence to get back to normal. It was like waking from a coma. Slowly I got back my good thinking process, confidence, relationship problems were no longer problems but challenges, I worked better and more efficiently and eventually I got stronger and happier. The key is that it was a process of self observation and evaluation. Micro comparisons of the self, from things I did while on meth to things I did without it and then the honest appraisal of the difference. One word to take note of and is the power of becoming a non addict of meth. Honesty, the ability to be honest to my self was a big turning point in my kicking the habit. That and I was slowly going broke because I spent about $250 a week and didn’t work!
I would have eventually become a derelict in not coping with working and I had every resource avail to become a dealer my self. What a world of bad karma that would have been.
In the end do I think Meth is addictive? No its not, the effects however, are. What’s more addictive is the reason for its use. I found with exploring these reasons was my door to the exit. I then dealt with the reasons and eventually the need for use became obsolete.
Author
Unknown