Dark damaging event, Lucid Light healing dream of mine

[Sunny-side-up]

Back in the late 80's I had a very lucid dream:
I found myself in the middle of a large street fight, it was a riot between the public and the police.
At first I wasn't visible to them, wasn't seen and just walked through the fighting.
I was thinking to myself 'I must do something', something to bring peace here, to waken both sides to show them they are the same side really!

Then I found a street stall selling bedding! I went in and wrapped a brilliant white sheet around my self and slowly walked out, as I emerged I could tell this time that people on both sides could see me now.
I started talking to a stunned group of Police and civilians who were watching me approach, I said
' Tell me friends what is it that you think you-see-in-me, that I my-self see in you but that which you can't see in your-self?'

What is it that you think you see in me ( the image of me, a guy with long hair, beard and white robe walking among the anger and chaos, among you; a Christ Image), that I my self see in you (Love and potential in everyone, inner Christ spirit) but that you can't see in your self? (lost in the Matrix)

This triggered the group to start talking, which spread to the rest of the crowd until all had started talking and or hugging each other, with police taking of their black domed helmets (GB Police), weapons dropping to the ground while others laid down and smiled at each other!

Job done I suddenly awoke...

This Dream! happened about 8 years after I had myself an awakening of a very different kind.
I used to do very long meditation periods, and long periods of holding myself in altered states of being (weeks and months)
Well anyway I had gone into a state of frustrated intensions, I wanted to confront some of this evil I saw around me in the world! and so I focused downwards into the DARK. Big mistake or at best an awakening within me that ya can get hurt if you don't watch out, you can get what you ask for!

I found myself going down, and down a cold damp stone staircase, faster and faster and faster, down, down, down, darker and darker until it was pitch black. I could not see the twisting and meandering stone staircase any more and my feet where just a tantric blur of speed, I was on alto pilot; then all of a sudden the stairs bottomed out and I was on level ground.
Still pitch black I could not see a thing but could tell something was now with me or rather I was with something!
Then bang I found my self staring into the face of a very angry horned wide mouth opened creature, a demon! (I will post a photo of the metal artwork I did of this Demon soon)

Now this is where I mean you can get hurt or damaged because after the sudden shock of the confrontation, face to face with this Demon as I called it; I realized a lot of time had passed and that there had been words spoken.
It seemed to my inner self that a pact had been offered to me which in my mesmerized state I had nearly signed!
The only way at that point I could find to break away form this Demon face was to spit into it's face and rush backwards throwing myself against the blackness behind me!

Now in the light of day it seemed like I had forced my way down into the dark realm of a demon, teased it with a near pact signing and then when it thought it had me, I spat in it's face and made my escape 0;o

I had much bad luck, some very bad luck for around 8 years after seeing that demon, bad luck some of which BTW comforted me! Comforted me because I hadn't been sure if I had signed it's pact or not? the bad luck to me meant I got away in time, unsigned but having really pissed it off.

Some time after the demon event me and some friends went into a Physic-fair, ill never forget the face of a woman sitting behind here table top stall as I randomly walked in her direction. I wasn't actually going to her, I was just going to pass, but I noticed she at a distance kept holding her hands palm face out towards me, as I got nearer I noticed she was saying, repeating 'no I don't do healing any-more, I don't do healing any-more; I can't help you!!'
She saw something in me and it frightened her and me!

The 8 years of bad luck and finished when I had my fore mentioned Christ-Self dream! but I believe I didn't get away undamaged!

Even though the dark event has in some ways given me new strengths and awarenesses I do feel I need some Healing.

Love and Hugs all.

[Sunny-side-up]

Back in the late 80's I had a very lucid dream:
I found myself in the middle of a large street fight, it was a riot between the public and the police.
At first I wasn't visible to them, wasn't seen and just walked through the fighting.
I was thinking to myself 'I must do something', something to bring peace here, to waken both sides to show them they are the same side really!

Then I found a street stall selling bedding! I went in and wrapped a brilliant white sheet around my self and slowly walked out, as I emerged I could tell this time that people on both sides could see me now.
I started talking to a stunned group of Police and civilians who were watching me approach, I said
' Tell me friends what is it that you think you-see-in-me, that I my-self see in you but that which you can't see in your-self?'

What is it that you think you see in me ( the image of me, a guy with long hair, beard and white robe walking among the anger and chaos, among you; a Christ Image), that I my self see in you (Love and potential in everyone, inner Christ spirit) but that you can't see in your self? (lost in the Matrix)

This triggered the group to start talking, which spread to the rest of the crowd until all had started talking and or hugging each other, with police taking of their black domed helmets (GB Police), weapons dropping to the ground while others laid down and smiled at each other!

Job done I suddenly awoke...

This Dream! happened about 8 years after I had myself an awakening of a very different kind.
I used to do very long meditation periods, and long periods of holding myself in altered states of being (weeks and months)
Well anyway I had gone into a state of frustrated intensions, I wanted to confront some of this evil I saw around me in the world! and so I focused downwards into the DARK. Big mistake or at best an awakening within me that ya can get hurt if you don't watch out, you can get what you ask for!

I found myself going down, and down a cold damp stone staircase, faster and faster and faster, down, down, down, darker and darker until it was pitch black. I could not see the twisting and meandering stone staircase any more and my feet where just a tantric blur of speed, I was on alto pilot; then all of a sudden the stairs bottomed out and I was on level ground.
Still pitch black I could not see a thing but could tell something was now with me or rather I was with something!
Then bang I found my self staring into the face of a very angry horned wide mouth opened creature, a demon! (I will post a photo of the metal artwork I did of this Demon soon)

Now this is where I mean you can get hurt or damaged because after the sudden shock of the confrontation, face to face with this Demon as I called it; I realized a lot of time had passed and that there had been words spoken.
It seemed to my inner self that a pact had been offered to me which in my mesmerized state I had nearly signed!
The only way at that point I could find to break away form this Demon face was to spit into it's face and rush backwards throwing myself against the blackness behind me!

Now in the light of day it seemed like I had forced my way down into the dark realm of a demon, teased it with a near pact signing and then when it thought it had me, I spat in it's face and made my escape 0;o

I had much bad luck, some very bad luck for around 8 years after seeing that demon, bad luck some of which BTW comforted me! Comforted me because I hadn't been sure if I had signed it's pact or not? the bad luck to me meant I got away in time, unsigned but having really pissed it off.

Some time after the demon event me and some friends went into a Physic-fair, ill never forget the face of a woman sitting behind here table top stall as I randomly walked in her direction. I wasn't actually going to her, I was just going to pass, but I noticed she at a distance kept holding her hands palm face out towards me, as I got nearer I noticed she was saying, repeating 'no I don't do healing any-more, I don't do healing any-more; I can't help you!!'
She saw something in me and it frightened her and me!

The 8 years of bad luck and finished when I had my fore mentioned Christ-Self dream! but I believe I didn't get away undamaged!

Even though the dark event has in some ways given me new strengths and awarenesses I do feel I need some Healing.

Love and Hugs all.

The Demon in metal-artwork..
http://i1188.photobucket.com/albums/z413/Alanshots/AMOK1.png

My Higher-Self, this image was created in a medium i formed. It was a sheet of metal which I dented both sides (concave and convex) then sprayed with multy layers of car paint. The layers are flatted/sanded through to produce an image. The image was not planed it forms as woked, in this case a face, my higher self face..scared and battered but smiling through :)
http://i1188.photobucket.com/albums/z413/Alanshots/SAFRON1.png

[northstar]

When I read your post what came to my mind was that the demon you encountered was your own shadow. Carl Jung wrote a lot about the shadow. It is the "inner demons" all of us have within our own unconscious and shadow is always unconscious, unless a person deliberately does inner work to access it.

I have done a lot of my own shadow work over the years and it is not for the faint of heart because it brings people face to face with everything about themselves they have discarded and denied over the years. All of that stuff stays with us, but goes into shadow, unknown and unacknowledged by our conscious ego mind.

One of the many fascinating things about shadow is that we don't only shove away the bad, ugly and evil things in ourselves, we also deny our strengths, our talents, our shining gifts. These are called "golden shadow".

When people do shadow work and start coming to terms with their inner demons one of the great blessings of this work is that they also access their denied golden shadow - their previously denied strengths and talents.

Anyhow, I may be totally off base with this interpretation - but it is what my guide gave to me so I'm giving it to you.

Take care and thanks for sharing your story. :)

[Sunny-side-up]

When I read your post what came to my mind was that the demon you encountered was your own shadow. Carl Jung wrote a lot about the shadow. It is the "inner demons" all of us have within our own unconscious and shadow is always unconscious, unless a person deliberately does inner work to access it.

I have done a lot of my own shadow work over the years and it is not for the faint of heart because it brings people face to face with everything about themselves they have discarded and denied over the years. All of that stuff stays with us, but goes into shadow, unknown and unacknowledged by our conscious ego mind.

One of the many fascinating things about shadow is that we don't only shove away the bad, ugly and evil things in ourselves, we also deny our strengths, our talents, our shining gifts. These are called "golden shadow".

When people do shadow work and start coming to terms with their inner demons one of the great blessings of this work is that they also access their denied golden shadow - their previously denied strengths and talents.

Anyhow, I may be totally off base with this interpretation - but it is what my guide gave to me so I'm giving it to you.

Take care and thanks for sharing your story. :)

Thanks northstar I have done a great deal of the same with my inner demons and have realized much of my own Golden Shadow, which is more the me than shadow now.

But what I did see, that demon was not inner searching, I delved into the Dark Arts, black magic thinking I could fight on the dark Side in person, but when I got there I was in a trance state for to long, my shields where down and I was a sitting target and so gave to much of my self (knowledge) to that side! I lost out there but have climded back onto top now with even more strength and awairness.
http://i1188.photobucket.com/albums/z413/Alanshots/pathfromthedarkness.gif
A pice of my art that helped me climb over depression..

Back then in the late 70's 80's 90's I moved in a very mystical circle, all that knew me felt my vibe's and gained for them. Now with Avalon's collective wisdom's I am again a full being.
Thx Bill for Avalon, thx Bill for being active in Avalon thx all in Avalon, Love you all, Love energies to you all!

Here is where I keep my inner Demon till in need to mix, blend and use it :)
http://i1188.photobucket.com/albums/z413/Alanshots/MyTotem.gif
My Totem: Beast-Self, Material-Self, Higher-Self and above and throughout all is the Collective-Oneness.

safely under lock and key till I need to turn the key, which I won't....

[Dorjezigzag]

This thread is an area of great interest to me.

The whole idea of this inner Daimon as explored by Jung

dæmon was once associated with "spirit", derived from Greek—daimon (gen. daimonos): , guiding spirit, tutelary deity"

This was once seen as a positive force (even to the early christians), although staying true to the daimon could perhaps be challenging but soon deamon became demon, and a sense of inner guide was discoraged by a controlling church for obvious reasons.

The way that Sunny side up has allowed unplanned images to form in his artwork can also be related to the work of Jung who had a great interest in this area, shamans would often gain knowledge through automatic painting techniques such as this. It can be a great way to communicate with the subconscious. Remember the monkey in the Lion King whose paintings reveal the workings of destiny, Disney have drawned from an actual shamanic tradition.

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In another amazing film Jacob's Ladder, Louis, the main character's chiropatric friend, attributes the following quote to Meister Eckhart (the 14th century one!):

You know what he [Eckhart] said? The only thing that burns in Hell is the part of you that won't let go of your life; your memories, your attachments. They burn 'em all away. But they're not punishing you, he said. They're freeing your soul. If you're frightened of dying and holding on, you'll see devils tearing your life away. But if you've made your peace then the devils are really angels, freeing you from the Earth.

[Sunny-side-up]

great words Dorjezigzag thx

Yes i a'm at one with inner Demon now, it's no adversary, it is part of me (Me-I-Complete) that comes through in good ways now, we were Yin and Yang!