Dark Night of the Soul (Video) [Archive] - The Project Avalon Community Forum

markpierre

24th October 2013, 09:50

You know what. That's pretty darn real. I like this subject. But it's to get you Real. That's when you look for God, because you have to.
You didn't mean it before.
What it takes to get you on your knees, is what a dark night is. It's nothing like depression. You'll never forget it. No one gets willingly on their knees
except on their own terms.
You have to want to wake up more than you want anything at all in the world. That's pretty big.
A true 'dark night' shows you exactly the value of everything you have and everything you want,
everything you believe, and think about yourself. It's a period of 'seeing' clearly.
The contrast between nothing and nothing is nothing, and so is the sum of it.
That's what you find in there. You must have meant it. That's what you resurrect from. You've lost yourself. Good.

Nothing of the past can entice you again. It's been erased. It lost it's meaning.
One day it will be a moment of 'hey!' and just a memory that it happened. She'll be so different she won't look back.
Hey, that's potentially anyway.

If it's deep depression, bottom it out. Get as depressed as you possibly can. Consciously search out the absolute bottom of it.
How deep does this go? Deeper? 'Fear not?'. Okay, lets look.
Put away the bullet. God's in there.
Same with loneliness and poverty and despair and fear and anger and all types of things we avoid. All those things are the roadsigns.
That's where we hid God.

Or take a pill.

If it's mild depression take a walk.

Crazy Louie

24th October 2013, 20:10

It is a dark night of the forum. I guess all the really way out stuff is far more interesting to ego than plain old god - a while back I was remarking to people that I felt sorry for god - how so they would ask - and I would say because we are so stupid - they would laugh - but I wasn't joking. I guess we can see why so few will be left when the end comes when ever the real smackdown begins - I have loved god for the past 36 years - but I have also been human - and by his standards not mine I look at myself an even I wonder if I am exceptable for any kind of lowest form of consideration. Beats me how others can just assume once saved always saved - or that they can pray when the darkness comes - I don't really accept the death bed repenting - I have no clue how god's mind works - so my word is just me speculating.

I guess I live in the dark night of the soul and the cloud of unknowing. However it seems that since the end has been a slow train coming - which is picking up speed now - common sense tells me people will have to take note how closely things are resembling the words of the bible. I had a moment of clarity yesterday where I thought - many people know the truth of their life but they are so much a slave on their ego they cannot get out from under it. I remember a borderline personality disordered person once telling me they knew what they were and they knew what they did and they knew they hurt others all the time - but the payoff to their own gratification was to great for them want to change anything. And every mental illness so apparent in others because of its magnitude in their lives is part of each and every other human in various degrees.

I keep to myself yet still find my days filled with the static leftover of a life doing the solomon thing - enjoying thy youth - and yes of course it was but for a moment - and yes I fully understand that I am answering for it - I began the process here - I mean if a dog is waiting for you by the fence to come over and feed it - and you forget and let him down thats a pretty heavy sorrow if you feel such things - so think of how magnified that is when you looking towards god - I have learned that depression in a spiritual person can often be used as a tool.

I think we would all be much better off if we just embraced the dark night of the soul as our true nature while here - instead of pretending in every direction about anything - I mean I put on the face when I go out - chipper - fake - and that is just to buy stuff or mail stuff - what the world expects - try to be cheerful - while so
empty of the world inside - but you can't really go there with people - I don't know its kind of like yelling at a dog two hours later after he has left a pile on your floor - he's forgotton it - he don't know why your yelling - it just bums him out. likewise if you try to hand a person some degree of truth and insight - they don't want it - family - friend - stranger - its pretty lonely eh? We can only hang on to what we have as our truth. - and the thing is - god is not boring - hes the most interesting thing I am aware of in this life - but regarding the spirit - I think some people are not able to understand it - I was never any good at math - so maybe for many who have not had supernatural or a real event of proof to their spirit - they just aren't good at spiritual things and they never get a desire to call on god to help them -

I had a tutor my last semester of college for intro to math - a required course for the BS - and I got a c minus - and I was applying myself - I would be well satisfied to get a c minus from god - even a d minus - but then I remember not by works but by faith - and so it shall be.