Microwave thought control / Depression / Physical defences

[wolf_rt]

Ok... This is not something i thought i would ever post about, but i am beginning to suspect that i may be a victim of some sort of mind control.
Now i am not necessarily thinking that this is something that is targeted against me specifically, although i have some cause to suspect that this may be the case.

I recently basically gave up on online anonymity, my reasoning being that i was only hiding my identity from those I was trying to communicate with rather than TPTB, who would have little trouble connecting "wolf_rt" with my real name and address etc...
I perhaps compounded this folly with allowing my android smartphone to sync with google, figuring there was no reason to deny myself the conveniences offered by google since anonymity is a joke anyway.

Shortly after this, during the Syrian crisis, i became very vocal on news report comment threads and on facebook about my political views.
I am starting to think that perhaps this 'coming out' of both my real name, and strong views online has attracted unwanted attention.

I have always believed that microwaves are indeed used to control thought, but up till now i had always assumed this to be in a far more generalised sense... ie. mobile phone towers basic frequency having a general effect on a populations will and clarity of thought.
I figured TPTB had things well under control with social conditioning through TV and radio...


I have suffered severe depression for as long as i can remember, but usually i felt i was justified in my depression. There is a lot to be depressed about after all. I have always struggled to hold a job, and i felt that this was to do with the fact that having a job meant having money, and spending money means supporting the system which i find so abhorrent.

I have been unemployed for 2-3 months now. Usually when i'm not working i feel fine, even good. I felt that it was the pointlessness of working 9 hours a day to make money i don't want, to buy things i don't want, that had the biggest impact on my depression.

Not this time.... For the last month i have been struggling to carry on in any fashion. I have always loved acquiring skills just for the sake of it. I get a pet project and work on it exclusively until i feel that i have a solid foundation in the subject, then move on to something else.
For the last few weeks my pet project has been 3D modeling... For the first time ever i am feeling that my pet project is pointless. I think 'everything is F*&#@d whats the point in learning this?' 'im going to die of cancer from Fukushima/GM food anyway, why wait?' ect... ect...

Compare this to say a year ago, when i spent a week straight making a realistic motorbike out of paper... 3 days later the cat chewed it up, and i couldn't have cared less, i'd had my fun.. I never felt that this was pointless (which it plainly was)


Compounding and confusing the issue is the fact that i have been trying to give up marijuana. And also have been taking antidepressants (agomelatine) (didn't have much choice, i was at the end...) searching online i haven't found any reports saying that this drug has ever made anyone feel worse though...
I have easily given up the MJ before many times without anything more than feeling a bit edgy.



So... Whether i'm being targeted or not is really a moot point, i have to make some changes.

1st thing, i'm going to bin the wireless router... My mission for today is to data cable the house.
2nd.. Im going to loose the mobile phone and install a wired house phone. (my partner wont agree to get rid of her phone, but i'm going to get a battery powered alarm clock, and make her leave it at the other end of the house at night.
3rd. im going to see the doctor about different medication.

any other advice? (besides better food and exercise... i know, i know... but easier said than done)
I was considering turning my room into a faraday cage, any advice on this? what size grid pattern would be best for stopping microwave radiation? (if any)
I was also considering wearing a tinfoil hat.... yes, seriously....
Also i was reading that its possible to influence brainwaves by interfering with the refresh rate of a monitor, any ideas on combatting this?

feel free to reply in whatever way you feel, if you think i'm tripping don't be shy to say so. Being called a fool on a online forum is the least of my worries at this stage, and i would appreciate honest feedback.

[Bob]

Hi Wolf - http://projectavalon.net/forum4/showthread.php?62967-Beamed-Easy-way-to-get-some-relief-COUNTER-MEASURES&p=724758&viewfull=1#post724758 maybe try that thread for some possible counter-measures..

ED: I re-read some of your earlier posts from back in January 2012, and I am wondering is there any similarity in the sensations and observations you had back then, and what is happening now?

http://projectavalon.net/forum4/showthread.php?37987-Sorry-about-this....&p=395046&viewfull=1#post395046 - "Sorry about this..."

Microwaves can restimulate patterns, depressions, as can "solar" energy assaults, and the Sun currently is going through some rather nasty flares.. (Rocky_Shorz has reported that the sun is very active right now, in other posts)

[Heartsong]

I know about long term depression. A person can go along thinking they've made a kind of peace with it and then it changes. There are different nuances to the depression as life moves on. You know more, you've forgotten some, your hormones change, and you life situation can give you a different perspective.

It could be that your moving into the public life has caused additional adrenalin in your system. Having a public life may be causing your feelings of self to be less comfortable than they were. Perhaps you are being targeted by an external source but it also could be that you are targeting (victimizing) yourself for your public activities.

The struggle with the whys and wherefores of depression are endless. I was born depressed I think and have been in treatment over 30 years. It will worsen and lessen but will always be a factor in my life. It's my brain's way of coping. Each event in life requires different coping skills and you'll find yours just as you've done in the past.

Hang on brother, we're swimming in the same soup.

[wolf_rt]

thanks for that bob, i will definitely give the book thing a go, although i'm not sure if im sensitive enough to be able to tune it... It definitely won't hurt...

As for my feeling as compared to Jan 2012, i would describe my feelings then as mostly contempt for myself, although that is still an issue, i don't feel that it is directly related to my feelings now (although there is certainly a connection)

At the moment i'm feeling straight up depressed and stunned. And my feelings and thoughts are noticeably different than at any other time of my life.

[Ivanhoe]

Hang in there brother.
My life's been a train wreck and I've thought of checking out, but somehow I always manage to hang on.
Hope springs eternal,... right?
I look at my life and I see nothing of consequence, nothing that truly matters in the gist of things. Everything that mattered to me has fallen away.
I figure the only reason I'm alive now is to help my brother, who's ill, because my life situation at present totally sucks, and has sucked for the last couple of decades,.... but still I hang on, searching for a brighter future.
That's what brought me here to Avalon, relearning (re-living) what my life is supposed to be.
It's good to know I'm not alone crying out for help in this wilderness of life.
Hold on to the things that are good in your life.
Wishing you peace brother.

[sheme]

I recall an item on bbc radio 4 the other day, they were talking about supermarket mind manipulation with something or other I cannot recall right now, anyhow what they did discover people that chewed gum whilst being subjected to this kind of subliminal stimulation did not get affected. Interesting.

[Dorjezigzag]

what they did discover people that chewed gum whilst being subjected to this kind of subliminal stimulation did not get affected.

Research as sponsored by Wrigley's ;)

If anyone is also looking at possible ways to help depression this recent thread could be useful, I have put some suggestions for wolf there.

http://projectavalon.net/forum4/showthread.php?64979-Some-cures-to-Depression

[wolf_rt]

Thanks everyone for your advice and support, i feel very comfortable opening up to the people here.

Wi-Fi is gone!!! i think this is really going to help, i'll admit that i'm an internet/computer addict, And i'll often spend my whole day on the PC. This is definitely an issue, but i think the bigger issue has been my chronic wi-fi exposure for the last,, well,, since wi-fi came out...
The more depressed i am the more time i spend on the computer, and the more i am exposed to depression causing microwaves. There has also been a wi-fi computer next to the bed, that has on occasion been left on at night, the wi-fi dongle has been perhaps 30-50cm from my head all night at times...
No doubt after 8 hours of that, i will feel pretty bad, and back it up with 18 hours on my PC where i am sitting directly between the PC and the router (not sure if this make a difference) the PC wi-fi aerial is perhaps 80-100cm from my head for these hours.
The (DUAL-Band!) router is on the other side of a wall perhaps 3m from my head...

Its just insanity if you stop to think about it.

I think offloading the wi-fi will have a noticeable impact on my mental health.

I have also constructed a microwave reflector thingy as suggested by bobd.
http://projectavalon.net/forum4/showthread.php?62967-Beamed-Easy-way-to-get-some-relief-COUNTER-MEASURES&p=724758&viewfull=1#post724758

[sheme]

Let us know how things go for you, here's to peace and love that envelopes you. Ask for your guardians help and the answers will come to you.