Working with the shadow.

[loveoflife]

Evil grows in darkness, in secrecy, in ignorance, in the shadows. Ignoring the potential and actual evil within ourselves is to give it the power to flourish unhindered. We create our reality, therefore the world is a projection of ourselves and also a reflection.

If we deny evil by focusing on the positive we deny a part of ourselves.

The demon needs to be named and seen for what it is. We cannot transform and heal what we do not know or refuse to accept.

The mystic finds the light within the darkness.


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"Spiritual/New Age practitioners who endlessly affirm the light while ignoring the shadow are one more example of yet another style of falling under the spell of wetiko. It's a beautiful thing to visualize and affirm the light, just not as an unconscious or fearful reaction against the darkness. Many metaphysical "light workers" are actually caricatures of genuine spiritual practitioners, as in their affirmations of the light are unwittingly avoiding conscious relationship with the darkness within themselves. Thinking that they don't want to "feed the darkness" by putting their attention on it, in their turning away from and avoiding their own darkness, they are unwittingly reinforcing the very evil from which they are fleeing. Looking away from darkness, thus keeping it unconscious, is what evil depends upon for its existence. If we unconsciously react, as compared to consciously respond, to evil by turning a blind eye toward it - "seeing no evil" - we are investing the darkness with power over us."

- Paul Levy, Dispelling Wetiko

“The ability to hold Light is directly proportional to the courage to see darkness. Choosing to see just one creates distortions and illusions. It amazes me that something so simple and common sense can be so difficult to even discuss with ‘spiritual’ people who insist on remaining ‘positive’. Actually, this avoidance is based on unacknowledged fear that their inner light might be somewhat ‘dispersed’ by seeing darkness and therefore not giving the light much credit at all. I think there’s also fear that they might somehow become ‘tainted’ or the darkness might ‘manifest’ in some form in their lives. But the opposite is true; it is the fear, especially unacknowledged, that has much more chance to manifest than darkness exposed to daylight and investigation. Just like we must be fearless about our own inner shadow, we must also be fearless about seeing this huge shadow of humanity. Or we will have the power to transform precisely nothing, within or without.”

- Anis Springate

[loveoflife]

For those who have not heard of of Wetiko. Here is an article by Paul Levy.

Let's Spread the Word: Wetiko (http://realitysandwich.com/84778/lets_spread_word_wetiko/)


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In the first part of this series, we contemplated the idea of a psycho-spiritual disease of the soul that has been wreaking havoc throughout human history that Native Americans call wetiko. In part two, we inquired into how the wetiko bug disrupts and deranges a living system, using the world financial system as our case study. The wetiko virus is like a parasite that literally feeds off, takes over and aberrates the curren(t)cy of the infected system. The wetiko pathogen originally manifests as a disturbance in the field of the collective unconscious of humanity itself, creating the psychic ley lines upon which world events are erected and energized. The origin of this virulent disease is to be discovered within the psyche (please see my article It's All in the Psyche). Because of the psychic nature of wetiko, it serves us to understand the psychological underpinnings of the virus, which is to say, how it affects our day to day relationships and lives. We begin to ‘see' the bug when we are able to get in focus and recognize ‘its' psychological signature in both ourselves and others. The fact that the source of the wetiko germ is within the psyche means that the cure for this disease lies hidden within the psyche as well.

Wetiko psychosis is at the very root of humanity's inhumanity to itself in all its various forms. As a species, we need to step into and participate with our own spiritual and psychological evolution, which means that we must focus our attention on and contemplate this ‘topic of topics' before this virulent madness destroys us. Up until this point in our history we have been too easily distracted by the ruses of the wetiko bug itself. The disease itself is now demanding that we pay attention to it, or it will kill us. Its cure is the most pressing and fundamental issue facing us today. Author and environmental activist Derrick Jensen writes in his foreword to Jack D. Forbes book about wetiko psychosis, "Columbus and other Cannibals is, I think, the most important book ever written on one of the most important topics ever faced by human beings: why is the dominant culture so excruciatingly, relentlessly, insanely, genocidally, ecocidally, suicidally destructive?"[i] Historian Arnold Toynbee points out that a civilization doesn't die from being invaded from the outside, but unless it creates culture which nourishes the evolution of the creative spirit, a civilization invariably commits suicide. As if possessed, our civilization is, trance-like, sleepwalking in a death-march towards our own demise. The most pressing and inevitable question of our time is not just ‘why?' but more urgently, how can we stop this seemingly out-of-control, self-destructive, hell-bent part of ourselves?......

The term wetiko is a Cree term (windigo in Ojibway, wintiko in Powhatan) which, to quote Forbes, refers to "an evil person or spirit who terrorizes other creatures by means of terrible evil acts."[ii] Wetikos are the human instruments for the transpersonal ‘spirit of evil' to terrorize the world. In wetiko disease, we unwittingly become drafted into being foot-soldiers in the war not ‘on,' but ‘of' and ‘for' terror. The wetiko parasite feeds on and harvests the emotions of fear and terror. Terror is the essence of its insidious ‘ill-usory ill-logic.' In wetiko disease, the psyche takes the ‘terror' that haunts it from within, and in its attempt to master it, unwittingly becomes taken over by it, thus becoming an instrument of terror in the world. We have then become the thing we most feared, ‘creatures of the European nightmare world,' as we psychologically terrorize ourselves, as well as terrorizing the world at large. Wetiko is the bug which feeds the experience of terror within our mind and out in the world, fueling one of its more prominent manifestations in our world today: the ‘Global War on Terror.'

Click link to read more.

[raregem]

LoveofLife- TY. You have succinctly helped me to put shadow in a place of understanding. Now I can stop being confused re: holding the light. Didn't quite make sense how to work with the shadow of self by ignoring it. Seemed like sweeping the dirt under the carpet kind of thing. Thank you.

[loveoflife]

LoveofLife- TY. You have succinctly helped me to put shadow in a place of understanding. Now I can stop being confused re: holding the light. Didn't quite make sense how to work with the shadow of self by ignoring it. Seemed like sweeping the dirt under the carpet kind of thing. Thank you.

Thank you for your encouraging response.

You may also be interested in this, it helped me tremendously. You will have to bear with his rants :), though he does make his point most eloquently. Its an excellent expose of the parts of the new age that are the new religion created to replace the old and outworn ideas of the religions that we no longer accept because we see through them.

Its a lot to take in i recommend watching it in bite sized pieces.

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[mosquito]

Thanks for the synchronicity. I discovered Paul Levy recently, and he has a lot of very useful and very profound information on his site, which I believe everyone should acquaint themselves with.

I'm in the midst of ridding myself of what I can only describe as a hijacker - an energetic intrusion that has bee around for some time. It fits in perfectly with the Wetiko idea.

[loveoflife]

KNOW THYSELF

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[Synchronicity]

Working with the shadow is as much a part of healing and growth as is working in the light. Our shadow parts aren't evil, really, and can give us strength, resolve, and balance us out. We have to look at the shadow, see it for what it is and what it represents, and there are wonderful exercises designed to meet, have guidance with, and talk to our shadow selves and learn from them, embrace the strengths they represent, and welcome them as part of our balancing our energy. It's a wonderful process that not only eliminates the fear of the shadow, but brings that part into the light and heals it so we can use the strength without using the negatives, fear, anger, or whatever may be there. It can be profoundly healing, too. Those exercises are definitely worth the time and effort...awesome!

[loveoflife]

Thanks for the synchronicity. I discovered Paul Levy recently, and he has a lot of very useful and very profound information on his site, which I believe everyone should acquaint themselves with.

I'm in the midst of ridding myself of what I can only describe as a hijacker - an energetic intrusion that has bee around for some time. It fits in perfectly with the Wetiko idea.

Thank you mariposafe. I am encouraged to meet other courageous souls prepared to uncover the real lasting truth, the truth of ourselves, of who we truly are, not who we would like to be.

I have a definition of denial used in recovery groups that helps me understand the insanity of our situation.

Denial is an illness that tells me that i do not have an illness. It is usually the gift of pain that shatters the denial and allows me to see a part myself for who i am.

My shadow is intangible yet it exists. Sometimes when the light is bright enough i can see it. One thing though is certain if i ignore it which i am prone to do, sooner or later it will find me. Then it is important to accept it and own it, embrace it and not slip back into denial.

This horrible world that i find myself in, with poverty, war, famine, starvation, children dieing of hunger and more only a short plane ride away. Is also part of myself, i work on it by working on myself. If one person out of seven billion changes themselves, then the world is one seventh billionth the part better, it may seem insignificant to some, but it counts.

As we work on ourselves accepting who we truly are we also affect the morphogenetic field through resonance. The hundredth monkey effect comes into play at critical mass. Whatever we do affects the whole as we are fractal parts of a holographic universe.

Let us not also forget our greatness, our light, our empowerment of being an immortal spiritual being. Who we truly are is surely beyond our wildest imaginings. We also consign this part of ourselves to the shadow also as we are conditioned through thousands of year of religion and being ruled to feel small, powerless and believe that there is a saviour out there.

We are the solution that we have been waiting for.

[loveoflife]

Working with the shadow is as much a part of healing and growth as is working in the light. Our shadow parts aren't evil, really, and can give us strength, resolve, and balance us out. We have to look at the shadow, see it for what it is and what it represents, and there are wonderful exercises designed to meet, have guidance with, and talk to our shadow selves and learn from them, embrace the strengths they represent, and welcome them as part of our balancing our energy. It's a wonderful process that not only eliminates the fear of the shadow, but brings that part into the light and heals it so we can use the strength without using the negatives, fear, anger, or whatever may be there. It can be profoundly healing, too. Those exercises are definitely worth the time and effort...awesome!

Thank you for you insights on this subject. Do you have any links relating to this work that you mention? I for one would be interested.

[Carpathian]

Working with the shadow is as much a part of healing and growth as is working in the light. Our shadow parts aren't evil, really, and can give us strength, resolve, and balance us out. We have to look at the shadow, see it for what it is and what it represents, and there are wonderful exercises designed to meet, have guidance with, and talk to our shadow selves and learn from them, embrace the strengths they represent, and welcome them as part of our balancing our energy. It's a wonderful process that not only eliminates the fear of the shadow, but brings that part into the light and heals it so we can use the strength without using the negatives, fear, anger, or whatever may be there. It can be profoundly healing, too. Those exercises are definitely worth the time and effort...awesome!

Thank you for you insights on this subject. Do you have any links relating to this work that you mention? I for one would be interested.

I agree and second your post - if you know of any safe exercises to help reflect on our shadow, that would be a great help!

Thank you,

-Carp

[Shezbeth]

I am reminded of the story of the 2 wolves(?) that are fighting inside of every person, where the one that wins is the one most fed by the individual.

I have always wondered why the wolves are depicted as fighting. In me, they are the best of friends.

Thank you LoL for this thread, I absolutely agree with the subject and synopsis.

[Synchronicity]

Working with the shadow is as much a part of healing and growth as is working in the light. Our shadow parts aren't evil, really, and can give us strength, resolve, and balance us out. We have to look at the shadow, see it for what it is and what it represents, and there are wonderful exercises designed to meet, have guidance with, and talk to our shadow selves and learn from them, embrace the strengths they represent, and welcome them as part of our balancing our energy. It's a wonderful process that not only eliminates the fear of the shadow, but brings that part into the light and heals it so we can use the strength without using the negatives, fear, anger, or whatever may be there. It can be profoundly healing, too. Those exercises are definitely worth the time and effort...awesome!

Thank you for you insights on this subject. Do you have any links relating to this work that you mention? I for one would be interested.

Well, I do it with my students in shamanic and Reiki classes. William Rand does it as well, but a bit differently than I do. http://www.reiki.org/reikinews/ShadowSelf.html https://www.reikiwebstore.com/Detail.cfm?ProductID=356&CategoryID=4

I teach my students to come to a bench, ask for a guide who will help them work with the shadow self, and then we ask an aspect of the shadow self to approach and work with it/him/her in specific ways that incorporate acknowledging how that part of us came about, including observing, being open to listening and respecting that part of ourselves, and opening up a dialogue that allows that part to share with us how it came about, what it represents, and that we can understand and learn to at least see that part as a necessary part of ourselves. Either during the journey or at a later time if needed, the person welcomes that part and embraces the strengths, takes responsibility for actions and feelings related to it, asks how s/he can help it/him/her come back to being an integral part of the person instead of a hated and feared shadow, and the results are profound. That particular example is similar to what he does, but I use others as well for advanced classes.

I worked with and welcomed back during my own training the angry shadow that I was afraid of and felt I had to suppress and deny...I couldn't have all that anger and it wasn't who I was. But after working with that part of myself I learned that anger is my strength. I was reminded of how a tree fell on my fence during a storm one day and I was so angry that the fence was damaged that I lifted the tree off the fence without thinking! I learned that this shadow self...this ferocious anger that frightened me enough to hide it in the shadows and keep it a shameful secret (I associated anger with people being hurt since I saw it in my childhood)...was what kept me alive as a child and helped me stand up and get out of an unhealthy marriage later. That anger in that shadow was actually what kept me from giving up and what helped me protect my kids and others along the way. That shadow part taught me that my anger wasn't evil or scary, but triggered mainly by injustice and cruelty, by danger and the need to protect. Then, when I realized I created the shadow to hide that part of me from myself because I thought it was horrible and made me a bad person if I allowed myself to be really angry, and that it wasn't negative if I used it as it was intended from the beginning the whole picture shifted for me. Now I get angry without feeling scared or guilty and I can choose to let something go and release the anger with simple brushing off, or use it to make changes or for protection. It was very healing and a big shift for me.

It was a wonderful experience and the journey/meditation (I do it differently depending on what class it is, the level of the students, how able they are to work with guides, and how emotionally/energetically healthy they are), and when I do it I am there with them and make sure everyone is being safe. We do it with the intention that they can do the same any time for any other shadow self they carry or ask me to help if they prefer. I can't speak for Rand's techniques, although I have used the recording he sells that I linked and it was useful to learn the framework and the idea of one type of technique to use.

[loveoflife]

Thank you synchronicity, i am also connected to the William Rand school of Reiki.

Another way of acknowledging and owning the projection of our shadow onto others is 'The Work of Byron Katie'. This is described in the book 'Loving What Is'. Which is compared to the Zen method of self inquiry.

She also has many videos on youtube and free downloads from her website.

The Work of Byron Katie (http://www.thework.com/index.php) is a way of identifying and questioning the thoughts that cause all the anger, fear, depression, addiction, and violence in the world. Experience the happiness of undoing those thoughts through The Work, and allow your mind to return to its true, awakened, peaceful, creative nature.

Are you ready? Everything you need in order to do The Work is available free on this website.

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[Dawn]

Thank you for this thread. This is exactly the place I am in at this time. However I do not resonate with using 'guides' or with seeing anger as me. I have done quite a bit of trauma release work and what I have found in every case is that trauma creates vortexes of energy and that portions of myself have actually been fractured into other realms, or into the outer portions of my energy field. It takes work to slowly release the energies caught in a trauma vortex, and the willingness to feel the tremendous emotional charges in such a vortex. The eventual result is that a portion of myself 'comes back in' and this portion is ALWAYS both powerful and, after being healed, is also peaceful and loving.

At the same time there is value in being able to experience all frequencies which equate with various emotions without resistance. Emotions act as programs which dictate our life while they are present. For example... you do not even consider harming someone when you are experiencing the frequency of love. On the other hand, you never hug someone when you are angry. Emotions that are resisted become stuck ... so it is good to accept them.

Often when trauma shatters parts of ourselves out of our field, negative entities take up residence in the empty spaces left in our field.

But, an angry entity is not us, no matter what we think. It is either trauma energy that has been locked away from our consciousness or it is a separate species.

Either Jinn, demon, reptilian, or other non-human interdimensional entities can, and do, take the opportunity to occupy our bodies whenever they can. What I find is the most effective tool in working with them is to simply love them. Even if I feel fear, I recognize that this is their resonance and not mine. I have spent a great deal of time using love and true compassion in order to work with these entities. In every case they respond eventually.

It is more difficult working with entities that I have thought of as 'me' for much of my life. I suspect I have made unremembered agreements with the ones that are not willing to leave my body and space.

I am dealing with something like this now, and will be seeking help this week from someone who has the ability to help me look at where I set up agreements with the darkness in the past. My experience is that we all need to help each other from time to time. This is love in action... when we see each other as strong and powerful, yet offer our support to help someone make change.

I have helped others to work with the many shadow beings bothering them in the past. I NEVER used 'guides' of any type in doing this work. I only used love, and an intention to work in a way that would produce the most benefit for all concerned. I personally would be REALLY concerned to work with anyone who uses 'guides' for these are usually Jinn or reptile and very tricky.

I am not saying I have all the answers here. In my experience, the answer changes from moment to moment so that it is not known except in the exact instant when action can be taken. There is one thing that is very clear to me... war with the dark forces never works.... the only answer is love and understanding of how and why things are the way they are.

I guess I could make a couple of recommendations. Trauma is interesting because it is very difficult to release yourself. There are a number of modalities aimed at safely balancing the strong vortexes... there are also some which only stimulate more energy to be trapped within them. I've discovered that the work Peter Levine began is effective and you can locate a practitioner on his website: http://www.traumahealing.com/somatic-experiencing/practitioner-directory.html

As for this next week ... I am taking the advice of several Avalonians and getting help from a student trained in Holographic Kinetics in my area. Here's the link for contacting the founder and asking for a referral: http://www.holographickinetics.com/

[Synchronicity]

I really didn't say that I am an angry entity or that anyone is...that isn't what I was saying. What I am saying is related to what you said, Dawn. I had much anger for many reasonable reasons. I was hurt, I saw others hurt, and I was a child and felt powerless to stop it short of doing things that weren't acceptable to me. That anger wasn't an entity or anyone possessing me, but was part of me as a human being in a difficult situation. Yes, we do have sad, angry, scared, and other aspects of ourselves, and yes, that is part of who we are as humans. It doesn't mean it defines us. I am not an angry entity and emotions and the energy that comes with them aren't bad or good. The outcome and its effect on us depends on what we do that with anger, not whether we have it or not. I think sometimes (not meaning you in particular, Dawn, but in general) it seems more acceptable to compartmentalize anything we perceive or are taught to be "negative", when in fact it just isn't. It's what we do with it that can be positive or negative.

Yes, when we are vulnerable other energy can attach to us...I agree with that. And yes, sometimes we need help to remove and release it. There are several ways to do that...I personally use shamanic techniques, Reiki and other energy work, and the firmness that comes from that protective "anger" that is indeed part of me. I'm not ashamed of it and it isn't an entity. Humans come in with emotions and the energy that comes with them, and I agree that aspects of ourselves can be shattered off and helping return them to a person is a wonderful experience because it can help him or her so much. I do not see anger as me, just to be clear. I simply know that is is a normal and sometimes helpful part of being human and nothing to hide or hide from.

I also agree that many times simply loving and offering help to a part of ourselves or some energy/being/person/aspect/spirit is what helps the most. Sometimes a firmer stance is needed, but many times simply offering help and caring can make a big difference. I think it is wonderful that there are so many ways to look at this topic and that we can consider various methods and viewpoint to find what works for us.

Dawn, really, you may have the experience in your life that anyone who works with guides is is working with Jinn or reptiles, but that just isn't true for all who work with guides. I am not saying it wouldn't be for some and I respect that you mean what you say sincerely, but working with guides can be a very, very safe and powerful way to help people and ourselves. It has been done as long as humans have walked the Earth and it just isn't really anywhere near usually trickery, and while it really wouldn't be a good idea for you to work with guides since you wouldn't feel comfortable or safe with them, I assure you that many, many people do safely and help many people. There are Reiki practitioners and people who call themselves shamans or shamanic practitioners who have no clue what they are doing and have unethical or unsafe intentions and techniques, but that goes for Western doctors, therapists, plumbers, holographic kinetics practitioners, and every other profession or group of humans. It comes down once again to choosing what modality resonates with the person needing help or wanting to learn, and there just isn't only one right way to find peace and healing. There are also excellent and ethical shamans and Reiki practitioners, other energy workers, and I'm sure holographic kinetics workers who really do help people and really do work with guides who are who they say they are or function in the ways they promise to with the practitioner. We can all be fooled, but just as I wouldn't say that there is no Jinn when I can't prove there isn't, I don't see how a person can say without a doubt that most or all of working with guides is people being fooled and bad things happening. Once again, we each have different ways to look at things...I would tell someone who is considering working with guides and who isn't sure how to proceed to find someone s/he feels is ethical and trained to do what the person needs.

The three questions should always be asked before doing energy work and before removing, releasing, allowing, or opening up a flow of energy...

May I? Do I have permission from this person to do what I am considering?
Can I? Do I have the training and skills, the balance and clarity to do what I am considering safely?
Should I? Even if I have permission and the skill and training, is this the right and best thing to do right now? Is with with pure intention and for the higher good of the person and not related to my ego or any other consideration but the best for the person?

If the answer is maybe, no, or I'm not sure to any of those questions, then the answer is NO and stop. This applies to life in general for me personally, but for energy work I consider it essential.

All I can say is that I have seen and experienced amazing healing, release, growth, and peace while working with guides. It isn't the first thing I tried and I have done other types of energy work, but this just plain can work and work well under the right circumstances. I have seen people go from misery and pain, fear and sadness to joy and freedom from healing that took place with the guidance of carefully requested guides, and these people (including me) aren't partially sort of okay with a lot still attached and hiding around. They really have done amazing work and moved forward in joy, health, and peace, so I just have a totally different frame of reference and will have to respectfully disagree. To agree I would have to dismiss so many wonderful changes and so much growth and change, and so I would say that I really hope your upcoming experience is everything you need and want, and I assure you I am not trying to argue with you for the sake of feeling right. Just as I wouldn't want to state that holographic kinetics is dangerous and never works and have people scared to try it, I wouldn't say that for several other modalities as well when I see value in using them safely. Good luck to you and I wish you peace from your traumas however you find it. I think we may not be so far apart as it might seem on the surface, but whatever the case I wish you peace. :)

[raregem]

Synchronicity wrote..>> (I associated anger with people being hurt since I saw it in my childhood)...was what kept me alive

Synch- these words must be powerful for me to look into as I am so sad all of the sudden and fighting tears.
Anger= violence and harm is going to come at me. That WAS/is my view and I had not linked the two -for life today. (All grown up) Thank you so much for now I have a focused point to work with and learn how to embrace the shadow of self. Great starting point for me. Through the years of clearing shadow there still is more to clear, apparently.

I physically live with the injuries compounded through time and use from such incidences with angry people. ouch! lol

[Dawn]

Thank you Syncronicity for such a well thought out and loving reply.

For everyone here there is a path that they walk which is theirs alone. IMHO no teacher or book or modality works for all. I have used guides... which turned out to be a bad idea after some years, because they morphed into something else. In my case this was a good thing, because it forced me to turn back to myself as the ultimate authority. After all (speaking for me personally), why should something other than me be more knowledgeable and more powerful than I am?

Moving into a place where I am the ultimate authority has demanded tremendous courage and a release of the thought that I am somehow 'not grown up' or 'not powerful'.

I have been turning over and over this exact topic which you and I are discussing for I have seen so much in my life. My 3rd eye has been open for the past 20 years.

In most people I meet, I see 'things' peeking out through their eyes... and these are never loving, kind, and benevolent. I have learned to see these entities and be neutral about them, for it is not my business to clear others... they have their own path. I have also seen uncountable numbers of demons, Jinn, reptilians, and many shape shifters in multiple guises... but again, these have never been benevolent. The stray ones who are not attached as parasites often nod their heads in recognition when they realize I can see them. Although they do not attack me, they have never resonated with the 'higher' emotions such as love and joy.

I have 'healed' some entities using love, during sessions where I was being asked for help. One only (out of thousands) turned into a loving angelic being. The remainder stayed as they were, but dropped their need to be parasitic as old contracts were released. So.... since I have seen so many thousands and interacted with them directly... well that is why I question the idea of guides.

I did have an interesting interaction with one about 17 years ago. It showed up as a companion who walked beside me one evening. I could only see out of the corner of my eyes, not by looking directly at it. After some time I asked it what it wanted from me, and it offered its services. It proposed to come into my body, and leave when I asked it to. It said that if I accepted its proposal, I would be able to perform miraculous healings and would become a famous healer with the ability to change the lives of many thousands. I felt it out energetically, and tried to figure out if it was trustworthy. It asked to come into my body for a few moments to allow me to experience what that would be like for me... promising to leave when asked, then it waited for my answer. The entity seemed polite and respectful, unlike others I'd met, so I agreed. Immediately I felt incredibly strong and powerful, I also experienced myself as 7ft tall. I was a bit tempted, however it seemed to me that I did not wish to live my life through the power of another. I chose to live and learn through my own powers without its help and assistance. It said to me 'I honor your choice', bowed and left. I am glad I chose to walk alone in this life... for me this was the right choice.

Still, I have read books about demons and Jinn making agreements with very aware 'masters'. This has caused me to wonder if there are really any of these that might be somewhere on the 'good intention' side. I also understand that Jinn removed from people by an Imam in the Muslim tradition are given the choice to convert to Islam or be imprisoned forever. This is interesting and beyond my personal knowledge.

[Synchronicity]

Synchronicity wrote..>> (I associated anger with people being hurt since I saw it in my childhood)...was what kept me alive

Synch- these words must be powerful for me to look into as I am so sad all of the sudden and fighting tears.
Anger= violence and harm is going to come at me. That WAS/is my view and I had not linked the two -for life today. (All grown up) Thank you so much for now I have a focused point to work with and learn how to embrace the shadow of self. Great starting point for me. Through the years of clearing shadow there still is more to clear, apparently.

I physically live with the injuries compounded through time and use from such incidences with angry people. ouch! lol

Yes, I saw it that way and changed how I dealt with people and myself. When I welcomed the anger out of the shadow and into the light I saw that it's wasn't violence and aggression, evil and shameful, hurting others as I had always experienced anger from others. Being an empath means I feel it physically when someone is angry, and growing up with anger blasting toward me when I was young was so painful, frightening, and overwhelming that I thought all anger was violent and out of control. I thought it was the nature of that particular beast and that if I felt anger, admitted that I was angry as a child when I was harmed or saw others harmed, that it meant I was carrying that evil aggression and was just like them. It took many years of healing and then working with that particular shadow to see it for what it was. The anger was my motivation as a child to keep standing back up when knocked down or to stand between the abuser and the less able to defend themselves other victims. It was the same energy/part of myself that stood between my child and the abuser and said NO! I saw that anger in my eyes in a childhood picture, and after much work with this shadow self I saw that expression as a message to the universe that I was not giving up and wouldn't be broken or allow others to be hurt when I could stop it. I had been afraid it would explode and rage if I allowed it to come into the light, but when I saw it I saw where it came from and what it really was.

I also thought that avoiding anger and angry people would keep me safe, but instead it walled off a part of me that I needed and made me passive and a target instead of safe. When I worked with my shadow self and saw the anger in the light I saw how that little spunky me was able to stand up to much bigger people and live through things that I wouldn't have without it. And I saw how anger isn't always bad, dangerous, and scary..it was so profound for me that I grabbed that shadow self and hugged it tightly!

You know, the funny thing is that when I welcomed that shadow self into the light I saw the big picture of how it all fit in and how it was just one more part of me and everyone else...not something to control a person, but a tool to use for motivation and protection. It lost that power of shame and secrecy, and I found I could start being assertive and not a pushover, and that I also realized that it was freed and I was at peace finally. That and some other shadow self work was life-changing and amazing! I may carry scars, but I also know how to protect myself and how to appreciate freedom from all that fear and those shadows. There is always more work to do, of course, but isn't it lovely when those tears flow and we are given opportunity to heal a bit more? I wish you that release and peace, and thank you for sharing that with us :)

[PurpleLama]

http://projectavalon.net/forum4/showthread.php?54217-Their-Mind-and-the-Emotional-Matrix-that-we-create-with-it.

[raregem]

Synchronicity wrote..>> (I associated anger with people being hurt since I saw it in my childhood)...was what kept me alive

Synch- these words must be powerful for me to look into as I am so sad all of the sudden and fighting tears.
Anger= violence and harm is going to come at me. That WAS/is my view and I had not linked the two -for life today. (All grown up) Thank you so much for now I have a focused point to work with and learn how to embrace the shadow of self. Great starting point for me. Through the years of clearing shadow there still is more to clear, apparently.

I physically live with the injuries compounded through time and use from such incidences with angry people. ouch! lol

Yes, I saw it that way and changed how I dealt with people and myself. When I welcomed the anger out of the shadow and into the light I saw that it's wasn't violence and aggression, evil and shameful, hurting others as I had always experienced anger from others. Being an empath means I feel it physically when someone is angry, and growing up with anger blasting toward me when I was young was so painful, frightening, and overwhelming that I thought all anger was violent and out of control. I thought it was the nature of that particular beast and that if I felt anger, admitted that I was angry as a child when I was harmed or saw others harmed, that it meant I was carrying that evil aggression and was just like them. It took many years of healing and then working with that particular shadow to see it for what it was. The anger was my motivation as a child to keep standing back up when knocked down or to stand between the abuser and the less able to defend themselves other victims. It was the same energy/part of myself that stood between my child and the abuser and said NO! I saw that anger in my eyes in a childhood picture, and after much work with this shadow self I saw that expression as a message to the universe that I was not giving up and wouldn't be broken or allow others to be hurt when I could stop it. I had been afraid it would explode and rage if I allowed it to come into the light, but when I saw it I saw where it came from and what it really was.

I also thought that avoiding anger and angry people would keep me safe, but instead it walled off a part of me that I needed and made me passive and a target instead of safe. When I worked with my shadow self and saw the anger in the light I saw how that little spunky me was able to stand up to much bigger people and live through things that I wouldn't have without it. And I saw how anger isn't always bad, dangerous, and scary..it was so profound for me that I grabbed that shadow self and hugged it tightly!

You know, the funny thing is that when I welcomed that shadow self into the light I saw the big picture of how it all fit in and how it was just one more part of me and everyone else...not something to control a person, but a tool to use for motivation and protection. It lost that power of shame and secrecy, and I found I could start being assertive and not a pushover, and that I also realized that it was freed and I was at peace finally. That and some other shadow self work was life-changing and amazing! I may carry scars, but I also know how to protect myself and how to appreciate freedom from all that fear and those shadows. There is always more work to do, of course, but isn't it lovely when those tears flow and we are given opportunity to heal a bit more? I wish you that release and peace, and thank you for sharing that with us :)

I have gone through your paragraph one and two. Especially letting go of secret and shame.
The third paragraph re: bring this anger to light and embrace the anger. This is going to be exciting !
Not exactly sure how to go about it all but my guides will help me.
Thank you, too for sharing.

[Dawn]

My post from above: It takes work to slowly release the energies caught in a trauma vortex, and the willingness to feel the tremendous emotional charges in such a vortex. The eventual result is that a portion of myself 'comes back in' and this portion is ALWAYS both powerful and, after being healed, is also peaceful and loving.

At the same time there is value in being able to experience all frequencies which equate with various emotions without resistance. Emotions act as programs which dictate our life while they are present. For example... you do not even consider harming someone when you are experiencing the frequency of love. On the other hand, you never hug someone when you are angry. Emotions that are resisted become stuck ... so it is good to accept them.



Purple Llama http://projectavalon.net/forum4/show...create-with-it.

Thank you purple Llama. I'd like to rephrase my remark from above... Trama energies seem to be the natural life flow which has been split into negative and positive. When working with these there is a period when both alternate.... but when the balancing is done there is only clarity and neutrality....

This is an important distinction from what I wrote above because what most think of as 'love' is an emotional program, just as other emotions (like anger) are. This 'fractured life force' splits into positive and negative emotions it seems. And this fractured energy seems to be the underpinning of this strange reality.

Purple Llama, I really really like the thread you posted above. It has been a long time since I've looked at it. It is interesting to see the meaning it has for me now vs the last time I visited there.

I still think that pretending the 'shadow' does not exist is a mistake. I have found usefulness in facing it directly, seeing that it is there, and balancing energies caught which can recycle traumas over and over again.

[Synchronicity]

Thank you Syncronicity for such a well thought out and loving reply.

For everyone here there is a path that they walk which is theirs alone. IMHO no teacher or book or modality works for all. I have used guides... which turned out to be a bad idea after some years, because they morphed into something else. In my case this was a good thing, because it forced me to turn back to myself as the ultimate authority. After all (speaking for me personally), why should something other than me be more knowledgeable and more powerful than I am?

Moving into a place where I am the ultimate authority has demanded tremendous courage and a release of the thought that I am somehow 'not grown up' or 'not powerful'.

I have been turning over and over this exact topic which you and I are discussing for I have seen so much in my life. My 3rd eye has been open for the past 20 years.

In most people I meet, I see 'things' peeking out through their eyes... and these are never loving, kind, and benevolent. I have learned to see these entities and be neutral about them, for it is not my business to clear others... they have their own path. I have also seen uncountable numbers of demons, Jinn, reptilians, and many shape shifters in multiple guises... but again, these have never been benevolent. The stray ones who are not attached as parasites often nod their heads in recognition when they realize I can see them. Although they do not attack me, they have never resonated with the 'higher' emotions such as love and joy.

I have 'healed' some entities using love, during sessions where I was being asked for help. One only (out of thousands) turned into a loving angelic being. The remainder stayed as they were, but dropped their need to be parasitic as old contracts were released. So.... since I have seen so many thousands and interacted with them directly... well that is why I question the idea of guides.

I did have an interesting interaction with one about 17 years ago. It showed up as a companion who walked beside me one evening. I could only see out of the corner of my eyes, not by looking directly at it. After some time I asked it what it wanted from me, and it offered its services. It proposed to come into my body, and leave when I asked it to. It said that if I accepted its proposal, I would be able to perform miraculous healings and would become a famous healer with the ability to change the lives of many thousands. I felt it out energetically, and tried to figure out if it was trustworthy. It asked to come into my body for a few moments to allow me to experience what that would be like for me... promising to leave when asked, then it waited for my answer. The entity seemed polite and respectful, unlike others I'd met, so I agreed. Immediately I felt incredibly strong and powerful, I also experienced myself as 7ft tall. I was a bit tempted, however it seemed to me that I did not wish to live my life through the power of another. I chose to live and learn through my own powers without its help and assistance. It said to me 'I honor your choice', bowed and left. I am glad I chose to walk alone in this life... for me this was the right choice.

Still, I have read books about demons and Jinn making agreements with very aware 'masters'. This has caused me to wonder if there are really any of these that might be somewhere on the 'good intention' side. I also understand that Jinn removed from people by an Imam in the Muslim tradition are given the choice to convert to Islam or be imprisoned forever. This is interesting and beyond my personal knowledge.

How interesting that you see those peeking out and what a thoughtful reply you have written. I see things peeking out as well, but my interpretation of them is totally different than yours. I see so much around people (and animals sometimes), but for the most part it isn't negative or bad or actual entities. Does some or most need to be released/removed in order for the person to be in the best energetic shape possible? Probably, but I don't see them as possessed or even totally controlled usually. I am aware of the Middle World and its inhabitants, but I just don't see them through the same filter you do. We all see through filters from our backgrounds and education, and mine is just very different than yours...as you said, a very different path. I think it's fascinating how we would both look at the same person and see two totally different things happening. Neither has to be right or wrong...it is our perception, mindset, what filters we see through, and our training and where we are in our own healing that determines what we see.

I would wager that a Muslim would see totally different things that a Christian, a Catholic different things than a Protestant, and A Jewish person different things than a atheist. A shaman would see the person in a totally different way than a therapist or acupuncturist. It's interesting to me that there are infinite ways to see the same person, too. You might look at me and see demons surrounding me. I see my guides, those who come for help, and messengers, and yes, sometimes some energy that needs to be released since I am human. I'm used to black shadows, supposedly evil energies showing up, and they almost always turn out underneath to be lost, benign, a bit eccentric, angry, or confused beings or energy who respond to one of various ways to help or release back to the universe. So I guess my frame of reference is just different...and that is fine. I see deeply into people and situations, just as I'm sure you do...we just see through different eyes and filters. I make no deals with my guides and they are not in authority over me...they are companions and teachers who indeed have kept me safe and helped me help others.

I also keep in mind that anyone can write a book and many have absolutely no clue what he or she is writing about. I could write a book on advanced math and proclaim myself to have made a deal with the devil (who I don't believe in anyway as popularly portrayed) and have secret information on formulas that would provide free energy if only people were smart enough and enlightened enough to understand my amazingness..lol. Sure, mathematicians could say I was nuts and my work was garbage, but if I could get a few people to see how it was possible I might have a following and who knows? I could say I hold the one true way to defeat evil demons and save everyone! Sad, but true that anyone can say anything and be full of crap...not speaking of anyone in particular, but just in general. And setting aside the ones who really are trying to fool people, many are sincerely sharing their insights and experience with a good intention and may be right, wrong, or some of both. So when I read or watch something I keep in mind that the person could be awesome, clueless, or more likely human just doing the best s/he can. It can be tricky sometimes for sure to sift through it all.

I would say...cheers to everyone trying to make a difference or help or heal or just leave the world a better place. How nice we can share experiences and wisdom and all the other stuff we might want to share. :)

[PurpleLama]

It is easy to look into the deep waters of psyche and recoil from the monsters it contains. It is very difficult, but a most rewarding endeavor, to face those monsters without flinching and offer them the healing hand of friendship to guided them out of the shadowy depths. When we do so, we do indeed transform them from the monsters we feared into the power we have forgotten.

A trauma is a trauma, it is a terrible thing we have endured, something that left a wound and later a scar. These monsters of the depths are not merely the result of traumas we have endured, but traumas we have created in the meandering path of incarnation we have taken to learn the right use of power. We live in a world where this lesson is still being offered on both sides of the equation.

With the unbalanced expression of personal power, we create trauma in another. It is necessary, as a soul, to have that balanced by the corrosponding experience of trauma given by another learning the right use of power. With the balancing, often the whole thing gets buried, and subsequent incarnations will abhor such use of power and will be sensitive to the traumas of others, all the while the original power that was rightfully ours will get locked away until we find the balance necessary to look the horror in the face and reclaim what belonged to us at the very start.

It ain't easy, looking down deep, but its better than being haunted by our monsters and creating a reality so unbalanced that thing are coming to get us out of the unknown. So many will never have real insight into the mechanism of psychic "attack" which most often is the activity of unknown portions of our own deeper levels.

[Synchronicity]

You are welcome, raregem, and it will be worth the trouble and time :nod:

[loveoflife]

I never judge an emotion. They just are what they are. Part of the experience of life. They enhance my experience make it richer. If i lash out because of anger, that is not the fault of anger, its a decision i make, a choice to react based on a feeling.

I just own and express assertively my emotions knowing that they are not who i am, even if i am alone. They are temporary and always pass if i do not hang onto or repress them.

I am alone most of the time nowadays, i am not lonely, i like my aloneness. I am an introvert and the intoxicating glitter of this life has little attraction for me any more. A walk in nature is as good as it gets, sometimes i decide to share the experience with a friend and find that they are a distraction from the beauty that surrounds me and my relationship with myself.

Emotions are a large part of my shadow work. I am careful as i can be not to repress them, because largely my shadow is the repressed emotions and trauma from my childhood seeking release.

I have done many workshops, worked with my inner child, let go of many addictions and of much denial as i reached states of rock bottom desperation.

I am not responsible for what happened to me as a child in this harsh world and how i had to shut down to protect myself. Though i am accountable for what i do now as a result of those innocent choices.

The answer and consensus that i found has always been the same. Accept life on life's terms not mine. Love and accept what is. Accept who i am, what i feel in this moment and sit with my stuff, because when it boils down to it, its all my stuff, my perception, my choice, my responsibility, my freedom, my sovereignty. Or as they say go with the flow, say yes to life.

My vulnerability is my strength and my empowerment. I used to think that i knew who i was, i no longer do, i am an evolving, changing being. I am a work in progress. I am one of the lucky ones, i have been forced to do this work. At times like now, life is painful and i feel lost. At the same time i have learned from experience, that standing still or attempting to go back is more painful.

Shadow work hurts, its a good type of pain, it has purpose, there is no victim or why me in it, because i instigate and accept it. The deeper i can go into the darkness and pain, the deeper i can go into the joy and light. The pain is my resistance to experiencing what is, as i relax and go into it i let the energy flow. The way out of the pain is through.

I have no understanding why i do this work, there are no goals only this moment. Its just what i do.

I suppose i can sum up what my life has become in one word, integration.

I have just found it surprisingly easy to express this discomfort that i am feeling anonymously, i wonder if it will be as easy to express the joy when it arrives?

[DNA]

It is easy to look into the deep waters of psyche and recoil from the monsters it contains. It is very difficult, but a most rewarding endeavor, to face those monsters without flinching and offer them the healing hand of friendship to guided them out of the shadowy depths. When we do so, we do indeed transform them from the monsters we feared into the power we have forgotten.

A trauma is a trauma, it is a terrible thing we have endured, something that left a wound and later a scar. These monsters of the depths are not merely the result of traumas we have endured, but traumas we have created in the meandering path of incarnation we have taken to learn the right use of power. We live in a world where this lesson is still being offered on both sides of the equation.

With the unbalanced expression of personal power, we create trauma in another. It is necessary, as a soul, to have that balanced by the corrosponding experience of trauma given by another learning the right use of power. With the balancing, often the whole thing gets buried, and subsequent incarnations will abhor such use of power and will be sensitive to the traumas of others, all the while the original power that was rightfully ours will get locked away until we find the balance necessary to look the horror in the face and reclaim what belonged to us at the very start.

It ain't easy, looking down deep, but its better than being haunted by our monsters and creating a reality so unbalanced that thing are coming to get us out of the unknown. So many will never have real insight into the mechanism of psychic "attack" which most often is the activity of unknown portions of our own deeper levels.

This is all very well stated.

For me, marijuana proved most valuable in helping me to focus and have stillness of mind in order to discover these things.

I cannot and do not smoke it anymore. I can't. My doors are far too opened for that.

But for my younger self smoking marijuana, doing yoga, an amazing combination.


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Tja6_h4lT6A

[loveoflife]

I am in the deep darkness of my shadow at present. All i can see is futility. I refuse to hope, for if i live in hope that is an admission that my present is crap. My present, here and now is what it is and changes like the breeze.

I am surrounded by people who refuse to look at their shadows, they either think it is negative or use substances and various addictions to evade present reality, maybe out of a fear of depression. I am no stranger to depression and my shadow is no stranger to myself. Though i have to to admit, acknowledging and working with my shadow self has alleviated my depression, what does not kill me only makes me stronger. The beast has to be named that is 90% of the battle won. How can i heal denial? That which i refuse to acknowledge does exist.

My shadow is not only my fear, negativity, defects of character, my past and potential evil (i come from a history of substance abuse, and i am not proud of things that i have done, though they are now behind me they still exist in potential). Acceptance of my shadow i have realised is to look at the world that i live in for what its, beautiful and at the same time dreadful.

As i look around me i see poverty, war, famine, torture and terror caused by or psychopathic rulers only a short plane ride away. Not many want to discuss this, though silently we all know it. I assume this is so because a discussion on these and related topics would cause a feeling of powerlessness, and also because of an uncaring attitude by being inured to it by those endless news bulletins and the desensitisation of empathy caused by violent tv shows, movies and video games. Its not the topics that are distasteful, but the underlying feeling and the fear it provokes. The shadow feeds and obtains the strength to survive and hide in secrets and what is denied through repressed fear. Yet what is fear only an emotion, emotions are not who i am, now matter how unpleasant of terrifying they all pass, to be replaced with other emotions and feelings.

I went to see a horror movie at a cinema once and was astounded to hear the audience laugh at the gruesome events depicted on the screen. Then at a comedy, there was very little laughter. Everything is certainly upside down and back to front.

I know most people on this forum are aware of what i am saying here as it is nothing new. The difference is i am going to voice the elephant in the room and now i have a forum on which to do it, a thread dealing with the shadow side of human nature, the dark side that as a part of my shadow work i have decided to reveal here so as to make it manifest and tangible, to expose and name my demons.

I have always seen the world for what it is, my empathy and sensitivity did not enable me to hide from stark reality. As a result i have never been overly pleased by sharing the hellhole called Earth with so much suffering around myself on a global scale. This in turn caused me to suffer and search for healing and understanding. Reality for me is that suffering has been my gift, my strength and empowerment. It is not something to runaway or hide from, though i did spend many years doing just that, it is something to embrace with passionate enthusiasm and sometimes lethargy. The deeper i go into my suffering, the higher i can go into my joy, the deeper i can go into my darkness the more intensity of the light i can experience. If some are now wondering, no i am not bipolar just a caring empathic human.

I must admit to feeling overwhelmed of late, looking at the reality of planet Earth. The NWO, the psychopathy of the governments and corporations who control them (i found out about 'The Protocols of The Learned Elders of Zion when i was 17, followed a few years later by The Illuminatus Trilogy, by Robert Anton Wilson). You would think it gets easier to handle as they years go by but no, just more information is revealed as it comes to light, the result of more light coming in.

Then there is alien intervention and genetic manipulation, all those people abducted and there is nothing that can be done about it. (I also have good reason to suspect abduction in my childhood, though i have no memories of actual abduction, which is quite normal, so i am led to believe.)

Then there are the lies we are told by our academic institutions that exist to indoctrinate and not to educate. So that everything we are told has to be questioned, alternative versions of humanities history do exist, though they are usually debunked or ignored by the advocates of peer review, more like jobsworth review.

The lying and cheating MSM, whose purpose is diversionary, to hide the truth. Even when the truth is purported by some well meaning source discernment is needed because disinformation is rife.

Life is a struggle for many because we have to take on and challenge those who seek to oppress us and confine us to slavery, not just gangsters and criminals but our governments and the institutions they set up under the pretense of helping and protecting us.

Then we have Agenda 21 and the UN policy of sustainable development. They want to save the environment by killing us off and reducing the population to a manageable 50 million. So they poison the land and our food with chemicals and GMO's. Process food until it is no longer fit to be called food. Poison our drinking water with chlorine and fluoride and who knows what else. If that is not enough they poison and irradiate the groundwater with fracking chemicals. Then they poison the air we breathe with chemtrails, particulates of aluminum, barium, strontium and more, some say nano bots, that genetically manipulate DNA. As if the car exhaust fumes, pollution by industry, and the off gas, the chemical gases coming from our household furnishings making the air in our homes 700 times more polluted than outside was not enough, we have toxic medicines, pharmacology, made from inert chemicals, that can remove one problem and cause several more. Lets not forget Fukushima, which is irradiating our planet through the jet stream and poisoning the pacific ocean. What can i say about the industrial military complex? There must be more that i have missed, but its looking like the want us dead and dying alright. They can even manage to make a profit from all this misery. I seems they will use anything at their disposal to eliminate us. Even a nuclear war is not out of the question, such is the nature of our evil overlords.

We are forced to pay to live on the planet that we live on, and are so conditioned we think its always been this way. That the norm is being a wage/debt slave to a fiat monetary system that is unsustainable and bound to crash, when they choose it too and it suits their evil agenda.

And on, and on and on it goes. I have not even touched the subject of religion and the lies spouted by our so called spiritual preceptors in order to control and manipulate us, through religions old and new age.

All these many problems and threats to humanities existence and no one is offering any practical solutions. We just inform and wait for critical mass, or spaceships to land and take us to paradise. Its always in the future, when all we have is now.

This may be a very depressing thread for some, though i am not personally depressed, i am frustrated, angry, and often feel like giving up in a world full of people in denial. Lets face it who can blame them, ignorance is bliss.

Looking at all that stuff is the easy part of my shadow work, my own and the worlds evil that i play my part in through acquiescence, it hits me right in the face i cannot seem avoid it, like all those silent empty faces around me.

Now for the difficult part of shadow work, my light. We know all about the evil, the depths to which we can sink and see others sink to, as we are conditioned that way. What of the light, the potential for a transcendent empowered human existence?

I am reminded by a book by C.S. Lewis 'The Screwtape Letters'. Its a conversation between a senior devil and his student who sought tempt a soul coming to a belief and understanding of god. Lewis felt he could only warn us of the darkness in our nature for that was his experience. The machinations of the devilish mind that seek to keep us from our spiritual nature, he said he knew much about. Yet our spiritual nature, the angelic or divine mind he knew little of, except for faith. I respect that man for his honesty.

As for my divinity that is also part of my shadow work, all i seem to have are questions and the use of my imagination.

Who am i. What is the nature of a fully awakened, immortal human if such a thing exists. Its has always seemed irrational to me that death is the end. I have never been able to equate living in an infinite universe or multiverse for that matter and one short 3D life span being all you get. I am very open minded, open to unlimited possibilities and potential. I do not even rule out the possibility of regenerating this body and the possibility of physical immortality. Though i am also not afraid of death and welcome it, if that is my destiny. I have looked long and hard at my demise in one form or another, after i discovered the term 'death negative' as being a prevalent mental state of humanity today. So i say to death bring it on, it must be quite a ride, the only certainty in life (or so they say :) ). Sometimes i do envy those that i have known who have left their physical bodies behind to move on, leaving me here.

It does occur to me that those who control this planet and manipulate humanity are afraid of us humans and not just because we are many and they are few (research into archons will show they are not so few). They are throwing all of the aforementioned stuff at us and yet still we thrive. What is it about us that they will resort to anything to keep us from waking up to who we really are and even seek to destroy us?

I have forgotten my true eternal nature and yet i can dream it into existence, is this the difference?

We collectively are manifesting this reality, it seems to me that humanity has been, programmed, conditioned and brainwashed into manifesting the reality and agenda of our overlords. Do they lack this ability, that they have to manipulate us to do it for them?

We have been programmed mainly through religions to feel small and powerless and to give away our inherent power to a saviour or deity. I say that this is not so, we are the one that we have been waiting for, no one is coming to save us. Who we are in truth is way beyond our wildest dreams. We are more than a match for our rulers, if we choose not to be governed and wake up to our true potential of both darkness and light, good and evil. When we transcend this programme of duality and see the truth of the balance of opposites being one energy, two sides of the same coin. Then we can be free to use either for our own purposes, without attachment to one or the other polarity, conscious of a state of neutral balance we strive to achieve. Nothing in this universe can be destroyed, only transformed into something else, this is a natural law.

I am coming to the end of my share. My intent was to share my experience, ideas and thoughts, not a study of some so called expert. I needed to share this here, as it is too much for most people i know and care about, i have tried and have been met with the ubiquitous silence of cognitive dissonance, even by so called truth seekers.

Well done for those who made it through the end and shared with me the dark night of my my soul as i crossed the abyss into the light. This is the process of facing truth as i see it. The most frightening aspect of this exploration is my light, my divinity, my freedom, for with freedom comes great responsibility. So many chose slavery instead, it is so much easier to be told what to do and obey unthinkingly.

Fear is the obstacle to love. It is also the path to love. By embracing and feeling fear we find courage and the light of our true loving nature. What does not kill us only makes us stronger.


BENE GESSERIT LITANY AGAINST FEAR from Dune by Frank Herbert.

I must not fear.
Fear is the mind-killer.
Fear is the little-death that brings total obliteration.
I will face my fear.
I will permit it to pass over me and through me.
And when it has gone past I will turn the inner eye to see its path.
Where the fear has gone there will be nothing.
Only I will remain.

[gripreaper]

Loveoflife, you nailed it. It's just energy. We attach archetypes to it, judge it as evil or good, and create the holograms which we manifest. We can choose to let the energy just be, to pass through us without judgment, without beliefs, without archetypes, for then it merges with the wholeness of who we are. This is the power and this is what the Archon's are so hell bent we don't figure out.

The shadow and the light are parts of the game of duality, the contrast of the opposites, the experience of the polarized states, the ability to imbed and imbue this nature into the very core of our DNA, our immortal souls, and hold the fulness of all the frequencies within a body differentiated and yet whole. As one, and yet as an individual, the inbreath and outbreath of creation, the spiral of arising energy of the soul towards the godhead, towards fulness, towards the ability to emote on a cellular level, all that is possible, all that is within and without the expansive universe, held in the body.

This collective dream is here now.

[eaglespirit]

Thank You Loveoflife...
I am grateful I looked in here, You have about touched on it all and I truly wish You Godspeed in the purest and highest sense!
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I shared this elsewhere just before reading Your post. I personally experienced a shamanic death and re-birth in 2007 and the diligence and work are ongoing but the joys of this journey are felt profoundly.

We are as spiritually powerful as the goodness we help create in our nows, imho!

Simple in 3d yet cosmically and cunningly complex in a profound selfless sense!

The paradigm changing ingredient that is up-gradient!