Daughter of Time
24th February 2015, 19:53
Dear Avalonians,
I have often found PA to be a place of refuge and sanctuary.
I seek sanctuary here today, amongst beings I know possess empathy, understanding, and the power to infuse healing with a blend of love and spiritual alchemy.
I find myself in an extremely difficult and tormenting situation of a highly personal and sensitive nature. I will not disclose details but I will offer an analogy.
Let's say that you are a citizen of two countries and those two countries go to war and you have to choose a side. Whichever side you choose, you will be a traitor to the other side. The repercussions could be dire. You will lose your citizenship to that country. You could be placed on a black list. You could be spied on. Your life could be in peril.
One of these countries has a great deal of power and can greatly damage your life, if they choose. But you side with the other country, the less powerful one, because you feel much more connected to it and because they have asked for your moral support. The powerful country declares you a traitor!
In an effort to equalize the matter and minimize the damage, you try to become a mediator, but that works against you, so you withdraw your public support from your country of preference in an effort to become neutral. You now have no passport and find yourself with two enemies.
While my situation is not as dire as the above, since the above is merely an analogy, and I don't think my physical life is under threat, my professional life could very much suffer, and my very clean, personal reputation could be blackened. My emotions and mind have been beyond troubled. I feel I am being psychically attacked, resented, hated... and completely misunderstood!
What makes the matter worse, is that I did not wish to withdraw my support for the side I feel strongly connected to. I did it in order to repair the damage that was being done by the opposing side. But this party does not understand my reasons and does not wish to have further discussions as they simply feel betrayed by me.
I would so like to communicate with these beings, especially the one I've withdrawn my support from, soul to soul, to make them understand there was no malice in my decision. I was simply trying to minimize whatever damage was being done by the other side.
The party (person) I withdrew from, is extremely important to me on many levels. I wish a reconnection with this person so that I may have a chance to explain my motives were meant to minimize the battles. I merely wished to instill some peace in the situation.
I also feel an extremely strong need to expose this person to a more spiritual way of life and understanding. I feel it is my duty to do this. If I fail, I will have failed in a very important life mission, which is one of offering healing and understanding to this very wounded soul. I need to reconnect with this person. There is much good I could do to help, if only I were given the chance.
Being that these two parties are at war, blindly battling, unaware of the true issues and how to resolve them, my voice is now but a silent scream.
My wish is for both very troubled parties to end the war and go their separate ways in peace. And of course, to see the situation for what it is and not declare me the traitor. I had nothing to do with this war. One side asked for my support and I offered it. Perhaps I was wrong in doing so, but when someone wishes for my support, I give it.
I humbly ask for your thoughts of peace and resolution in this matter, for myself, for my peaceful reconnection to the one I feel so connected to, and for the other party as well.
Mostly, I ask that any further damage, on any level, that may be underway, be stopped in its tracks.
With love and gratitude,
Daughter of Time
I have often found PA to be a place of refuge and sanctuary.
I seek sanctuary here today, amongst beings I know possess empathy, understanding, and the power to infuse healing with a blend of love and spiritual alchemy.
I find myself in an extremely difficult and tormenting situation of a highly personal and sensitive nature. I will not disclose details but I will offer an analogy.
Let's say that you are a citizen of two countries and those two countries go to war and you have to choose a side. Whichever side you choose, you will be a traitor to the other side. The repercussions could be dire. You will lose your citizenship to that country. You could be placed on a black list. You could be spied on. Your life could be in peril.
One of these countries has a great deal of power and can greatly damage your life, if they choose. But you side with the other country, the less powerful one, because you feel much more connected to it and because they have asked for your moral support. The powerful country declares you a traitor!
In an effort to equalize the matter and minimize the damage, you try to become a mediator, but that works against you, so you withdraw your public support from your country of preference in an effort to become neutral. You now have no passport and find yourself with two enemies.
While my situation is not as dire as the above, since the above is merely an analogy, and I don't think my physical life is under threat, my professional life could very much suffer, and my very clean, personal reputation could be blackened. My emotions and mind have been beyond troubled. I feel I am being psychically attacked, resented, hated... and completely misunderstood!
What makes the matter worse, is that I did not wish to withdraw my support for the side I feel strongly connected to. I did it in order to repair the damage that was being done by the opposing side. But this party does not understand my reasons and does not wish to have further discussions as they simply feel betrayed by me.
I would so like to communicate with these beings, especially the one I've withdrawn my support from, soul to soul, to make them understand there was no malice in my decision. I was simply trying to minimize whatever damage was being done by the other side.
The party (person) I withdrew from, is extremely important to me on many levels. I wish a reconnection with this person so that I may have a chance to explain my motives were meant to minimize the battles. I merely wished to instill some peace in the situation.
I also feel an extremely strong need to expose this person to a more spiritual way of life and understanding. I feel it is my duty to do this. If I fail, I will have failed in a very important life mission, which is one of offering healing and understanding to this very wounded soul. I need to reconnect with this person. There is much good I could do to help, if only I were given the chance.
Being that these two parties are at war, blindly battling, unaware of the true issues and how to resolve them, my voice is now but a silent scream.
My wish is for both very troubled parties to end the war and go their separate ways in peace. And of course, to see the situation for what it is and not declare me the traitor. I had nothing to do with this war. One side asked for my support and I offered it. Perhaps I was wrong in doing so, but when someone wishes for my support, I give it.
I humbly ask for your thoughts of peace and resolution in this matter, for myself, for my peaceful reconnection to the one I feel so connected to, and for the other party as well.
Mostly, I ask that any further damage, on any level, that may be underway, be stopped in its tracks.
With love and gratitude,
Daughter of Time