Telling my story live was not as easy as I thought it would be.

[shadowstalker]

This chat was done a few days ago live in Google+ Hangout.
Trying to get out my experiences was really hard on several levels.

1.) it was live.
2.) with strangers I had no clue about.
3.) timing in which to speak.

It all made me nervous. Tho' all who where present where open minded helped about.
It also didn't help that when the person Digitz to whom I was speaking was so much more confident in speaking with crowds then I (but that was my baggage not his) but his voice did help me.


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iHHx2ipJSlg

[Flash]

No self depreciation Shadowstalker, please, you are great as you are

And thanks for sharing

[shadowstalker]

No self depreciation Shadowstalker, please, you are great as you are

And thanks for sharing

*BLUSH* Thank you

[Noir]

I really can understand how you feel.
I would also get very nervous in your situation.
I listened to some of it yesterday when you posted the link and have to admit it was very difficult to understand what was going on... Because of people just poping up out of the blue, the weird whispering voices in the background, interference... it was difficult to understand what people was saying, who they were talking to and what about. (Plus i still don't know what these hangouts are and how they work). It was chaotic.
I believe everyone in your situation would have felt nervous.
Don't forget to give yourself the credit you deserve for doing that.
Because I am very convinced many of us do not have the courage to.
I certainly don't (i even have trouble posting here, ha ha)

And just because it is difficult for you to talk to strangers do not think of it as an issue or a flaw. Because it's not! it's just the way you are and it is ok.
And if you don't like it with practice you will get better at it

Now if you have the same issues as me and when you get very nervous your nervous system overreacts and you start feeling bad, shaking, vomiting etc...
What helps me the most (and fastest) is to channel energy from the source and concentrate on it, the feeling of love and peace.
In these situations I do it mostly sitting on my couch or bed, wraped in many blankets because it makes me feel safe. (Haha I know it's childish but don't care)
Once I reach this state of feeling this energy around me and in me i concentrate on it and stay as long as i need to in this state.

Lots of love to you

[shadowstalker]

Ya it was definitely chaotic. no debate there.

You should have seen it when the kids came on lol.
We even had a couple of teen girls wanting to mess with the Ouija board, we basically told them not for various reasons, but guess what they gone and done it anyway, and we had a chat with them. it was a very interesting night to say the least.

I felt better knowing that in the end I could help folks with my experiences. And forcing myself to do it the way I did was simply timing.


(Haha I know it's childish but don't care)
Child like, is more like it and I am kewl with that.

How to use google hangout (https://www.youtube.com/results?search_query=how+to+use+google+hangout)

[william r sanford72]

COURAGE.:heart:
truth and balance...
and your dad...only did what he thought/felt best for your survival.
its not a game.
William and tribe.

[shadowstalker]

COURAGE.:heart:
truth and balance...
and your dad...only did what he thought/felt best for your survival.
its not a game.
William and tribe.

Survival days are over, all he has to do is unlock my memories, he himself does not need to tell the story, it's my side of the story that needs to be told.
It's time for truth now, we where not the only ones effected by these types of beings, or ever will be. I respect those days of fear and understand why he did it.

I can not live a full potential in life knowing that a major part of it was taken from me and knowing that I could help others. He had told me the event happened, he needs to finish the job and unlock me now. Because now it is my life.


And what is not a game?

[Deega]

Yes, I would of been nervous as well!, congratulations!, it takes courage going about it!, great of you!

[william r sanford72]

being attacked by mibs for three days.thats not a game.having three children of my own and puttn my self in your shoes and your fam.i could relate is all.
I often struggle with how open I should bee with my own tribe.
this brings much unwanted att.
hope you recall all your locked away memories.
awareness/recall is very empowering.
almost like forging armor..for me anyways...
truth and balance and don't give up.
William.

[Noir]

Hi Shadowstalker,

Have you ever tried to unlock this memories by yourself through accesing your genetic memory during meditation?

I was able to retrieve some lost knowledge this way.
It got way out of hand for me though (I believe this was because i hadn't any specific question or memory to focus on and wanted to know much at once) So lots of weird stuff started happening around me after that. From visions, telepathy and downloads to astral visitors freaking my roomates out, or my experiences with new et races and such. I thought I was going insane and was a very scary time. That's why I believe focusing in one thing at the time is important.

[shadowstalker]

I have tried focus and meditation i even tried to trigger myself with other MIB stories from other ppl, Still a no go. I have even tried asking my guides but i guess I have to wait.