Some strange feelings I had lately

[Avi]

Hi! :waving:

This is my first post and I feel a little embarrassed :blushing:


Actually, I just wanted to ask you if anybody is feeling down this past few days/weeks?

I mean, we all know that the whole planet is in some kind of transition and with that all human race. The big changes are right ahead of us, the planet is ascending, we are ascending etc. It's normal to feel negative energies from time to time or in some "special" events but what I'm feeling and some people who are awakened, that includes me, I think :) , is something different. Ok I live in a small city in Croatia, with beautiful scenery and intact nature. That's one side of the coin, the other is that in Croatia like in most of countries the whole system is corrupt and worse. Believe it or not it could be worst.... Ok but I digress....

I have a lot of problems myself, I'm unemployed, I live almost at the edge...but that's not the problem, the problem is that I see so many crazy stuff around me. I was always different and until today I cannot fit in. I know that every one of us has a mission to complete, that we are immortal souls on our journey, that love is all there is etc., but I think I'm loosing myself in this life....


Every day I wake up thankful for this day and for the people around me, for my cat... I think I give positive energy to people, as I have been told and I'm trying too but I think that people are closed and I mean really closed for that energy. They are in some kind of stasis, they don't see the nature around them, they don't fell the sun or the rain...they are in a rush to get somewhere but when they get there they really aren't there, let alone help someone. Ok there are good people there but most of them are like they do not recognizes that goodness inside of them... I want to make this world a better place but I have a feeling that I just can't. I'm trying and trying and not seeing any result of that...in fact the things are getting more complicated, more heavier in my life and I can't tell why. I mean, if we do good and are the person we want to be to help this planet and its inhabitants shouldn't things become easier or what?

Instead of seeing this world becoming a better place we see how its falls apart. And I,m feeling so hopeless...:(

I would like to hear if anyone else is having these strange feelings like I do?

And I'm sorry for my bad English :blushing:

And thank you for reading my post :)

[Becky]

Hi Avi, welcome to the forum and your English is great! Yes I feel very much like you do. :flower:

[Roseheart]

Hi Avi, I and everyone I know who has been through this fire, had a **** time during their awakening. My life fell apart on every level.
All I can say is hang in there, it will get better, much better. Keep giving the love even if the response is not what you hope for. We are all connected and it does make a difference.
Bless your heart.

[Sérénité]

Welcome Avi :D

Yes I agree things have felt unusually heavy very recently.

I'm a big believer in thinking positive, the law's of attraction, treating others how I would like to be treated etc...
But despite this I seem to be getting hit with nothing but knives in the back, adversity at every turn and general negativity all around me.

It's as though I'm being forced from externally to 'reboot' my whole life in general.

A lot of the people around me just don't seem like they're on the same wave length any more and their morals and motives are beyond questionable.

Maybe its the storm before the calm? Maybe its a temporary fault in our stars...but hopefully it will settle down real soon?

[Marikins]

Avi, I am seeing the same thing here on the East Coast of the US. There are those who are caring and present, and then there are those who are rushing around desperately grabbing for things they don't even need! My friends and I have been wondering what it is and came up with:

1. Physical exhaustion from Wave-X
2. Problems with real world or 3D interactions because our brain is processing a lot of material we are not conscious of, so we have little bandwidth
3. We are in a stage of utter chaos
4. There is a dividing going on of the power freaks from the love bugs and the power freaks are panicking because nothing they are doing is working. Nothing I'm doing is working either but since I don't want power, it doesn't bug me as much (except the eighth black SUV that cut me off yesterday did get a peace (sic) of my mind - Namaste this!)

I have total faith that all will be well. This chaos is just a great natural cycle and is actually a very powerful time of creativity. From this great swirling mess of possibilities, you can grab whatever you want. You want good things for everyone, and you will be creating that, maybe not as fast as we would like. And the not fitting in thing is because we are still effected by those in power and since they are nervous they are acting out more. I think things will settle out and you will naturally find where you fit in better. I hope soon for you and for me!

[Becky]

Welcome Avi :D

Yes I agree things have felt unusually heavy very recently.

I'm a big believer in thinking positive, the law's of attraction, treating others how I would like to be treated etc...
But despite this I seem to be getting hit with nothing but knives in the back, adversity at every turn and general negativity all around me.

It's as though I'm being forced from externally to 'reboot' my whole life in general.

A lot of the people around me just don't seem like they're on the same wave length any more and their morals and motives are beyond questionable.

Maybe its the storm before the calm? Maybe its a temporary fault in our stars...but hopefully it will settle down real soon?

Me too Serenite, lately I feel like I've had a very tough time of things and it's been hard staying positive. Recently it has felt like an onslaught. I've had major issues with work (being pressurised into working far more hours than my contract hours, not being paid properly/correctly, being contacted constantly on my rare days off. Makes me sound like I have a very important job...actually I do...I'm a carer, and am paid very close to minimum wage) and finances and not been in the best of health, and things being so seemingly tough and unfair that I've slipped into victim mode when I'm normally much more positive and upbeat. An then I worry/think this is a dangerous mood / mode to be in at this present time as we in general need to keep our wits about us and not be exhausted, distracted and downtrodden, with feelings of apathy and hopelessness. Not a good place to be coming from if things get even tougher which they well could before they get better. I'm working on standing up for myself more, as well as trying hard to find time to get into nature which always makes me feel better and stronger, physically, emotionally, mentally and spiritually.

[pyrangello]

Avi 30 years ago I had a supervisor who always told me the word CAN"T doesn't exist. He drove that home to me for over 4 years while I worked there. So I will forward that message indeed , the word CAN'T does not exist . I like many other of the Avalon Family have been feeling very different ever since this last Blood Moon. Oh man , talk about heavy and then there are those around me that are short fused. So there is something going on for sure.

My message to you is redirect your thoughts when you feel that heaviness, force yourself to break out of it. Or when you see angelic numbers such as 111, 222, 333, or 444. These are signs that angels are around you and are reminding you doors are opening for you to redirect your thoughts at what you want to see happen and where you want to go, envision at those moments where you want to go in your life, job, family, career or just envision peace on earth. I will tell you that your energy will be absorbed and not wasted . Just believe and your path will take you there, just always be ready for that opportunity when it happens.

By you expressing yourself and reaching out , you are already half way there because YOU KNOW the path at this moment and that is forward with doors soon to be opened in front of you . And that is a place that some people never get to or realize. So keep going and yes you can :) energy from me to you all the way across the ocean :) .

[pyrangello]

Becky , hang in there , yeah I absorbed all that you said an NO you are not alone, this has been a ride like no other since that moon. Remember what I said above to Avi, use that as a tool to push out of this crap that is around us. And yes you are right about nature or a quiet place to get back to center for the moments you need to. Just wanted to convey your not alone in what your feeling.

[FinallyNow]

I have felt much of what you express. Although I felt worse last year than this year overall. The ups and downs are still there. Moments of doubt are often but so are moments of clarity and personal peace coming through. Thank you for your thoughts and feelings.

[Roseheart]

It is my belief that those who are "Awake" carry a certain energy with them. You go through the fire, all the fear and programming gets cleared and love fills the void. Once this has occurred there is no switching it off. An awake person can be in a room, not say much at all, and the energy they carry will trigger people into love or expose their fear and programming. This fiercely loving energy is very powerful and right now it is much much stronger than it has been in the past imho. People are getting triggered left right and centre and they are suffering. It is all a part of the cleansing process/transition/healing we are in. It's tough to be a part of sometimes but there is always something that expands you if you let it.
I feel so much gratitude to be a part of this incredible process. Other times I just want to go to bed with a blanket over my head... Lol x

[Avi]

Wow :) I didn't expect so much feedback :D


I was a little afraid people wouldn't understand what I wanted to say but now I'm positively surprised. You are all great and I'm feeling your positive energy right know :heart:
Yes, it's flowing :D

Nobody said it would be easy on this road we choose to take I'm aware of that and maybe this strange feelings from time to time is just another rock we have to climb or move to reach the final destination. If everything would go easy, maybe we would be bored :P

Many, many thanks to all of you, you are great and I'm happy knowing there are more people like me, maybe I found my soul group :D

I'm sending much love to you all :inlove:

[Bubu]

Wow :) I didn't expect so much feedback :D


I was a little afraid people wouldn't understand what I wanted to say but now I'm positively surprised.:
We understand because we been to where you are and believe me its just fine. allow yourself to have more fun though. We are here to experience this density not to save the planet. If saving the planet is the experience you want to have then fine but its foolishness to make sacrifice for that. Have fun while saving the planet if its no longer fun find a new enjoyable adventure. welcome:bearhug:

[Jayren]

Hi! :waving:

This is my first post and I feel a little embarrassed :blushing:


Actually, I just wanted to ask you if anybody is feeling down this past few days/weeks?

I mean, we all know that the whole planet is in some kind of transition and with that all human race. The big changes are right ahead of us, the planet is ascending, we are ascending etc. It's normal to feel negative energies from time to time or in some "special" events but what I'm feeling and some people who are awakened, that includes me, I think :) , is something different. Ok I live in a small city in Croatia, with beautiful scenery and intact nature. That's one side of the coin, the other is that in Croatia like in most of countries the whole system is corrupt and worse. Believe it or not it could be worst.... Ok but I digress....

I have a lot of problems myself, I'm unemployed, I live almost at the edge...but that's not the problem, the problem is that I see so many crazy stuff around me. I was always different and until today I cannot fit in. I know that every one of us has a mission to complete, that we are immortal souls on our journey, that love is all there is etc., but I think I'm loosing myself in this life....


Every day I wake up thankful for this day and for the people around me, for my cat... I think I give positive energy to people, as I have been told and I'm trying too but I think that people are closed and I mean really closed for that energy. They are in some kind of stasis, they don't see the nature around them, they don't fell the sun or the rain...they are in a rush to get somewhere but when they get there they really aren't there, let alone help someone. Ok there are good people there but most of them are like they do not recognizes that goodness inside of them... I want to make this world a better place but I have a feeling that I just can't. I'm trying and trying and not seeing any result of that...in fact the things are getting more complicated, more heavier in my life and I can't tell why. I mean, if we do good and are the person we want to be to help this planet and its inhabitants shouldn't things become easier or what?

Instead of seeing this world becoming a better place we see how its falls apart. And I,m feeling so hopeless...:(

I would like to hear if anyone else is having these strange feelings like I do?

And I'm sorry for my bad English :blushing:

And thank you for reading my post :)

From time to time I experience mass amounts of depression or low self worth, I would only look at the negatives about myself and lead myself to making decisions that I would not normally want to make. For some reason I had almost led myself to believe that I should just stick with one kind of material instead of looking at all of it and discerning the truth from the potential fiction. And besides all that I just wouldn't care about any of it no matter how awakened I really was I just did not really care, I guess this was just a small little phase in my life but I am okay now I think. Just never stick to one kind of spiritual information or it will leave you stuck , think outside of the box and look at all of it and see how it all connects with one another and that will be your truth.

[dim]

Welcome to the awakening... level 2

in level 1 we think we are here to help the world transition to a better one
expressed in the need to help other people overcome their problems
healing them and the environment
being a positive main atractor of change in this world

and that's all fine up to a point
where we reach a dead end in which nothing of the above seems to work anymore
and despite all our best intentions and work all those years
an all growing dysfunction and chaos around is overwhelming us .
At the same time many negative feelings start to arise
a sense of helplessness, a despondency, unworthiness and eventually depression
a moment of internal crisis and the first disillusionment
at which we slowly realize that we can't help the world unless we help ourselves first.

We, ourselves, then become our main focus of healing
and we see that coming to terms with our own darkness within
is the only way to bring true change in the world

Take courage, you are in the right place at the right time
and although isn't going to be easy is the only way out.

[Becky]

Becky , hang in there , yeah I absorbed all that you said an NO you are not alone, this has been a ride like no other since that moon. Remember what I said above to Avi, use that as a tool to push out of this crap that is around us. And yes you are right about nature or a quiet place to get back to center for the moments you need to. Just wanted to convey your not alone in what your feeling.

Thank you Pyrangello :heart: I think you're right. We all need to find our inner strength to deal with life here on planet Earth at the moment, wherever we live.

[Hop]

Avi,

I've a few thoughts sparked by your posting thought I'd share, hopefully worthy your reflection.

Firstly, there is the word “awakened”. I hear it often here on this forum and it's connotation at times expresses a perspective, a viewpoint, or outlook of having “arrived” somewhere. Like in a destination reached, the expectations of those of us having been transported to this newness of view, can struggle with the Reality of the Journey we have set upon. We are surprised, and at times disappointed, that others, both intimates and total strangers, have not yet the muscles to see changings now present, and in the wonder, and in the gifts awaiting of our new environment. I feel the angst felt is due in large part to our forgetting of the Journey having not ended, and in the very personal nature of the Ride we all collectively, yet individually are upon. All shall unfold in their own time, at a pace, and in a place unique and truly their own. We alone have not “arrived”, yet we ALL are awakening and for each in our own way with a rhythm truly only ours alone. Awakening is a process, a privilege, a Gift and we each experience this Treasure in our own time and space.

Secondly, my thoughts spring to the Journey itself. I believe this Living we all are a part, essentially and by its nature has no completion only a Path. And as we are our own Heroes in this procession of Souls, in this Great Curiosity, we each shall discover the lightness and the Divine alone and in due time, though the Wonder is in the collective ascendancy of us ALL. We each enter the darkest part of the forest alone and on our own, and in there we, amongst the heaviness and the shadows do find our Path, and if in these spiritual travelings we come across the pathways of another, do not follow it, for that is their journey; yours is for you to discover on your own.

[Aurvandil]

Welcome to the awakening... level 2

in level 1 we think we are here to help the world transition to a better one
expressed in the need to help other people overcome their problems
healing them and the environment
being a positive main atractor of change in this world

and that's all fine up to a point
where we reach a dead end in which nothing of the above seems to work anymore
and despite all our best intentions and work all those years
an all growing dysfunction and chaos around is overwhelming us .
At the same time many negative feelings start to arise
a sense of helplessness, a despondency, unworthiness and eventually depression
a moment of internal crisis and the first disillusionment
at which we slowly realize that we can't help the world unless we help ourselves first.

We, ourselves, then become our main focus of healing
and we see that coming to terms with our own darkness within
is the only way to bring true change in the world

Take courage, you are in the right place at the right time
and although isn't going to be easy is the only way out.

These words are some of the most clarifying words I have read on the forum. I wish I have found this explanation myself but it never came to mind.

I am sorry to hear that there are so many that feel the same at the moment. As you see, Avi, you are not alone and I thank you for posting your feelings.

*EDIT* I wrote a longer, just cut it out, no idea to write too long posts.

[Old Wolf]

Hi Avi,

What you posted really rang bells with me. It's been difficult for a few months. The signs of the impact I have on others are very minor whereas my bad feelings seem to drag me down so often .. it's hard to balance it all out. I've been spending more time alone trying to dig into this stuff, but it doesn't seem to matter what I do the most impact I have on my feelings is to dull them down so that they don't make me feel quite as bad. I'm doing my best not to take it out on others but I don't always succeed.

It's comforting that someone else is also feeling this way so thankyou very much for sharing. I don't know where it's all going but it must be going somewhere.

Kindly.

[Inmortal719]

the good vibes you're feeling is probably the ones I'm sending right this moment, wiiiiiiii, Hang in there Avi, we all feel the same, we all feel that the world has given up and that there's no way we could fix it, but we can! As Pyrangello said, the word can't must not be even used at all, we all can achieve whatever we want and believe me I've done many things in my life that people told me over and over that I would never do or I wasn't supposed to! And after I shown them all... Here's what you said I couldn't do, they changed....
This is a puzzle, a big puzzle, we're just moving the pieces and in the end it will all fit right in!!

[Lifebringer]

Very thoughtful 1st post, so I'll add what I feel I've learned through experience and hope it helps.
I believe we all feel this way and there are highs and lows to the evolving of humanity, a sort of birth to choose love over "the other." When that majority reaches critical mass, things will happen for that good and changes happen. Whenever I feel that way, I have to look to the long term plan for humanity, that doesn't include extinction. WE when aware of the very things you mention, just see and hear our cross to bare. Today is my sabbaath and things are left by the riverside and given over to this creator of all that is good in the Universe. It's his/her plan, and I'm just doing my part to shine light on the darkness through truthful links or thoughtful compassion. What I feel I can't do, I have to put to the higher powers than pwt.:bigsmile:

Just my opinion to your post, take it with love from me.
Peace

[pyrangello]

Good Morning. well I got up this morning and fed the chickens some apples from a cider mill, there is snow falling this morning just for this weekend. But what a serenity of a feeling standing in the yard having pure white snow falling around you, a lab pup wagging its tail at you because she is happy and watching the ducks eat the apples to . So so nice and here is a center morning of peace and yes I felt it and still do.

I read everyone's comments from the Avalon family, boy we sure do have some wonderful people here don't we . I will say this during that last full moon we had my neighbor works at the courthouse, oh the stories but that particular night one guy stood in the road and dared people to hit him. A bunch of people went off the rails during this time. And Aurvandil , I'm am employer,I've employed over 600 people in my lifetime, I have 2 guys that I worked with now, one for 28 years and 1 for 10 years. For this entire summer both of these individuals have been temper flared at the least little moment, like loaded cannons. Usually I don't put up with anything like this but right after the full moon I came to terms with the fact that I am being sucked dry by this negative energy around me everyday and it was only then I decided I'll take charge again and change what I need to and remove that negative energy from around me everyday. So just as Avi, you already recognize the situation ,your half way there, now its just time you pull up your bootstraps and make the changes yourself. Don't get sucked into the vortex, its a place where everyone there is unhappy and they love company. Just take charge of yourself and find your direction and make it happen, Can't doesn't exist !

So now that I have dove back into the ball of goo this morning , I'm going back outside in the snow, peace and puppy wagging its tail for a few moments to get centered and yes move in my direction today, gonna be a good day :) . Hope that helps.

[Lifebringer]

You might be in the negative energy purge stage that occurs when you've recognized all thats wrong and desire/want/decide to help/intent to make it better for the future of this world, through Creator/you."

[Lifebringer]

"Ye old ups and downs, in the bumpy road/birthing of love in humanity's evolutionary cycle of the heart. Easier to learn to hate, the challenge is to learn and practice from within that lesson of compassion for all, no matter how small.

[cursichella1]

There's absolute power just in recognizing things are wrong.

Although it may seem hopeless at times (and I believe we've all been there, it comes with the territory), imagine others who are floating through life absolutely clueless about what's happening around them and to them.

Your unique position of seeing gives you more control over your life than you may realize.

Embrace that and continue in the direction of creating the life and world you desire for yourself and others. As I see it, by joining like-minded people as you have on Avalon, you empower yourself. You are already positively influencing others (just by starting this thread).

[Avi]

Thank you all for so much kind words :)

I think my first post had a little too much negative emotions and hopelessness...but the negativity I was talking about was not those negative events some people go through when they start to wake up. I think I woke up a long time ago as I was going through some major negative events in my life (as all of you were/are). I always knew we are more than our body but going through those events I finally became aware of who I truly am. I think that this negativity I'm feeling now isn't the same negativity I was feeling back then. The level two, dim was talking about, was for sure a phase I went through a few years ago when I was starting to become aware.

At the moment I'm in a phase where I surpassed categorizing myself by any kind of spiritual levels because I can see myself as a soul and not just a human being. And because of that it's hard for me to understand what's going on. I am thankful for your words of advice :D I truly am :D but I just wanted to say that I find myself right know in some strange phase when everything is at a standstill. I mean, I 'm like in a snowball... the world is turning around but spiritually I'm in front of the wall and can't move forward...Even though I'm "awake" I don't understand why I can't help myself figuring out where this emotions are coming from and why I don't recognize them.

I'm glad I have found people who are aware of what I'm talking about ;)

[Old Wolf]

I find myself right know in some strange phase when everything is at a standstill. I mean, I 'm like in a snowball... the world is turning around but spiritually I'm in front of the wall and can't move forward...Even though I'm "awake" I don't understand why I can't help myself figuring out where this emotions are coming from and why I don't recognize them.

Very well said. I think I'm at the same stage .. I'm trying to work on myself but nothing I'm doing seems to lead to a path forward. Each day it's apparently getting a little more difficult to make progress, my intuitive abilities are harder to exercise and day to day experiences just keep hitting me in the face. I'm searching for some way forward but there's no obvious path. It occurred to me a while back that part of the problem was that prior to 2012, the way forwards was always obvious. When I would think of something to do, I'd "just know" that it was the right thing to do. I think sub-consciously I was using my undeveloped clairvoyance to read the timeline ahead of me and act on instinct.

Now there's all of this .. stuff to deal with. Not only are my intuitive abilities not really helping me to deal with it but they're also new things to deal with. I never dealt with my emotions before and now I'm dealing with my own emotions, other people's emotions, emotional baggage from past lives and inherited genetic emotional baggage. It's like a maelstrom and it's extremely frustrating. It's hard to stay calm and patient enough to see the forest for the trees and my progress feels extremely slow.

[Avi]

I find myself right know in some strange phase when everything is at a standstill. I mean, I 'm like in a snowball... the world is turning around but spiritually I'm in front of the wall and can't move forward...Even though I'm "awake" I don't understand why I can't help myself figuring out where this emotions are coming from and why I don't recognize them.

Very well said. I think I'm at the same stage .. I'm trying to work on myself but nothing I'm doing seems to lead to a path forward. Each day it's apparently getting a little more difficult to make progress, my intuitive abilities are harder to exercise and day to day experiences just keep hitting me in the face. I'm searching for some way forward but there's no obvious path. It occurred to me a while back that part of the problem was that prior to 2012, the way forwards was always obvious. When I would think of something to do, I'd "just know" that it was the right thing to do. I think sub-consciously I was using my undeveloped clairvoyance to read the timeline ahead of me and act on instinct.

Now there's all of this .. stuff to deal with. Not only are my intuitive abilities not really helping me to deal with it but they're also new things to deal with. I never dealt with my emotions before and now I'm dealing with my own emotions, other people's emotions, emotional baggage from past lives and inherited genetic emotional baggage. It's like a maelstrom and it's extremely frustrating. It's hard to stay calm and patient enough to see the forest for the trees and my progress feels extremely slow.

You said exactly the same thing I have been feeling lately... And that stuff with other people's emotions.... Sometimes I wake up in the morning and feel angry or sad for example without no reason and I feel like that the whole day or one part of a day and then that anger disappear all of a sudden. Those emotions are not mine but from the people that are close to me or complete strangers... My intuitive abilities are sleeping or maybe I don't have them anymore..I'm kidding.. I still have them but I can't use them.... There are times when I think that I can't handle it no more, that my head is going to explode...but then there is this little voice inside of me telling me that everything is going to be all right....I still have hope but I lose it from time to time.

I'm sending you a big :hug:

[Old Wolf]

I'm sending you a big :hug:

I feel you. I don't have the answers but it really, really helps to know that I'm not alone.

Thankyou Avi.

[quiltinggrandma]

if we could all stay in a state of expansion all the time,,,we wouldn't be here

[TheInBetween]

I've considered myself "very awake" for the past year or a bit more, but I've been informed for at least 3 years. I've been a chronic cannabis user almost since the beginning I woke up. Waking up to this harsh reality and using cannabis as my "protector" has led me to very bad anxiety, depression, and addiction (yes you can be mentally addicted to weed). The past few months I have felt like complete ****, but I have gained lots of spiritual insight. I believe in not only the effects of EMF radiation and chemtrails but most specifically their uses and why I think these were designed to reinforce mind control but most importantly to target awakened people who have broke free from the matrix. An efficient censoring method isn't to kill somebody or tell them to shut up, it's to overwhelm them with misinformation and unconnected dots, but with directed thinking/emotion/and actions through EMF radiation on top of that. I really think that EMF radiation has the power to "calcify" or at least harm our pineal glands. We are vibrational beings, and we are being hit 24/7 with what we're supposed to believe as "non-ionized" radiation, and it's supposedly not harmful because it's not ionized. I am a very intuitive and creative person, and I have many plans for my life. I have seen the bigger picture in many subjects that other conspiracy people haven't, and this is why I think I'm a target. This is why I think I've been in such a "rut" for the past few months. I remember every time I got hit by EMF radiation these three things happened: (1) I first noticed the shift in frequency which was very noticeable and obviously different kinds of frequencies were being beamed at me, (2) I felt pressure, or almost a small squeezing in the middle of my head which I knew was my pineal gland, and (3) I would prepare myself and try to make myself remember that this will be the result of my lack of spiritual insight, and surely enough, I haven't been gaining any kind of conscious benefits from spirituality within the past few months. And no I don't think eating organic and meditating is going to solve this...This is likely the whole reason EMF radiation and chemtrails exist, to make sure our spiritual and natural lifestyle is still effected. The ****ing indigenous tribes are still effected by this and they don't even know!

I have total faith that all will be well. This chaos is just a great natural cycle and is actually a very powerful time of creativity. From this great swirling mess of possibilities, you can grab whatever you want. You want good things for everyone, and you will be creating that, maybe not as fast as we would like. And the not fitting in thing is because we are still effected by those in power and since they are nervous they are acting out more. I think things will settle out and you will naturally find where you fit in better. I hope soon for you and for me!

I'm a big believer in thinking positive, the law's of attraction, treating others how I would like to be treated etc...
But despite this I seem to be getting hit with nothing but knives in the back, adversity at every turn and general negativity all around me.

I believe in balance, but (1) I don't believe we are in control of the balance whatsoever and rather we are playing roles in a balanced system that was designed for the string pullers to always take advantage of and always create revolutions in ways they desire, it works like problem, reaction and then solution. I think "indigos" or "old souls" are good examples of this balance. But it doesn't mean we were all sent from some god-like being or civilization from another planet, but more like we are required for this balance to work. I think people picture a balance and imagine that everyone just has money and that's the system we strive towards, a world without poverty and war, but is it possible? How do we know if it's possible? We don't. We do know that native americans and other societies lived in a peaceful and harmonic civilization. But was it la-la land with nothing but ponies, rainbows, butterflies, and collaboration? I don't think so, there must have been a balance. All civilizations have their own dilemmas, and I think the elite in the world today are very aware of this. That no matter how hard we strive towards creating a utopian world, there will always be problems. This might be why they want a "perpetual balance with nature" at a 500 million population. An easier to control balance, plus more consciousness put into the people.

I don't really believe in the law of attraction, but rather I believe in the lifestyle. Thinking positively raises your vibration and gives you good energy, kind of like a person who's sad can trick themselves into being happy by smiling even if they don't want to be. We are just like flesh vehicles, run by chemicals, we are unconscious how everyday activities like thinking, walking, talking, and feeling can change our circumstances. We have to be willing to go through the long and hard process of creating our own reality in order for it to come true. Many people are under the wrong impression that the law of attraction is just a thing where we put something into our minds and then we will just get it like magic, mostly people who don't believe in it. Then people who do believe it just say it's a long process, and I agree. I don't think it's anything special, I think it's the law of the universe, work hard on yourself and your goals on a daily basis and eventually you'll achieve what you want.

I don't think life is supposed to be perfect. I don't think that being positive is just going to one day make everyone wake up and yearn to change the world and be a good person. I think love, positive thinking, and unity is required for individuals, groups, and civilizations to thrive. But is the use of this single energy going to be the exact and only method required to change the world? Not at all, that's ridiculous.

[Aurvandil]

Hmm, yes, that is exactly what I felt when I wrote earlier on this thread but then removed my long text.

I don´t think progress is linear but goes back or forward, slower or faster over time. BUT - these days it seems that the way to go forward, at least in my life, is somehow totally blocked.

Before 2012, yes, there was only the feeling of hard work but I knew I´d get somewhere further on the path. Now - just a void, no crossing over, no light on the other side what so ever. I have talked to others who say the same.

And I am picking up a lot of strange things and negativity around, it is also hitting me in the face, like it is piling on top of me to hold me back/down. People are sometimes behaving like they suddenly have become crazy.

Why? Is it a test for us to hold on, for patience, strength? Or what?



I find myself right know in some strange phase when everything is at a standstill. I mean, I 'm like in a snowball... the world is turning around but spiritually I'm in front of the wall and can't move forward...Even though I'm "awake" I don't understand why I can't help myself figuring out where this emotions are coming from and why I don't recognize them.

Very well said. I think I'm at the same stage .. I'm trying to work on myself but nothing I'm doing seems to lead to a path forward. Each day it's apparently getting a little more difficult to make progress, my intuitive abilities are harder to exercise and day to day experiences just keep hitting me in the face. I'm searching for some way forward but there's no obvious path. It occurred to me a while back that part of the problem was that prior to 2012, the way forwards was always obvious. When I would think of something to do, I'd "just know" that it was the right thing to do. I think sub-consciously I was using my undeveloped clairvoyance to read the timeline ahead of me and act on instinct.

Now there's all of this .. stuff to deal with. Not only are my intuitive abilities not really helping me to deal with it but they're also new things to deal with. I never dealt with my emotions before and now I'm dealing with my own emotions, other people's emotions, emotional baggage from past lives and inherited genetic emotional baggage. It's like a maelstrom and it's extremely frustrating. It's hard to stay calm and patient enough to see the forest for the trees and my progress feels extremely slow.

[Avi]

Hmm, yes, that is exactly what I felt when I wrote earlier on this thread but then removed my long text.

I don´t think progress is linear but goes back or forward, slower or faster over time. BUT - these days it seems that the way to go forward, at least in my life, is somehow totally blocked.

Before 2012, yes, there was only the feeling of hard work but I knew I´d get somewhere further on the path. Now - just a void, no crossing over, no light on the other side what so ever. I have talked to others who say the same.

And I am picking up a lot of strange things and negativity around, it is also hitting me in the face, like it is piling on top of me to hold me back/down. People are sometimes behaving like they suddenly have become crazy.

Why? Is it a test for us to hold on, for patience, strength? Or what?

I've been asking myself the same questions over and over again and still have no answer to them. Maybe we just have to be... just live our lives and radiate our energy to the people around us :) Maybe that's our mission..to filter this negative emotions into positive ones and that way we help ourselves and the world around us ;)

[Aurvandil]

Yes, I agree, That is the only thing we can do, but in these times it demands more strength/energy than before. That also means that we have to have somewhere to rest to gain both the strength and energy.
I think I´ll wear my crystal to protect me from at least a small part of this strange negativity. Perhaps also practice shielding if needed.
Take care!



Hmm, yes, that is exactly what I felt when I wrote earlier on this thread but then removed my long text.

I don´t think progress is linear but goes back or forward, slower or faster over time. BUT - these days it seems that the way to go forward, at least in my life, is somehow totally blocked.

Before 2012, yes, there was only the feeling of hard work but I knew I´d get somewhere further on the path. Now - just a void, no crossing over, no light on the other side what so ever. I have talked to others who say the same.

And I am picking up a lot of strange things and negativity around, it is also hitting me in the face, like it is piling on top of me to hold me back/down. People are sometimes behaving like they suddenly have become crazy.

Why? Is it a test for us to hold on, for patience, strength? Or what?

I've been asking myself the same questions over and over again and still have no answer to them. Maybe we just have to be... just live our lives and radiate our energy to the people around us :) Maybe that's our mission..to filter this negative emotions into positive ones and that way we help ourselves and the world around us ;)

[Avi]

Yes, I agree, That is the only thing we can do, but in these times it demands more strength/energy than before. That also means that we have to have somewhere to rest to gain both the strength and energy.
I think I´ll wear my crystal to protect me from at least a small part of this strange negativity. Perhaps also practice shielding if needed.
Take care! ]

:hug: for you :)

[Constance]

Wow :) I didn't expect so much feedback :D


I was a little afraid people wouldn't understand what I wanted to say but now I'm positively surprised. You are all great and I'm feeling your positive energy right know :heart:
Yes, it's flowing :D

Nobody said it would be easy on this road we choose to take I'm aware of that and maybe this strange feelings from time to time is just another rock we have to climb or move to reach the final destination. If everything would go easy, maybe we would be bored :P

Many, many thanks to all of you, you are great and I'm happy knowing there are more people like me, maybe I found my soul group :D

I'm sending much love to you all :inlove:

Hi Avi,

Much love to you :heart: and big earth hugs :bearhug:

I ditto everyone's comments regarding hanging in there.

That tiny little voice we call our intuition, is always whispering in our ear and is actually our future self.

Our future self is always beckoning us on.

Our future selves can guide us in the most amazing ways possible.
Having the intention of staying open to our future self, allows us to receive all that is coming our way.

It is highly likely why you started this thread.

If you can nurture your inner silence as much as possible, get as much sunlight as you can, sungaze, moonbathe, eat the most highest and purest foods you can get, it will all help.

Stay in gratitude for what you have and what is coming your way and it will fuel your intuition.

[Constance]

To all that are really feeling it at the moment, I am tuning into your energies and doing ho'oponopono for you all. I love you all.:bearhug::bearhug:

[Avi]

I was writing about some strange and negative feelings I have had two weeks ago and I think they were at their highest point back then. I still don't know why is this happening, where this feelings come from but I'm glad they're gone know. Finally :) I know that's the way it goes. There are times in life when everything piles up, every bit of negative energy from different sources is flowing through you. Maybe because it's time to close some doors or remove some people from our life or to get courage to do something we were afraid to do for a very long time... For past two weeks everything is starting to change in my life. Maybe some new beginning waiting for me. I began to feel my inner strength,, found feathers and coins in front of me, get synchronized ( 11:11 and all other combinations on computer screen or mobile) etc... It was very hard for me but I'm filled with energy right now I don't know is it because of you and your loving energy :) or something else but I'm thankful for your posts and advices :)

And now I'm sending to all of you my loving energy and much hugs to everyone :bearhug::bearhug::bearhug: