Old Wolf
28th October 2015, 11:41
I've been having great difficulties over the last .. well, quite a while .. at least a year. Emotional difficulties, getting wound up, cyclic negative mental patterns that seemed unbreakable, emotionally triggered very easily and my meditations not being effective (as a result or a symptom).
A few days back, I listened to some guidance. The guidance is very clear when I'm listening, it comes straight from my heart. I can't recall what triggered me to start to listen to it but I followed it.
A little while later I quieted my mind and meditated. I reached down to around my solar plexus and discovered that my energy .. center(?) was pulled away from my body and intertwined with some other energy centre very similar to it. It was like it was unhinged from my body. As I unwound it and put my own centre back in my body, my meditation started to become very powerful, clearing my mind and my energetic body .. like it used to before this bad stuff started happening to me. This work is far from finished, but it really seems very right.
It seems that one of these threads is my organic timeline .. the life I planned for myself to lead (prior to being born) and the other is the life I'm actually leading. The life I'm actually leading is 'sort of' the same, but with subtle variations on the themes that change the pattern of events. This other timeline seems to be based on my fears. For example, my fear of not having the means of survival has overridden my plan to have my basic needs easily met. The theme is still there, it's just more difficult for me to meet my basic needs. There are other more personal themes i won't get into.
When I've re-visited this 'anchoring' of my organic centre (timeline?), my meditation has taken on an ease and power I haven't experienced in a long time and the effectiveness has increased dramatically. This seems to (strangely) be reflected in the reactions of the people I interact with.
I don't know whether this is common to others but it felt right to share it here.
Kindly.
A few days back, I listened to some guidance. The guidance is very clear when I'm listening, it comes straight from my heart. I can't recall what triggered me to start to listen to it but I followed it.
A little while later I quieted my mind and meditated. I reached down to around my solar plexus and discovered that my energy .. center(?) was pulled away from my body and intertwined with some other energy centre very similar to it. It was like it was unhinged from my body. As I unwound it and put my own centre back in my body, my meditation started to become very powerful, clearing my mind and my energetic body .. like it used to before this bad stuff started happening to me. This work is far from finished, but it really seems very right.
It seems that one of these threads is my organic timeline .. the life I planned for myself to lead (prior to being born) and the other is the life I'm actually leading. The life I'm actually leading is 'sort of' the same, but with subtle variations on the themes that change the pattern of events. This other timeline seems to be based on my fears. For example, my fear of not having the means of survival has overridden my plan to have my basic needs easily met. The theme is still there, it's just more difficult for me to meet my basic needs. There are other more personal themes i won't get into.
When I've re-visited this 'anchoring' of my organic centre (timeline?), my meditation has taken on an ease and power I haven't experienced in a long time and the effectiveness has increased dramatically. This seems to (strangely) be reflected in the reactions of the people I interact with.
I don't know whether this is common to others but it felt right to share it here.
Kindly.