Hell in a hand basket.

[Kbrammcdonald]

Hey everyone. I don't post very often but today I felt compelled to. Today is the 2nd anniversary of my mom's death and I'm feeling pretty down. I'm not dwelling on her death, more or less the fact that I can't speak to her about everything going on in the world right now. My mom was a very spiritual person towards the end of her days and I guess that's why I'm here posting. She shared a lot of the same ideas and values with the people here on this forum that doesn't come out of the average person. I broke down a couple nights ago thinking about how I can't share my feelings or thoughts with most people because I would be alienated and looked at like I'm crazy. But as the title of my post says, the world is going to hell in a hand basket. Our election is a joke, ISIS is destroying lives and the history of our world, more people care about their hair and their devices than other human beings, etc.. It's gotten to the point where I just don't know what to do with my life anymore because of these aspects. I'm not suicidal or anything of the sort. I have a great family, a job, an amazing and loving girlfriend, shelter, food, the works and much more going for me than most people on this planet. I know and have always felt that I'm meant for great things and that there will be a lot of people I will help but honestly these past couple months I've developed an isolationist attitude. It just seems that the majority of people could care less about our collective conscious and I'm not saying I want to jump on that bandwagon.. Rather just start to kick back and stop trying to make this world a better place because it isn't getting better. With everyday that passes it gets worse and I'm emotionally exhausted trying to hope for a better future for us all. I'm not trying to be pessimistic. I just feel like maybe I should take a step back from being that guy who try's to help everyone because at the end of the day it hurts when others don't reciprocate. I'm not trying to become a selfish prick either but I'm only 22 and feel weighed down by these feelings. I'm scared of the impact on my life and health. I feel like I'm beginning to rant but like I said I don't have my mother to talk to anymore about these things and thought I could confide in some of the members here. I appreciate any insight you guys can give. Thanks everyone

[ALLiTiZ]

Hang in there friend, and don't forget you have a family here too. Keep your head up!

[Heartsong]

Although my mother is still alive at 95, I've had many of the thoughts you are having in my 65 years. I learned that when the world seemed like it was falling apart and I was helpless to do anything about it, I should just aim at a closer goal. Most sorrow is found in human behavior. Conversely, so is most joy. Help and enjoy one person at a time. You'll never know where the effect of your efforts will flow. A singular effort repeated many times over moves like a ripple in a pond.- The more singular people you help, the more ripples there are, the more people you will reach by proxy.

I hope you feel better soon. Loosing a parent is a difficult and complicated experience. You loved her and she loved you. Remember that when the dark times come.

[Wide-Eyed]

Dude!! I was going to blow off your thread but I started reading it and Sh*t ! I just brought home my uncle's remains yesterday after a long horrible fight with cancer and stopped over at my other uncle's (his brother) about( 75 yrs. old) to reminisce with him and my aunt when it started out good but somehow ended with them escorting me to the door. I don't have any incite at this moment but I can relate. They escorted me to the door after for some strange reason it turned sour and loud. I got into a conversation /debate about 9 0ne 1 and the breakaway civilization and pretty much a lot of issues that most folks are sleeping on- including most of my large loving accomplished family and group of friends. I was like wow WTF just went down I love these guys but I couldn't shut up or stop or even understand why we started the debate. Weird. But, just saying hang in there Kdonald I run the same oil in my mind. It's very challenging , I was going to write a similar post to yours today because I was so fed up or felt that deaf ears where every where except PA, which is what I went to sleep with and what I logged back into after I took my two awake and aware children to school. I was able to relate the past night to my sixteen year old son on the drive and he helped me understand it's a process. Old guard / New guard. Passing on /awakening. Conscious and aware versus dead nuts asleep while consuming programming. Yes your thread is soooo synchronistic I may go outside and check on the sheeple once more today and relate where I can when I can and not isolate and build resentments or neg energy. "Keep your dauber up," my father always says... WTF that means IDK (I think it's a bingo term) he doesn't play just a great dude and father, anyway what a thing to read from you, your mom is present. Thank you and thank her. Peace and blessings my friend , I am sorry for your loss. Your mom's son helped me do some sorting out thanks :bearhug:

[Pam]

Kbrammmcdonald, I am sorry to hear of your loss. It happened for you at a very young age. I do not believe there is anything like a mothers unconditional love for her child and I can very much understand why you miss your mom. Anniversaries of major losses can be very difficult. I dearly miss my mom too. I am older then you and my mom lived a pretty long life so I think it makes the passing easier than losing a parent at the age you lost your mom. I am really glad you were able to appreciate your mom, I see a lot of younger people that don't seem to.

I think it would be extremely difficult to be your age at this point in history. You are very aware and that makes it tougher. What I had to learn was that even if the things I do to make the world a better place actually don't change a thing in the external world, I know that I benefit from it and that is all that I can hope for. I can sleep at night knowing that my actions match my inner convictions. There was a time that I could not say that, and I was very depressed. The institutions of mankind are very, very corrupted at this time. Greed has permeated everything and left the planet in a very unbalanced place. If each of us had the goal of matching our inner convictions with actions, things would turn around. So I hope you will continue to maintain the energy signature that you generate, I don't want to sound too new agey here, but I do believe that is where individually we can make a difference.

Anyway, thanks for sharing your innermost feelings with us, I deeply appreciate it.

Respectfully,
Pam

[Marikins]

Kbram, while you are right about the state of the world, there is so much worse AND so much better than we will ever know. The thing is to create the world you want. That is the special thing calling you, I reckon.

[moekatz]

Just a quick and maybe helpful suggestion: get an Astrology Natal chart done with a competent astrologer. I don't know if it is allowed but I was helped by Wesley Hallock-find him using Google search. If we lack insight into the plan of our lives-a plan that you helped in creating prior to this scary ride on Earth-we feel downright out of control. Astrology saved me when I was in deep questioning about the whys and wherefores of my life at age 34. I wish I'd had that natal chart at your age. Do your best to love yourself. Remember, your dear mother loved you with all she had in her so there must be some special things you possess now that remain from that deep love. You are important to me and I'm sure to other Avalonions because you remind us of our own rocky paths and how hard it has been to trod those paths. Love is all there is.

[Lost N Found]

I am so glad to here from you young one. I am glad in my heart that you are here. I am sad and sorry that you lost a very close love that you could talk with. I will say this My oldest grandson is your age and I do miss communication with him so your post/thread had stirred my heart to communicate with him. Your opened mind and heart will carry you through. I lost my Dad in 93' and my mom in 06', very hard cause like you I lost that close communication and I could talk about this world going to hell in a hand basket. I am sad but I am filled with joy at the same time. Your mom is in the oneness and we all are headed that way. this matrix is an illusion and can only say that we will connect as you have done here. Come to the Fire and give. you will receive from all of those around it.

Love from a heart that is open
Lost N Found

[ceetee9]

Hey everyone. I don't post very often but today I felt compelled to. Today is the 2nd anniversary of my mom's death and I'm feeling pretty down. I'm not dwelling on her death, more or less the fact that I can't speak to her about everything going on in the world right now. My mom was a very spiritual person towards the end of her days and I guess that's why I'm here posting. She shared a lot of the same ideas and values with the people here on this forum that doesn't come out of the average person. I broke down a couple nights ago thinking about how I can't share my feelings or thoughts with most people because I would be alienated and looked at like I'm crazy. But as the title of my post says, the world is going to hell in a hand basket. Our election is a joke, ISIS is destroying lives and the history of our world, more people care about their hair and their devices than other human beings, etc.. It's gotten to the point where I just don't know what to do with my life anymore because of these aspects. I'm not suicidal or anything of the sort. I have a great family, a job, an amazing and loving girlfriend, shelter, food, the works and much more going for me than most people on this planet. I know and have always felt that I'm meant for great things and that there will be a lot of people I will help but honestly these past couple months I've developed an isolationist attitude. It just seems that the majority of people could care less about our collective conscious and I'm not saying I want to jump on that bandwagon.. Rather just start to kick back and stop trying to make this world a better place because it isn't getting better. With everyday that passes it gets worse and I'm emotionally exhausted trying to hope for a better future for us all. I'm not trying to be pessimistic. I just feel like maybe I should take a step back from being that guy who try's to help everyone because at the end of the day it hurts when others don't reciprocate. I'm not trying to become a selfish prick either but I'm only 22 and feel weighed down by these feelings. I'm scared of the impact on my life and health. I feel like I'm beginning to rant but like I said I don't have my mother to talk to anymore about these things and thought I could confide in some of the members here. I appreciate any insight you guys can give. Thanks everyone
Sorry to hear of your loss Kbram. Losing a loved one is never easy. I don't know if you ever get over it, but with time it does become more bearable.

It was your title that drew me in as that was one of my father's favorite sayings. Perhaps every generation reaches a point in their life when they pine for the "good ole days;" when life was easier and not as frightening and so they begin to see "the world is going to hell in a hand basket." I know it sure seems that way to me. (Boy, am I becoming more and more like my father.) :bigsmile:

But no matter how bad the world seems or gets, there really are so many good and wonderful things to help you regain a more balanced focus. You mentioned several: your great family and job, a loving girlfriend, and all the other things you have going for you. I'm happy you recognize that and will use it to help get you through the down times.

You really seem to have it together pretty well--especially for one so young. Try not to be so hard on yourself and let all the garbage in the world get to you. I know it's not easy to do at times, but you impress me as one who can overcome it all. Stay true to yourself and you'll do just fine.

[Bubu]

"Rather just start to kick back and stop trying to make this world a better place"

Translation. Do whatever makes me feel good and stop trying to make this a happier place for everyone. How are you gonna make someone happy if you cant make yourself happy? By all means do whatever makes you feel good for as long as you don't harm/hurt anyone. I found out, rather proven that the best way to educate is by example.

"I broke down a couple nights ago thinking about how I can't share my feelings or thoughts with most people because I would be alienated and looked at like I'm crazy."

Its something that you have to live up to I have battled this for years until finally I find a way to speak my truth that in most cases makes people considering it instead of thinking that I am insane. The good thing is you knew the truth, what should be done, Now take courage to do it. I"m getting out of the system, that"s the best thing for me and the people close to me.

"the world is going to hell in a hand basket. Our election is a joke, ISIS is destroying lives and the history of our world, more people care about their hair and their devices than other human beings, etc.. It's gotten to the point where I just don't know what to do with my life anymore because of these aspects"
Everyone of us has these episodes of frustration. Take a walk in nature appreciate the beauties tomorrow you'll be fine.

[sandy]

Dear Kbrammcdonald,

I'm old enough to be your Grandma and although there is no one who can fill the void of your MOM, I do have some words of encouragement to offer. :)

You must be an old soul as your wisdom bespeaks such!!

First and foremost it is not selfish to take care of you first and I mean this in the way of personal integrity and honesty about your self motive (personal agenda) . Always check out YOU first and if helping someone will make you feel good about yourself (no other reason) then go for it, but make sure you are not doing it for any other reason than that. No expectations>>>>>No disappointments (easy to say...hard to do)

If you find you do not have many in your circle that can give and take, then it may be time to step back and away for a bit and detach emotionally and for some, even physically. Find balance, as you do need to be able to receive too and not just give. Life is a balancing act on all levels, emotionally, mentally, physically and spiritually. It is like a 4 legged stool and if one is off balance then the stool rocks a little and sometimes a lot. :)

Your Mom sounds special, just like you and she passed her legacy onto you by the sounds of it. Can you remember what she would do or say when her giving nature was depleted at times? I bet she too would kick back and take some time to rejuvenate her soul and energy.

Try not to hang with too many of those who have not learned the balance of give and take as this imbalance weighs heavy after a time and can maim the emotions to a point of exhaustion and apathy. We need you and your compassion as you are already doing great things at your age...role modelling COMPASSION, PERSONAL INTEGRITY and PERSONAL RESPONSIBILITY, to all those around you and especially to your peers. We need you "younguns" to carry the torch on. Change is upon us and many are resisting, :(

Your peers do "know" at a deeper level, but have not built the strength and courage to be vulnerable as yet. Stay the course, give yourself permission to take breaks, and remember that you are Spirit.............here to have a Human experience (imho) so allow yourself to be human without admonition or guilt even though your spirit understands differently. When one is on a spiritual path they cannot be too human for too long as it becomes uncomfortable so don't worry about losing your way....won't happen to an awakened spirit. Just detours that's all.

We are emotional BEINGS and forgetting or not allowing ourselves to experience our emotions (positive and negative... :) deemed so by you by the way) causes damns/walls to build up.

Stay connected to YOU and remember to "BE" versus do..... and all will flow and fall into place synchronically when it is suppose to.

By the way I agree with you...the world is going to hell in a handbasket.....good thing really as it needs to break apart in order to build a new one..........:hug:

[Kbrammcdonald]

Thank you everyone for your kind words and wisdom. It feels good to hear the things I feel like my mom would be telling me and I truly do appreciate it. I will try my best to stay the course of a conscious and helpful human being and better not only my life but the lives of others. It's nice to have a family here on Avalon and people I can connect with. Everyone who commented has truly lifted my spirits and I'm thankful for it.

[jake gittes]

Sorry about your loss, K. I think lots of people feel the same way you do. You are not alone, even though you may feel like it. Try to think positively because there is some truth to the power of positive thoughts than can manifest themselves collectively. If you feel getting burned out on the negative headlines and stuff, it's a good time to take a break and live life a little bit. Take a walk outside. Pet a dog. Read or watch something that makes you happy. Drink a Smoothie. Volunteer. By helping others, you'll feel better yourself. Talk to some elderly people. Listen to what they have to say. Never give up. Keep that in mind. That's what "they" want you to do. Being positive to spite them actually does! Hang in there.