Thoughts, Advice & Input please.

[cruza-1]

Up to the age on 9 yrs I have no memories, just that of a very bright light one night. From 9 -13 only a dozen memories at most.
1975; a close encounter with 1 large ufo & 4 smaller ufo's, there was 12 adult witnesses to this event. Within months they all left the area. I remember the ufo's coming, then nothing.
1983-84; multiple visitations with several witnesses.
1989; a 3 day event, I have a vague recollection ... I do remember the extremely bright light and hieroglyphs in my room. My partner & her mother 'never' talked about it. My partners father [ex Brit Commando] a couple off months later had a few drinks and told me what they had seen and experienced, then told me he would never talk of it again.
1994; another close encounter.
1994 - 2014 ... I remember being in two different types off rooms, and seeing things.
December 2015 a visitation, two of them entered my room. Your typical Grey's except they had a tinge of green to their overall appearance. While I was looking at them I said telepathically, why are you here. They stared and went. I recall a constant low frequency humming which lasted 5-7 mins even as I ran around the house looking for a source.

Since 1975 my hospital medical records read like a novel that has had the last page removed.
I've been over time diagnosed with viruses that are and in rare combinations, yet fully recovered. One being an extremely rare goat disease from the middle east. Yet I had never left AU??? Another, was a pale bright(ish) green semi solid jelly removed from my lymph glands. The biopsy returned as 'unknown' class 1 microbiological infection.

I have spoken to Mary Rodwell on several occasions, seeking help in 2014. Which I never followed through on. I got cold feet. It has started again. I was 'told' in 1984 to 'never' go under regressive hypnosis. I need some clarification or why me information. I have asked two very good friends [that know my past history] if they would come with me, they agreed. My mind is 90% for hypnosis but 10% says ... what if!!

This is just a summary of my life events, my father [told me just prior to passing away] & younger brother also had 'close encounters'.
I really do not know if I just need to get things off my chest or reactivate my closed memories.

All thoughts & responses will be appreciated.

[6pounder]

i believe that if some memories are kept from you, there is a reason for that (good or bad). are you ready to remember or do you fear the outcome of knowing (can be traumatic)?

[cruza-1]

Thank you, I agree with you 6pounder. I have spent many years researching & joining groups looking for answers to/for 'something'. There is a lot more to this journey which I have not mentioned, as it is bad and very comprehensive. I can talk about it ... it's the fact that most people have an issue with believing me.

My younger brother buried himself into religion, and talked to everyone about everything. Last week he was admitted to a psychiatric ward with chronic post traumatic disorder & severe paranoia.
My father never discussed anything and never acknowledged any religion.

Am I ready to remember ... I do not know, at times yes & other times no.
I have experiences 'terror' and lived through the experience, but I don't want to experience it again. So I do not fear as such ... but there is something getting in my way??

This journey has cost me 1 marriage and 1 other long term partner. The lady I am with now I have had to explain many things to her, 9 yrs later she understands as see has now experienced things that would not normally occur... in a normal life.

[cursichella1]

I believe fellow Avalonian TrumanCash works with abductees without using hypnotism?

His books are available here on PA in .pdf format, too:


The Programming of a Planet (http://projectavalon.net/Truman_Cash_The_Programming_of_a_Planet.pdf)


The Eye of Ra (http://projectavalon.net/Truman_Cash_The_Eye_of_Ra.pdf)

[ghostrider]

The psychic barriers placed in the mind will make it impossible for you to get a clear truh of what actually happened. .. you will need many years and many councils with people gifted in this field , yet through meditation and listening to your inner voice ( that still small voice) you can get pointed in the right direction ... usually I get confirmation in threes from sources that have no idea of each other or what I'm researching ... their are very advanced members on the forum- search them out , they can help ...

[cruza-1]

Thank you cursichella1 & ghostrider for the advice. I have downloaded the pdf's.

Several years back I did have a couple of organised meditation sessions. The place I went to while meditating [both times] ... I did not want to come back from. The peace, tranquility was overwhelming. There where 5 people screaming at me, all I could here was very distant whispers. My partner was crying and had a sore throat for a week. They all asked what had happened.
Since then I have not dared try it again in case I do not come back. Honestly it was indescribably beautiful and pure peace.

[kirolak]

I also have gaps in my memory. . . .I suspect the answers lie in dream state lessons.

[Sunny-side-up]

Hi cruza-1 well done for posting your experiences.
I have no advice for you other than keep adding details here, you are among friends.

one question What shape and or kind of UFO was the large one you mentioned?


1975; a close encounter with 1 large ufo & 4 smaller ufo's

[GloriousPoetry]

Cruza-1

Look up George Kavassilas he has had e..t. encounters all his life and went through traumatic experiences.........I believe he does consultations. He has a website.

He is genuinely a caring person who is at a better place in his life now.

Remember this and recite it every day........I am free and sovereign you have no authority over me.

[cruza-1]

Sunny-side-up, thank you.
GloriousPoetry, I will look into George Kavassilas, thank you.

All I could see was a huge intense white ball ... it was massive. I would say at least several hundred metres in diameter.

I was fishing on the beach, around 3 am. A huge white ball appeared on the horizon, travelling from the South in a Northward direction, then stopped. Initially I thought it was a trawler light.
The ball came toward the beach, several hundred metres above the water & 3-4 km off shore, then stopped.
Then, 4 smaller balls came out from the under side, travelling extremely fast toward the beach, then up and down the full length of the beach [10 - 12 kms]
They where executing incredible aerial maneuvers, making several passes directly above me. They where very low, [100 mts possibly, no more] lighting up the waves, sand and myself.
These white balls where an 8th or 10th of the size of the larger ball. As viewed when they initially left the larger craft.
I can't accurately estimate the size of the 4 balls accurately, maybe 20 mts in diameter.

After several minutes I ran over the sand dunes to a block off units [3/4 km away] and woke every one up to witness this. This is my 12 witnesses, they all saw this happening.
After a period of time I headed back to the beach to get my fishing gear, this is the last thing I remember ... until daylight, approx 6 am.

I wasn't scared at any time, I was very intrigued and curious, until my next memory which has always bothered me.

[cruza-1]

I also have gaps in my memory. . . .I suspect the answers lie in dream state lessons.

Thank you for another lead kirolak. I have just done a quick search on Dream State Lessons. Certain events I have been full awake and fully aware, but others are very similar to being in a dream like state.
For example, the memories of the two crafts / rooms I was in. I remember them vividly, yet they seem to be akin to recollecting / recalling a dream.
As if you are waking up from an anesthesia / operation.

[seah]

hi cruza-1

I'm not sure I understand what answers you're looking for. Whatever vague memories you have of any of the encounters are your best clues of piecing together something...but what would that be? My feeling is we are all abducted, some of us just remember some of it, while most don't, but from our vantage point it is impossible to know for sure what, why, when and where.

For instance, my last memory of an encounter is of two beings working on the back of my knee in a room filled with blue light. Were they hurting me or healing me? Did it happen the night I remember or months before? Was I on a craft or in my bedroom?

My advice is that you focus on strengthening the connection you have with your higher self, and trust only it.
All the best.

[cruza-1]

Thank you for your input .... seah

This was my 2nd encounter, the 1st was when I was about 9 yrs old.
I was on the top bunk bed, I woke up, looked out the window and an extremely bright light flashed me.
This is all I remember, as previously stated I have no memory prior to this and very few after this for a few yrs.

An encounter in 1989, this is where my real issue stems.

This is what I was told by my then partners father.

When I arrived back at the motel I was drifting in and out off consciousness all day and evening.
That night what appeared to be a bright light appeared under the door to my room. When they entered the room the light went out. My eyes where rolled back in their sockets with an unbelievable amount of perspiration. Yet I was not hot to touch.
They washed me down, changed the pillow [it was saturated] put the ceiling fan on max then left the room.
Half hour later they saw the light under the door again ... entered the room ... nothing.
Again, I was soaked, perspiration filled my eye sockets, navel area and was poring out everywhere.
Again, I was cleaned up, and they left the room. The discussion was to call an ambulance or not.
When the light appeared again, even brighter. When they entered the room I was hovering / levitating horizontally three foot above the bed.
There was large golden / yellow hieroglyphic style writing moving in a anti clock wise direction on the ceiling. [this I can recall ... like a dream]

My then partners father preceded to have a few stiff drinks, never spoke of it again.
He has since passed away, my then partner & her mother up to a few years ago acknowledged what happened ... but refused to discuss it.

I might add I have had no bad experiences, even when I was in the their rooms. At no time have I felt threatened in any way.

[picloud]

I think you should check out a guy named Bright Garlick and his blog called ET&I. He is in constant contact with ETs and debunks a lot of the negative associations correlated with them. His experiences are fascinating, and there is a wealth of knowledge on extra terrestrials on his site. In general, ETs bring us no harm whatsoever, in fact to be a space faring race (according to Bright based on his experiences and conversations with ETs) you cannot be an aggressor and must reach a level of enlightenment before certain governing races allow such travel between worlds. Apparently such ideas of reptilian races are non existent, or in the classical sense where they are depicted as evil and out to control and enslave etc. There is nothing to fear other than fear itself it seems, and you should embrace the contact as a privellaged experience, as this possibly validates you and a certain trust between yourself and the ETs that have purposefully exposed themselves to you. I'd see it as kind of an honour. Though you have much to learn and reflect on from these experiences, I would definitely take the time to clarify things through meditation, seek help through hypnosis to unravel the regressed and perhaps even reestablish contact to "debrief" yourself from your experiences. I don't know a lot about ETs, all I know are from my personal experiences with them, and they have always been positive and enlightening for me. Some experiences have left me confused, but down the track in time and upon reflection I have learned their valuable lessons. So in summary, explore yourself, them and seek out to understand what this means for you as I believe these ETs aren't out there to make fancy light shows for us and appear to us for a jolly laugh. There is more to the story. Keep digging.

[cruza-1]

Hi Piotrcloud, thank you for your reply. I will look at Bright Garlick.
I agree with all that you have said, I have learnt and seen many things through all my encounters. The main points I believe, as you stated are;
1) The level of enlightenment that must be achieved firstly.
2) There is nothing to fear, [other than fear itself].

To be honest, I can't find the correct nor appropriate words to explain what it is that I am missing, feeling or what I have learned ... it is the whole experience.
I can say it is bigger than life itself. The only example I can refer to is ... the emotional experience the fella in 'Close Encounters' had.

[Inversion]

You might want to go through Google images to match the hieroglyphs. In Jim Sparks' book The Keepers he has the Grays complete alphabet. Most Gray abductions are multigenerational and older generations are usually tightlipped. They showed Jim images of himself in past lives and one was of a primate. It's very common for abductees to develop unusual medical conditions and contract illnesses. The adults relocating is probably triggered by fear or induced by mind control to prevent a coherent picture of what's going on.