Losing it?

[6pounder]

i feel like im being disconnected from who i am. its like all i preach about the bad side of human beheiviour is what im becoming now... i cant really put it into words.
simple things that showed me that im losing it:
1. my ego - its kick out in every single action i make if its words or decisions.
2. i lost my kindness - i treat all who surround me like im superior to them.
3. thinking im better - ive noticed that what ever i say sounds like im tryng to proove im better then someone.
4. ive become very angry - practicly about every single thing around me.

does any one feel the same lately or had this issue and can give me an advice to figure out how to get back on my feet? any help will be highly appriciated.

[samildamach]

Switch of the news the t.v the radio.remember what u preach u become.take a break and remember to laugh and smile.yes nearly everyone here has been through this and the sence of feeling alone.does no one understand what's going on wake up,I bet that's how u feel right now

[TargeT]

Seems like a lot of angst.... lots of possible advise on this one, but what works for you only you will find.

you could try realizing that everything is exactly as it is suppose to be and all of these challenges are what you pre-arranged & are nothing you can't handle; that nothing in life happens with out a purpose & your job isn't to struggle, just find that purpose.

You could be thankful that your ego keeps you rooted in individualism so you can fully experience this reality (just be cognoscente of it's influence, once you've practiced avoiding taking action on what ego prompts you to do you'll find it's easier the next time, and the next time.. practice makes perfect!)

in other words.... Our (your) reality is completely dependent on your perspective, on how you interpret the data you receive; maybe you are trying to tell your self something. Are you living too dissonant a life style (moral ideals and life style not lining up, or some similar situation)?

there's probably a year or relevant context that is missing here... can you give anymore?

[genevieve]

6pounder--

Yes, I've been there, off and on for about six years.

Here's what worked/works for me: After hearing someone say something I deem incredibly stupid or ignorant, I shift my focus to my heart for about five seconds before I speak. It really helps. I've learned patience. I still have friends.

Best wishes to you.

Peace Love Joy & Harmony,
genevieve

[RunningDeer]

Don’t be to hard on yourself. http://avalonlibrary.net/paula/Recovered/smileys-hugs-765537_zpso1eaenyy.gif You’re honing into an awareness of the voice that believes all ‘should’ be in balance to HIS liking. (ego)

Higher Self reminds, “Let’s play and feel the solace that was momentarily forgotten. No need for controls or to control others. Let them be them. They’ll figure it out when they’ve had enough.”

In addition, do a self-check to see if you are picking up on energy that abounds and labeling it as your own. If that’s the case then one suggestion is a statement of non-consent by Eric Raines a.k.a Eric Pilgrim : “What’s mine is mine and what’s yours is yours. This is my energy, give it back. This is your energy, here you go.”

6pounder, I admire your recognition and decision to get to the to the bottom of it rather than blame others and/or hide in the poor victim game.

I know you know the above. Sometimes it helps to hear in another’s voice.

Peace,
RunningDeer

http://avalonlibrary.net/paula/Recovered/wip-1s_zpsc9nmsi39.GIF

What do I do to center? I visit with my pigeon friends. (among other things)


Pigeon Medicine
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[6pounder]

thanks alot guys that gives me alot of clearance. if noticed that my mouth is what making all the truble. i cant control on what is coming out of it towards whats happening around me. i defenetly should take a few moments and "digest" what im about to say. im being automatic with all of what is coming out of me and i dont like it. ill practice being silent and let things be as they are without thinking of myself as being responsible to change the situation towords my liking.

[Matthew]

Good share. Roughly similar for me going back two weeks. I rose and I fell. Now I've fallen I can rise again.

I'm not so angry now.. I was more angry feeling than I usual feel. I figured out what my voice needed to say for my situation and managed to say it.

I think I have gained a little foresight and possibly wisdom, and it's uncomfortable because now I'm not as in denial. The words I usually say as a reflex action no longer fit. It is irritating as I need to think about things I usually take for granted. Perhaps irritating like as it is for creatures that shead their skin. Best of success 6pounder with this transition.

[giovonni]

i feel like im being disconnected from who i am. its like all i preach about the bad side of human beheiviour is what im becoming now... i cant really put it into words.
simple things that showed me that im losing it:
1. my ego - its kick out in every single action i make if its words or decisions.
2. i lost my kindness - i treat all who surround me like im superior to them.
3. thinking im better - ive noticed that what ever i say sounds like im tryng to proove im better then someone.
4. ive become very angry - practicly about every single thing around me.

does any one feel the same lately or had this issue and can give me an advice to figure out how to get back on my feet? any help will be highly appriciated.


When i was your age, i was working in an emergency room dept, everyday was a reminder to me how fortunate I truly was ... Practice listening more instead of talking ... Smile more ... Nothing is more reassuring to other humans than seeing a vibrant young smile emulating at them ... Find something to do that might lesson the self importance of yourself and then give until it hurts ... And finally practice humility ...

ie example from another your age ...


At age 25, in 2002, I was the top salesperson in the country for Radio Disney. I was making great money. I was productive, successful and confident.

I was also cocky, arrogant, and disliked. I was downright unlikeable.

A year later, I appeared on national TV on the reality show Paradise Hotel, and promptly drank too much and totally humiliated myself in front of millions of people.

It took humiliation in order to teach me the virtue of humility. The thing is, no matter how smart, successful, good-looking or special you are, nobody likes a bragger. Nobody likes arrogance. Nobody likes cockiness.

It's really important to practice humility, to develop into a better leader and a better person. Humility and vulnerability make us more likeable. I have a long way to go still, but each day I remind myself just how small I am in the amazing, wondrous world around me, and that helps me to stay humble. Time with my kids, who don't care about my business success but just want to spend time with me- helps me to stay humble.

PS ~ I have found working/being with animals keeps me centered and in balance ... :)

[RunningDeer]

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[dawnawakeningfreespirit]

Something worth looking into is vipassana meditation. A 10 day course. It is donation/free or you can serve, centres are located all over the globe and it is not of any particular religion. This is a gift to humankind to unplug, learn to meditate and bring yourself back into balance. Look it up, if it resonates go for it. I promise you, you will not regret it and will learn techniques to get you through this world. Be well :star:

[Limor Wolf]

i feel like im being disconnected from who i am. its like all i preach about the bad side of human beheiviour is what im becoming now... i cant really put it into words.
simple things that showed me that im losing it:
1. my ego - its kick out in every single action i make if its words or decisions.
2. i lost my kindness - i treat all who surround me like im superior to them.
3. thinking im better - ive noticed that what ever i say sounds like im tryng to proove im better then someone.
4. ive become very angry - practicly about every single thing around me.

does any one feel the same lately or had this issue and can give me an advice to figure out how to get back on my feet? any help will be highly appriciated.

Hi 6pounder, Things seems to be coming to scrutiny for you, a result of the period of the unique time we are in which floods whatever it is that needs to come up, quite a bit of intensive energy, but you seem to have catched the ball and do very well by observing, sensing and thinking - 'is that me?', 'is that what I want to be?'

And by that you have won half way. Now, if you take a look at those tendencies, and if you feel that something of it perheps may not serve you well, here is an interesting work for you. Some small steps taken, stopping before reacting, consciously changing your response. It's fun to excercise really (if it wasn't so intense..), and when small changes are made and small reaction replaced, then you have conquered those 'demons'. And most importantly, be forgiving to yourself, you seem to have some good awarness at your bag of tools which is really precious ~

Good luck!

Limor

[onawah]

I think for some people, myself included, those symptoms come along with waking up and becoming aware of how easily people are deluded by TPTB, and of how afraid most are to join us and begin to see the truth.
What helps me is to remember that I was once the same and waking up was a lengthy and very painful process, during which I lost hope and faith in pretty much everything I had formerly believed in (though much of that was later restored, only in a more grounded and sensible way).
I also think that there are Archons who really don't want us to wake up, and persistently persecute us for doing so by whatever energetic means they have at their disposal, which are considerable, since they thrive on fear and hate and there is plenty of that to go around on the planet presently.
If you give yourself credit for having had the courage and intelligence to open your eyes, and forgive others for not having the same temerity...the time will come when they will no longer be able to hide, and when it does, the awake ones will be there to help them get over the worst, just as there have been awake ones helping us all along the way...
...And it will not all have been in vain...

[greybeard]

i feel like im being disconnected from who i am. its like all i preach about the bad side of human beheiviour is what im becoming now... i cant really put it into words.
simple things that showed me that im losing it:
1. my ego - its kick out in every single action i make if its words or decisions.
2. i lost my kindness - i treat all who surround me like im superior to them.
3. thinking im better - ive noticed that what ever i say sounds like im tryng to proove im better then someone.
4. ive become very angry - practicly about every single thing around me.

does any one feel the same lately or had this issue and can give me an advice to figure out how to get back on my feet? any help will be highly appriciated.

6pounder been there and could still get into that mode.
You are not your thoughts--you did not invite them, you don’t have to buy into them, or act out what comes up.
The moment you get these kind of experiences know that you are winning, you are transcending ego and it is putting up quite a fight.
This stage of your spiritual evolution will pass--then comes a quiet time--what you are currently experiencing will go and come back but it is getting weaker each time.
Kindness comes and goes---compassion will arise when it is required.
Anger arises and dissipates.
The last resort of the ego is to claim specialness--so really you are winning.
As the saying goes "This too shall pass"

Love Chris

[WhiteLove]

6pounder, this might seem bad or wrong to you about what's going on in your consciousness, but I have noticed that things are accelerating really quickly now. During the last week or so things have really accelerated forward even beyond what I have expected. My prediction of the stock markets doing a final suck until it blows like a balloon seems to come true. Every day now I am becoming more and more certain that yes, the markets are going to crash very hard later this year and it's going to be a very cleansing process in many ways. We are heading right into the eye of the storm and we need to, because the false has to untangle from our consciousness, so that we can become who we really are and so that we can harmonize with nature towards the fulfillment of God's grand miracle.

As we are now accelerating forward I encourage you to not judge the "seemingly negative" things that are going on, as things that are there in your life to cause you long term damage, instead re-consider that idea - what is now happening is really what needs to happen, that what is going on only appears negative on the surface but is actually there to support you forward towards not only being in truth but also telling you what is not true, so that you can know that what is now going on serves to make your consciousness more clear and to make you discover new perspectives on things that you never thought of before, totally new things.

So the recipe is to be yourself, to give negative thoughts of what's going on a chance to be observed from more positive perspectives, to understand that we are going through a consciousness acceleration process, that you are infinitely supported by an unconditionally loving God and that in your own soul steps that are truly you, you will find peace and you will find a soft pillow in those foot steps that are there to protect you and to inform you about who you really are as you are now accelerating through this time of positive must-happen change.

Essentially I want to encourage you that you are infinitely important in creation, that you exist in a creation that is infinitely miraculous, that you are here to discover who you are and that you are supported in an accelerated way on this soul journey. We are all in this together and it has been orchestrated by very light density beings so that we can experience more of who we really are, who our soulmate really is and what creation really is. Because those are some of the limitations that are very active in our consciousness, that we are now learning to untangle before we move on to a higher level of consciousness.

The reason why we ARE waking up, why we ARE in an awakening process, is because nature accelerates, we think it's constant, but everything accelerates including our consciousness. Therefore the rate of change is picking up, in every way. And it is to our benefit, because creation is not there to cause us harm, that's not how God is. God is infinitely miraculous and that it is this grand miracle that we are now witnessing.

[Jayren]

You are awake, if you can feel this then i know i am not alone either. Slow down. You have good intentions but what the world has shown you is not what you'd like. Im glad you are being honest.

I have some of these traits but i dont do it intentionally i try to share my knowledge as i know i am equal as to everything else. You're not really preaching, you are telling the truth and most likely you pick up on aggression because people are aggresive to you and its like sometimes you dont even know where it comes from. Best thing i can tell you is dont take **** from nobody and have respect for everybody, respect goes a long way not just for humans but all of creation.

[Sierra]

thanks alot guys that gives me alot of clearance. if noticed that my mouth is what making all the truble. i cant control on what is coming out of it towards whats happening around me. i defenetly should take a few moments and "digest" what im about to say. im being automatic with all of what is coming out of me and i dont like it. ill practice being silent and let things be as they are without thinking of myself as being responsible to change the situation towords my liking.

I've heard Mars is retrograde in Scorpio for the next six months. That'll do it...

Makes for hair triggered responses.

When my back went out, I was shocked to find what I thought was my good character was only good health. It is a real struggle at first to do what one has to do in the face of adversity to be as "good" as one used to be.

Two steps forward, one step back, we lurch along. :)

[Matt P]

i feel like im being disconnected from who i am. its like all i preach about the bad side of human beheiviour is what im becoming now... i cant really put it into words.
simple things that showed me that im losing it:
1. my ego - its kick out in every single action i make if its words or decisions.
2. i lost my kindness - i treat all who surround me like im superior to them.
3. thinking im better - ive noticed that what ever i say sounds like im tryng to proove im better then someone.
4. ive become very angry - practicly about every single thing around me.

does any one feel the same lately or had this issue and can give me an advice to figure out how to get back on my feet? any help will be highly appriciated.

These are all your choice. Now that you recognize them (hardest part out of the way), make a new choice.

Matt

[RunningDeer]

Helpful repost of Mars retrograde:

I dug up some timely reminders. I’m feeling ‘stuff’. Apologies if this comes across as programing anyone. I file it under 'knowledge'.

What to expect? Irritation, frustration and excess energy in self and/or others. The good news is it’s sparks reevaluation, revelation and transparency in self and the world at large.

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Heads up. Knowledge brings clarity and understanding or is it forewarned is forearmed? Coming in February is an atypical situation where there’s a Mars retrograde shadow period for six months. Usually, Mars moves from sign to sign in six to eight weeks.


Mars in 2016
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Uranus in 2016, by Steve Judd Astrology (https://www.youtube.com/channel/UC5cNm7NHg3fJUVQM1Bcfmdw?spfreload=10). Something for everybody. Uranus is about change. Allow change to flow through your life. Uranus is in Aries is here for the entire year and it represents a beacon of hope. It fosters self empowerment for individuals over the coming year.


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[enfoldedblue]

Hi,
I think for many of us the initial stages of awakening are often mental in nature. But if we limit ourselves to the mental realm we naturally will experience the exact things you describe. I suspect that what might be happening is that you are on the precipice of a heart awakening. The mind is the realm of the ego. The heart is the realm of oneness. When we shift from a mind dominated perspective to a heart based one qualities like kindness, humbleness and love of self and others comes to the front.
The fact that you recognize that this is occurring and want to change is awesome :) and a sure indication that you are on the right track!

[seah]

i feel like im being disconnected from who i am. its like all i preach about the bad side of human beheiviour is what im becoming now... i cant really put it into words.
simple things that showed me that im losing it:
1. my ego - its kick out in every single action i make if its words or decisions.
2. i lost my kindness - i treat all who surround me like im superior to them.
3. thinking im better - ive noticed that what ever i say sounds like im tryng to proove im better then someone.
4. ive become very angry - practicly about every single thing around me.

does any one feel the same lately or had this issue and can give me an advice to figure out how to get back on my feet? any help will be highly appriciated.

hey, 6pounder, this is a very natural reaction for an ego at risk of being diminished. You are on the right track. When the ego feels irrelevant, it inflates itself by any way it can. It will use the very attributes that sets you apart from the pack to reestablish it's power over you. To get it back under control you just need awareness. Watch what it does to gain sustenance, watch it like a hawk, and do the opposite of what it wants.

[NeedleThreader]

"Before you speak, let your words pass through three gates:

"At the first gate, ask yourself “Is is true?”

At the second gate ask, “Is it necessary?”

At the third gate ask, “Is it kind?”

~ Rumi

[ghostrider]

Sign of the times , henoch foretold the love of many will wax cold ...

[Jhonie]

Allow, observe, release.

[ghostrider]

The far reaching arrms of our galaxies central sun hits us without being obstructed , I know it sounds crazy but , the Ts said it would speed up our world, our climate, our bodies, minds , animals , everything ... it will take patience and strength , we will adjust , it happens every 26,580 years as our our sol system completes a loop around the central sun , it always brings great change ...we have spiral arms in our galaxy, we are currently in between spiral arms , revolutionary cosmic rays blanket everything ...

[Tyy1907]

6pounder, this might seem bad or wrong to you about what's going on in your consciousness, but I have noticed that things are accelerating really quickly now. During the last week or so things have really accelerated forward even beyond what I have expected. My prediction of the stock markets doing a final suck until it blows like a balloon seems to come true. Every day now I am becoming more and more certain that yes, the markets are going to crash very hard later this year and it's going to be a very cleansing process in many ways. We are heading right into the eye of the storm and we need to, because the false has to untangle from our consciousness, so that we can become who we really are and so that we can harmonize with nature towards the fulfillment of God's grand miracle.

As we are now accelerating forward I encourage you to not judge the "seemingly negative" things that are going on, as things that are there in your life to cause you long term damage, instead re-consider that idea - what is now happening is really what needs to happen, that what is going on only appears negative on the surface but is actually there to support you forward towards not only being in truth but also telling you what is not true, so that you can know that what is now going on serves to make your consciousness more clear and to make you discover new perspectives on things that you never thought of before, totally new things.

So the recipe is to be yourself, to give negative thoughts of what's going on a chance to be observed from more positive perspectives, to understand that we are going through a consciousness acceleration process, that you are infinitely supported by an unconditionally loving God and that in your own soul steps that are truly you, you will find peace and you will find a soft pillow in those foot steps that are there to protect you and to inform you about who you really are as you are now accelerating through this time of positive must-happen change.

Essentially I want to encourage you that you are infinitely important in creation, that you exist in a creation that is infinitely miraculous, that you are here to discover who you are and that you are supported in an accelerated way on this soul journey. We are all in this together and it has been orchestrated by very light density beings so that we can experience more of who we really are, who our soulmate really is and what creation really is. Because those are some of the limitations that are very active in our consciousness, that we are now learning to untangle before we move on to a higher level of consciousness.

The reason why we ARE waking up, why we ARE in an awakening process, is because nature accelerates, we think it's constant, but everything accelerates including our consciousness. Therefore the rate of change is picking up, in every way. And it is to our benefit, because creation is not there to cause us harm, that's not how God is. God is infinitely miraculous and that it is this grand miracle that we are now witnessing.

Totally agree with WhiteLoves post above and as far as I'm concerned anyone who claims they're not experiencing or noticing a "quickening" of reality is flat out lying. Our baggage is coming to the surface exponentially and it seems karma is becoming instant. But it's alright it's all good I'm just gonna ride the wave as best I can as there are awesome supportING people that have been placed in my reality to help me overcome and shed the old skin. Take care everyone.

[Michelle Marie]

I think for some people, myself included, those symptoms come along with waking up and becoming aware of how easily people are deluded by TPTB, and of how afraid most are to join us and begin to see the truth.
What helps me is to remember that I was once the same and waking up was a lengthy and very painful process, during which I lost hope and faith in pretty much everything I had formerly believed in (though much of that was later restored, only in a more grounded and sensible way).
I also think that there are Archons who really don't want us to wake up, and persistently persecute us for doing so by whatever energetic means they have at their disposal, which are considerable, since they thrive on fear and hate and there is plenty of that to go around on the planet presently.
If you give yourself credit for having had the courage and intelligence to open your eyes, and forgive others for not having the same temerity...the time will come when they will no longer be able to hide, and when it does, the awake ones will be there to help them get over the worst, just as there have been awake ones helping us all along the way...
...And it will not all have been in vain...

This is one of the most awesome things I have ever read!

Spot on.

Don't resist. Don't let it persist. Reconcile this paradox.

:heart: Michelle Marie

[Bubu]

maybe its more accurate to say that you have lost it and now you are becoming aware that you dont have it. So Greybeard could be correct in saying that you are winning.

[Billy]

i feel like im being disconnected from who i am. its like all i preach about the bad side of human beheiviour is what im becoming now... i cant really put it into words.
simple things that showed me that im losing it:
1. my ego - its kick out in every single action i make if its words or decisions.
2. i lost my kindness - i treat all who surround me like im superior to them.
3. thinking im better - ive noticed that what ever i say sounds like im tryng to proove im better then someone.
4. ive become very angry - practicly about every single thing around me.

does any one feel the same lately or had this issue and can give me an advice to figure out how to get back on my feet? any help will be highly appriciated.

All i can say is, well done 6pounder. It took me up to my early 40s before i recognised and acknowledged the archetypes within me that no longer served my higher good.
Remembering that the ego does not like change. But can be trained to accept change. And when you make a conscious decision the subconscious takes a while to catch up.The next stage is to go within, say thank you for being with me but you no longer serve me. I let you go with love. Be patient with yourself.

[Sunny-side-up]

i feel like im being disconnected from who i am. its like all i preach about the bad side of human beheiviour is what im becoming now... i cant really put it into words.
simple things that showed me that im losing it:
1. my ego - its kick out in every single action i make if its words or decisions.
2. i lost my kindness - i treat all who surround me like im superior to them.
3. thinking im better - ive noticed that what ever i say sounds like im tryng to proove im better then someone.
4. ive become very angry - practicly about every single thing around me.

does any one feel the same lately or had this issue and can give me an advice to figure out how to get back on my feet? any help will be highly appriciated.

All part of your evolution and who you are :)
Also being part of the greater awake you.

Go with this flow but protect your self/emotions by being/applying 'Mindfulness Techniques'

Welcome to the next level down the 'Rabbit-Hole' my friend :sun:

[Soul Safari]

Ive been going through many changes also. Especially since this 'Blood Moon' saga, it has increased dramatically.

Some days I don't want to have anybody around me. I can't even be bothered to catch up with friends at weekends as it feels like im just disconnected from their world (whatever that is these days) Im a DJ and have a gig this weekend in front a of a few thousand people. Im going through records now and it just doesn't make sense to me at the minute. Im not sure if it's to do with frequency of the music or what? But something I hold dearly to my heart feels like it's slipping away. In the meantime, I find it hard as everything I've done for the last 30 years feels like it serves no purpose. I have to really push myself to get out of the house and get my ass to the gym. My emotions are up and down and feel like my insides are being pushed and pulled all over the place. Constant ringing in my ears and my short term memory is totally shot to bits! It doesn't get any easier when there is nobody around me ANYWHERE in my area going through the same thing.

Basically - It feels like my life is on hold for the time being while I ride this out.

You are not alone..

[ulli]

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[RunningDeer]

Totally agree with WhiteLoves post above and as far as I'm concerned anyone who claims they're not experiencing or noticing a "quickening" of reality is flat out lying. Our baggage is coming to the surface exponentially and it seems karma is becoming instant.

Rather than ’flat out lying’ some may not have put together their reasons for over indulgence in drugs, alcohol, excessive work, shopping, eating, TV are symptoms of masking emotions that are too painful to confront. Others may be wrapped in the passage of time because of family obligations haven't had the time or energy to reflect on inner stirrings. And there are those who’s coping mechanism for pain and suffering is denial. Which has been reinforced by a game that’s been on tick-tock since the alteration of humanity.

The ’flat out lie’ comes from god(s) that perpetuate through layers and layers of manipulation of non-stop brainwashing. We’re teasing out what’s truth. Each one of us that does, helps those that stir out of their artificially inducted slumber. No words are needed on levels that the sleepy ones will hear and spark inner knowing. Exponential it’s happening. The lie cannot withstand the frequencies that the organic beings, the co-creators are manifesting at this historical juncture. The originators of the ‘flat out lie’ are soon to be space dust.

RunningDeer ♡

[Soul Safari]

I welcome these new found energies and it feels like the 'Beginning of the beginning' for me (if that makes sense) and I know the 'old' me has to let go. But it's how to move forward from now on.. I mean, it feels like im running solo, on my own - away from the crowd. Im trying to be creative and productive during this time. But it's running at such a slow pace and nothing is fluid. Lazy! Would totally sum it up..

Trying to keep positive here:heart:

[guido]

hello Sixpounder,


Think about the first thing you told us back in November and try to do it again.

With love,

Guido

[eagle0027]

Google ascension symptoms...a lot of the physical and phsyco things we are going through i am sure are a result of this...clearing away the old emotions.

Be well

[6pounder]

hello Sixpounder,


Think about the first thing you told us back in November and try to do it again.

With love,

Guido

puts me in shock to see that huge change ive made in such a short time from back then to this moment. like being stuck in a free fall till ill hit the ground and be able to raise again.

[greybeard]

Ive been going through many changes also. Especially since this 'Blood Moon' saga, it has increased dramatically.

Some days I don't want to have anybody around me. I can't even be bothered to catch up with friends at weekends as it feels like im just disconnected from their world (whatever that is these days) Im a DJ and have a gig this weekend in front a of a few thousand people. Im going through records now and it just doesn't make sense to me at the minute. Im not sure if it's to do with frequency of the music or what? But something I hold dearly to my heart feels like it's slipping away. In the meantime, I find it hard as everything I've done for the last 30 years feels like it serves no purpose. I have to really push myself to get out of the house and get my ass to the gym. My emotions are up and down and feel like my insides are being pushed and pulled all over the place. Constant ringing in my ears and my short term memory is totally shot to bits! It doesn't get any easier when there is nobody around me ANYWHERE in my area going through the same thing.

Basically - It feels like my life is on hold for the time being while I ride this out.

You are not alone..

Most of what you have posted Soul Safari is relevant to me but I dont take it personally.
Concentration level is poor too.
I have been a professional bass guitarist and now I have a problem following the chord progressions that should be easy for me.

Also there has been problems with the car--now the TV has packed it--the fridge is acting up--the laptop crashes after 30 minutes use.
Is all this coincidence????---I wonder.
Yes loosing it in quite a few ways.

Chris

[ZooLife]

I experience a fluctuation of sorts.

I have moments of such clarity that they are breath taking beyond the breath taking experience one gets from nature. And then, seemingly longer moments, that can be defined as 'losing it'.

The whole experience reminds me of the analogy of a dolphin and it's leaps out of the water only to return to the depths and so forth.

[3(C)+me]

I can relate to what is thread is about.
The extremes in emotion and also thoughts, I just see it as long repressed stuff coming up to get noticed. I will put myself in observe mode if it gets too intense.
If I feel frustrated, I just step aside and observe the frustration and what about the situation that is frustrating me. Lots of impatience, lots of "I can' be around this person right now" but I attempt not to judge it as good or bad (ego always want to put in the good or bad category)
It just is.
The thing about this time is the loss loss loss, feels like you are losing yourself.
Things that once interested you or you did easily now it's kind of flat and their is no interest.
The void is kind of unsettling.
Once I can see it in the observe mode, it kind of runs out of energy and falls away.
I have to monitor my thoughts/feelings because I will get some thought that is negative or restrictive in some way which leads to feeling this or that way or the feeling comes first than the thought shows up and if I can catch it in time and go in observe mode it falls away.
Now I ask myself through out the day, how I am feeling right now.

What is working for you right now? Don't forget to acknowledge that.
It does help

And yes, you are not alone.

[Soul Safari]

I like this -

The thing about this time is the loss loss loss, feels like you are losing yourself.
Things that once interested you or you did easily now it's kind of flat and their is no interest.
The void is kind of unsettling.

Yes, the void would be excellent way to describe it. Identity is kinda lost...All my years I surrounded myself with a lot of culture. And right now it makes no sense.

I gotta jump around on stage this Friday and pretend im enjoying lol

Just gotta get on with it:Party:

[Tyy1907]

Totally agree with WhiteLoves post above and as far as I'm concerned anyone who claims they're not experiencing or noticing a "quickening" of reality is flat out lying. Our baggage is coming to the surface exponentially and it seems karma is becoming instant.

Rather than ’flat out lying’ some may not have put together their reasons for over indulgence in drugs, alcohol, excessive work, shopping, eating, TV are symptoms of masking emotions that are too painful to confront. Others may be wrapped in the passage of time because of family obligations haven't had the time or energy to reflect on inner stirrings. And there are those who’s coping mechanism for pain and suffering is denial. Which has been reinforced by a game that’s been on tick-tock since the alteration of humanity.

The ’flat out lie’ comes from god(s) that perpetuate through layers and layers of manipulation of non-stop brainwashing. We’re teasing out what’s truth. Each one of us that does, helps those that stir out of their artificially inducted slumber. No words are needed on levels that the sleepy ones will hear and spark inner knowing. Exponential it’s happening. The lie cannot withstand the frequencies that the organic beings, the co-creators are manifesting at this historical juncture. The originators of the ‘flat out lie’ are soon to be space dust.

RunningDeer ♡

For sure I think that denial is used to cope with what's happening as well as alcohol, etc as you mentioned. When u think about it nobody has told us that things would speed up like they are. If everyone knew that changes in our planet would start affecting us would it help? Maybe it would help some to know as some feel like they're going crazy these days, myself included.

[ZooLife]

Totally agree with WhiteLoves post above and as far as I'm concerned anyone who claims they're not experiencing or noticing a "quickening" of reality is flat out lying. Our baggage is coming to the surface exponentially and it seems karma is becoming instant.

Rather than ’flat out lying’ some may not have put together their reasons for over indulgence in drugs, alcohol, excessive work, shopping, eating, TV are symptoms of masking emotions that are too painful to confront. Others may be wrapped in the passage of time because of family obligations haven't had the time or energy to reflect on inner stirrings. And there are those who’s coping mechanism for pain and suffering is denial. Which has been reinforced by a game that’s been on tick-tock since the alteration of humanity.

The ’flat out lie’ comes from god(s) that perpetuate through layers and layers of manipulation of non-stop brainwashing. We’re teasing out what’s truth. Each one of us that does, helps those that stir out of their artificially inducted slumber. No words are needed on levels that the sleepy ones will hear and spark inner knowing. Exponential it’s happening. The lie cannot withstand the frequencies that the organic beings, the co-creators are manifesting at this historical juncture. The originators of the ‘flat out lie’ are soon to be space dust.

RunningDeer ♡

For sure I think that denial is used to cope with what's happening as well as alcohol, etc as you mentioned. When u think about it nobody has told us that things would speed up like they are. If everyone knew that changes in our planet would start affecting us would it help? Maybe it would help some to know as some feel like they're going crazy these days, myself included.

As a people it sure feels like we, globally, are well on that path and in some ways we are already there and have been for a long time. Perhaps we are just perceiving it more accurately now?

[RunningDeer]

For sure I think that denial is used to cope with what's happening as well as alcohol, etc as you mentioned. When u think about it nobody has told us that things would speed up like they are. If everyone knew that changes in our planet would start affecting us would it help? Maybe it would help some to know as some feel like they're going crazy these days, myself included.

When u think about it nobody has told us that things would speed up like they are.

I agree, Tyy. I’ve followed the speeding up for several years. Though, my experience of it began in 1994 and by 2004, I left the cuckoo-clock world.

I followed my heart-gut. It was time to go deeper. Into what? I had no clue. I only knew I needed time for a journey of reflection, research and continued honing in on the synchronicites that pointed along the way. Most important is/was to pay attention to the natural-body-GPS which includes the beyond parts.


Maybe it would help some to know as some feel like they're going crazy these days, myself included.

Absolutely, which is one reason why I’m on planet earth at this time. Too, there’s a sprinkling of my crazies over the roads of Avalon.

As for ‘out there’? I feel my way through the timing on how, what and when for the awakening ones. It’s natural to want to lessen everyone’s pain. Push too soon may cause them to withdraw. And there’s something to be said for others to empower themselves. A support role takes miles of patience. I drop small bits they can relate to. That builds relationship to share more.

Family is the challenge. Their comfort level is to see you in the role of yesteryear. Anything else is a reminder of how they've put off the poke-pokes of their Higher Self. I press on because I notice when I get them one-on-one, they’re more apt to ask questions. Peer pressure and group think…fingers crossed...that those vanish when the ickies and inorganics turn to space dust.

RunningDeer ♡

[jounai]

i feel like im being disconnected from who i am. its like all i preach about the bad side of human beheiviour is what im becoming now... i cant really put it into words.
simple things that showed me that im losing it:
1. my ego - its kick out in every single action i make if its words or decisions.
2. i lost my kindness - i treat all who surround me like im superior to them.
3. thinking im better - ive noticed that what ever i say sounds like im tryng to proove im better then someone.
4. ive become very angry - practicly about every single thing around me.

does any one feel the same lately or had this issue and can give me an advice to figure out how to get back on my feet? any help will be highly appriciated.

Might be that you are starting to clear out your unconscious mind, bringing it up into the light of your consciousness. Most people on Earth carry around hate, fear and whatnot without knowing it in their unconscious mind. Someone can be very nice but still be deeply in fear when you start looking on the unconscious patterns. What you experience doesn't have to be something negative. Use it in a positive manner and you will get an positive effect out of it. When you are really brave you can be deep in fear and still be unaffected. When you truly love you can be deep in hate and still be in love. When you are really happy you can be deep in unhappiness and still be happy. The experience of your created negative unconscious is a necessity for you to create a positive overall experience. :)

[Arcturian108]

6pounder, a couple of things that have worked for me are Seraphim Healing work from this group: http://www.seraphimblueprint.com

Transcendental Meditation

Knowledge that we may have more than one soul in our bodies, controlling us sequentially. See book: Your Multiple Souls available on Amazon.

[onawah]

I've been reading an astrologer recently whose descriptions of how it feels to be living on planet Earth now seem very accurate to me, though I don't know much about charts or any of that. See a bit of what he's been saying lately here:
http://angstoic.com/2016/02/full-moon-in-virgo/
Also:
From: http://angstoic.com/2016/02/full-moon-in- Personal baggage. Emotional, psychological, infantile clingings that we employ as crutches or as weapons over others - culturally implanted baggage that rings through all of us, like some inherited, unsigned agreement to play along to a ballgame that we don't necessarily enjoy, let alone ever chose to be a part of...
Baggage.
Dead weight we cannot take along with us on our amazing journey forward.
All the money and resources in the world will soon not be able to secure a safe place. We are about to enter a most tense period in our social history. After a 3 year spell of squares from outer planets Uranus/Pluto, responsible for forming a revolutionary shift within our personal/global nervous system not felt since the mid 1960's, we are about to embrace a 3-4 month crisis that involves squares between socio/spiritual planets Jupiter/Saturn/Neptune - peaking on June 5 - in the very tense phenomenon of this Mutable Cross. The tight inclusion of Venus in the Gemini New Moon suggests that we come to a major crossroads in our evaluation of all of our relationships, and in an evolutionary sense, we are really about to release centuries of pent up karmic baggage.https://ci4.googleusercontent.com/proxy/HNIKnWVROteV5hUi72JwmNKAFcPVkWOsXxpSwvGv46aBMo5toXF-g7TAw7TN8h5f9tUFgKz6F-VwXPxdEWPBqZ5qi2c71kD9H_1Cs4ONtia9OPczaeYbVVi0ejCG_1G-TXB220YSj8Q3A0XioS88V9C_4vr3Ix9-_FvBy7U=s0-d-e1-ft#https://gallery.mailchimp.com/b9655bdd5f5b908d0594c583c/images/26254395-1e9f-4961-a2df-acb4407868c8.png

[lightseeker]

6pounder, I am glad to hear what you have shared, I too feel disconnected and alone at times when I try to share what I know and have discovered. I have been called all kinds of things, conspiracy nut, crazy, and some words I can't type here.

Yes it makes me angry and I at times have become very defensive and intolerant to others ignorance and dis belief. it has caused me to pretty much keep things to myself. it has also created a rift between my partner and myself. it is up and down and not always like this. But like many others here whose posts I have read share similar feelings and experiences as your self and myself.

I am grateful to know that I am not alone with these frustrations and feelings, it gives me comfort to know this and I hope it does the same for you.

I have been a member of projectavalon for a long time but seldom post comments or sign in to do so. But I do read the posts almost daily. I have learned a lot from this community and am grateful for those who take part in it.

I hope you feel less frustrated and alone 6pounder. The feelings that you have and are experiencing have been felt by many. We are doing what we should be doing, and the fact that we all care deeply as you have also articulated your feelings, is a testament to our concern for others, and commitment to truth. I often forget that some people are not always ready to hear what any of us has to say. This use to puzzle me because I thought everything I was learning about false flags,cabals break away civilizations etc., was so clear and easy to grasp why couldn't others grasp the truth as I did.

I have learned that we every one sees and learns at a different pace. You might plant the seed of thought with some one and let it go. When they are ready that seed you planted will bear fruit some where down the line, when they are ready .

Thanks so much 6pounder for bringing this thread up and posting it. I have been feeling pretty alone for similar reasons. I guess I was drawn to PA and your post. It is just what I needed to hear from you and everyone else who has offered their thoughts and feelings. None of us are really alone certainly not on PA.
I will have to start commenting more frequently instead of just reading from the side lines.