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Zionbrion
18th March 2016, 07:47
Do you ever feel like you have multiple selfs? I am not talking about mutliple personalities, I am talking about different selfs...like the person you observe you are changes.

I think we all consistently change throughout our lives, and we are different people at different times, at least I am. Who we are at the time creates our life choices.

The reason I write this is that I had a very interesting experience tonight. I was browsing through my Pandora radio stations and I noticed a few stations I had not listened to in years, and some how when I was browsing to pick stations over the last 2 years I completely blocked out these options I chose tonight.

When I chose to pick one of these stations it was like a paradigm shift, or a blast to the past, which is the present.

Honestly, I have been pretty depressed over the last few years for no apparent reason. I am a tobacco smoker, roll my own organics, but its still a bit harsh on my lungs, and 3 weeks ago I stopped for 7 days. The first 3 days, they say are the hardest, but that is not true, it gets harder, depending on your level of addiction. I felt proud for the first 3 days, not really any emotional problems, and then after a week I decided I would just rather smoke then feel like this.

Flash forward, been smoking again. Huge rain storm(much needed in California!). Had some good hibernation. Then the sun came out. Oh my God! I remember who I was when the sun is out and its warm! Or I remember who I was when I smoked tobaccoo, or I remember who I was when I listened to that song.

As the observer of our beings it is constantly shifting.

It just amazed me when I Heard songs from lost station on my Pandora radio that it brought me back to a self which I missed dearly, and is much more joyful and excited about life. Optimistic.

For the last few years my "intuition" has felt nothing but doom and gloom for this world we live in. But somehow now I am feeling more optimism for our situation on this planet. I cannot say I believe in this David wilcock adventure, but I do believe we are headed towards a great future because humanity has a great awesomeness inside of it! We will persevere, and overcome all of these great obstacles that lie in front of us and create a better future for our children to co-create in. We are truly awakening as a species, and it will still probably be a slow process, but that is ok, that is how it has always been. Sorry, there will probably be no spontaneous acenscion, or great alien races to save us, we are our own saviours, we will overcome the disease of government, the bonds of debt slavery, the illusion of countries, to TRULY create a new world order. ;)

If you made it this far, thanks for reading my stream of conciousness.

OopsWrongPlanet?
18th March 2016, 10:49
Thanks for sharing this, Zionbrion.


Do you ever feel like you have multiple selfs? I am not talking about mutliple personalities, I am talking about different selfs...like the person you observe you are changes.

Here's a perspective. Yes, of course: 'me the dad', 'me the professional', 'me the creative person', 'me the friend', 'me the professional' and a whole host of others seem to present themselves, each with an attempt to be a successful 'me' but also fearing complete failure at being that 'me', and all COMPLETELY IMAGINARY. The true discovery and realisation of this can be literally mind-blowing, and also life-changing... that's from 'my own personal' experience. It seems that this is what Nisargadatta, Ramana Maharshi, Jiddu Krishnamurti, UG Kirshnamurti, as well as many more modern 'sages' (Tony Parsons, Darryl Bailey etc etc), also point to. But it's available to all to look and see through this illusion of separation and of being 'just a little finite me', (or, as you say, a series of them!).

There are sites such as Liberation Unleashed (http://liberationunleashed.com/ ) and others, where you can investigate this together with a guide if there is an urge to do so (all completely voluntary in the case of LU), looking into the direct experience of now, rather than all the mind accounts and unexamined beliefs regarding what is claimed to be true, especially in this vastly conditioned 'civilisation'.

Recommended, but... like I said.. it's just a perspective, and may not be right for everyone.

Good luck with your journey.

M

tessfreq
18th March 2016, 19:01
Thanks Zionbrion. I'm there with you.

The amazement that there is a happy optimistic self inside is truly refreshing when you’ve been depressed or following the doom and gloom for too long.

Here’s something I did recently that cracked me up, but also made me realize I should utilize my choice of where I hang out.

I was in my head sifting and sorting all the worries around for the umpteenth time, when I thought I would see what my heart thought about it. That wasn’t an original thought, it was my version of a technique a meditation teacher had taught to quiet the mind. So I moved all my worries down to my heart. This is going to sound silly, but it’s what came out when I did this. The heart was like, ‘YES!, AWESOME, GREAT PLAN, OH, and that idea you had a year ago, FANTASTIC!’ It went on like that. Every direction I was comtemplating for my life the heart was excited to be asked and had none of the comments my head has, like, ‘I’m not sure you can do that, that idea is tooo hard, let me go to the files and see how that hasn’t been accomplished in the past, etc’. Those things seem to be housed in the head, not the heart. It was like discovering another self, a less serious one, one who is game for anything I can muster the passion and energy for.


I think you are right about ‘heading towards a great future’. I see more and more people being able to invision what it looks like, which is the start of being able to create it for ourselves. It’s nice to move away from contemplating our demise.

Optimism, may it go viral. ☺

TargeT
18th March 2016, 19:13
Thanks for sharing this, Zionbrion.


Do you ever feel like you have multiple selfs? I am not talking about mutliple personalities, I am talking about different selfs...like the person you observe you are changes.

Here's a perspective. Yes, of course: 'me the dad', 'me the professional', 'me the creative person', 'me the friend',

I call them masks,, I wear one to work, one in areas I know I'll be observed by people whom I want to manage their perception of me, one I wear at home in front of my kids (trying to be the role model)... I have many for many situations & some are a blend of two, depending on my surroundings.

Since we are a judgemental lot I've found this is the easiest way to survive the forced interactions I have while doing what I must to put food on the table.


But I only started using masks after a lot of self analysis, I used to BE the mask... I wouldn't have liked myself very much if I had met myself back in 2005 or so... Hopefully I'm being more authentic now & just using the masks to manipulate my surroundings to my liking or out of necessity, not that the masks are manipulating me (though they do, to some extent).

zen deik
18th March 2016, 23:19
Fear of what others may think of me, makes me hide behind a mask...once that is no longer a motivating factor you're free to be yourself, but certain behavior is expected for a lot of different situations which I have my wife to instruct me in...

amor
19th March 2016, 05:39
I am myself here and you know how frightening that is.