Are they calling me?

[jahlion]

Hello!

I've been interested in Ufology and Spirituality for some months, now. Since then, I have noticed some strange activity in my psyche and my surroundings. Sometimes, out of nowhere, on nights where I'm feeling very connected to the universe, feeling the energy through my body, seeing colors very brightly and 100% in the present moment, I sense that something (ets?) is calling me. It has happened some 3 or 4 times, and at first (after getting started on spirituality but before ufology), I thought it was "God". Now, I believe it's some other kind of conscious being.
I start hearing strange noises and feelings on my body, sometimes I think about something and it feels like some other thing touches me from another dimension, like it's acknowledging the thought. Then, I feel an urge to go to a desolate place in nature where I've already gone before and in which I feel very good vibes. Sometimes, I call it off and don't go, but at other times (like today), I accept the challenge. At this point, I'd like to say it's kind of hard to explain, because it's very subjective, but I hope you guys from Avalon understand.
I arrived at a river some blocks from my mom's apartment in the country, feeling that special thing when you know you're supposed to go to that place in particular, all the while being very afraid because it was very dark, nobody on the streets, 2 a.m. I arrived there, stood still. Big amounts of energy through my body. Then, I kept feeling that "they" were calling me to go deeper into the woods. And there's the trouble.
I was dead afraid of seeing an extraterrestrial, picturing a grey alien on my head, plus the possibility that they are "bad aliens?". I was just so afraid, and then started to think I'm schizophrenic for thinking that "something is calling me to the woods".
What do you guys think? Schizophrenia, good aliens, bad aliens, spirits? I don't know... I'm so new to this game, don't know what to think of it, but had to share with someone who would understand, and I believe people from Avalon would understand.

Thank you!

[kirolak]

I suspect the urge to be in nature is fundamental to humans, I know I feel ill if I don't get my dose of green.. . . :sun: If I were you I'd go into the woods in the company pf someone you trust, though.

The feelings you experience at night have probably always been there, you are just becoming more aware of them. To me, it sounds like an astral "bleedthrough", & that you are close to having an out of body experience.

Be well & happy!

[shaberon]

Well...moving to a different state of consciousness, pretty much is schizophrenia by most definitions. And we have so much garbage stuffed away in there, that it can be frightening even if you are in your favorite comfy chair. This is disturbing, and it is why people fill their minds with trivial things that will be useless after death. You can choose that worldly, material path of trivial diversions...or you can do what you did.

I'd be a liar if I said the contents of my mind did not frighten me many times. It happened. Spending some time in graveyards meditating on death was one way to get used to it. "They" are just that--the contents of the mind. It's just very deep and weird. People like to personify these things, but that places you into a subordinate stature. It's mental phenomena which you can eventually gain control of.

It is possible to have a fear that makes you avoid the path of a dangerous person, or a snake or something; but from what you have described, I would say feelings of fear and schizophrenia are totally normal for anyone who starts to break out of their regular, small, daily brain, into what's basically unknown. This can go on for years, and it can get a lot worse, but look at it this way: you didn't have a breakdown and lie in the dirt screaming.

Almost any idea that you will ever have, will get in the way of following that call. Whatever seems to present itself along the way, you can't stop there, you have to keep going beyond.

[raff]

Dear Jahlion I wouldn't go out at night to make spiritual connections as this is the time that bad, mischievous and down right nasty spirits are at their most potent and active. In my experience anything benevolent if it wishes to let you know something can quite easily let you know by a variety of ways. Any whispers you may hear are in my honest opinion the voices that you don't want or need to hear, trust me on that. Ignore them because the voice of your true spirit speaks little but concisely and will be heard clearly whereas the voices of darkness speak often and with ego, pride, resentment, malice, self righteousness and deceit. If you meditate or pray best do this during the day but know that one can still even then be deceived by voices. Best to tune into the silence of your soul for when the mind stops chattering its melody will sing to you of your hearts way. That is the only voice that is worth listening to.

[Foxie Loxie]

Thank you for sharing your experience. I, too, was so unaware of what's "out there". In 2003 I experienced a Quantum Entanglement with another human being that I cared very much about. From that time onward, I simply knew when this person was in distress as I seemed to be experiencing the exact same emotions, when absolutely nothing was going on in my own life. It was the nighttime "visitations" that startled me at first. I clearly remember the first time it happened, I jumped out of bed as I thought there was an earthquake! :Angel: After that, I became used to what I would call "comforting" visitations at night. I would sense slight vibrations starting & know the visitation had begun. At times I could feel something moving between my hands, as it I were holding something, but the occurances always end up around by feet, as if "snuggling" in! Talk about weird! I came to the conclusion that "someone" had connected the two of us for some purpose unknown to me. There was nothing scarey about it; just didn't fit in with the narrowminded upbringing I had had! It was only a year ago that I was "guided" to watching Bill & Kerry's interviews which opened my mind up to the fact there is MUCH going on that we are totally unaware of. It's neat that you are starting on your own journey! Just go with the flow & trust your own inner judgement. Always remember that you are a Sovereign Being, in control of what does or doesn't happen to you. Nothing can have any power over you unless you give it to them! Stay centered within yourself & don't live by anyone else's rules! Be who YOU are! Best wishes!

[DeDukshyn]

Any excuse to go for a walk deep in the woods is a good one, I say! Get your butt our there, then report back what happens! :)

[norski]

Schizoprenics have breaks where they are not aware of the other "personalities" when they switch to another consciousness. If you are aware of the other conscious experiences, not experiencing blackouts of memory or lost time, I would think you're ok.

CORRECTION.

I was incorrect in my statement. Here are the symptoms of schizophrenia:

www.mentalhealthamerica.net/conditions/schizophrenia

It doesn't sound like you fall into this category; but, if you are concerned, see what your friends and family think. Even here, I would be careful with whom you share your experiences. Most other people are fearful of people who see the world differently.

[jahlion]

Wow, hadn't heard about quantum entanglement. How do you know that's happening? I know two persons whom I feel I'm connected to, we experience some sinchronicity together even though we are 200 miles apart. Things like sending a message the exact moment they are thinking about me or getting a call when I'm the one who's thinking.

[Foxie Loxie]

QE It took me a loooong time to figure out what was going on & I finally "got it" when a friend sent me an article on Quantum Entanglement. I said to myself, "So that's what happened to me!" It was nothing I initiated or even knew about, it just "happened"! Sounds like you're experiencing synchronicity. That's cool too! What part of Brazil do you live in? I have a friend who goes there in Aug. every year.

[Matina]

Don't worry,sometimes we become obsessed with things that we like and we comfuse ourselves.If i were you i would slow down all the reading about these matters and i'd try to clear my mind.Try to relax and don't overload your brain.

[jahlion]

Yes!! A lot of synchronicity every day, actually, since I read The Celestine Prophecy by James Redfield and Jung afterwards. But some special people in our lives bring about more chunks of it than others, right?? I live in Rio Grande do Sul, the southernmost province, next to Argentina and Uruguay.

[conk]

Wow, hadn't heard about quantum entanglement. How do you know that's happening? I know two persons whom I feel I'm connected to, we experience some sinchronicity together even though we are 200 miles apart. Things like sending a message the exact moment they are thinking about me or getting a call when I'm the one who's thinking.
QE: Everything is connected to everything else, very plainly stated. Vastly more complex than we can imagine. "There is no thing that is not God". God is everything and everywhere, at all times. We only get a glimpse of it by assigning time to the events in our lives. Time gives us a snapshot of one instant in the infinite potential.

Since we are all bonded, from one end of the universe to the other (if it had boundaries) Foxie can communicate with others some distance away. In the quantum world there is no distance. What Einstein called Spooky Action At A Distance.

[ClandestineDisclosure]

Are they calling you? Take an honest look at your question; and, try this. Speak aloud, "They are calling me." then, speak aloud, "They are not calling me." then reflect on the first feeling you experienced inside immediately after saying each one aloud. That feeling may lead you to answer your own question. Also consider asking your self, "What do I want?" Remember, you create your world. You manifest your reality. What ever that reality may be, always use discernment and be honest with yourself. I wish you all the best on your journey.

[DeDukshyn]

Are they calling you? Take an honest look at your question; and, try this. Speak aloud, "They are calling me." then, speak aloud, "They are not calling me." then reflect on the first feeling you experienced inside immediately after saying each one aloud. That feeling may lead you to answer your own question. Also consider asking your self, "What do I want?" Remember, you create your world. You manifest your reality. What ever that reality may be, always use discernment and be honest with yourself. I wish you all the best on your journey.

And by being Honest with yourself, that means try to understand how it all works - how you come to your "conclusions" about your reality. There is a disconnect between our "feelings" (the word emotion purposefully not used) and our observed "reality", but the observed "reality" will always follow along the lines of our "feelings".

The disconnect is an intercept between our initial true sense of "feeling" and our "emotional reaction" from that feeling ... emotional reactions are trigger programs, sometimes useful in survival, but most human trigger programs are implanted by our "society" and our "cult"-ure, and our religions, etc. and misrepresent the true initial "feeling". I recall when I still had this full and proper connection when I was a child - I could "feel" the day, the environment, the people and animals and landscape around me; every day felt different, there were minglings of millions of unique "feelings".

As we get these "fear programs" inserted into our minds as we grow from children (like, will I go to heaven if I die? Will I be able to get a good job and pay my bills with/without my education certificates? Do I look good? Do people like me? Am I a "good" person"?, Do I please my parents? etc), they create an over-reaction to initial "feelings" - then we act on those over-reactions instead of on the initial "feeling".

Complicating the matter is the fact that we are taught that humans have about 5 emotions and that comprises our senses of "feeling". As mentioned, there are actually infinite "feeling" combinations (think of it like music), yet since we are programmed to only accept the "five" or however many that society tells us we have, we then erroneously "step-down" (make crude, coarse) these feelings into one of those categories. This is the error. By perceiving "feelings" as only one of the few traditional emotion, we cannot perceive them as they are, but only as their incredible crude and overblown / inaccurate re-constructs. This process cuts us off from perceiving "reality" by being able to "feel" it properly, and thus perceive it properly.

Our emotions have been hijacked by these fear programs and used against us, to control us, to farm us, enslave us, etc. We are all already participants in this enslavement; the only direction is to understand, and try to correct.

This initial "connection" between initial true "feeling" and environment is a direct connection; this means that within that initial true "feeling" is an accurate representation of your real environment, without the bias of triggered emotional reactions. Ever notice that your very initial gut instinct is more often correct than any amount of logical rationale applied afterwards? This is because those gut instincts are these initial "feelings" that slipped by the intercept construct in your mind. People who are psychic or have strong levels of ESP have found ways to at least temporarily suspend that intercept of "initial feeling" and allow them through intact -- as intended. All humans are already using the mechanisms that allow for extra sensory perception. The programmed emotional reactions / fears that we tend to cling to, merely render that system ineffective.

So to sum up, when you try to observe "reality" around you and how you "feel" about things try to keep in mind the distinction between "initial true feeling" and emotional reaction or program guided "feelings" that come only a fraction of a millisecond second after the initial true "feelings". Practicing observing this distinction consistently will not only allow one to be far more honest with himself about the way he "feels", but it also undoes some of the societal programming that tend to dampen our natural senses / abilities, and may even improve ESP. I imagine eventually one will get to that point of "feeling" the interconnectedness of all, rather than talking about it.

Observing reality accurately, and being honest with oneself is often easier said then done, because almost no one understands what is actually happening in our minds that lead us each to the individual views he have.

I always like to think if I am thinking ... at all ... I can not be properly observing ...

[jahlion]

Thank you for the advice and kind words. Now I'm more inclined to "they aren't calling me" haha, hadn't tried that one yet with this situation!

And... It's so obvious that we should ask ourselves what we want, and even though I've been looking for "something" for quite a while, I still hadn't asked this obvious question... Thank you again, ClandestineDisclosure.