What is this? I want out so bad

[Starlight77]

I just came back from out-of-town (the only time I'm happy) and it all came back so acute and hopeless. Is my home targeted? is there something planted there or do they just continually target it, to get to me while at home? What can I do? I do protection measures, but doesn't seem effective. Please help. Please remember to pray for me if you can.

[Kristin]

Thinking of you and hope you will be well. Time to rearrange the furniture, sage, and sweep salt on the floor. There can be many reasons you are feeling this way. Make sure to get as much support as you can from friends and family you can trust and let them know what is going on. Glad to see you're reaching out. Targeted individuals usually are targeted all the time including when they are on vacation etc. You may have some strong EMF in your home, personal issues, stress... the list goes on. Not enough information to go by from you, however, certainly enough for folks to send you love and healing no matter what the issues are.

From the Heart,
Kris

[Foxie Loxie]

Of course you will be in our thoughts & prayers! :heart: Sit down & make a list of the things that make you "happy" when you are "out of town". Then start thinking about WHY you are unhappy while "home"; after all your home is supposed to be your refuge from the Outside! As Kristin said, you don't give us much to go on; but we DO have your best interest at heart! :bearhug::flower:

[Atlas]

Think about solving this issue:

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[Noelle]

With every ounce of your being and resolve, tell whatever it is that is affecting you that you don't "consent" to it.

[Starlight77]

thanks much for your kind words and support. As for being vague or cryptic, I often suspect 'they' are watching everything I post, you know (or at least I assume you understand). However I have sometimes got the impression they were not as all-around coordinated as they want us to believe, ie, sometimes they might enlist a low-life to pester/frighten me or arouse suspicions who doesnt necessarily know why or anything else about me.
I want to tell you a story about why I chose my username.
In 1977, i was 9 and my father had recently been framed for embezzlement, by corrupt bankers who didn't like his asking the wrong questions. My dad is on the Aspie/autism spectrum but of course never diagnosed or helped for that. He ended up in banking because he was good at math. He was never the big business kind of person, he was just good at math and data analysis but preferred to be quiet and behind the scenes, he wasn't greedy or flashy, and he showed his dismay and suspicions on his sleeve when he saw things in banking that weren't right. So they framed him for an error of $22.70, ended his banking career.
So... that summer we lived near Kansas City, and we went to the Starlight theater...
I sat on a bench alone while my family was in line for tickets. After about 10-15 min my mom and sister came over and sat next to me. A couple minutes later a man came up to me and said "that man over there in the striped shirt has something for you." (the staff wore striped shirts). I was thinking 'candy' and I started to get up and go with him.
My mother was right next to me on the other side and grabbed my arm, like, No, don't go with a stranger.
I saw the look on the man's face, for about half a second. He RAN away as fast as he could. In that second I realized a lot- that he had been watching me, that he had wanted to harm me, etc. It all came clear, things I didn't know minutes earlier.
My mother kind of brushed it off, told me 'Don't ever walk off with a stranger' but then acted all normal. I think it was just too much for her to digest- the possibilities, etc after my dad's ordeal, so she didn't tell security or anything.

This was just weeks or months after a series of etheric abductions, which I described in another thread, were for only one brief period and I think they left me alone because of my head injuries, as if I was damaged goods. But they weren't completely leaving me alone, just not abducting my soul/etheric body anymore.

[Atlas]

[...] So they framed him for an error of $22.70, ended his banking career. [...]
Harsh.. thank you for posting.

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[Bill Ryan]

Always bear in mind there are a number of things it could be, besides a targeted mind control thing.


Some houses/apartments are 'sick'. (Mold? Toxins? Asbestos?)



Some are on 'sick energy lines', which are a real phenomenon. There are documented cases of where one person in every house on a street has come down with cancer, for instance.



Some houses or apartments, where bad things have happened, can have entities stuck to them or in them. They can sometimes cause havoc with health and well-being.

Dr Robert Duncan states that ceramic tiles are excellent insulators from EM effects. Not too hard to do... looks a little weird, but just tile your entire bedroom (floor, walls, ceiling), and then paint/wallpaper/carpet over it. (Bedrooms are important, as we all spent 1/3 of our lives there...)

[Bubu]

excellent advice Bill I for one do not believe in this targeted thing so for me it could be any of what you said or maybe more. well we are all targeted.

To OP I have been in this kind of situation a number of times but I got out in no time. I never look into this targeted thing though. What i did is to take lots of exercise and a break away from the rat race. have you considered that you might be barking at the wrong tree.

[Starlight77]

Bubu- Yes and No. The consent issue and self-care are always relevant (and self-determination, LOA, etc).
But.... they gave me cancer. And I'm sure of it. It wasn't the first directed energy weapon attack. In a moment of despair last year I consented and said let them give it to me... 3 weeks later I found a mass in my leg. It was in my driving muscle (I drive a lot, they have targeted me before at major interchanges where they knew I'd be on a scheduled basis), and their weapons are heat-seeking, target-seeking, so it went right into my driving leg. Which is now maimed. I'm almost done with a course of radiation. I don't want any more traditional treatments. I withdrew my consent, and I eat bitter apricot seeds.
But just FYI Bubu, I am 100% certain I am a targeted person. Many things have shown me this.
I do also live in a sick neighborhood where it's rural and cheap and people come to die up here, usually due to substance abuse. There is tons of fighting and for years I noted a really sour energy around a neighbor's house and found out later it was the site of a murder-suicide. Just a few weeks ago there was a triple homicide execution style over pot plants.... so yeah unfortunately there is that vibe and some of us have to do extra to shrug off the dark energy. Thank you.

[Patient]

Hey Starlight, having the strength and courage to reach out for advice is huge IMO! Let it help build up your commitment to never give up in any way!

Trust me, I know how hard things can sometime be. I have been fighting against something for years, so you are not alone in that regard. There are many people here that have experience and methods to share - good advice for many situations. When you do things to fight back and/or protect yourself, do it with strong conviction! When I sage my home I fill myself with confidence and I always feel awesome and uplifted! A positive attitude can go a long way as it boosts your energy!

You will always find support here in the Avalon forums!

[7alon]

Always bear in mind there are a number of things it could be, besides a targeted mind control thing.


Some houses/apartments are 'sick'. (Mold? Toxins? Asbestos?)



Some are on 'sick energy lines', which are a real phenomenon. There are documented cases of where one person in every house on a street has come down with cancer, for instance.



Some houses or apartments, where bad things have happened, can have entities stuck to them or in them. They can sometimes cause havoc with health and well-being.

Dr Robert Duncan states that ceramic tiles are excellent insulators from EM effects. Not too hard to do... looks a little weird, but just tile your entire bedroom (floor, walls, ceiling), and then paint/wallpaper/carpet over it. (Bedrooms are important, as we all spent 1/3 of our lives there...)

The energy lines you speak of, this has happened to a friend of mine. She lost her hair and all sorts due to this one house. She is no longer there and has had no problems since (with hair).

From what I remember, I believe negative entities are often attracted to the negative lines/areas.

Bill is right about using critical thinking to determine the cause, though. One house my sister was in, they thought she was getting sick due to asbestos in the house. She didnt get any better when she moved. Infact, her health became worse.

[Dylansdad]

With sincere respect for you, why would you be targeted? What is so special about you that would cause this kind of over-the-top activity? Obviously, you must have asked yourself that. Or do you think you were targeted at random. I am not ascribing this to you, but I knew someone who also felt targetted. Turns of that particular person had a long history of meth usage, which can create paranoia and delusions. He claimed it was all originating from the next door neighbor's house. So I got a group of guys together and we went over there. There was no basement (in California you would need to blast to have a basement because the area was built on granite). The house was empty. We had a couple guys spend the night without telling our targeted friend. He insisted that the interference was ongoing all night, coming from the house. But 2 guys spent the night there. NOTHING was going on there. I am sure this post will be very unpopular since most people on Avalon seem to believe the most far fetched things. For that reason, I am leaving. This is my last post.

[Lifebringer]

Nice rooftop for a garden. where are you PA or NY or NJoisey?I'm into the green trades. Energy efficiency, grey water recycling, solar and wind. also thinking water flow water wheel power from streams.

[Eram]

.....since most people on Avalon seem to believe the most far fetched things.

What lead you to this conclusion Dylansdad?

Personally, I find that among those who are willing to seriously investigate "far fetched" claims, the people on project Avalon (on average) are about as sober and critical thinking as one can find on the net.

Perhaps, the fact that no one before you has raised the possibility of paranoia as a possible cause for starlight77's conclusions has more to do with being polite and gentle instead of being gullible.

To feel victim of being targeted is a terrible experience and to be met with instant skepticism when trying to raise the subject on a forum in order to find help is perhaps not the best way to get to a solution for the problem (whatever that problem might turn out to be).

[robinr1]

why couldn't u have just left? why do people feel the need to make a grand production of leaving an internet message board.good riddance sir






With sincere respect for you, why would you be targeted? What is so special about you that would cause this kind of over-the-top activity? Obviously, you must have asked yourself that. Or do you think you were targeted at random. I am not ascribing this to you, but I knew someone who also felt targetted. Turns of that particular person had a long history of meth usage, which can create paranoia and delusions. He claimed it was all originating from the next door neighbor's house. So I got a group of guys together and we went over there. There was no basement (in California you would need to blast to have a basement because the area was built on granite). The house was empty. We had a couple guys spend the night without telling our targeted friend. He insisted that the interference was ongoing all night, coming from the house. But 2 guys spent the night there. NOTHING was going on there. I am sure this post will be very unpopular since most people on Avalon seem to believe the most far fetched things. For that reason, I am leaving. This is my last post.

[Starlight77]

With sincere respect for you, why would you be targeted? What is so special about you that would cause this kind of over-the-top activity? Obviously, you must have asked yourself that. Or do you think you were targeted at random. I am not ascribing this to you, but I knew someone who also felt targetted. Turns of that particular person had a long history of meth usage, which can create paranoia and delusions. He claimed it was all originating from the next door neighbor's house. So I got a group of guys together and we went over there. There was no basement (in California you would need to blast to have a basement because the area was built on granite). The house was empty. We had a couple guys spend the night without telling our targeted friend. He insisted that the interference was ongoing all night, coming from the house. But 2 guys spent the night there. NOTHING was going on there. I am sure this post will be very unpopular since most people on Avalon seem to believe the most far fetched things. For that reason, I am leaving. This is my last post.

Frankly you are far-fetched to assume I even might be believing what I do out of paranoia or wanting to be special. You are also implying that I might be using meth or other paranoia-inducing drugs. I am not.
As some people get it, it should be obvious that we can't necessarily come on to a published forum and explain exactly why we are being targeted. One of the reasons I am is due to what I have written online, and awareness raising activities locally as well.

As I said, they gave me cancer. And they really did. They directed microwave/scalar weapons with heat/target-seeking capabilities at me while driving and the most active muscle in my driving leg "caught" it and formed a very aggressive tumor which grew to be visible and palpable within 3 weeks. Luckily I could feel it easily so it seems it did not metastasize, perhaps giving me a chance to withdraw my consent for the cancer.

They have used these weapons on me several times, at least. The first that I was aware of was meant to be obvious, like a warning (about 3 yrs ago). And it was- it was obviously a machine coming at the base of my skull from a distance (first on the left side, then on the right side), while I was driving, at a major intersection, at a predictable time (same with the next 2 'migraine' attacks on my cerebral vessels, not as obvious, but I knew by a combination of factors).
That first obvious attack followed from a week before, when I was holding a NESARA sign out my window. The yuppie behind me in a BMW blatantly took a pic of my license plate (so I wrote down his). TWO people independently confirmed he was Illuminati and ordered the obvious warning attack (that would take some explanation but I'll skip it for now). The interesting thing about this attack is that, as I hinted earlier, they are not that coordinated with each other. I don't believe the Illuminazi Beemer guy knew that my dad was framed, that my family is bloodline-connected and we've been monitored our whole lives, that I had etheric abductions as a child, that I was 'given' suicide programming, etc., or even of my other 'awareness-activism' - he didn't know any of that. He may have found out later, but it didn't matter to him when he arranged the attack.

These guys are sloppy and getting desperate (guess you could say I am too). This is Cabalorado. Their presence and their methods and weapons are ubiquitous and powerful. I was quite frightened by the first obvious attack, but they don't really scare me that much anymore, they just piss me off.

[Starlight77]

Hey Starlight, having the strength and courage to reach out for advice is huge IMO! Let it help build up your commitment to never give up in any way!

Trust me, I know how hard things can sometime be. I have been fighting against something for years, so you are not alone in that regard. There are many people here that have experience and methods to share - good advice for many situations. When you do things to fight back and/or protect yourself, do it with strong conviction! When I sage my home I fill myself with confidence and I always feel awesome and uplifted! A positive attitude can go a long way as it boosts your energy!

You will always find support here in the Avalon forums!

Thank you. I have found what you're saying to be very true, just in the last 20 hrs or so! I think just by reaching out, I have to take my own efforts more seriously. I've known about monitoring thoughts and emotions, but only slowly getting better at it. I am down on myself a lot, as well as angry at others, and I know I have the tools to work on this and turn it around- so I keep going and have felt much more stable and hopeful since yesterday.
Funny I often thought about saging etc for once I move away and into a new place, didn't even occur to me to do it now, to clear out where I live now and give it a clean starting over feel, along with my own commitment and gratitude. I will do that saging ASAP.

[Kristin]

Starlight77, thank you for sharing so much. There are many here who can relate.

[seehas]

i know your feeling i had it myself in the past, living in houses with many other appartments above and below is another thing, the energy from these other appartments can influence your space so if bad things happen in the flat above you, its getting to you aswell.

but since we are humans we have amazing abilites to change this situation for a better, there are many meditations that focus on building a energy sphere arround you for protection also working with crystals and orgone (so called holly handgranades) works.

try it out, having crystals arround you is allways a benefit :)

[Bill Ryan]

Or do you think you were targeted at random.

Do please note: some people really are random targets. Check out all the work by Dr John Hall. Some of his interviews are archived here:


http://projectavalon.net/John_Hall_Feb_8_2010_Hour_1.mp3
http://projectavalon.net/John_Hall_Feb_8_2010_Hour_2.mp3
http://projectavalon.net/John_Hall_Feb_8_2010_Hour_3.mp3
http://projectavalon.net/Dr_John_Hall_and_Dr_Robert_Duncan_Technology_Mind_Security_and_Cybernetic_Warfare_Feb_17_2011.mp3
http://projectavalon.net/Dr_John_Hall_Dr_Robert_Duncan_Mind_Manipulation_and_Cybernetic_Warfare_Feb_17_2011.mp3
http://projectavalon.net/Dr_John_Hall_with_Alex_Jones_19_Sept_2013.mp3

[Hervé]

Re: Random Targets, I posted this a while back:


[...]
I don't know if you ever read that R. Duncan PDF draft book (http://www.hourofthetime.com/1-LF/Hearing%20Voices%20-%20The%20Hidden%20History%20of%20CIA%20and%20Pentagon%20Electromagnetic%20Mind%20Control%20Experimen ts.pdf), but in there he explains why random targets beside targeting specific individuals: they deal in populations and with that, can't help but use statistics to rate their success with their procedure. They need something like a 95% success rate on any population no matter who, where, when, age, gender, religion, etc..

They did the same thing with R. Duncan and explained what they do, how they do it, etc. since they gave themselves 1 year to get him a dead body/container.

What transpires is that there are "resistive cases" such as Omni and R. Duncan which they become very interested in "solving."

However, Duncan's and Omni's cases can be viewed from other angles and one of those is the hiding in plain sight, in oceans of "sweetness and light," of what's actually going on.

Another angle could be that those monitoring Duncan, Omni and their likes are actually whistle-blowers leaking infos, again, lost in seas of "sweetnesses and lights," on their activities and methods inducing "subjects" to rake their "brains" for protections and counter-technologies since they are aware enough to distinguish between their true, genuine self and "external" influences.

There is also another possibility that I haven't seen being mentioned anywhere yet and that's one having to do with a past life experience being restimulated/triggered in the here-and-now due to various similarly looking/feeling environmental triggers... said past life being not necessarily experienced on this planet but on (an)other one(s) with the looks and feels of this current one...

[7alon]

Bubu- Yes and No. The consent issue and self-care are always relevant (and self-determination, LOA, etc).
But.... they gave me cancer. And I'm sure of it. It wasn't the first directed energy weapon attack. In a moment of despair last year I consented and said let them give it to me... 3 weeks later I found a mass in my leg. It was in my driving muscle (I drive a lot, they have targeted me before at major interchanges where they knew I'd be on a scheduled basis), and their weapons are heat-seeking, target-seeking, so it went right into my driving leg. Which is now maimed. I'm almost done with a course of radiation. I don't want any more traditional treatments. I withdrew my consent, and I eat bitter apricot seeds.
But just FYI Bubu, I am 100% certain I am a targeted person. Many things have shown me this.
I do also live in a sick neighborhood where it's rural and cheap and people come to die up here, usually due to substance abuse. There is tons of fighting and for years I noted a really sour energy around a neighbor's house and found out later it was the site of a murder-suicide. Just a few weeks ago there was a triple homicide execution style over pot plants.... so yeah unfortunately there is that vibe and some of us have to do extra to shrug off the dark energy. Thank you.

That is wise, There are so many better methods than chemotherapy. Cheaper ones too.

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John Anthony West also has been highly successful in treating his cancer at an alternative cancer treatment centre. Last I heard, The tumour in his head was reduced by 50%!

Bill, if you don't have this book in the Avalon Library already, feel free to add it. It is a free book, which came from here: http://donate.hempcures.work/. Feel free to donate folks if you find this helpful. They only ask to donate if you can comfortably afford to.

[Starlight77]

There is also another possibility that I haven't seen being mentioned anywhere yet and that's one having to do with a past life experience being restimulated/triggered in the here-and-now due to various similarly looking/feeling environmental triggers... said past life being not necessarily experienced on this planet but on (an)other one(s) with the looks and feels of this current one...
hey anything's possible at this point. These are some interesting ideas. I was already aware though, that sometimes they start on someone for some petty reason and the person is basically an experimental subject after that, they continue meddling with them just for kicks. But maybe that theory was too simple... so thanks for the info, Bill.

[betoobig]

It is my believe due to experience that claiming your soverignity back, solves most of this issues right away. Clearing your field of undesireable contracts, concious or unconcious, from this lives or past ones. Take a look in this thread, hope it helps http://projectavalon.net/forum4/showthread.php?88211-Revocation-of-agreements-Declaration-of-intent&highlight=sovereignty
Much love

[betoobig]

@Starlight77... just wondering if you have tryed out claiming your soverignity and, if so, have you notice any changes? thank you.
Much love

[Starlight77]

@Starlight77... just wondering if you have tryed out claiming your soverignity and, if so, have you notice any changes? thank you.
Much love

i am working on it... copied and started reading the declaration cited above. thank you

[betoobig]

hope all is well Starlight77...
much love

[Starlight77]

Hi B2big, I am doing better, the sovereignty affirmations help. I do seem to need to repeat a lot, for any major change in thinking or habits etc, but also for protection such as from entities or from scalar/DEWs. I hope all is well for you too and hope All are well. Until the next crisis.....

[betoobig]

Hi B2big, I am doing better, the sovereignty affirmations help. I do seem to need to repeat a lot, for any major change in thinking or habits etc, but also for protection such as from entities or from scalar/DEWs. I hope all is well for you too and hope All are well. Until the next crisis.....
Acknowlege next crisis is next oportunity to reclaim your soverignity, it involves no one can trasspass or invade your space with out your consent/permision.
Thanks for the feedback, much love.

[GForce]

Hello Starlight, first of all if you've had cancer look into getting your PH up. I had a similar type tumor removed 10 years ago and started watching my PH. Many here suggested things that need to be checked check. EMF could be the cause especially if the house has old pipes and wiring.

I don't claim to be psychic however I will tell you what my gut feeling is. That is that you may have an attachment. It could be a negative spirit attachment and it uses you as an energy source. Have you even been involved in the occult or used an Ouija board? I would cleanse the house with sage and also burn white candles. Ask your spirit guides for protection. One other question I have is if you've been abducted or if you think you have? They are so many things that can affect your energy and also affect you emotionally. I will try to send positive energy your way!

[thepainterdoug]

starlight/ i feel for you. i often feel i return to the "malaise 'of returning home. i don't sleep. i sleep with an eye open, i rest with my eyes closed, call it what you will, its not the same, its different. i used to sleep. now i wake after 3 maybe 4 hours of sleep max, tired, beat up. not refreshed

i manage, i do it rather well considering all. barry tower/ microwaves? maybe. coffee? who the **** knows. its not the same and will probably never be figured out

[Starlight77]

Thanks PainterDoug and GForce. Maybe we can pray/visualize for each other PainterDoug, at least commiserate! It takes constant effort, but it does help, even if I am drawn back down the next day. The crises and depression are all material/financial. I would feel much better if I had all the bills paid and financial security. Luckily I have a family member who has helped in last few years (but did not help for years before, and is VERY very wealthy). If not for that frankly I would have given up. I am working toward solving these and making progress. A lot of my self-sabotaging is in the form of laziness, I have ideas, writing etc, business ideas, that could be very successful, empowering, but I avoid and procrastinate. Whether it's EMF/scalar targeting etc doesn't matter, kinda thing you can't blame on anyone but yourself.
And GForce. Yes I've been abducted. It was for a brief period when I was 9, described in other threads. It was horribly shocking to not get it until my 40's, that I was part of Milabs, and Alien Love Bite specifically. My 'involuntary kundalini' in 2011 was so strong and sudden it was violent, because it was triggered by planned events r/t interventions by "them." And within weeks of that the "hyperdimensionals" came to collect on their investment. Yes i mean 4D Reptilians. Their more direct efforts were thwarted by a 5D (& 6D-11D) entity whom I believe is Arcturian, she was in that role as a volunteer to aid both me and my proxy twin.
I suppose there is more I could do about the entities. Saging etc. I constantly pray and ask for JC's help, as well as archangels. They do protect me from serious direct harm, but they can't do everything. I think maybe there have been attachments for so long I don't know where I end and they begin. By the time I was 5 and the Cabal was targeting my dad, my sister was haunted by "the Black Thing" at night, that would stand there in the closet, who I later realized was a shadow person; the Cabal etc have their human scum but they also work with etheric realms/Archons. So if all these vermin are still attached to me, what can I do? Exorcism? We'll see how the sage and candles work.

[betoobig]

tlNmsRt7tx4
Much love

[Foxie Loxie]

Thanks, betoobig! What an excellent presentation!! :highfive: