I am going to play a little - "What if..."
Some may have seen my post regarding “my experience when 6 years old.” From that experience and based upon the experiences of my life, I had concluded there was an unexplainable but very real and conscious force that had a particular personal interest in my affairs over the course of my life (and doesn’t that make me special? Haha – 54 years I bought into that BS). Anyway, not until I was introduced to Houman’s thread here on the Avalon forum just a week ago, did I ever begin to make sense of what this may be all about. As mentioned in other threads, I have spent years and years studying everything I could with the primary goal being to make sense of what this force could actually be and why did it have a very real interest in me directly.
Because of the experiences in my life, the foundation I had based on years of study and with a vastly open mind, I was finally in the right place for the last few major dots to connect and I found those dots here in this thread.
I immediately went through a “pink cloud” stage based on the belief that I finally gotten to the bottom of all this and the conclusions are scary as hell - that I have as perhaps millions of others if not most on earth been the target of archon forces from one or more levels of their being.
I am over the pink cloud stage and have realized I am like a newly sober alcoholic and thus don’t have very much to offer . I accept that I am at the beginning of what will be a lifelong recovery.
My experience and my life up until now has been a strange mix of the darkest of the dark but I have also experienced fantastic “miracles.” Because I always looked at things dualistically and would always see things as black or white, I never considered anything other than there had to be two opposing forces.
In other words, I had concluded that I was dealing with dark supernatural forces. But I had also concluded that I was often saved by “God” (emphasize this was my past conclusions). With all the information recently uncovered primarily based on the information (and resources) Houman (and others) have supplied in this thread, I am now considering that I am not some object of two different forces – a purely good force (God) and a purely evil force (malevolent ETs – which I now conclude are the same thing as demons) but that I may have been the object of a single force that is able to perform both functions.
When looking again at the gnostic beliefs and specifically looking at what the Cathars (who I see as essentially later Gnostics) believed, that it was the entire material world itself that was evil. Looking at the function of the demiurge and that our physical existence is fashioned by this being which deemed itself to be the creator (blind to the actual creator “God”) and that the Demiurge created the Archons...
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...and the Archons are, by some, considered to be behind all these negative ETs which may very well be the same beings as are seen by some to be demons then is it possible these same archonic forces are behind angels and positive ETs?
Think about it for a moment. Why would any creator create some format where physical man is dangling between two opposing supernatural forces? To me this looks like a 3 –way contest where it is always a 2 against 1 situation but that by picking a side – good or evil, the human can erroneously believe he has one of the other two on his side - thus continues on hope while avoiding the potential reality. When one considers how successful the divide and conquer tactic has been, can we consider that a single unseen force (predator) use the tactic to ingeniously put the food supply in charge of its own sustainment?
Simply put - the very food supply us tricked into a state where the food supply holds on as long as it can for dear life, constantly moving from fear to salvation, fear to salvation over and over and over until finally its physical body runs so low the being withers up and dies. To me this sounds brilliant if you are the predator. We are not only the food supply, but we innocently play an integral roll in generating the very “meat” we are fed upon. The salvation beliefs keep us going (ascension to me is one of those possible belief traps - a brilliant one perhaps). So maybe they are simply false beliefs that most on earth cling to that keep us going yet we continue to experience horrors which I don’t care who you are or how much a “believer” you are ultimately generate fear and terror which appears to be the tastiest food desired by this single force.
Is it possible angels and demons are one and the same? When I consider all my experiences, this view is starting to make sense.
Now let’s go to the next step. Is it possible that “positive ET/EDs” are indeed "angels" just like it is possible negative ET/EDs might be the demons of old? I mean think about it. If there really is a God with a “kingdom” a “divine order” or hierarchy (angels above man, demons below), even if this view of the kingdom is dimensions we “evolve to” or “ascend to” based on some timing device like a calendar or some astronomical alignment how exactly does any of that promote evolution of the soul? It seems more logical to consider that within creation are traps of our own making, find how you created your trap and decide whether or not you want to remain in it is starting to resonate more and more with me. And as I move into this different view, I seem to feed the monster less and less and this gives me a sense that perhaps I am (finally) on the right track.
Lets consider angels again - Do angels "eat?" If so, what do angels eat? We conclude the demons/negative ETs eat fear/anger/rage... all the negative emotions, but what do angels eat? Love? If so, why do they have to eat it? Why are humans on earth stuck in some supernatural war where one side eats fear and the other eats love? Perhaps angels don’t eat at all, just give love. But if that’s the case, why are we not all free today? I mean, why don’t angels just appear in mass to all? Wouldn't that end it all?
The only answer that makes sense to me is that they are in on it.
The only thing that is beginning to make sense to me is that it is simply one ultimate force, expressed through beings we see as either angels or demons, good ETs/ bad ETs and that ultimately, though they appear to be separate, they eat our emotional energy and have been extremely crafty in how this energy is farmed.
That I am reaching this possible conclusion has been strangely “freeing” for me. I am beginning to see the whole material world as a game… as the matrix. But a deadly serious game where you can never win until we all do. And how possible is that? I am beginning to see the entire material world
sans gnosis as this matrix, as the domain of the demiurge. Again, neither angels nor God has consistently stopped the events in my life that have resulted in the generation of fear and sometimes stark terror, incredible energies I just know would never be the wished upon “children of a loving god.” On the other hand, my butt has been saved hundreds of times under absolutely miraculous circumstances. Is God (or agents of God - angels) only there sometimes? Why does this perpetually continue?
Is this just an ingenious way for making the farm product the farmer?
"God” in this sense is the demiurge. And thus I must leave the matrix entirely to no longer be subjected by the archonic forces. And this requires me to forget about any angelic salvation, forget about waiting for the good ETs and to forget about waiting for some “ascension” as well. I have to discard illusions like - God knows I am a good guy and ultimately God will save me, take me to a higher "level" in God's kingdom, take me to heaven and ohhh yes, there will be no more bad guys there.
Considering all this, I am not discounting that there may very well be non earth human or non human sentient entities in physical form. But I am beginning to wonder if any of them could actually and only have the best interests of humanity in mind and at the same time be involved directly in the issues of humanity. It makes sense that if there are indeed ET/EDs that have an active, participatory roll with mankind in its physical form, they must be wanting something out of it and if so, aren't they ultimately part of the game themselves? Ultimately, at some level playing with both sides of the good/evil dynamic which we all then feed and feed and feed the single monster behind it all?
Now if I could only stop feeding the monster. Houman!!! where's the solutions thread!