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Action is key or the knowledge dims until the next bout of the circular lessons. Get unstuck. Application on ones collected experiences and wisdoms create spirals.
So true. And yet, there is so much dammed up that when it comes to the crux, the only natural 'action' (more like letting something happen in me or through me) is one that would create general chaos. Not harm, per se, although it would be difficult to manage the consequences. It only comes to me in the presence of others.
I wonder if there really is a way to work with it gently, to work it slowly, so my remaining connections and social image don't go completely down the drain, or am I putting off an inevitable experience?
EDIT: it would be like great big sobs and crying, very loud if the floodgates fully opened. I know what I'm talking about here isn't quite the same as the type of process being referenced; it's just what triggered in me when I read it.
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Okay, what do you say to a 92 year old woman with fairly advanced dementia who says: I don't know what I'm doing. Do you say, I know you don't know what you're doing. That doesn't seem appropriate. Or do you just make something up? Or maybe just state the obvious. You're going on a walkabout. Or, you're sitting on your bed in your bedroom. I don't really expect an answer. But, I think I need to know more about this condition. Care-taking the elderly is one thing, but having no mind left is another. I am finding out though, that the body kinda has a mind of it's own, separate from the mind, if you know what I mean.
I'm also finding out that I have a personal issue I have to work through. I don't like to wake people up that are sound asleep. Never have. Not sure why, I just really don't like to do it. Since her internal clock is basically not functioning most of the time, if I don't get her up she sometimes will just keep on sleeping. So, I have this little internal battle with myself. Should I get her up, should I just let her sleep, when should I get her up and so on. Just a stupid little thing. But, I do need to get a grip on it. She seems to appreciate my cooking though.
My father died early with alzheimers ... tough questions.
He slept about 18 hours a day toward the end. No idea but I would expect things are much better for those in such a state while asleep?
Short term memory was so gone that it almost mattered not what was said day to day ... longer term memories were better.
Not sure if this helps ... but offering some understanding and a etheric shoulder to cry on ...
Thank you Calz, I really do appreciate that. I, too, wonder about whether sleeping is not such a bad thing. She often is unable to regulate when to be up, when to eat, when to go to the bathroom. It's actually kind of scary for her when she gets really disoriented and doesn't know where she is. I try to reassure but I don't have a long history with her. Sometimes she confuses me for her daughter. She was a 4th grade school teacher for 35 years. It may sound weird, but sometimes I sit and talk to her like she really can hear and understand me and just talk about what her life must have been like and ask her stupid questions about where she always wishes she could have traveled and things like that. Eyesight and hearing are both bad so that makes it even harder. I am so glad I have worked on myself enough to be truly kind and considerate most of the time towards her. A few short years ago I could not have done it and even now when my husband and I have been up most of the night on occasion with her it is a struggle not to be grumpy. She may not be very aware but I can tell you she does understand tone of voice. I can only imagine how emotionally difficult it is to have someone you are very close to, like a parent in this condition. And, it is very interesting to see the family dynamics in deciding who takes care of and takes on the responsibility for a family member needing special care. Most don't want to be bothered and there is often resentment by the one who takes it on for his or her siblings for their lack of caring (or assumed lack). I can't believe how much I am learning from this situation though. In a strange way it has been a blessing for me and my husband. He was a tough Special Forces Medic military kinda guy. This wasn't exactly what he envisioned in his future but yet here we are, exactly where we need to be.
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As to permission needed for sending energy...I send along the energies with the tag line "under GRACE in miraculous ways so be it" This allows the laws of the universe or free will or whatever you choose to call it to work in the freedom required.
Or at least thats the way I see it. My two cents worth...
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Anyways, my apartment. Someone helped me take measurements for the windows today. Pretty sure I'm getting heavy drapes or thermal curtains rather than the roman blinds or shades I was considering at first. The landlord doesn't allow the walls to be painted (boo!) so I want something colorful. All this stuff is new to me.
Bed... check. Mattress... check. Bureau... check. (small) kitchen table... check. Desk... check. Bookshelf... check. All the appliances.
I'm realizing just how important it is to make one's space feel 'homey'... I'm so used to living in barren rooms and apartments that I didn't know how it was affecting me. But I can almost tangibly feel the difference when I walk into someone's home or apartment where some love and attention has been invested. I'd like to get some artwork and perhaps get back into making some of my own stuff...
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Anyways, my apartment. Someone helped me take measurements for the windows today. Pretty sure I'm getting heavy drapes or thermal curtains rather than the roman blinds or shades I was considering at first. The landlord doesn't allow the walls to be painted (boo!) so I want something colorful. All this stuff is new to me.
Bed... check. Mattress... check. Bureau... check. (small) kitchen table... check. Desk... check. Bookshelf... check. All the appliances.
I'm realizing just how important it is to make one's space feel 'homey'... I'm so used to living in barren rooms and apartments that I didn't know how it was affecting me. But I can almost tangibly feel the difference when I walk into someone's home or apartment where some love and attention has been invested. I'd like to get some artwork and perhaps get back into making some of my own stuff...
Your home is definitely the dominion over which you can rule, in godlike fashion.
It is an area of selfexpression. Your own little heaven of rest.
As soon as you step out of the front door you enter public space,
one where rulership has to be shared with others.
I'm glad you recognized that your environment affects your being,
And home has to be the stress free zone.
Life outside brings enough stress as is.
Home is for recovery from that stress.
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squeaks, drips, and ticking clocks, drive me batty.
I remember as a kid, staying at my grandparents house, they had alot of clocks.
Some of which chimed on the quarter hour, i could never sleep there.
Silence i love
My grandmother was an extensive collector of antiques, and, in particular, antique clocks. So much so that my oldest brother, the first grandson, gave her the name Tic Toc. So, I grew up with calling my grandmother Tic Toc, and I didn't think that was odd until I was in high school. That was her name, Tic Toc. Anyway, she died about a decade ago, after a deep and troubling dementia. I have two of her very old antique clocks, both from Germany. I love them and try to keep them running. The tick tocking reminds me of my grandmother's house where she would have dozens of them all ticking away, all out of sync and chiming and coo cooing all the time. My wife, though, the tick tocking drives her crazy and she sabotages my clocks, stops the pendulums, etc. It's an on-going battle. I personally abhor time and keeping track of it, but I do love those old German wooden clocks, and of course, my Tic Toc.
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I personally abhor time and keeping track of it, but I do love those old German wooden clocks, and of course, my Tic Toc.
Yes, the whole point is that the endless tic-toc is actually timeless: every tic sounds the same and so does every toc.
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I just read this amazing article....I wish that I could make a model one of these in glass. It would be beautiful.
https://www.simonsfoundation.org/qua...antum-physics/
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The revelation that particle interactions, the most basic events in nature, may be consequences of geometry significantly advances a decades-long effort to reformulate quantum field theory, the body of laws describing elementary particles and their interactions. Interactions that were previously calculated with mathematical formulas thousands of terms long can now be described by computing the volume of the corresponding jewel-like “amplituhedron,” which yields an equivalent one-term expression.
ha..ha..ha.. (that kind of crying glad but forced sarcastic sad laughter)
They finally begin to get it.
That ...dimensionally speaking, geometry, angles, vibration, oscillation, all of that.... is the FUNDAMENTAL.
And with such understanding, anything.. anything at all..can be done with matter, space, time and dimensions.
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“The degree of efficiency is mind-boggling,” said Jacob Bourjaily, a theoretical physicist at Harvard University and one of the researchers who developed the new idea. “You can easily do, on paper, computations that were infeasible even with a computer before.”
some of us don't need paper.
We just visualize complex geometry, in colors and frequency. That's exactly how Tesla did it and how the Buddhists see it and draw it, and all the geometric imagery, medallions, and symbols that Micheal Newton's hypnosis subjects spoke about seeing in their 'lives between lives'.
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https://youtube.com/watch?v=BE4oz2u6OHY
I think this is what our society has become..
Some people realize this sad reality and does everything to go agaisnt it
But most people are too ignorant or caught up to realize that this is how their daily lives are
Hopefully, these people will wake up like ''number 4483'' woke up
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Conchis
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The revelation that particle interactions, the most basic events in nature, may be consequences of geometry significantly advances a decades-long effort to reformulate quantum field theory, the body of laws describing elementary particles and their interactions. Interactions that were previously calculated with mathematical formulas thousands of terms long can now be described by computing the volume of the corresponding jewel-like “amplituhedron,” which yields an equivalent one-term expression.
ha..ha..ha.. (that kind of crying glad but forced sarcastic sad laughter)
They finally begin to get it.
That ...dimensionally speaking, geometry, angles, vibration, oscillation, all of that.... is the FUNDAMENTAL.
And with such understanding, anything..
anything at all..can be done with matter, space, time and dimensions.
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“The degree of efficiency is mind-boggling,” said Jacob Bourjaily, a theoretical physicist at Harvard University and one of the researchers who developed the new idea. “You can easily do, on paper, computations that were infeasible even with a computer before.”
some of us don't need paper.
We just visualize complex geometry, in colors and frequency. That's exactly how Tesla did it and how the Buddhists see it and draw it, and all the geometric imagery, medallions, and symbols that Micheal Newton's hypnosis subjects spoke about seeing in their 'lives between lives'.
If one ever wanted to get a handle on specific moments in human time and space, this is one of them. At least with regard to the face of public change. This one right here. ^
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https://youtube.com/watch?v=BE4oz2u6OHY
I think this is what our society has become..
Some people realize this sad reality and does everything to go agaisnt it
But most people are too ignorant or caught up to realize that this is how their daily lives are
Hopefully, these people will wake up like ''number 4483'' woke up
Well, hopefully most of 'em won't take a train to the head to get there....
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Action is key or the knowledge dims until the next bout of the circular lessons. Get unstuck. Application on ones collected experiences and wisdoms create spirals.
So true. And yet, there is so much dammed up that when it comes to the crux, the only natural 'action' (more like letting something happen in me or through me) is one that would create general chaos. Not harm, per se, although it would be difficult to manage the consequences. It only comes to me in the presence of others.
I wonder if there really is a way to work with it gently, to work it slowly, so my remaining connections and social image don't go completely down the drain, or am I putting off an inevitable experience?
EDIT: it would be like great big sobs and crying, very loud if the floodgates fully opened. I know what I'm talking about here isn't quite the same as the type of process being referenced; it's just what triggered in me when I read it.
Hello Gekko,
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And yet, there is so much dammed up that when it comes to the crux, the only natural 'action' (more like letting something happen in me or through me) is one that would create general chaos.
I’d say if there’s something dammed up, it means let go.
The loss of my son is the barometer I use to settle any emotions that need a dusting off. Nothing and no thing touches me like that experience. When the emotional pain hit the realm of immeasurable and insurmountable, the body took on the rest. It felt like a non-stop, red-hot poker attack. Raw-raw all the time.
I was exhausted. I could not take one more second of the on-going rage, sadness, and fear of never seeing Michael again. I lived in the country, and no homes around for miles. I went outside in the dead of winter, no coat and screeched, screeched and screeched. I hoped a blood vessel or my heart end all pain.
Instead, I collapsed and waited to die. No more tears came. No sobs. Only silence. I landed in the center of blessed silence. No need to think or wonder or feel. Nothing.
I don’t know how long it was. But when I got up, I thought it snowed until I took a closer look. There were tiny, tiny feathers all around me. I don’t know how many I collected. Lots. When I checked, I watched them disappear in my hand like snowflakes. And as if on cue, the feathers that had outlined my body did the same.
No amount of money would I trade for the experience that day. A priceless gift of knowledge that nothing, and no thing matches a heart that is open. It only makes one stronger.
So that’s my secret weapon for oodles of light and continued health. Keep the awareness light on. Recycle and relabel energies that go quirky ASAP.
UPDATE: Rather than recycle and relabel...un-label, i.e., no label, i.e., stop before the label. It's my new, old-goal. Identify there's itch energy. Then it goes poof!
Hearts,
Paula :wave:
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Very touching Paula.
This draw the lines with the important doesn't it|
The unimportant now: I went to a sound systems stores and looked at some stuff, such as sound systems (lol), tv, and there was massage chairs made by Toshiba.
I sat in the most expensive one and put a massage program on. This was so good, I could not believe that they actually made a chair as I had thought of years ago, when having massage. $5,000 for nirvana, or almost.
I became soooo relax that they could have sold me anything.
I had to escape the store fast, but not before being handed two sales proposals for a sound system.
If you ever see those chairs in a store, do not hesitate for one minute in trying their démos, Toshiba is the brand, and the salesman told me they all do the chair once a day because it is so good.
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I cannot believe it. My daughter just sent me a pm to go get some food at the store, and then she scream "you do not answer me", me answering verbally and her "this is not polite to not send back a pm". Oh! Please!
Why doesn't she just speak???
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Very touching Paula.
Thank you, Flash.
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I cannot believe it. My daughter just sent me a pm to go get some food at the store, and then she scream "you do not answer me", me answering verbally and her "this is not polite to not send back a pm". Oh! Please!
Why doesn't she just speak???
This must mean it's time to take it up a notch. Mind-speak. Mental telepathy. Wolfie's been teaching me. For the new members and guests, this is Wolfie. His power animal is a wolf.
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Yes, mental telepathy. I wanted to try at one point with her, consciously (we surely do it below the conscious awareness), she did not believe she could.
As for pm ing me for getting some ice cream (now I will have your interest Paula ;) ), she was already tracking me on Facebook, on Skype, on Hotmail, now on Avalon??!!!
I feel I have no more virtual place to hide :rolleyes: - it is a little bit of that feeling, but with a large smile.
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Much respect, Paula. And you're right. Underneath the heavy blanket is much joy, and peace. I'm beginning to sense it there even when I'm not experiencing it.
Everything I experience is personal to me. And yet none of it is meant personally. A paradox I'm actually grasping, at least on some level.
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I feel I have no more virtual place to hide :rolleyes: - it is a little be of that feeling, but with a large smile.
Ah, I see you found my cave. Yes, yes! Come in, come in! You are welcome to use it any time. Shhhh! I won't tell. Anything you need is but a thought away. Great manifesting energies in here. BTW: Beautiful accent you have.
Leaving now....I'm spamming on the Here and Now. I promised myself I won't do that.
Thanks for the visit, ya All. Huggins. :wave:
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Wow, this is really beautiful Paula. The artist in you is very imaginative. Thank you. And if this is spamming, I love your spams.
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Much respect, Paula.
One last post. Same for me, Gekko. Much respect that you continue to discover Yourself. I don't alway post. But I always peek and follow. :wave:
