Parasitic Non-Organic Multidimensional Beings

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Posted by Roseheart

Thank you DNA for this fascinating thread.
I have a question.
I saw and heard many things as a teenager that scared me and I basically turned my awareness away and concentrated on the material world for many, many years.
I have now come full circle and I am opening up again...
I am seeing lights a lot now. They are white or sometimes a beautiful blue colour. They flash on walls and sometimes on the floor/ground. I have become very used to them.
Also I am seeing black flashes too though. They will appear on the wall next to the t.v sometimes. I don't have the same level of comfort with these. Even now, writing about them is making me feel odd - a bit hot and uncomfortable. They are only small. It's like the wall has a little opening and closing or something. They will open and close off to the side of my view...
This is not happening constantly but is a daily event for me now and thought you might know what is going on... I'm not afraid, I just would like some insight...
I am also seeing sort of ripples which are daily events too. When you look at a rip in the surf where water meets from different directions there is a line there - well this is what I see when I'm looking around sometimes, like a ripple in the veil...
Hard to describe these things. Anybody see them too?

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Hi Roseheart
Thank you for sharing your experience.
I certainly don't want to try to limit the possibilites as to what your perceiving Rose. You describe visual annomalies but is there anything else associated with the visual? I certainly don't want to make assumptions. Are the flashes just that, flashes, or are they something else. Is there a shape?
Do you see them with both eyes?
The fact your seeing them on the walls and on the floor and ground does not sound like anything I could comment on.
I just don't know. It's up to the observer to use their own inner sense of knowing to describe what is going on.
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I don't really see anything until I go into a meditative state and purposelly activate my third eye.
I don't see into the etheric until I change my energy vibration.
So I may not be the best person to answer your question here.
These experiences you describe sound like they just happen in your normal field of vision.
There are phenomenon associated with portal activity,,,,and these have been reported by folks all over the country.
An excellent book on the subject is "hunt for the skinwalker" by George Knapp.
You could be experiencing any of the phenomenon we have talked about in your own unique way.
In terms of seeing these phenomenon with your regular field of vision I just don't have personal data to corrolate with you.
This is something I do not have experience with.
Maybe some one else can offer you a better explanation.
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Posted by Borden

Hi, Roseheart,

I've been having the exact same experience!

Do you get the feeling that everything in the world has sped up suddenly? Is the veil lifting or thinning? Or do we just have the same medical condition?!

Little blobs of shadow that scatter when I notice them ... little flecks of white light that don't move in a way correspondent with physical phenomena like blood pressure or whatever. I've been ignoring them actually, but one or two ribbons of rainbow coloured light were very odd.

Borden

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Excellent points Borden.
Thank You :)
Your making a corrolation with what is commonly termed as "eye floaties".
We are told by optomitrists that eye floaties are caused by "skin cells" floating in the inner eye, eye fluid.
The eye floaty explanation may not be sufficient to explain certain annomalies that correspond with this phenomenon.
For instance,,,,I myself notice heavy "eye floaty" activity when I'm unknowingly being parasitsed on by a ghost.
I've corrolated this time and time again.
When I experience intense eye floaty activity,,,I will go into a mediation,,activiate my third eye,,,and there will be a particularly strong ghost hovering about me.

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There are people who are naturally more spiritually tuned into the "astral" realm. I am one such person and have lived all my life aware of entities / energies around me. I believe such people as myself are like beacons to the lower dimensional lower energy beings and get targeted.

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generally speaking most people who are natural mediums have a lot of yin chi in their makeup. Simply put, the astral realm can be thought of as a yin based continuum, while the physical realm is more yang. the more yin you are, the more you have of what they want to sustain. The reality of this is more complicated than just these broad statements, but this covers the basic guidelines to understand the overall dynamics of the situation

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I do believe there are people who have been inhabited by some negative entities and have no recollection of their actions that have landed them in mental institutions/prisons.

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possession does exist but it is extremely rare, especially in the western world. spirits do attach themselves to mental patients, especially schizophrenics, but this is not what i would call full fledged possession.

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It is my experience that ALL ghosts are offered help and shown the tunnel with the light at the end of it.

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just like in this world karma must play itself out, all who wish to enter the heavenly realms will do so eventually, but the scales must be balanced. Complete absolution of past misdeeds by divine grace happens, but is not the norm. I am not a lord of karma so i wont presume to say i understand the dynamics of this fully.

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But for some reason, some ghosts refuse counsil. (Because the think they know it all)

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illusory chi is at the basis of all separation, but from their point of view they refuse help in the next world for as many different reasons as people in this world refuse to accept love into their life

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I hear what your saying in concernes with addiction, and I suppose this could be the case, but how would one ascertain this?

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this group of earthbound spirits with addictions fit best with the classical description of a hungry ghost because the appetite of the po is stronger than the will of the conscious or semi conscious mind of the individual. In life the po makes them do things the conscious mind does not want to do, and this continues on after they die. Other earthbound spirits may decide to stay close to earth because of faulty logic concerning the afterlife and the nature of the self. This is more of a ego problem.

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It's ussually just me, in a darkened room, viewing an entitiy that has shown up to try and feed on me, and I suprise it by showing it that I can see it.
I then talk to it (outloud) ghosts are telepathic, but not perfectly so and as such I find it more economically communication wise to just talk outloud to it.
The ghosts are ussually not to interested in what you have to say,,,because they have to feed.
Energy is their number one concern.

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keep in mind that the unconscious aspect of your own astral body helps you form a recognizable image psychically of a entity in your presence. Also from my experience many non-human entities that wish to siphon off energy can assume a human form that will aid them in getting you to lower your defenses.

http://upload.wikimedia.org/wikipedi...ame_8-cell.png

the picture above is of a tesseract or a hypercube . It is a three dimensional representation of a the four-dimensional analog of a cube. It is the closest thing that can be represented in three dimensional space of a 4d cube. It could be said that it is a unzipped version of a 4d object. When viewing or remembering 4d objects while in the physical realm, the unconscious mind automatically unzips a digestible version of a astral entity into the conscious mind that can be perceived in 3d terms. Our perception of a astral entity from the physical is never a complete and a fully accurate representation of a astral entity on it's own plane of existence.

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3.The expression "some one just walked over my grave". When your hair stands up on your skin accompanied by a chill of sorts(no change of temperture) this is because a ghost has touched you and or is attempting to feed on you.

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not necessarily, some sort of astral influence is interacting with you, but it does not have to be a entity. There are currents of force (winds) that exist and occasionally interact with the physical realm. Also, if you know how to manipulate your chi, you can create the same effect by pushing yin chi into the bladder meridians along the back.

Hey Borden - you made me laugh with the 'maybe we have same medical condition' comment. Off to the Psyche Ward for us? Some would say yes!

I need to add that I feel there is an 'Intelligence' involved in this phenomena. I sometimes think they are trying to tell me something and always look at the thought I'm having when they occur... The dark flashes are what I'm more interested in. What are they representing? Do I just feel uncomfortable about them because they're dark? Because 'dark things' are bad? Maybe they're harmless...

I find this thread very engaging.

I view these topics from a shamanic perspective, if we are aware enough we should be able to walk in and understand all these realms simultaneously. However, I have not fully reached that attainment (but am a very intuitive person):crazy

Interestingly, in my life I have found some things extremely comforting and have gravitated to them consistently...... Eucalyptus, Bay, chamomile, sage and tobbaco. If you are in need of "relief" these natural elements work.....don't know why, but they have shown to be expellers of sucubus types of energies over and over, regardless of my mindset or potential placebo positioning.

With my "awakening" I have come to look for tools to survive, first......

I also find that when I am in confusion, or feel really "heavy", I can go to a physical area where the only "mind" in proximity is mine....it seems that then I can clearly identify the energies attached to me and release them.

I sometimes use fishing as one of these activities that can shed unwanted energy (not actually fishing, just being in a physical position of some what mental remoteness, some where out on the water, isolated). And strange as it may seem, sailing seems to be a stronger tool then power boating. Though I enjoy both.

I realize these comments may seem lackluster compared to some....I am a believer of KISS, and try to view my world and my problems and my solutions through that looking glass.

Thanks again to everyone who contributes to this thread and forum. I respect and enjoy all the perspectives shared here!

Hi again Roseheart,

oh, and DNA, I'm not trying to hijack your great thread, this is on subject (I think),

I figured out years ago that spiders astral project. Yes, I know that sounds nuts, but I saw what I saw!

I was in a meditative state, and I saw one 'scouting'. Once I realised what I was seeing, I started to be able to see it regularly. They send out a version of themselves before going there. I've witnessed it, and in the same way that spiders tend to either freeze or scatter when you notice them, the astral spider does exactly the same.

This happened some years ago, but I still spot it regularly. Once seen ... difficult to unsee. A lot of the little blobs or flecks of shadow I see are spiders scouting, and I know this through long observation.

But it has made me think, and one of the things I think is that there may be all sorts of parasitic influences that are just ... pesky (to use a very American term). Not intelligent or evil, but just doing what they do. Perhaps the mind or even the physical brain are prone to parasitical things that are just what they are. If arachnids astral project, then what else can they do? And what other creatures may feed on energies we don't classify as 'real'? And maybe these are not sinister as in 'reptilian' sinister, but just natural.

I also think that the other stuff, the stuff that DNA details, is real. And you have to wonder, well, if this is a feature of primitive life ... how much better at it would intelligent life be?

I'm scaring myself now!

Borden.

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Posted by silvervioletrubie

I find this thread very engaging.

I view these topics from a shamanic perspective, if we are aware enough we should be able to walk in and understand all these realms simultaneously. However, I have not fully reached that attainment (but am a very intuitive person):crazy

Interestingly, in my life I have found some things extremely comforting and have gravitated to them consistently...... Eucalyptus, Bay, chamomile, sage and tobbaco. If you are in need of "relief" these natural elements work.....don't know why, but they have shown to be expellers of sucubus types of energies over and over, regardless of my mindset or potential placebo positioning.

With my "awakening" I have come to look for tools to survive, first......

I also find that when I am in confusion, or feel really "heavy", I can go to a physical area where the only "mind" in proximity is mine....it seems that then I can clearly identify the energies attached to me and release them.

I sometimes use fishing as one of these activities that can shed unwanted energy (not actually fishing, just being in a physical position of some what mental remoteness, some where out on the water, isolated). And strange as it may seem, sailing seems to be a stronger tool then power boating. Though I enjoy both.

I realize these comments may seem lackluster compared to some....I am a believer of KISS, and try to view my world and my problems and my solutions through that looking glass.

Thanks again to everyone who contributes to this thread and forum. I respect and enjoy all the perspectives shared here!

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Thank you for the comments.
I don't know if you've read,,,but some folks and myself have included some of the same "relief" items you listed.
I agree. Keep it simple. Absolutely.
And sometimes,,,while speculating,,,we can create quite a mess of images that are hard to sew together in a cognant tapestry.
That's one of the reasons I really like BearCows first post where he simplified a lot of what I said into a coherant, easy to reference list.
If I could start this thread over,,,,I would get rid of all my speculating in my initial post(like the part about David Hudson's white powder gold(I've never actually taken it)),,,and base the thread off of bearcows list and extoll upon that using personal "experience" only.
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I'm into shamanic methods myself.
But ultimatly,,,it's all about trial and error,,,and not being afraid to move forward.
Though I bring up and believe there is some scary sh!t out there,,,,,the point I"m trying to make,,,is that this stuff is all around us interacting with us every moment of our waking and sleeping lives anyway,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,so why not be more aware of it.
There is no reason to be afraid.
Being aware of the situation won't make you any more vulnerable to this stuff.
I know I said that the aspiring psychic has to deal with the fourth dimensionals as a result of activating his or her third eye.
But honestly,,,,now that I know what I'm dealing with,,,,,I can look back and see that this stuff has been intimatly associated with my life,,,well,,,,forever.
It's open dialogue like this,,,,where we exchange "experiences" and methods of protection that truelly help in my opinion.
And experimentation is how we are going to get there in my opinion.

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Posted by bearcow

generally speaking most people who are natural mediums have a lot of yin chi in their makeup. Simply put, the astral realm can be thought of as a yin based continuum, while the physical realm is more yang. the more yin you are, the more you have of what they want to sustain. The reality of this is more complicated than just these broad statements, but this covers the basic guidelines to understand the overall dynamics of the situation

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What you say makes sense. But I don't really understand the difference between yin and yang energies as stated. Do you mean male and female energies?

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Posted by bearcow

just like in this world karma must play itself out, all who wish to enter the heavenly realms will do so eventually, but the scales must be balanced. Complete absolution of past misdeeds by divine grace happens, but is not the norm. I am not a lord of karma so i wont presume to say i understand the dynamics of this fully.illusory chi is at the basis of all separation, but from their point of view they refuse help in the next world for as many different reasons as people in this world refuse to accept love into their life

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Yea,,,I don't know about Karma being played out when your dead. This I'm sure could be an interesting point of debate, but, I've heard it said that karma is no longer played out or paid after death.
Karma,,,,from what I've digested,,,,and I'll just give you my sources for this Michael Newton's "Journey of the soul" and Chelsea Quinn Yarbro's "The Michael Teachings".
I for one was actually kind of pissed off when I read in these instances that rude and ugly ghosts for one,,,are not incuring karma,,,when they do such messed up stuff as to cause night terrors when they infect themselves into your dreams,,,,,and do the old hag syndrom thing.
So,,,yea,,,,that's a debatable point.

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Posted by bearcow

this group of earthbound spirits with addictions fit best with the classical description of a hungry ghost because the appetite of the po is stronger than the will of the conscious or semi conscious mind of the individual. In life the po makes them do things the conscious mind does not want to do, and this continues on after they die. Other earthbound spirits may decide to stay close to earth because of faulty logic concerning the afterlife and the nature of the self. This is more of a ego problem..

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Bro,,,I'm going to just let you know If I don't understand something. And I have no idea what po is. Atleast,,,I'm sure I don't understand it how your using it.
I completly agree with faulty logic, 100%. Most ghosts I've interacted with are just convinced they know everything there is to know about what is going on.
As a matter of fact,,,,and I'll try to get into this a little later,,,the number one thing I do that helps me get a ghost to cross over,,,,is to ask the ghost to "Acknowledge the possibility that they do not know everything" I don't tell it it's wrong,,,,I don't start preaching,,,,,I just try to repeat that one simple,,,,,fairly reasonable phrase,,,,,"acknowledge the possibility that you do not know everything".
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That's really all I do. After that,,,,I ask for a leap of faith. I tell them that "what if someone has been watching over you your entire life, and what if that someone wanted to talk to you right now,,,some one who loves you and cares for you" And at that point,,,,,,I always see a portal open up,,,,,,,,,always,,,,,it's ussually a pinkish color that floods the room. At this point I tell the ghost "what if? what if this person could tell you things you need to know? Is there any harm in talking to them?" At this point,,,,,I see the two beings entering in the portal,,and it then disspates. When I go through this,,,and get the finishing results,,,,,,,whatever energy I expended on the ghost has been,,,,,,,recharged. I don't know if it's the pinkish astral light coming through the higher portal,,,,or what,,,but I always feel as if I've lost absolutely no energy what so ever,,,and on the contrary,,,I seem to gain some.

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Posted by bearcow

keep in mind that the unconscious aspect of your own astral body helps you form a recognizable image psychically of a entity in your presence. Also from my experience many non-human entities that wish to siphon off energy can assume a human form that will aid them in getting you to lower your defenses..

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I don't think that's the case with myself. I don't view a ghost with my third eye only,,,I empathize with them as well. As I mentioned in this thread I started and referenced earlier
Thread: How To See A Ghost For Your Self
When I'm viewing a ghost,,,and interacting with it,,,I practice a form of reiki,,,and project my energy into the ghost,,,and in so doing,,,the ghost takes shape.
I've witnessed non-human entities,,,and I'll devulge that tale when I get to the next topic heading on your list.
But,,,,,,,,I don't doubt this can happen at all,,,,and from what you say,,,you have had experiences,,,,I would love to hear them.
Sharing experiences like this,,,,this is top notch learning as far as I'm concerned. :)

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Posted by bearcow

http://upload.wikimedia.org/wikipedi...ame_8-cell.png

the picture above is of a tesseract or a hypercube . It is a three dimensional representation of a the four-dimensional analog of a cube. It is the closest thing that can be represented in three dimensional space of a 4d cube. It could be said that it is a unzipped version of a 4d object. When viewing or remembering 4d objects while in the physical realm, the unconscious mind automatically unzips a digestible version of a astral entity into the conscious mind that can be perceived in 3d terms. Our perception of a astral entity from the physical is never a complete and a fully accurate representation of a astral entity on it's own plane of existence..

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I appreciate your effort here,,,and please by all means, if this helps yourself out or anyone else out here than I applaude it.
But,,,I just want to share my personal reference of the phrase fourth dimension,,,and that is this.
I use it in an abstract sense only and it has no relationship what so ever to quantum physics or Einstienian theory.
I mention the fourth dimension as the astral plane,,,,and the fourth dimension in physics or Einstienian theory is time.
So there is no way I could be making a refernce that has anything to do with physics,,,or every time I mentioned the fourth dimension,,,,I would be saying that the astral parasites from time are coming to suck our energy,,,and that is not what I'm saying.
I think this webpage explains it best. The fourth dimension Astral Maya Maya

Thanks for your healthy feedback bearcow,,,and please,,,I hope you don't think I'm criticizing you or anything. We seem to agree on about 90% of this stuff,,and that in and of itself is amazing if you ask me.

Thank you, for this thread. Very inspirational. I wanted to share my experience with Parasitic Non-Organic Multidimensional Beings. I have started to be more aware and see and differentiate more closely since the Credo Mutwa videos. I felt in one of them he described these higher dimensional parasites very clearly - that is my interpretation and my personal view. The alignment that presented itself to me was that in essence they are expert blackmailers, using "love" and other dings to buy into favors in order to blackmail and extract. Their essence is one of extraction, absorbtion, - like a vampire - and the thought combination that locks it in place is:
They need to be helped - but they cannot be helped. They're so "needy", "loving", whateverwhateverwhatever so they get you engaged helping - so they extract time, money, energy, thought. Creating my own boundaries in physical time, energy, space, thought space, thought energy, thought time has been a growing experience for myself, especially since nothing could latch on if there was nothing to latch on to - and that is my responsibility in unveiling for myself.
And then I can see with my inner eye this dark grey skinned ghoulish like ghost image appearing out of the body, like the overlord that keeps this mechanism in place. But it seems not easy to remove since the actual being is so weakened, almost nulled out, or absorbed. Pretty gross - but these frequencies are there with these engaging qualities. Nothing, BTW, that i ever encountered ever before in any meditation, technology. David Icke spoke about them some time ago and that was interesting. Please, comment

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Posted by Borden

Hi again Roseheart,

oh, and DNA, I'm not trying to hijack your great thread, this is on subject (I think),

I figured out years ago that spiders astral project. Yes, I know that sounds nuts, but I saw what I saw!

I was in a meditative state, and I saw one 'scouting'. Once I realised what I was seeing, I started to be able to see it regularly. They send out a version of themselves before going there. I've witnessed it, and in the same way that spiders tend to either freeze or scatter when you notice them, the astral spider does exactly the same.

This happened some years ago, but I still spot it regularly. Once seen ... difficult to unsee. A lot of the little blobs or flecks of shadow I see are spiders scouting, and I know this through long observation.

But it has made me think, and one of the things I think is that there may be all sorts of parasitic influences that are just ... pesky (to use a very American term). Not intelligent or evil, but just doing what they do. Perhaps the mind or even the physical brain are prone to parasitical things that are just what they are. If arachnids astral project, then what else can they do? And what other creatures may feed on energies we don't classify as 'real'? And maybe these are not sinister as in 'reptilian' sinister, but just natural.

I also think that the other stuff, the stuff that DNA details, is real. And you have to wonder, well, if this is a feature of primitive life ... how much better at it would intelligent life be?

I'm scaring myself now!

Borden.

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Borden,,,,experiential data is the best data of all in my opinion.
It was in the hopes of folks sharing their experience that I started this thread.
Folks can spin interpretations and regurgitate books available to all,,,but,,,,it's experirence from the casual practitioner I value highest of all.
I've never ever heard anything like what you speak of with these spiders astral projecting and scouting so to speak.
It's intriguing. :)
Thank you again.
Thank you for sharing your personal experience and information with us. :)

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What you say makes sense. But I don't really understand the difference between yin and yang energies as stated. Do you mean male and female energies?

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yes, everything has polarity

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Bro,,,I'm going to just let you know If I don't understand something. And I have no idea what po is. Atleast,,,I'm sure I don't understand it how your using it.

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the po is more or less what inelia calls the body intelligence

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,I always see a portal open up,,,,,,,,,always,,,,,it's ussually a pinkish color that floods the room. At this point I tell the ghost "what if? what if this person could tell you things you need to know? Is there any harm in talking to them?" At this point,,,,,I see the two beings entering in the portal,,and it then disspates. When I go through this,,,and get the finishing results,,,,,,,whatever energy I expended on the ghost has been,,,,,,,recharged. I don't know if it's the pinkish astral light coming through the higher portal,,,,or what,,,but I always feel as if I've lost absolutely no energy what so ever,,,and on the contrary,,,I seem to gain some.

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Sounds like the rose light of unconditional love. I use the word rose light as this is what the Rosicrucians call it, if you want to look into that. I would agree with your statement that you would gain more energy than you put into evoking it.

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I appreciate your effort here,,,and please by all means, if this helps yourself out or anyone else out here than I applaude it.
But,,,I just want to share my personal reference of the phrase fourth dimension,,,and that is this.
I use it in an abstract sense only and it has no relationship what so ever to quantum physics or Einstienian theory.
I mention the fourth dimension as the astral plane,,,,and the fourth dimension in physics or Einstienian theory is time.
So there is no way I could be making a refernce that has anything to do with physics

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there is a train of thought that can be pursued along these lines that allow the mind to explore a spacial relationship that exists in the astral that does not exist in the physical. Although the mind is not centered in the physical, it's sequential linear development is built around the physical brain and it's perception of physical events. If this model does not work for you, so be it. There are plenty of ways to get from point a to point b.

the astral is a subjective realm of forms, and unless they are buddha's, people who are completely free from illusion, no 2 viewers will see a object or entity exactly the same. Telling stories of events that happen to you and sharing events are worthwhile, but if you do not understand the underling principles of creation and how things interact, it will only lead to confusion.

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Posted by bearcow

Negative Lower astral entities

A demon would generally fall into this class, as would other semi intelligent astral beings that willfully/deceitfully feed off of the corresponding elemental essence in a human being. The typical concept of a demon would feed the off unchecked fire within a human being that creates blood lust, murderous thoughts etc. I have never seen a reptilian as such, but if they do exist, i suppose they would be at the higher end of this spectrum. Just to note, beings in this class are intelligent/powerful enough that they can assume any form they wish to try to deceive you.

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Encounter with a Vampire

I had an experience a few years back where a person had told me that they "knew" for a fact that they were "saved" so to speak by an animal totem that had merged with them. This experience was quite powerful for I felt at the time, and I still do that this animal totem this person spoke of either itself or one like it tried to merge with me.
This is not a fuzzy feel good story for it seems although this animal totem gave certain protections to their host they seemed to seek to feed on the energy of those around the host and as such turn the host into a sort of vampire.

This is an experience where I feel an astral entity attempted to form a symbiotic bond with me.
I began a correspondence with Jonathan Zap (e-mail) at the end of 2003. At the time I was heavily into this idea of there being a non-organic, non-physical energy oriented life forms. Zap did a show with Jonathan Grey on this subject on coast to coast in 06.
Zap is a very cerebral guy, and he was very influential in helping me explore/understand and categorize this phenomenon. Zap has some excellent first hand experience with energy parasites including an encounter with a parasite possessed human, making that human a vampire, found here Mind Parasites,Energy Parasites and Vampires.

So now I will tell my story which I feel was the attempt of a fourth dimensional astral entity attempting to make an attachment with me and thus turn me into a form of vampire.
So, I started working at this call center/phone modem tech, temp company in march of 07. I was in a training class, and as training classes go, you make friends hang out at lunch, that kind of thing.

I made an aquaintance, and,in so far as the story goes, I believe Darren, was home to a parasite of greater strength, tenacity and permanence than I'm used to encountering.

He (Darren) was quite the character, he was like a guy from the wrong time period, he wore long black riding boots, had long lustrous hair, he wore non-collared long sleeve white cotton button shirts that gave him a bit of a pirate look. He was muscular about 6'2 and looked like he could take care of himself in a fight.
As a guy you can't help but to gauge these kinds of things.

Darren lacked the ability to engage, and I know that sounds weird, but, in a conversation, I tend to value those who can engage, and though we had lots in common, and we talked quite a bit, he never really engaged with me, or if you will, in a Celestine Prophecy esque meaning, he never opened up energetically.

Zap states in his personal encounters with people like this, that folks tend to tell you if they are a vampire, you just have to listen and believe them when they let you know. Now on this note I could tell you that Darren went on and on about playing this vampire RPG game called Kindrid the Gathering, and that is a little clue I feel Darren was giving me about who he was. Darren would become amazingly animated (much more so than normal) when telling the tales of his RPG game, and it was almost as if he felt like he was allowed to express that he really, identified with being a vampire.

On our last day of class, we were all coming back from our last break of the day, and getting ready to take the last test of the training class, the instructor was late coming back and I was talking to Darren which turned into a very engaging conversation.
He asked me about a turtle necklace I was wearing.
I told him it was my animal totem, joking I thought. He became serious, and for the first time, rather engaging. He asked if I believe in animal totems. I told him that thousands of years of shamanic practice lend some backing in my opinion.

He then went into this rant, when people want to tell a story, I have no problem with giving them my energy via attention, and I even have this cool ability to zero in on a place in the aura where the memories being shared are stored and focus in on that area, embuing this area in the aura with more energy and thus giving the story more energy to be told. Giving the story teller more energy and ability to tell their story.
In hindsight I now think I was also giving a certain entity dwelling in Darren my energy and this entity noticed me and was soon to give me a personal visit.



Darren told me about how he believed he had an animal totem, a cat or panther like totem. He said he felt it had saved him from the same fate as his siblings. He said without it, he knew he would have went the way of his two brothers and two sisters, who were drug addicted and homeless or in prison.

Darren and his siblings were the victims of horrible physical and sexual abuse from their father. Darren told me things that were truly terrible, beatings that would break bones and sexual abuse that he admitted he had received as well as his brothers and sisters.
Darren acknowledged this as the reason for his siblings having their problems, and stated he was repeating their exact behavior until one fateful day when he was approached by what he termed a panther like entity.

He said he felt a force or living being asking to live in him (he was very adamant about it), and he said "yes" to the entity asking to live in him, then feeling an indwelling force that he cited had changed him and continues to change him to this day. This indwelling force, made him feel stronger, more focused, he said he no longer felt the same craving for drugs and alcohol like his brothers and sisters did.
By now we were in the class, given notes for the test and given time to study.


Darren had worked there before, and he didn't need to study.
And he wouldn't stop talking about this subject.
I say he wouldn't stop because I needed to study and told him so trying in a polite manner to get him to shut up.
But he went on and on, saying this cat like totem lived on in him, and that he never wanted drugs again or needed to drink again.
He said his addictive vices were gone.
Now I could see part of the problem was that he was getting kind of high on the energy I had given him and I tried to pull back now, but he seemed to not want to let me.

So the test ends and I go home, that night I had this dream.
In the dream I received a call from Jonathan Zap and I answered it on an outside payphone, he was telling me that someone was coming I thought this meant that he had a friend who needed a place to stay. He was telling me about a traveling circus that was coming to my town and someone from the circus was going to come to my apartment. This traveling circus was complete with caged animals, circus performers and all the workers who make an event like this possible. One of the accompanying performers was going to be paying me a visit.

I took it that this was Jonathon Zap's friend, and I told him any friend of his was welcome to stay at my place, Jonathon was breaking up on the phone but I was sure that this must be why he was calling so I yelled into the receiver that his friend was welcome at my place.
He then told me I should be careful of who I allow to stay in my place and that I should really think it over.
I took this as him being to shy to ask for his friend and told him nonsense, his friend could stay with me.
He again protested, and I told him I had to go.

I was then in my apartment, answering a knock on the door, and it was a young thirty year old man with a dufflebag, he was a sturdy thin gentleman, wearing warm baggy clothes with short black curly hair, he looked Greek or Roman, but very contemporary.

I invited him in, and told him to make himself at home.
I told him I had some errands I had to run and I left him in the apartment.
This is all still a dream and I then returned to my apartment some time later.

When I came back in, I saw the man with two children bound in a chair, this man was torturing these children with a drill. He was removing their teeth with no anesthetic while they were awake.
I was in horror. I was in shock. I mean for a dream, I was really feeling the impact of this horror. It was as if this was all really happening, and the children were as alive and important as any child I would see while waking.
As I stood, not knowing what to do, the man nodded to me, as if he would be done in a second, and for me to just wait a minute and watch.

I screamed obscenities at him, due to the adrenaline dump I was experiencing I was not making much sense but I demanded him to leave.
He stopped what he was doing, and told me he was doing this for me.
I failed to articulate a response and motioned for him to leave and then I told him again to leave.
He stopped what he was doing and seemed to understand, he then looked me in the eye and said that I would be better off if I allowed him to continue. He had this knowing look in his eyes he looked very genuine. His eyes had a knowing in them and empathy, it was weird that a person engaged in such psychopathic behavior would be capable of showing engaging empathy at a time like this, but he did.

I then knew what he meant.
The apartment represented me, the apartment we were in was my body and my energy field. The children represented lesser parasites attached to me, these children wished to appear to me in a manner that would trigger the strongest emotional reaction so as to defend them.
The man in my apartment told me in my mind that he couldn't kill the parasites, but he could torture them until they decided to leave on their own.
He was a Rex parasite or King parasite if you will, basically he would rid the host of all other energy parasites but I knew not what HIS DEMANDS or tax would be.
He genuinely seemed to believe his presence would benefit me.
He told me to think about it.
I don't know why he appeared to me to be human and appeared to Darren as a cat like creature.
I was crying at this point in the dream and told him to leave. And he did.
Next thing, I was on the outside pay phone with Jonathan Zap and he was chastising me for letting this guy in my apartment when he had warned me against doing so. And though I was going to blame him for the whole thing, I realized then that he(Jonathan Zap) had tried to warn me.
I woke up from the dream with tears on my face, very strange for tears in a dream to correspond to actual tears going down my actual face.
I woke up with the sense that there was a presence in the bed room with me. A powerful presence was in my room. Had the animal totem/energy parasite of Darren followed me home from work and attempted to make a new home, a new home of myself or had a creature like it been told of me and this creature found me in the astral plane as I slept?

I did not accept the deal offered, to exchange lesser parasites feeding on my energy for a Rex or King parasite that would protect my being and energy field but probably feed on the others around me.
What would you have done?


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Is this the deal of animal totems?

Do animal totems help the person they are connected with at the expense of others?

Or was this something different, something ancient and turning the human into a vampire?

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My question is, what would the Rex parasite want?

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Impossible to say unless you know more about the nature of being you're interacting with. it probably wants to feed off the the corresponding elemental essence within you that it needs. Stuff like this happens for sure, Ive heard stories about gangs in hong kong that cut deals with animal spirits in order to temporally gain powers to defeat their foes. sounds like Darren cut a similar deal.

quick question to those who know

somebody said if you have more yang energy, then it becomes harder for beings to feed of you
but intutives or astral players, see'ers have more yin energy.

so how does this work....... which energies should you develop
(I'm going with the Inelia assumption that, all beings on a correct/continuing evolutionary path, will develop/get all other abilities)


I don't work with yin-yang in my spiritual physiology,
but I have found this term of "lower dimensional parasites" useful,
as I've noticed 'thought switches'....i.e. you in one mode with x decision paths in that mode,..... and then you have a mode switch (when u smoking a cig of something), and you wonder how you were in the previous mode.

Very useful,......as an intellectual, and for the intellectuals, I thank you guys.

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so how does this work....... which energies should you develop

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develop both, the more balanced you you are in your energy makeup, the more in harmony you will become with the outside world. Problems arise when some are either too yin or yang in your energy structure and how they view reality. some quick examples.

Psychopaths,Narcissistic behavior- Too much yang
schizophrenic, paranoid -too much yin
Obsessive–compulsive & overly dependent types- not enough yin

also in some personality types it is not the quantity or lack/excess of energy but the quality of energy is the major disturbance and does not express itself in balance with nature.

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Thank you, for this thread. Very inspirational. I wanted to share my experience with Parasitic Non-Organic Multidimensional Beings. I have started to be more aware and see and differentiate more closely since the Credo Mutwa videos. I felt in one of them he described these higher dimensional parasites very clearly - that is my interpretation and my personal view. The alignment that presented itself to me was that in essence they are expert blackmailers, using "love" and other dings to buy into favors in order to blackmail and extract. Their essence is one of extraction, absorbtion, - like a vampire - and the thought combination that locks it in place is:
They need to be helped - but they cannot be helped. They're so "needy", "loving", whateverwhateverwhatever so they get you engaged helping - so they extract time, money, energy, thought. Creating my own boundaries in physical time, energy, space, thought space, thought energy, thought time has been a growing experience for myself, especially since nothing could latch on if there was nothing to latch on to - and that is my responsibility in unveiling for myself.
And then I can see with my inner eye this dark grey skinned ghoulish like ghost image appearing out of the body, like the overlord that keeps this mechanism in place. But it seems not easy to remove since the actual being is so weakened, almost nulled out, or absorbed. Pretty gross - but these frequencies are there with these engaging qualities. Nothing, BTW, that i ever encountered ever before in any meditation, technology. David Icke spoke about them some time ago and that was interesting. Please, comment

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Hi Eva08,,,
Your encounter was fascinating.
I think one of the ways that these parasites stay hidden from us,,,is that there is no one size fits all explanation for them.
Not in terms of their appearance, nor in their specific manipulations of us humans in wanting to get our energy.
It would seem their methods for milking us humans for our energy are varied and alternating.
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I for one am not familiar at all with astral parasites using sweetness or love as a tool to get us to give to them.
It is interesting how you speak of an overlord,,,and to this I have some experience.
I have witnessed what I call a shadow being feeding on me,,and specifically,,,feeding on my sexual energy.
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I haven't talked about it yet,,,but,,,I'm supposing tonight or tomorrow I'll sit down and jot the experience down.
Shadow beings are not ghosts,,,,they are the absence of light. I had one appearing right in from of me,,,I thought it was a ghost,,,and I was reiki esque feediing it energy out of the palms of my hands.
This was in 04'.
This being cannot be seen by using the front vision,,as silly as it sounds,,,I had to keep moving my head from side to side,,,peering from the corners of my eyes.
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The reason I relate your story to shadow beings,,,is your mention of an "overlord seeing over all the mechanations".
I actually engaged in a dialogue with the shadow being I was feeding energy too.
I was attempting to talk it into passing over,,,,like it was a ghost.
This was not working.
It was not a ghost.
It conveyed it's fear of other entities like itself,,,,over itself,,,,,with more power than itself.
I then recieved the distinct impression,,,,,of this being having a line or filiament attached to me,,,that it used to find me where ever I went.
I then saw in my mind that this being had filiaments attached to him,,,and those beings had filiaments attached to them,,,,,upwards and upwards,,,creating a parasitic pyramid scheme if you will.
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I personally don't see anything reptilian about these beings,,,,these shadow beings,,,but,,,,they do seem to match exactly what Carlos Castaneda talked about when he called them mud shadows.
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Impossible to say unless you know more about the nature of being you're interacting with. it probably wants to feed off the the corresponding elemental essence within you that it needs. Stuff like this happens for sure, Ive heard stories about gangs in hong kong that cut deals with animal spirits in order to temporally gain powers to defeat their foes. sounds like Darren cut a similar deal.

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It very well could be an elemental essence as you say. But it is worth noting that a similiar story is told by a man named Jonathan Zap, and in this story, he talks about a young man who said while reflecting that he might be a vampire, in it, he allows the young man to sleep in his winnebeggo for the night when the weather turns bad. Sleeping in close proximity, Jonathan awoke to an entity feeding on him that was housed and emanating from the young man. Mind Parasites,Energy Parasites and Vampires

I think it may be possible for more evolved energy parasites to form a symbiosis with us. The symbiosis aspect is that they rid us of lesser parasites, but, what they get in return is the energy of other people you interact with. Turning you into a sort of energy vampire for them.

I completely agree. The rex/element is symbiotic. I have an understanding of a energy that is linked to me by a filament or an astral line.

Sometimes I view it as a parasite, when it feeds off of my sexual energy(not pornographic but the energy when two people are excited by eachother). It will Always come and devour a very specific energy, and only that energy.

Sometimes I view it has a part of myself, saving myself from ruin. In this case, it may be parasitic but it could also be helping me avoid certain relationships. Hard to tell.

I believe there are many such elements tied to me, each one different. Some can be released, some just sent to the corner for a time out.

Ok,

so I got an invitation to jump in on this discussion, which is kind of exciting for me. After reading through many of the posts I tried to sit with my own thoughts and feelings about this and figure out what I might have to contribute.

The first time I encountered the concept that human beings were being used as food/slaves for other entities, was in the Castaneda books. While reading the books, I didn't feel like I was receiving intellectual information. I felt like reality and experience were being described to me, and I experimented for myself to see how what was being described to me applied to my own, real, experience. The description of being enslaved, or used as a food source, made immediate sense to me. I looked around and saw how we live, how we think, and it just made sense.

Later, I read a book about Gurdjiev (don't remember how to spell his name), also known as G. He was another mystic who came out of Eastern Europe/Russia, maybe Armenia, and in reading his description of the world, he also mentioned that humanity was put into a state of waking slumber, in order to prey on human energy as a food source/resource. Like anything, I looked for repetitions. If I could find many references to this concept, and compare it to my own experiences, then I could accept it as true. The more I looked, the more references I found. Then the Matrix came out and basically repeated verbatim, what people like Don Juan/Castaneda were saying. The only variation was the whole machine thing. Then David Icke started talking about it, and mentioning the reptillians, and on and on it went.

All this to say that I definitely believe that human beings have been appropriated as a food source/resource/slave colony. There is no doubt about that for me. I also agree that the way we are most profoundly derailed into being slaves, is through psychology/psychic/thought. Interesting to note that the Russians approach psychic phenomena as an extension of psychology. Anyway, this according to what I have learned about Systema, which is a Russian Martial Art that focuses very heavily on psychology/energy/nervous system.

My analysis of our situation, is that we are duped into getting sucked. If I put myself in the mindset of a predator/parasite of this kind, I would have to find beings who were weak or compromised. A structure that has integrity/strength/alignment, is not easily corruptible or exploitable. In kinesthetic terms, tension equals weakness. What I mean by that, and it can be confusing, is that if you know what you are doing, it is possible to exploit a person's structure in their weakest points, which will always be the points where they hold the most tension. The more relaxed and supple a structure, the harder it is to break the structure (I'm talking about human bodies). Our nervous systems are wired for co-operation. Our systems pick up tension in other systems, and that causes our systems to also get tense. If you know what you're doing, that can be exploited, especially if you have the ability to remain relaxed, while creating tension in the other.

How this relates to this discussion, is that essentially the parasites of humanity exploit us by creating tension in our systems. They have tension/pain/negative resonance, and through contact with them, they create the same tension in us. For most of us, tension is an automatic response. It takes time to condition the body and the self to remain relaxed, even in the face of severe trauma. But, for those who learn how to do it, any kind of attacks that are unleashed on them can be exploited, and the tension applied to them can be used against the attacker.

So, following this line of thought, in order to feed on us, they have to get us to abandon our structural integrity, which is very much informed by love and understanding. What I'm trying to say, is that I believe our predators whether organic or inorganic (which I believe both exist) have to weaken us before they can appropriate us. How they do that, is that they isolate us, and keep us from connecting with each other. Once isolated and deprived of nourishment, love, affection, and community, it is much easier to create tension in a persons system, because the nervous system is already tense.

I believe that much of our sense of ourselves, including our self love and worth, is developed through our experiences with others. I believe that this is for a good and functional reason. We are units of consciousness, individuated, but aware of our connection and interdependence. It's the indigenous view that we are a part of an ecology, and by cultivating harmonious relationships, by learning the cycles and rhythms of the many, diverse beings that are part of our world, we create abundance. The key is relationship. That is to say, we are not designed to be isolated, island automatons. Therefore, it makes sense to me that we derive our sense of worth based on how we feel about ourselves, which is also heavily influenced by how others feel about us. People who are seldom encouraged and shown love, have a very difficult time feeling a sense of self worth.

My point is, that our entire world psychology is based on isolation. When I look at history, I see a very deliberate attempt to stamp out and irradicate all forms of social technology that would enable us to hold each other in a sacred way. Because we were born into a world of isolation, where our creative capacities are discouraged and attacked, where we have to manipulate and lie in order to survive, where we have to justify our existence by making a living, where we are trained to objectify each other, we are in a perpetual state of malnourishment and stress. This makes us very easy targets.

People who are loved in the sense that they have people around them who care for them, they have opportunities to express their gifts and create joy in their lives based on what empassions them, and they have a lot of affection in their lives, aren't desperate, and therefore not malnourished (not just in the food sense), and therefore their nervous systems are fairly relaxed. Those people are far less, perhaps impervious, to the kinds of attacks and subsequent subjugation of parasites.

What I am saying in a very long winded way, is that I believe love is really the big remedy from preventing parasites from feeding on us. And when I say love, what is love. I mean, when we recreate community, show each other affection, solidarity, and support, and reclaim our creative inheritances, parasites won't have anything to hold onto. Their offers, however overt or subtle, whether in the energy body or physical world, simply won't have a place to hook into.

Our best response to hate, is love. And love is a natural byproduct of structural integrity. Structural integrity is achieved by strengthening and nourishing the system. Since we are parts of a whole, we need each other. We need to feel accepted, loved, and important (as in we matter in our communities), in order to feel nourished. I believe that solidarity and action based love is our prime defense/answer. This can then, of course, include a variety of techniques, including various energetic/shamanic practices. My concern, is that techniques don't really have much efficacy without wisdom, and that wisdom, to me, is love. I don't just mean sending someone love, or telling someone that they are loved. I mean, working to produce in another the experience of being loved. Acceptance, importance, and affection are key ingredients.

With a strong community that stands in solidarity, and utilizes the gifts and imaginations of its members, where people feel cherished, parasites can't really gain a foothold. In order for our minds to be appropriated, we have to first be isolated, and weak. I understand that there is a whole other side to this argument, in that people's thoughts and emotions can be tampered with, but I do believe that a strong, loving, creative, community that stands in solidarity is the best answer.

For me, the Coconut Revolution is a prime example of that. You can check it out on youtube. It's a story of how a group of indigenous people threw out their parasitic overlords (Miners, military, and government in their case).

I believe this is our task now. To help each other out of isolation. To walk through our own fears, doubts, hurts, betrayals, and inch our way towards each other, to learn, re-learn, how to give each other the opportunities we need to express the gifts, and the hurts that are inside us within a supportive circle of loving community. Maybe not even a circle. Maybe a spiral.

The world of the shaman, the world of the interdimensional traveler, the world of human/non human, organic/inorganic, is fascinating, complex, vast, and as dangerous as any other realm in our existence. For all of its wonder, splendor, awe, and terror, it doesn't necessarily get us any closer to transcending these states which we, on some level, must believe can be transcended. In the end, I believe that love is at the very least, a vital resource which we are not employing the full extent possible.

We talk about clean energy/free energy. Love is a clean energy that has so much potential in terms of giving us the capitol to claim our humanity back from our parasitic overlords. It is a technology, and an energy source that can be mined. This, I believe to be are task. Within the umbrella of love, all our techniques become imbued with wisdom. When I say love, I mean the experience, not the concept.

It's simple, but not...

For me it comes down to how we relate.

Those are my thoughts.

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Ok,

So, following this line of thought, in order to feed on us, they have to get us to abandon our structural integrity, which is very much informed by love and understanding. What I'm trying to say, is that I believe our predators whether organic or inorganic (which I believe both exist) have to weaken us before they can appropriate us. How they do that, is that they isolate us, and keep us from connecting with each other. Once isolated and deprived of nourishment, love, affection, and community, it is much easier to create tension in a persons system, because the nervous system is already tense.

I believe that much of our sense of ourselves, including our self love and worth, is developed through our experiences with others. I believe that this is for a good and functional reason. We are units of consciousness, individuated, but aware of our connection and interdependence. It's the indigenous view that we are a part of an ecology, and by cultivating harmonious relationships, by learning the cycles and rhythms of the many, diverse beings that are part of our world, we create abundance. The key is relationship. That is to say, we are not designed to be isolated, island automatons. Therefore, it makes sense to me that we derive our sense of worth based on how we feel about ourselves, which is also heavily influenced by how others feel about us. People who are seldom encouraged and shown love, have a very difficult time feeling a sense of self worth.

My point is, that our entire world psychology is based on isolation. When I look at history, I see a very deliberate attempt to stamp out and irradicate all forms of social technology that would enable us to hold each other in a sacred way. Because we were born into a world of isolation, where our creative capacities are discouraged and attacked, where we have to manipulate and lie in order to survive, where we have to justify our existence by making a living, where we are trained to objectify each other, we are in a perpetual state of malnourishment and stress. This makes us very easy targets.

People who are loved in the sense that they have people around them who care for them, they have opportunities to express their gifts and create joy in their lives based on what empassions them, and they have a lot of affection in their lives, aren't desperate, and therefore not malnourished (not just in the food sense), and therefore their nervous systems are fairly relaxed. Those people are far less, perhaps impervious, to the kinds of attacks and subsequent subjugation of parasites......

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For me it comes down to how we relate.

Those are my thoughts.

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Hi Armen

Thank you for joining the discussion, I enjoyed your thoughts greatly!

I believe the core you are describing is the core issue for all of us, spiritual isolation from each other allows for us to be controlled. And love is the answer, always. I am speaking of a higher communal "love" as you said "the experience" not the concept of love. But either one really is a good place to start!

To take this discussion one step farther down the rabbit hole.......

I and others in this forum have come to understand that our thoughts are not always "ours", and we can be mentally attacked by technology and other energies.

My description of how this happens ties to this discussion.

Here is my interpretation of one such methodology which I feel is commonly employed by "something".

A energy is transmitted to a geographic region, that energy has a vibrational frequency that can be broad or very finite. That frequency is based on DNA, and that is how it is defined, you will be affected if your DNA matches the target frequency, you will "sync" with the frequency.

The frequency that I have noticed the most, targets a part of your brain that creates tension in your mind, like a trigger, the tension then spreads mentally through the individuals personal weaknesses creating unfounded fear and anxiety. If you recognize this happening, bunker down and remember that connection with family and friends makes you stronger and more "relaxed".

The first step is identifying when this is happening,.......... generally the items of "stress" that this frequency exasperated do not have that much importance on a normal day. In this way you can identify if you are being forced into fear by an external element. For example, when a friend does not call, like they said they would.........it should not make you feel bad, or angry,...there is most likely a reasonable reason, you just have not learned it yet. Not the best example, but I think you get the point, analyse your feelings, are they really how you normally behave?

I have experimented with many things trying to "shield" myself when I feel this happening. I have found a little herb can really help, but too much makes you weaker! (if you understand "wake'n' bake" you know what I mean). A mix of Chamomile and peppermint tea help, burning sage, breath eucalyptus and or bay leave essence, remove your shoe and socks and put your feet onto the ground (literally ground yourself), the sand at the beach is my favorite.

anyway......thanks for listening:cool:

its been a few years since i read carlos. (15years)

and all these years i have been aware of some kind of shadow following me in my spiritual awakenings.

it feeds on our negative thoughts.
so i tried to baned this negative thoughts. years of practicing didn't work.

9 years ago after the birth of my daughter something special happened to me.
i felt something was placed outside of me. it was a notion that i wasn't the most important person in this world anymore.
it gave me room to explore the emptiness of my mind. which was a natural state after this change of being

the negative thoughts still floats into my mind, but it has no connection to my own feelings anymore.

2 years ago i had a big break trough in fighting these 4th dimension shadow, ghouls.
i had tried to "push" them away with willpower. that won't work.
so one time when i felt great, i raised my energy to a level i could use my "light body hands" to grab the shadow creature.
and hold it in front of me. i felt its fear. with one hand i opened a black whole and let it "suck up" the shadow creature.

it was gone for weeks. and i felt wonderful. lots of energy.

but it didn't last for long. i cleared out a child like shadow.
my "clearing action" called attention to "daddy shadow ghoul".
which has taken its place.

its so strong that it blackens my whole spiritual view
now 2 years later im sick, totall loss of energy.
i think it has to do with this whole story.

a healer im seeing now, came with this tip:

http://www.tricycle.com/-practice/fe...emons?page=0,0

it works! but i have a lot work to do....

thanks for all the inspiring words.