I have a couple of questions.
Does anyone have any information or knowledge about Night Howlers and about a demon(s) with a legion(s) that have fully integrated -completely taken over the Soul, Spirit and body of a human being?
Love
Nora
I have a couple of questions.
Does anyone have any information or knowledge about Night Howlers and about a demon(s) with a legion(s) that have fully integrated -completely taken over the Soul, Spirit and body of a human being?
Love
Nora
Gaining steam there, eh? Not your average community. Looking younger by ridding oneself of attachments is definitely something that needs some background in energetic understanding. Also, there would have to be a very good "advertisement" to pique the interest of a narcissist.Quote:
Posted by 9eagle9
Hmm. :whistle:
Hi Nora,Quote:
Posted by Nora
There are four places where you can find this kind of information.
1 Fritz Springmeier http://www.emhdf.com/Monarch-mind-control.pdf (for a deep review of their role in mind control)
2 Dr Malanga (for the ET point of view and methods using NLP. FMS, SIMBAD)
3 Russ Dizdar (http://www.shatterthedarkness.net/, he appears to have been fighting these things for some time).
4 Literature and blogs originating from the practitioners of the "dark arts" (http://imperialarts.livejournal.com/, http://www.golden-dawn-canada.com/, http://www.golden-dawn-canada.com/pd...of%20moses.pdf, http://tikaboo.com/library/TheDemonicBible.pdf, http://www.hermetics.org/library/Library_Grimoires.html, etc...). I would recommend being very careful with these...
1 and 4 may contain triggers.
Houman
Quote:
Posted by HoumanHi Nora,Quote:
Posted by Nora
There are four places where you can find this kind of information.
1 Fritz Springmeier http://www.emhdf.com/Monarch-mind-control.pdf (for a deep review of their role in mind control)
2 Dr Malanga (for the ET point of view and methods using NLP. FMS, SIMBAD)
3 Russ Dizdar (http://www.shatterthedarkness.net/, he appears to have been fighting these things for some time).
4 Literature and blogs originating from the practitioners of the "dark arts" (http://imperialarts.livejournal.com/, http://www.golden-dawn-canada.com/, http://www.golden-dawn-canada.com/pd...of%20moses.pdf, http://tikaboo.com/library/TheDemonicBible.pdf, http://www.hermetics.org/library/Library_Grimoires.html, etc...). I would recommend being very careful with these...
1 and 4 may contain triggers.
Houman
Appreciate the links and information. Will do my best to be prudent, mindful and stay in my heart.
Love
Nora
from http://evelorgen.com/wp/category/articles/
New Radio Show Interview with James Bartley
Posted on July 18, 2012
This is the latest blogtalk radio interview that James BArtley did for an old pal, Eddie Middleton of the Nightsearch Paranormal Radio Network (NSPN). Many moons ago, James was a member of the Nightsearch team and hosted his own radio/internet audiocast show and he and I co-hosted other shows on the Nightsearch program. James also has lectured in conferences that Eddie ran back in the day, in Memphis Tennessee and Mississippi.
This is an hour long interview which is wide-ranging as far as subject matter is concerned. James talks about milabs, the secret space program, alternate time line ops, the snake entities, RAVES and how the entities energetically feed off of the ravers etc. James started off by honoring the memory of my mentor the late great Barbara Bartholic.
http://www.blogtalkradio.com/emiddy/...6FJTABmU.email
Thank You Houman - very good interview - I have just experienced an extremely sad event - my 18 year old son apparently has been involved in a serious crime (I am unsure the details at this point). Why I am sharing this is as follows:Quote:
Posted by Houman
I have recently been involved with the removal of the one or more entities I have been dealing with (and which you recommended I "get rid of it"). Since I took some actions in this regard, I fear that these one or more entities chose to enter into two individuals who have been very close to me.
I already shared about the woman who I was living with story... who, under the influence of several prescription drugs (Xanax being one of them) when I returned from a trip two weeks ago attacked me in a mad rage and ended up being taken to jail... but it appears that very same weekend, my 18 year old son, under the influence of alcohol, marijuana and then Xanax... (and I am still only getting this second hand) apparently was involved in a robbery with a gun.
I know that every parent can never imagine that their son would ever do such a thing, and so I am no different in what I am about to say... but this son of mine had been one of the most sensitive, caring of others and in general just a good hearted kid, and suddenly something overtook him. He had been running with the wrong crowd for awhile now against everyone's advice and had been involved with marijuana, alcohol and these prescription drugs... I am devastated about this...
It appears to me that at the same time I was exorcising this (or these) entities, that two fellow humans who were vulnerable and very close to me seemed to be overtaken by demonic energies, forces... what have you.
Anyways, it is now no coincidence to me that I happened to give this lady and this one son (1 of 3) a copy of a book that really helped me called the Four Agreements. I did this no more than 5 or so days before I began the exorcism process and that at the same time these two events took place.
I feel horrible about this. Almost as if I should have just kept these energies within me because I was handling it... I feel responsible. My head tells me that is stupid thinking, but put yourself in my shoes... I carried this garbage within me for years and years, fed it, strengthened it and then finally decide to get rid of it and look... and to be honest, the lady that was taken to jail... I had a secret revenge feeling against her as she once told lies to a judge in hopes of taking my sons from me (10 years ago) so (and I do not like to admit this but) I got some sort of satisfaction out of her jail experience. But then yesterday I learn about my son and I am devastated still.
Anyways - I apologize I dump my garbage into these threads but I really have no one that understands save a few on Avalon.
justoneman
Sending you love and healing, justoneman. The situation is not your fault.Quote:
Posted by justoneman
If it feels right to you, perhaps you could meditate and request permission from their higher selves to facilitate a clearing for all of you.
Much love,
Heather
You are not responsible for the actions of othersQuote:
Posted by justoneman
but you will be able to help them by staying strong.
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Man!Quote:
Posted by justoneman
Seems to me you managed to corner yourself into having to learn how to bind these things into their own hell if they refuse to abide by some sort of "Miranda" or "Riot act" à la Steve Richards...
(see post # 1091)
However, there isn't much you can do with people, whether family or not, who keep insisting on using drugs, especially psych drugs.
Hi and Thanks (again) Amzer Zo - few here are as consistent as you in looking out for folks like me and I greatly appreciate it.Quote:
Posted by Amzer ZoMan!Quote:
Posted by justoneman
Seems to me you managed to corner yourself into having to learn how to bind these things into their own hell if they refuse to abide by some sort of "Miranda" or "Riot act" à la Steve Richards...
(see post # 1091)
However, there isn't much you can do with people, whether family or not, who keep insisting on using drugs, especially psych drugs.
In review, I had reached the point where I consciously decided to get rid of any and all entity attachments.
I went through the interesting synchronistic process regarding invocation of the name, Jesus Christ, with a full, heart felt intention that these parasites leave me.
I experienced some strange emotions and what could be called psi phenomena in connection with that initial process yet I sensed I had much more work to go. I then was attacked by what I believe was a demonically possessed "friend" (the 65 year old lady) who actually had been providing me a home for the last 4 months.
A few days later (after settling into my sister's home who gave me a few weeks to stay with her), I contacted 9eagle9. She assisted me further. She identified an entity and did her thing. I felt a great peace that lasted for 10 days and was only shattered by the news I received regarding my 18 year old son.
I know for a fact that the way I have so far handled myself and handled the situation with my son has been about the best I possibly could.
Considering your post above I sense it is probable these demonic energies/forces that I had begun to exorcise from myself may have jumped into my son and this lady almost is if it knew how close both of these folks are to me. Almost like it was telling me, “OK... if you won’t host me any more, I will show you what a mistake that is and so I will enter into one who will physically attack you and enter into your son so that I may push him into actions that will hurt you deeply emotionally.”
This leaves me in an extremely saddened state. I know this puts me in position that these entities might be able to return. With that in mind, I am assuming one like me must be vigilant the rest of my life (and any incarnation lifetime for that matter) that I keep these energies 100% unattached to my energetic field.
In being honest, my son has been on the difficult road for several years. There is only so much a parent can do and to do more would cross boundaries I would not want others to cross if I was the subject involved.
It has been two days and I am already in the acceptance stages of processing what may happen with my son. I am already focusing on the outcome in that this episode in his life could actually be the very wake up call needed.
I am 100% convinced any and all drugs only open the field and that unless an individual has great inner strength... to mess with any of that would be foolish.... and in fact, to do so knowing these risks is also selfish as it can affect others. In my case, I include alcohol on the list. Some of us have a thinner tight rope to walk.
Again, thank you Amzer Zo, thanks 9eagle9, thanks Houman and DoT and NancyV who have all taken personal time with me as I work through this stage of my life that began on April 26th when I discovered this thread.
justoneman
Justone,
Sorry to learn about your son but you're not responsible for his actions.
Did you introduce him to drugs? Did you encourage him to indulge in substance consumption? If not, then none of this is your fault.
Of course, I do realize how concerned you must be. But remember, guilt is an emotion which feeds the side we're fighting against. They want you to feel guilt because guilt is disempowering when what you need is strength. I really don't believe the entity jumped from you to him. From what you say, he's been under the influence for some time. It sounds like you've both been under damaging entity influences for some time, only you decided to make changes and he hasn't yet done so. You must now serve as his guide and you must do it in a language that he can understand.
An 18 year old with a gun in hand is not a desirable thing. But he didn't shoot nor kill anyonye. He's salvageable yet!
Don't judge him. Communicate with him. Try to understand what made him follow that course of action. Be his teacher, but teach from the heart.
Best to you and your son.
DoT
Apologies for the monster post - I am dumping the truth of the last dozen years so it can be understood better about my son mentioned a few posts above.
Thanks DoT - in truth, I have struggled with drugs and alcohol since I was a teenager. When I married my children's mother, I stopped all drugs and alcohol because I wanted the best for my wife, our child she carried and myself. That lasted 7 years. My mistake was in thinking that just by removing substances from my life, we would experience a peaceful life. I had no clue about our world. I had no clue of the various natures of the archontic influences. I had more to learn.
In January of 1997, I began with a half glass of white wine in celebration of the opening of my new business on the island of Curacao. By the summer of 2001 I was in the midst of my own, personal Book of Job implosion. My sons saw it all.
I ended up somehow emerging with full custody of my sons. As sick as I was, that should suggest how sick my ex wife became. No need for details, but I can assure you, few could conceive of a more disgusting reality she had descended into so the truth is that I recovered reasonably well enough that the government of Curacao had no case to keep my sons from me and my wife's situation handed me the full custody on a silver platter.
Just before the decision to divorce (October 1, 2001)... beginning in the middle of August, 2001, I experienced the voice in my head that told me "America is about to experience a major military event, and I had to be there when it happened." It was a military voice. I heard it over and over and told everyone the exact words. That led to the board of directors of my company that I founded and was CEO to insist I go to America for psychiatric care and drug/alcohol rehabilitation.
I arrived on September 6th, 2001 after being away for three years.
I discovered Jim Marrs' Rule by Secrecy days after 9/11. In early 2002, I was given a copy of David Icke's The Biggest Secret. I spent the next ten years in jobs where I was able to spend much of my time researching and attempting to wake up in every level possible.
I remarried fast and am still married today though I am unable to be with my wife as she lives in Colombia with her daughter. Thank God for Skype.
During the 8 years from 2002 until March 2010, I struggled off and on to stay off alcohol and cocaine. My sons knew that I was still not right. The two oldest began to smoke weed and drink. I explained to them over and over how in our family we have a huge, genetic proclivity to addictions with drugs and alcohol. It did not matter. By the time the oldest reached 16, both he and the younger 14 year old (the one who I mentioned above that is in deep trouble with the police) had been kicked out of schools because of weed. I home schooled them as I had no other option. We were living in Panama then.
In the summer of 2009, they came to me and asked if they could move to Texas and try to live with their Mom. Some history regarding their Mom just after the divorce was final on February 26th, 2002 - Their Mom had abandoned herself on the island of Curacao ever since the divorce. She had spent over two years living on the streets and you can imagine what she did to survive while supporting her crack and alcohol habit. If it were not for that missing girl on the next island over, Aruba... her name is Natalee Holloway, my ex would not have been deported and maybe would be still there today in this state or more likely would have been dead by 2009. But she was deported and supposedly was rehabilitated and had somehow recovered enough that she had begun a long distance relationship with our sons. So when they asked if they could go live with her, being a believer it is important their wishes, I allowed them to move to Texas to be with their Mom and I sent support money.
So in the summer of 2009 I let my sons go to Texas. The few years prior to this while still with me in Panama, they had smoked marijuana off and on. It wasn't that I condoned any alcohol or weed at first, but whenever they went out (the two oldest I mean), they would buy alcohol or pay a taxi driver to go get them weed. Eventually when they were 18 and 16, just before they moved to America, I broke down and gave them some because I was scared that they would get into bigger trouble trying to buy it on the streets. It happened only a few times, but it did, DoT. Anyways, they all three left to go live with their Mom in Texas in August of 2009.
So my situation then was (entering the fall of 2009) that my current wife would spend four or so weeks with me in Panama and then go back to Colombia to be with her daughter for 5 or 6 weeks. The times when I was alone became very dark. By this time I had also lost another job and had to work two jobs to maintain my standard of living. I started thinking about suicide. As mentioned in my other posts, I experienced my father's likely suicide (although there's a small chance he was suicided) when I was 21 years old. I guess this stuff also runs in families. Somehow in March of 2010, I suddenly quit all the coke and booze. I went 6 months completely dry and then, for some weird reason and after 8 years of rarely ever touching marijuana, I tried it again in mid August 2010.
I instantly went into a state of hyper synchronicity. I began a journey that lasted until January of 2012 in which I experienced the most amazing psi experiences and in which I was able to document a great deal of these experiences. Of all the psi phenomena the vast majority I experienced was synchronicity. I have mentioned all about this in other posts, so I won't detail any of that BUT, the point is that I thought this phenomena was incredible and I knew that the only way I was able to experience it was by smoking a great deal of high quality marijuana. During this 17 month journey I never touched any other drug other than I drank coffee.
The first 13 or so months were great. Like some amazing magic carpet ride. I documented amazing synchronicities which contained artifacts as well as had been witnessed by several third parties. Just like Wolfgang Pauli, I became known as "Mr. Synchronicity." But there was a serious dark side to this experience in that other than my current wife who actually grew closer than ever to me through the psi experiences we shared, the few remaining friends I had distanced themselves. I can't explain it, but when someone appears to have what others perceive are "supernatural powers" most folks get extremely uncomfortable and don't want to have anything to do with you. Still, the artifacts and the witnessed synchronicities did happen.
Unfortunately, by November of 2011, I started tipping over into a psychosis and by December of 2011 I was full blown psychotic. In late December (as mentioned here before), I almost dropped myself from my 33rd floor window "To save the world." Ironically, I had promised my sons I would never do to them what my Dad did and I remembered that promise as I was hanging outside my window and somehow climbed back in. A week later (and with my wife in Panama), I tried to slit my wrists and she got me to a hospital where I ended up in the psych ward. Though I got out in 8 days (mid January, 2012) and did go home and smoke some weed a few times, I quit completely and have had no drug save coffee since mid January 2012.
OK...
The reason for all the truth above is so that anyone can understand why I cannot help but feel guilt about my son's situation.
And yet, at the same time... upon my discovery of this thread on April 26th (when it seemed I finally understood what the hell I have been dealing with... as well as what my ex-wife, my father, and now my sons have been dealing with) I strangely do not feel so much guilt. I feel like I finally understand.
But I now feel a horrid helplessness for my sons.
It is clear as day my father was a "chosen one." He told my mother when he was about 25 years old that he thought he was Jesus Christ. I have been dealing secretly with a messianic complex ever since I was 18 and it involved being one of Jesus' disciples and evolved into being Jesus Christ. During my last "exploration" with marijuana, I came upon dozens of massive synchronicities that suggested I am the reincarnation of Jesus Christ. I have posted about many of these.
Thanks again to this thread. And the incredible good luck I had that Houman named it Horus-Ra (as this specific entity is at the root of my own possession experience), I was able to finally make sense of it all. I was also a "chosen one."
My oldest son has already had a psychotic episode (when he was about 19 years old). I posted in another thread about my experience when I was 6 years old and the strange "growth" under my hairline on my head. My oldest son has the same thing in the same place. I am almost certain he is also "a chosen one." Clearly my other son that I wrote about above has been targeted. I know him! I know his heart and he truly has a golden heart but he also has this strange other side (I never even knew he had until now). I let him go with his mother who still to this day drinks quite a bit... I am certain being around her the last three years did not help him any, but neither did being around me the several years before. It is hard not to hate myself even though I now finally know what has been behind this all.
I am certain my ex-wife is a "chosen one" as she experienced even worse!. Eve Lorgen's research into the Love Byte shows that my ex and I were put together by entities within the archontic structure.
I see all this now, I understand all this now but I can't begin to get any of this across to my sons... I tried ever since I finally saw the light on April 26th and began to figure much of this out. It did not take me long. In less than 2 months I knew all about this actual reality. I know for a fact that at the core of my specific experience is the Horus-Ra entity and that behind that entity may very well be the entities known as "the snakes."
I would assume these same specific entities are behind all these possessions in my family line as well as the family line of my ex-wife. Her father is to this day an all but hopeless prescription drug addict. His wife is also and is the woman who attacked my on July 9th, just after I made the heart felt decision to get rid of any entity attachment. I learned last night that my son committed the act mentioned above on July 11th.
Last night, I took him to the police to turn himself in.
I am devastated to be honest. So what that I finally figured it all out now for myself? So what I go through an exorcism process for myself? I have to live knowing the same thing is happening to my sons and worse, my oldest son is just beginning his journey and experience with this entity possession. He listens to me when I try and explain what is happening to us in our family... he even believes it all as possible, but he thinks he has everything under control. And yet he smokes high quality weed just about daily and he drinks alcohol 4 or 5 nights a week. And he is only 21. I know where it all may lead. This is devastating.
I feel so freaking helpless. And worse!! - I know the state I am in is just another form of food supply to these entities... so I am still feeding these monsters! Extremely frustrating.
Just when I think I have solved my problem, I am faced with another horror which may last for years as my 18 year old may very well end up in prison for a long, long time.
Can anyone imagine how it feels? It feels just as bad as when my father committed suicide. It feels as bad as when no matter what we tried, it became clear I had to divorce the mother of my children.
I do not see some "god" out there "helping" in any form regarding my own family's situation. Even my mother and my sister have been dealing with serious archontic influence and they won't open their mind at all whatsoever as to the actual cause.
This feeling of helplessness is perhaps the worst feeling I ever had.
And even worse than that is knowing my emotions right now are feeding these parasites.
I am sorry I dumped a huge monster post here and I am sorry Bill, I do this on your forum... I just have no other way of getting through this... (tears streaming down).
OK - if there is any single lesson... it is that I am still too attached to my loved ones... and yet how can loving your children, you parents, your spouse also be a terrible thing? I hear the voice softly whispering "Love?"
"You are still confused, Chester... still attached to them, and thus your love is clouded."
I wonder if love itself is the last BS...
ahhh and the voice says, "go back and read pie'n'eal's post" -
https://projectavalon.net/forum4/show...e-are-confused.
compassion
I don't think you're "too attached to your love ones", the problem may be attachment to things out of your control.
There is ONE thing in your control, and you point out that your choosing not to is feeding the entities.
I totally feel you, I went through something similar, though my sons are only 8 & 10 and their mom split earlier on and I quit drinking earlier on. I am addicted to altering my consciousness (dulling senses) as you describe, and indulge (sometimes abuse) burning some of god's finest, tastiest trees...my mind races too much and I didn't like the effects of their "medication" for that.
Currently I am going through some craziness with my current girlfriend--who seems to be what you describe as a "chosen one". I see the effects and have had outside 3rd party people corraborate that there is indeed some external entity/energy/force/consciousness that is at least a group of "tricksters" if not vampires/demons. I have so few to talk to about it, much less with suggestions on what to do about it.
...so you know what? Instead of succumbing to the victim mentality I held for a decade and a half, instead of making up excuses and rationalizing and continuing to let sh!t happen to me...I took responsibility. I focused my intent, my every waking on thought, on seeing myself and reality for what it is. Discerning the sh!t I can't control from the things that I can, paying attention to the emotions i am feeling, and attempting to get to teh root of them--understand why I would be attached to certain feelings, and do my best to let them go, to heal.
I used to feel constant guilt and self-loathing, while telling others jealousy and whatever else I was "above" was wasted emotions. Jealousy may be the biggest waste of emotion possible, but self-loathing is a damn close second. You gotta let the weight of the world off your shoulders--it seems you are doing that, good first step...
Anyway, I found that all you can do is educate yourself, pay attention, stay open, and live doing your best to make all decisions and actions from a place of love. It doesn't always help everyone around you, but it never hurts, and is the only thing you ever really have control over. This place helps a lot, it is hard to find people who can relate. Hang in there....life (even with demons and exs and Ra) is beautiful and can be fun when you see it that way....
Very nice diagram Human and very appropriate at this point in the thread :)Quote:
Posted by Houman
Eckhart Tolle has written some fine books where he explains some easy to use techniques as to how to implement this simple truth into ones daily existence.
Some of his books are:
*The Power of Now
*Practising the Power of Now
*Stillness Speaks
Maybe these books may smell a little bit too esoteric for the visitors in this thread, but the content of these books is actually quite practical and explained in a very earthly manner.
Another thing that came to mind when I read the posts of justoneman was this poem. I send it to him in a PM and I'm now sure that he won't mind me posting it here as well.
This poem learned me to look at my children in a different way and to give them space to breath and create their own path in life.
Quote:
On Children
Kahlil Gibran
Your children are not your children.
They are the sons and daughters of Life's longing for itself.
They come through you but not from you,
And though they are with you yet they belong not to you.
You may give them your love but not your thoughts,
For they have their own thoughts.
You may house their bodies but not their souls,
For their souls dwell in the house of tomorrow,
which you cannot visit, not even in your dreams.
You may strive to be like them,
but seek not to make them like you.
For life goes not backward nor tarries with yesterday.
You are the bows from which your children
as living arrows are sent forth.
The archer sees the mark upon the path of the infinite,
and He bends you with His might
that His arrows may go swift and far.
Let your bending in the archer's hand be for gladness;
For even as He loves the arrow that flies,
so He loves also the bow that is stable.
http://www.katsandogz.com/onchildren.html
Justone,
I do understand that you feel guilty because of the influence you've had on your sons. You did what you believed was right at the time. You were a target of archontic forces so your belief systems were faulty. But guilt will not serve you now. It is time to forgive yourself and do whatever you can to help your sons.
While I am not an advocate of alcohol and drug consumption, i do know people who drink and smoke in moderation and who also live very righteous lives with no destructive influences. These people are in control of their lives because they have never let their drinking or smoking get out of control, but mostly, because they are not targets. On the other hand, many "chosen ones" do not drink and do not do drugs. I've been a target since I was born and neither of my parents were drinkers or smokers. Mind you, I never created problems for anyone, but problems were created for me. My father had a glass of wine with dinner but never, ever got drunk and never touched drugs, not even an aspirin, yet he was a monster. My mom never liked alcohol except now that she's older she has an occasional glass of bubbly. And although my mom never touched alcohol until recent years, she has been a target too, all her life. It is fully conceivable that you would have been a target even if you had never touched drugs or alcohol. Drugs and alcohol can certainly open a portal for those entities to get in, but sometimes, as in my case, people are born with open portals because they've been carrying them for many lives. Now is the time to change all that.
And as far as "gods" coming to the rescue, I don't think that's going to happen. Yeshua has always communicated to me that I must find my own solutions because no one can do it for you. Causing your own liberation is the only path to freedom.
Please do not despair. Please forgive yourself. This is an opportunity to make things right for you and your sons.
Love is not BS. Love feeds us, not "them".
With love,
Daughter of Time
I am stealing this from another thread (my apologies WCBD) as an example of how, although truth is clearly uttered, truth is left unacknowledged and accomodated to one's level of understanding current at that moment...
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My father wasn’t a nice man, but in his later years, I saw how broken he was from arthritic pain and heart disease. In that instant, my heart opened and words just poured out. (We were raised that children are seen and not heard.)
[...]
I told him that I loved him and forgave him. He choked a couple of times before his explanation came out. In a small voice he said, “Thank you. I was possessed back then.”
For a nano-second, I thought that was lame, but I realized that for him to admit anything counter to pride and strength was big medicine. It was just what I needed to move forward for myself. Our life contract was completed on that day.
Justoneman: Situations involving loved ones create a lot of emotional "charge/energy".
You can use this energy to self destruct (this is what guilt and depression lead to) or you can use it to help your loved ones (by doing the best you can).
I have consistently observed that if we choose the latter (doing the best we can (with all our energy) no matter the situation) then "subtle but significant" (helpful) events start occurring.
Houman
"All we have to decide is what to do with the time given to us"