Posted by Chester
(here)
Explanation - yesterday (August 17, 2021) I made three posts which a.) I made in the wrong thread and b.) because of my mental state (which was a result of my total state, highlighting my physical state) may have been considered by some here who are familiar with me to have been "out of character."
That's because the posts
were out of character. This post is an attempt to explain.
To do so I must share how it all started. Without explaining the reasons (here and now) this all started on August 9, 2021 when I acted upon my decision to take "the vax." The decision came three days earlier and at 11:30 am my time, the shot was injected into me. Within 24 hours I was experiencing a plethora of side effects but the one that scared me was this - I felt like I had been severed from my greater being... meaning my spirit. All "the magic" I had begun to experience and experience consistently since March of 2012 (some here know some or all the story)
had vanished.
I held out hope for a week I would recover, alas... I did not. Two days ago (Monday) and yesterday were two of the worst days yet. Interestingly, over the last weekend, I had consulted with enough friends as to potential remedies that on Monday, I received one item that I am thinking (today) may have made an important and positive difference - Liposomal Glutathione.
Incredibly, today... 9 days after having the Moderna vax, I felt a tiny reconnection to my spirit. In addition, I went to a "drip bar" today and got an IV drip of several B vitamins, many other types of vitamins and 600 cc's of Glutathione.
I am perhaps on the way back though I am unsure. But know that yesterday... I was so fogged up and so depressed, that I made the few posts I am referring to (which I have deleted as they didn't belong in that thread).
Here's those post texts so as to make sure there's a record and that I am doing so in the more appropriate thread -
Four days after I wrote the above quoted post, on August 9, 2021 at around 11:30 am, I experienced the actions of a decision I made which has resulted in the severance of the chord of my being to the wellspring from which my enthusiasm for life has been drawn.
I am now, spiritually dead. Physically still alive, spiritually dead.
It is my current opinion that I have free will to choose and emulate the various attitudes that emanate from my being. Theses attitudes are aimed at both myself and others. My primary attitude I choose is to be positive. Positive that I can experience the re-connection and rebuilding of this chord so that I can once again enjoy the life experience I have enjoyed ever since my last resurrection - the spring of 2012.
We shall see what happens.
then -
Posted by Pam - "Although it may be that you feel you are spiritually dead and that you have severed the chord of the source of your enthusiasm, you are never totally disconnected. Take it from me, I have broken myself so many times from my decisions and actions that I could write a horror book about it and yet the connection to all that is has never left me. I have left it, but it never left me. Don't try to think your way out of this, that is the trap. Just go outside and discover the intricacies of the natural world and breath."
I then asked Pam -
Pam, have you taken the Moderna vax?
So I want to make it clear to all and especially Pam, I wasn't insinuating her response was suggestive that she had taken this vax. I was asking to see if she had taken this vax and, if so, and if she had the reaction I had... what might she have done to help herself improve.
Hopefully this clears all this up.
Final comment - yesterday I was at a 1 on a scale of 1 to 10. Today I am back up around a 6 or 7. Note I had been maintaining a 9 or 10 for years up until I took this vax 9 days ago. My goal is to get back to that 9 or 10 if it is at all possible.
Take Care all...
Chester