I'm not sure I'm functioning properly. Things are taking a toll

[Bubu]

Doug. I have a feeling that the warriors in all of us is about to be awakened. Highs and lows are normal. In this case though we are being brought down to extreme low. You can expect an extreme high on the other end.

[arwen]

Posted by thepainterdoug (here)
This is kinda of a shout out to everyone. Anyone feel similar ?

I wake in the morning and already feel a low grade sickness in my stomach.

Before I get up from bed, I open the laptop, check emails, J. Prather, Paul C. Roberts, etc then look at P. Avalon and Gab, read headlines, stories and vids from around the world, the latest hard to fathom news, and the downward spiral begins.

And if you say, hey don't do that, just tune it all out ? , well, I feel like I'm fiddling as Rome burns with what ever I do anyway. My heart is no longer in it and Im not good at faking it

The me that used to paint, write music and work on my musical is not here anymore. Im cloudy, blocked, disoriented, disillusioned and un motivated with a real "whats the point ? element creeping in.

Added to this suffering is an ("artists choice" , "white privilege ") label to it, only compounding a feeling of sickness and misplacement . Like my voice is cancelled.

As much as Im blessed, this is the worst I have ever felt in my entire life. I live alone by choice, but this means no one to talk to, to share and to vent to in my space. I have to be very strong to hold my overly sensitive empath self up everyday. And with an approaching winter, It doesn't feel good

It seems the election happened and its no longer a free country. Its a lawless country, no privacy, no freedom of speech or expression. We the people have no voice as laws are enacted without our consent and blatant bald face lies are told to our face almost mocking us. We are backed into a corner more every day and dying by a death by a thousand slices.

And Solutions? Anything actionable? Write my congressman? Nope, done that and could do it everyday, only putting me on a terrorist list by this criminal group in office.

Im sickened

You nailed it Doug. You just described me as well.

It takes the artists to articulate it. Thank you.

For me, in addition, I am inwardly screaming all the time for the CHILDREN. What this generation of adults have done to the children. To me, this version of this song is like the cry of all our children, for what we have done to them. I am gutted, I cant get past it.

Source: https://youtube.com/watch?v=8xysVNigCsU

[haroldsails]

Gracy May, that is perfect, thank you.

[haroldsails]

Wondering, I was saying weakened, but we are awakening more each day as well, so now I'm saying it is both. There's your contrast.

[TomKat]

We're living in 2 realities now. You have to defend your own, even if it means ignoring the world around you. If you look at the evil reality too closely it will draw you in. Don't borrow trouble. Just take care of yourself, live your own life, and say "screw it" to those in the other reality.

[haroldsails]

TomKat, I like that kind of ignore them attitude, but you know they will not ignore you back. Maybe it's paranoid but I feel the need to stay alert so i know when to duck, and when to stand my ground.

[meeradas]

Nature. Every day.

Conversing.

Analog.


PS: You are fully functional and sane.

[Mashika]

Posted by thepainterdoug (here)
This is kinda of a shout out to everyone. Anyone feel similar ?

I wake in the morning and already feel a low grade sickness in my stomach.

Before I get up from bed, I open the laptop, check emails, J. Prather, Paul C. Roberts, etc then look at P. Avalon and Gab, read headlines, stories and vids from around the world, the latest hard to fathom news, and the downward spiral begins.

And if you say, hey don't do that, just tune it all out ? , well, I feel like I'm fiddling as Rome burns with what ever I do anyway. My heart is no longer in it and Im not good at faking it

The me that used to paint, write music and work on my musical is not here anymore. Im cloudy, blocked, disoriented, disillusioned and un motivated with a real "whats the point ? element creeping in.

Added to this suffering is an ("artists choice" , "white privilege ") label to it, only compounding a feeling of sickness and misplacement . Like my voice is cancelled.

As much as Im blessed, this is the worst I have ever felt in my entire life. I live alone by choice, but this means no one to talk to, to share and to vent to in my space. I have to be very strong to hold my overly sensitive empath self up everyday. And with an approaching winter, It doesn't feel good

It seems the election happened and its no longer a free country. Its a lawless country, no privacy, no freedom of speech or expression. We the people have no voice as laws are enacted without our consent and blatant bald face lies are told to our face almost mocking us. We are backed into a corner more every day and dying by a death by a thousand slices.

And Solutions? Anything actionable? Write my congressman? Nope, done that and could do it everyday, only putting me on a terrorist list by this criminal group in office.

Im sickened

I do feel this way, too

Let's just take it down, even for now, and bring all those things to a shame and be shiny one more. To hell with the others who wish this nasty thing to happen!

Source: https://youtube.com/watch?v=USR3bX_PtU4

Source: https://youtube.com/watch?v=ZUHKDHkRasc

Who cares about faking it, let's just throw it all out. "Those who need to understand, will, those who don't, just don't"

[janette]

Posted by Mike (here)
Doug I think you should attempt a podcast sort of thing.

You're passionate, smart, articulate, and very comfortable in front of a camera.

It'll allow you to connect with people a little more and discuss all the things that are troubling you - 2 birds with 1 stone - and a whole bunch of other interested people will be able to listen in.

Good opportunity to promote your art too.

Great idea 😊

[Agape]

Hi Dough, hear you, who knows how many of us have been to “that point” already and repeatedly and yes “da internet” is almost inexhaustible mash of information and endless chat and who are we to “fight it all”.

The only thing that really helps is to unplug from your devices. Imagine it IS the Matrix if you have to for the beginning but ( for your sanity sake) make the experience of actually unplugging from “it all” at your liberty and whenever you need.

They have offered us this internet experience for sure but too many things and stress that came along with it.

Once you start unplugging ...

there may come some unpleasant side effects or call it correctly after effects since unplugging from it all is NOT a therapy, it IS just the normal, decent way of things
along with the option of NOT picking up phones at ANY TIMES WHEN IT IS IMCONVENIENT FOR YOU, not responding to communication requests and not obliging yourself to “continuity” of your communication considering the times and distances we are covering are far longer than average human life span or many of them
( do you feel like we have lived many lives in one through recent two decades ) ,

side effects of unplugging may include ..

continuous mental chat “with some people”
feelings like those people “needed you back”
acute stress of not getting the weather forecast right on the hour..

therefor.. worsening of doom paranoia for some individuals

feelings of depersonalization

depression and anxiety

further stress and neurosis

loss of focus

and so forth

I suppose the list would be long but if you are unplugging consciously and voluntarily ( at the end everyone gets to do it for themselves , not following any kind of advice) you can also reassure yourself that these symptoms are temporary, illusory,
you do not “need internet” to live your days, your mind is far more entertaining than the thousands of fans and you will see an improvement

even if you turn everything off just for 1 Day.

If you ever get over day one , say you disconnect for few days or weeks you may also find that everything is about the same ( but little better) and no you did not lose yourself you’ve just forgotten , due to the amount of brain traffic going on and it’s alright to restart whatever way you choose after.


The fear of disconnection from internet is completely unreal. Yet it turned to be very serious novel type of anxiety for many people of today.
It was casted upon them without revenue.

It’s better to take our lives( minds) to our own hands before complaining about it ( and how many hours kids spend on it overtime) because if we do complain the government will be happy to sort it for us 😄 and impose insane regulations ..
and it would be major trouble unless it’s already happening.


And then, you may just end up reading the same news but without exposing your soul naked in front of the monster ..

Just read the papers fast like we did at all times.

Think if you are up to it actually just don’t bother yourself with informing anyone.

It’s another emotional type of drag and there’s no meaning to it.

It isn’t obligatory or customary. You are not obliged by any law or cultural custom to pick phones or log in/log out to the net and its forums and inform your friends ( @ the CIA) what are you doing. It’s a myth 😅
Sure people do believe in it but it’s baseless and unreal.

You are free to go and come back, without notice or explanation. You are free to disappear for a bit and reappear whenever.


It’s in the nature and order of Life to govern itself
and govern itself the best



🙏

[I am B]

Hey Doug! I can completely relate. What works for me is to realise I'm living MY OWN reality and adventure, even if everything else is crumbling down. And how interesting it is! An artist through the fall of Rome. Thats powerful! Something to embrace even if there are some feelings of despair and languishing sometimes.

Regular hiking gets my energies balanced and puts everything into prespective too.

But you're a musician right? Strong feelings make for great compositions, and they don't have to be all cheerful and happy. I'm a sound engineer, so feel free to hit me up if you need to edit or mix your stuff, or maybe get the podcast they mentioned cleaned. I'll gladly do it for widening my portfolio a bit ^^

You're not what you read, theres a huge world out there.

[Frankie Pancakes]

From the Convoluted Universe book 2
The destruction of Atlantis is happening.
All cyclical. Same song 200th verse.

M: They were drunk with the ability to alter things, to change it with
the power. They didn’t care. There were some who planned to
leave also by boats.
D: Do you know what specifically they were doing with the negative
energy? What they were using it for?
M: They were trying to turn people away from the light. Trying to turn
them away from the positive. And to only be afraid and see the
negative things. They wanted to have them under their control. So
they would be their leader, and they would have many people that
were afraid and would only listen to them.
D: By using fear. (Yes) But some of them also tried to get away when
they saw what was happening.
M: Yes. It had gone too far. And the land and the area could no
longer take any more of the disruptions. It would not be able to
exist much longer. That it would be going underneath the waters.

[modini]

Wonderful! Looked it up: The Convoluted Universe, Book 2 Paperback – February 22, 2007
by Dolores Cannon (Author)

[Frankie Pancakes]

Just a bit more from the Convoluted Universe book 2

D: Because Earth is a complicated planet.
T: It’s extremely complicated. It is unlike any other planet. I think the
form of negativity on this planet makes it different. The human
race is a very warrior type race. They have a great deal of difficulty
of living peace. It is almost like their race cannot co-exist in peace.
This may come from their lower vibrations. I think each one that
comes here has to be so careful and not be caught into these
lower vibrations. It is a very challenging planet. I did take that
chance. I think that any time you come into this existence, you
have created karma. And, no doubt, I will have to repay this
karma. However, I think the main thing that I do here is try to
maintain a balance of being very positive, very loving, and what
karma I have created with Earth isn’t of a negative form, per se.
It’s to actually find ways of working to reduce that. And then to
take care of that karma. And not allow it to carry over.

[TomKat]

Posted by haroldsails (here)
TomKat, I like that kind of ignore them attitude, but you know they will not ignore you back. Maybe it's paranoid but I feel the need to stay alert so i know when to duck, and when to stand my ground.

Well, there are mass events that don't have to affect you. You move to a town where there are no jobs but you get one. You go to a hospital that believes in the jab, but they don't enforce it on you. There's a traffic jam but it start just a minute after you pass. You get pulled over but the cop lets you off with a warning. It's called being lucky, and you create that by looking at what's RIGHT in your life, not at what's WRONG in other people's. Speculating on what bad is going to happen to you is borrowing trouble. Wait till it happens before you start fighting.

[Mark (Star Mariner)]

All I can tell you Doug is take a break from it all. Yes we are very much under assault right now, but sometimes we put ourselves under assault. The mind and the body can only take so much. Eventually we have duck under the parapet and take a timeout. I think every one of us has been there.

My tip is simply this, expose yourself only to leisurely pursuits and distractions for a while. Plenty have said get out in nature. Great advice, but you also need something to actively engage in. I like to read. Get online and search recommended novels in your favourite genre. Escape into those novels, and give your soul some time and space to breathe again. If reading isn't your thing, maybe you'd like to watch movies, go fishing, play computer games. Whatever it is, you need a world that isn't this one in which to immerse yourself. Personally, other worlds is how I've survived this one.

[TomKat]

Posted by haroldsails (here)
TomKat, I like that kind of ignore them attitude, but you know they will not ignore you back. Maybe it's paranoid but I feel the need to stay alert so i know when to duck, and when to stand my ground.

I picked up a couple of tricks for generating luck from Gary Douglas. In my morning shower, I say at least 10 times: "all of life comes to me with ease and joy and glory." It's an elastic universe and there's always room for the wishes of positive people.
And if something bad does happen, I repeat "how does it get better than this?"
If everyone on the forum thought about the attempted totalitarian world takeover and said "how does it get better than this? it would change in some way. Note that you're not demanding an outcome, you're just asking of the universe.

[thepainterdoug]

THANKS EVERYONE ONCE AGAIN. ALL ADVISE TAKEN AND APPRECIATED!! ITS MORE TO KNOW I HAVE A GREAT FAMILY HERE!

btw FRANKIE PAN AND MODINI, my special reoccurring syncro number is 222 So I will take note of getting that book by D Cannon!!

[Gracy]

Posted by thepainterdoug (here)
Gracie May, I just want to say that yes, so often our fear or our end of the world scenario doesnt actually happen. Seneca and the Stoics often speak of this.

However, It is happening.Its happening now. It is not a fear for the future , its a reckoning of the now.

Is it? Are you really that sure? Because "THE END IS NOW!", has been hawked like a carnival barker on the internet 24/7, for quite. some. time. now... So long as the fear porn merchants have their buyers they will continue with their craft, and just like the dollar that was crashing (NOW!) according to Haggman's "insidser" 8 1/2 years ago did no such thing, it didn't matter because there's absolutely zero accountability for all the fails, and they just move on to the next great panic over what's (supposedly) happening RIGHT NOW, or JUST AROUND THE CORNER.

So we'll see Doug, that's my whole point. It's not about being a lazy denier; it's about due diligence in separating the wheat from the chaff, acting/reacting in proportion to what's really happening, and not letting our lives sink into despair because Chicken Little keeps on making a fine living by endlessly reporting that the barbarians are in the process of breaking down the front gate.

Be prepared, and be prepared to act if/when need be, but beyond that there's not a whole lot any of us can do about it. I'm locked, loaded, and well positioned and fortified, but beyond that? I still have a life to be enjoyed, a lot to offer others around me, and doing my best to make my little corner of the world a better place.

Those are things all of us can be doing in this time. Prepare for the worst, hope for the best, and making the world is a better place around us along the way.

Oh, and being sure to not feed the Archons along the way.

Posted by TomKat (here)
Well, there are mass events that don't have to affect you. You move to a town where there are no jobs but you get one. You go to a hospital that believes in the jab, but they don't enforce it on you. There's a traffic jam but it start just a minute after you pass. You get pulled over but the cop lets you off with a warning. It's called being lucky, and you create that by looking at what's RIGHT in your life, not at what's WRONG in other people's. Speculating on what bad is going to happen to you is borrowing trouble. Wait till it happens before you start fighting.

Great points TomKat!

[pyrangello]