Sorry to bring this up, but i don't know how to feel about it, it reminds me of some stuff but is not quite there
Sometimes, you find people on a forum and start reading their posts, and you think "this is such a cool, smart person, i'm going to send her a message" and then you go to their profile and it says "Last seen 4 years ago" and there's nothing you know or can figure out about it, the profile is still active but the person has not logged back in for years now. Is just like the person one day stopped coming back and just dropped from the internet/forum and it leaves you with a sad and off feeling,
Where is that person now? Why did they leave? Why just post one day and then never come back? Should i ask about it or maybe i'll overstep and end up asking something i should not?
Why does no one said anything on that person's profile page, about her not being around for years now? Maybe everyone knows something i don't. Can't lie that i wonder about all possible situations (including that one we don't like to talk about, yes) but it's a bit hard to ask about it
Somehow, it feels kind of a loss, like i missed an opportunity of meeting someone great and it matters in several ways, even if we didn't met ever it's a lose somehow, it bothers me because now there's no closure and i will never get to ask the questions i wish i could ask. Yes i'm self entitled like that by the way. But you already knew that. Now i'm mad lol
It's like now there's an empty space, it's all silence where that person used to be, a void of some sort. I know that feeling well, the emptiness of that energy once it has moved somewhere else and now you are left with the memories or the expectation of something that can't ever happen, and you are left only with your imagination and thinking of what 'could have been'
I don't know, being a human is very difficult and odd, i wish there was a youtube tutorial for that
/OddRant