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    Quote Posted by gord (here)
    The Cat in the Window is no more.

    Deepest sympathy, so sorry...........

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    The loss of a fur person is so deep...comfort to your heart, gord. Diane

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    Gord I know you will miss your dearest cat, and what a beautiful cat, but I believe you will always be connected through love.

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    Mike Adams shows a 2 minute clip of vaccine blood taken from a woman that was recently vaccinated and how quickly it congeals. Amazing footage.
    • It begins @ 15:30 minutes.
    • @ 24 minutes is a one minute vid of a young woman’s father had his arm amputated due to blood clots caused by the vaccine. He also has a host of other serious conditions including the possibility of loosing both legs.
    • source link
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    Let Your Love Flow | The Bellamy Brothers
    There's a reason for the sun-shining sky
    And there's a reason why I'm feeling so high
    Must be the season
    When that love light shines all around us

    So let that feeling grab you deep inside
    And send you reeling where your love can't hide
    And then go stealing
    Through the moonlit nights with your lover

    Just let your love flow like a mountain stream
    And let your love grow with the smallest of dreams
    And let your love show and you'll know what I mean
    It's the season

    Let your love fly like a bird on a wing
    And let your love bind you to all living things
    And let your love shine and you'll know what I mean
    That's the reason

    There's a reason for the warm sweet nights
    And there's a reason for the candlelights
    Must be the season
    When those love rights shine all around us

    So let that wonder take you into space
    And lay you under its loving embrace
    Just feel the thunder
    As it warms your face, you can't hold back

    Just let your love flow like a mountain stream
    And let your love grow with the smallest of dreams
    And let your love show and you'll know what I mean
    It's the season

    Let your love fly like a bird on a wing
    And let your love bind you to all living things
    And let your love shine and you'll know what I mean
    That's the reason

    Just let your love flow like a mountain stream
    And let your love grow with the smallest of dreams
    And let your love show and you'll know what I mean
    It's the season

    Let your love fly like a bird on a wing
    And let your love bind you to all living things
    And let your love shine and you'll know what I mean
    That's the reason

    Just let your love flow like a mountain stream
    And let your love grow with the smallest of dreams

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    NEVER BEFORE SEEN! "Vaccine" Victims' Bodies IN BATTLE! (12 min)
    Dr. Jane Ruby joined the Stew Peters Show with a FIRST LOOK at what's really going on in the bodies of "vaccine" recipients!

    These people are DEAD, and autopsies show what appears to be a war inside their anatomy!

    source

    Source: https://www.rumble.com/video/vkf2yp


    This evidence shows: a) the metal gets imbedded into the tissue b) these people died due to complications from these metals. They further speculate that it’s happening to many at a slower rate and it depends on the individuals body chemistry, their immune status and the dosage of whatever is in these vials.
    It also shows:
    • How fast it happens, i.e. within two weeks.
    • It gets in every cell of your body within minute to hours.
    • How huge and powerful the inflammatory process is.
    • Your body is trying to save you.
    White blood cell “frozen in battle”.

    Hundreds of stainless steal with sharp edges in every droplet across hundreds of vials represented in all four companies.

    Cells coagulated around the brown material which is the stainless steal. This is the same photo zoomed in a little tighter in the cardiac muscle. Note the concentration of the blue dots. The dots are white blood cells in the hundreds of thousands to possibly millions that recognize this is foreign matter. Trying to put everything they can into fighting it.


    This inflammation from these products creates all kinds of tissue damage and waste products. This slide shows the blue/purple blood cells lined up horizontally. That represents a very unusual and abnormal concentration of white blood cells in this lung tissue. (graphic on the left)

    Zoomed in further, you see the entire tissue under attack. The blue/purple dots are hundreds of thousands to possibly millions of white blood cells. (graphic on the right)


    Liver tissue this vertical long structure is holding millions of white blood cells engaged in a fierce battle to attack this foreign matter. (graphic on the left)

    Huge number of Killer T cells that are trying to save the lining of the endothelium of this lung tissue. (graphic on the right)


    Post mortem lymph node. Normal size is about the size of a pea and about a 1/2 inch across. They feel soft and are very movable. Swollen lymph nodes that are fighting an infection or an invasion of the body can swell up to 1” to 1 1/2”. The photo below is 3.5-4 cm (2/1/5” - 3”). This is one lymph node out of many from people that ranged from 50-90 years old. This is not normal aging at all. When the lymph system goes into high overdrive, the nodes swell with white blood cells to fight infection or invasion. They also swell because they are a filtration system and they are trying to accumulate what foreign matter they can. They store it there temporarily.
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    Just posted this in the new thread....”This has to be fake......”

    Light humor, always good!😁😁

    Published today!

    A drunk person joins a search party looking for himself.

    According to a bizarre new tale, a Turkish guy who went missing in a forest ended up joining the hunt for himself.

    Beyhan Mutlu, 50, of Bursa's northern province, was reported missing on Tuesday when he wandered out inebriated in the forest from his group of friends, according to the Daily Sabah.

    Mutlu ended up joining a group of volunteers who were assisting authorities in their search for him, according to the site.

    Mutlu seemed perplexed when the volunteers began chanting his name, and inquired who they were looking for, according to Turkish news channel NTV.

    He reportedly assured them, "I am here."

    According to the news sites, when authorities discovered the man had formed his own search party, they gave him a lift home.

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    Thanks, Stephanie.

    Here’s the thread: This has to be fake? Surely he cannot be that stupid!

    Quote Posted by Stephanie (here)
    Just posted this in the new thread....”This has to be fake......”

    Light humor, always good!😁😁

    Published today!

    A drunk person joins a search party looking for himself.

    According to a bizarre new tale, a Turkish guy who went missing in a forest ended up joining the hunt for himself.

    Beyhan Mutlu, 50, of Bursa's northern province, was reported missing on Tuesday when he wandered out inebriated in the forest from his group of friends, according to the Daily Sabah.

    Mutlu ended up joining a group of volunteers who were assisting authorities in their search for him, according to the site.

    Mutlu seemed perplexed when the volunteers began chanting his name, and inquired who they were looking for, according to Turkish news channel NTV.

    He reportedly assured them, "I am here."

    According to the news sites, when authorities discovered the man had formed his own search party, they gave him a lift home.

    😁😁

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    Never Before Seen: Blood Doctor Reveals
    HORRIFIC Findings After Examining Vials
    (21 min)

    Healthy blood vs a blood a couple of months later after the vaccine.

    Magnified further.


    Dr. Zandre Botha saw other patients with weird black structures within
    the blood and deformed red blood cells.


    Too structured to be biological. Self-assembling.



    MORE IMAGES PROVIDED
    EXCLUSIVE! Dr. Zandre Botha was shocked after studying the blood of "vaccinated" patients that were coming to her with serious illness after being injected with the shots being called "Covid vaccines”.

    After being presented with vials of the substance, she examined the contents and was horrified.

    Source

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    Extremely Hard to Reach Baby Starlings! (9 min)

    Watch to see how Gates Wildlife Technician Cassandra was able to reach all the baby starlings inside this vent.

    This was one of our harder removals of birds in a vent but it was a success! Can you guess how many babies were inside?

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    Quote Posted by iota (here)
    Gary Zukav was one of my earliest teachers .. his book Seat of the Soul .. began a radical transformation in my life and perspective from which i continue to evolve to this day ...


    I heard that!

    Seat of the Soul had a massive effect on my thinking some 20 years back and still to this day I continue draw on those lessons. Also Dancing Wu Li Masters was an amazing read.
    To the mind that is still, the whole universe surrenders. -Lao Tzu

    I must not fear. Fear is the mind-killer.

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    Quote Posted by Ankle Biter (here)
    Quote Posted by iota (here)
    Gary Zukav was one of my earliest teachers .. his book Seat of the Soul .. began a radical transformation in my life and perspective from which i continue to evolve to this day ...


    I heard that!

    Seat of the Soul had a massive effect on my thinking some 20 years back and still to this day I continue draw on those lessons. Also Dancing Wu Li Masters was an amazing read.
    me too! i picked it up at the SAME time as you! ~ in 2000

    i'm afraid it killed a love that had lasted at LEAST a couple of lifetimes that i know of though .. haha!

    i attempted to really embody the principles there and it had a radical impact on my THEN personality that led to my growing in a very different evolutionary trajectory than i had been at the onset of our relationship

    we STILL lasted 30 yrs after love at first sight

    as in seriously and literally love at first sight

    and turns out because we had been in love before, he was a king and i was his lover ... and everyone was really mad about it back then and they were really mad about it again ... which used to consternate us and bewilder us to NO END

    we did NOT understand HOW and WHY people that were both close to us AND not were just unreasonably upset (as in they had NO reason) at our being in love .. what on earth did they care? and WHY????

    even the pastor of our church did a sermon of "the lost sheep turning away from the front of the church and preaching to the right at the top of the balcony where we were sitting in front of 2000 people!! like seriously!~!!!!!

    THEN i found out our history and i was like .. .they are YOUR people ok? ... sigh haha!

    so when people notice i don't seem to be concerned about criticism? if they only knew i've been dealing with THAT issue over lifetimes! an with entire country even .. pfffffffft!

    anyway, as you can imagine? being soulmates? we were as compatible as two peas in a pod, in everything ...

    and THEN i read this book ...

    and it speaks about Authentic power vs external power

    and how whatever it is that we hold as our "power source" is in reality our "badge of fear"

    be it money, or power, or status, or looks even (he was really really good looking ... because it turns out last time? i had been .. and we switched places ... long story ...)

    anyway, ANYTHING external CAN be taken away ... (money or status lost, looks fad etc)

    Authentic power CANNOT be taken away

    and i'm thinking .. this CANNOT be true im the least fearful person i know ...

    AS i'm driving my jaguar to my big house in the best neighborhood, dressed a certain style etc

    and i ask myself ... "is it REALLY possible that i WANT these things and have these things NOT because i genuinely desire them? but because of what people will think?????"

    which immediately made me think: "IF THAT is the case? then i think i'm giving people a little too much power!"

    so my partner comes home and we're going off somewhere, and he's dressed to the nines as always, and i put on some jeans, one of my son's plain white hanes under garment t shirts

    NO make up! and just a barrette right smack in the middle of the top of my head to pull my bangs out of my eyes

    he says nothing until we arrive and finally asks "What are you doing exactly?"

    to which i reply wit this giant smile: "i'm confronting my fears, because if i dress a certain way etc because of what people think? then i'm giving them a bit too much power so i'm confronting that"

    he is silent for a moment then says ... "ok .. would you mind standing over THERE ... and confronting your fears over THERE?"

    joking of course ... but NOT joking at same time as in i was completely bewildering him and changing the "rules" of our relationship without any prior warning etc

    nevertheless we stayed together AND in love til Joshie died. but he had NEVER made the transformations that i had. nor did he genuinely desire to and had he done so .. things would have been different

    so i buried my child and said goodbye to him and two other relationships that i really should have ended yrs before, but joshua who could never hold a grudge or unforgiveness in his heart and would have never let me while he was alive

    he used to tell me .. "oh no mommy! i can't hold a grudge like that! it hurts me too much" literally putting his hand over his heart and the expression on his face almost imagining the hurt!! .. the boy had the purest heart of anyone i've ever known and he was my teacher

    so it was only AFTER my son transitioned that i was clear to terminate bonds that no longer served either, love present or not ~ and that was that

    so .. yes .. i'd say it had a pretty profound impact on my life lol!!

    confronting my fears was an invaluable tool in my continuing evolution, and really so many others continue to have a profound influence on me to this day .. i am forever grateful for Gary Zukav's contribution to my life and to humanity in general

    We should defend our way of life
    to an extent that any attempt on it is crushed,

    so that any adversary
    will never make such an attempt in the future.

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    Dearest iota,

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    Quote Posted by iota (here)

    me too! i picked it up at the SAME time as you! ~ in 2000

    i'm afraid it killed a love that had lasted at LEAST a couple of lifetimes that i know of though .. haha!

    i attempted to really embody the principles there and it had a radical impact on my THEN personality that led to my growing in a very different evolutionary trajectory than i had been at the onset of our relationship

    we STILL lasted 30 yrs after love at first sight

    as in seriously and literally love at first sight

    and turns out because we had been in love before, he was a king and i was his lover ... and everyone was really mad about it back then and they were really mad about it again ... which used to consternate us and bewilder us to NO END

    we did NOT understand HOW and WHY people that were both close to us AND not were just unreasonably upset (as in they had NO reason) at our being in love .. what on earth did they care? and WHY????

    even the pastor of our church did a sermon of "the lost sheep turning away from the front of the church and preaching to the right at the top of the balcony where we were sitting in front of 2000 people!! like seriously!~!!!!!

    THEN i found out our history and i was like .. .they are YOUR people ok? ... sigh haha!

    so when people notice i don't seem to be concerned about criticism? if they only knew i've been dealing with THAT issue over lifetimes! an with entire country even .. pfffffffft!

    anyway, as you can imagine? being soulmates? we were as compatible as two peas in a pod, in everything ...

    and THEN i read this book ...

    and it speaks about Authentic power vs external power

    and how whatever it is that we hold as our "power source" is in reality our "badge of fear"

    be it money, or power, or status, or looks even (he was really really good looking ... because it turns out last time? i had been .. and we switched places ... long story ...)

    anyway, ANYTHING external CAN be taken away ... (money or status lost, looks fad etc)

    Authentic power CANNOT be taken away

    and i'm thinking .. this CANNOT be true im the least fearful person i know ...

    AS i'm driving my jaguar to my big house in the best neighborhood, dressed a certain style etc

    and i ask myself ... "is it REALLY possible that i WANT these things and have these things NOT because i genuinely desire them? but because of what people will think?????"

    which immediately made me think: "IF THAT is the case? then i think i'm giving people a little too much power!"

    so my partner comes home and we're going off somewhere, and he's dressed to the nines as always, and i put on some jeans, one of my son's plain white hanes under garment t shirts

    NO make up! and just a barrette right smack in the middle of the top of my head to pull my bangs out of my eyes

    he says nothing until we arrive and finally asks "What are you doing exactly?"

    to which i reply wit this giant smile: "i'm confronting my fears, because if i dress a certain way etc because of what people think? then i'm giving them a bit too much power so i'm confronting that"

    he is silent for a moment then says ... "ok .. would you mind standing over THERE ... and confronting your fears over THERE?"

    joking of course ... but NOT joking at same time as in i was completely bewildering him and changing the "rules" of our relationship without any prior warning etc

    nevertheless we stayed together AND in love til Joshie died. but he had NEVER made the transformations that i had. nor did he genuinely desire to and had he done so .. things would have been different

    so i buried my child and said goodbye to him and two other relationships that i really should have ended yrs before, but joshua who could never hold a grudge or unforgiveness in his heart and would have never let me while he was alive

    he used to tell me .. "oh no mommy! i can't hold a grudge like that! it hurts me too much" literally putting his hand over his heart and the expression on his face almost imagining the hurt!! .. the boy had the purest heart of anyone i've ever known and he was my teacher

    so it was only AFTER my son transitioned that i was clear to terminate bonds that no longer served either, love present or not ~ and that was that

    so .. yes .. i'd say it had a pretty profound impact on my life lol!!

    confronting my fears was an invaluable tool in my continuing evolution, and really so many others continue to have a profound influence on me to this day .. i am forever grateful for Gary Zukav's contribution to my life and to humanity in general

    In my case the evolution took place first then the relationship begun that was a joint mission of shaking off these badges of fear and cultivating authentic power together. The ego resists and sometimes people, after realizing the journey ahead won't be easy, return to comforts of that self forged in ... lala-land. or what ever it can be called. lol.

    It isn't an easy stroll and those who are with us maybe choose a different time, lifetime, if even at all.. perhaps things would have been different for you had you both started at the same time but nothing is guaranteed so it has taught that dwelling on the 'what if this, what if that' instances are ways for the ego to pull us back from realizing this authentic power... or at least this was very much the situation with my relationship.

    None of that is to say that I've not hit bumps in the road, fallen off the wagon a few times and got a little banged up, certainly.. but if I ain't dead, I'm getting up, trying again & keep going... which is why I can't hold a grudge that she didn't maintain. It's asking a lot and expectations are something I only place in myself these-days.

    Your Joshie though sounds like a true angel and to be shown and taught a love in its most pure sense is really a blessing . Forgiveness, from what I've experienced, is one of the most difficult things to attain, we all struggle with it .... & not just the people around us but especially learning to forgive ourselves! Sometimes that's the hardest of all.

    I appreciate you sharing what's close to your heart Iota, and if some of it has caused me to press the pause button to revisit lessons learned and fears dispelled to feel a little energized then I hope I was able to reciprocate a bit of that too.
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    I must not fear. Fear is the mind-killer.

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    In my case the evolution took place first then the relationship begun that was a joint mission of shaking off these badges of fear and cultivating authentic power together. The ego resists and sometimes people, after realizing the journey ahead won't be easy, return to comforts of that self forged in ... lala-land. or what ever it can be called. lol.

    It isn't an easy stroll and those who are with us maybe choose a different time, lifetime, if even at all.. perhaps things would have been different for you had you both started at the same time but nothing is guaranteed so it has taught that dwelling on the 'what if this, what if that' instances are ways for the ego to pull us back from realizing this authentic power... or at least this was very much the situation with my relationship.

    None of that is to say that I've not hit bumps in the road, fallen off the wagon a few times and got a little banged up, certainly.. but if I ain't dead, I'm getting up, trying again & keep going... which is why I can't hold a grudge that she didn't maintain. It's asking a lot and expectations are something I only place in myself these-days.

    Your Joshie though sounds like a true angel and to be shown and taught a love in its most pure sense is really a blessing . Forgiveness, from what I've experienced, is one of the most difficult things to attain, we all struggle with it .... & not just the people around us but especially learning to forgive ourselves! Sometimes that's the hardest of all.

    I appreciate you sharing what's close to your heart Iota, and if some of it has caused me to press the pause button to revisit lessons learned and fears dispelled to feel a little energized then I hope I was able to reciprocate a bit of that too.

    you were SO lucky to have met your partner at the ONSET of your journey! i'd like to think the outcome of mine might have been different had that timing been the same

    but i don't really believe that

    for one, we met at a Christian concert. the deep commitment to a fundamentalist faith that once united us? became the point of contention that initiated our departure as my path took me in these directions more and more deeply. i was not kidding that Zukav's book was the very onset of our end

    ... our "meeting" was to complete unfinished business and resolve karmic debts as well and afford us the opportunity to do that in much deserved "private lives"

    both my prior lives were very public, the problem with ALL of that? is that you are unable to make simple choices and move into trajectories free of the energy of others, the CONSTANT and incessant intrusions and even outright interference from people, a WHOLE country's opinion weighing in .. and they were ruthless

    one pattern i have that i can only assume is leftover from (the trauma of) THAT time? is that if i start to get a little too much "notoriety" i'll disappear . its been a lifelong characteristic of mine

    only about a dozen people throughout my life know what i shared here

    there is a REASON i chose the name "iota" as my avatar name

    i'm grateful that we were able to remove ourselves sufficiently AWAY from the infringement, because THAT is what it is, of the opinions and energy of others enough to work through all that needed to be resolved on our own

    and having attained THAT resolution? which took about 15 years?

    we SHOULD have moved on, but we didn't ... we REALLY loved each other deeply despite the ever growing distance in our beliefs and perspectives which translated into choices and direction

    and the once common goals were now divergent... his pursuits and objectives were centered around material basis, ambitions, as well adherence to fundamentalist principles i no longer shared and it was hard not to feel real disappointment at the lack of interest in the things that from MY perspective? were both obvious? and REALLY REALLY mattered

    but there was no unforgiveness when we parted

    no forgiveness from me was required for his choice to remain true to HIS Self any more than i required his forgiveness for staying true to mySelf

    love remained even in parting ~ long, long before that? i'd get instantly quiet when this song played ... i knew in my heart, and when he'd see me look down ... and already feeling a sadness for something not even discussed? .... he knew too




    Packing up the dreams God planted In the fertile soil of you

    I can't believe the hopes He's granted Means a chapter of our life is through

    But we'll keep you close as always, It won't even seem you've gone

    'Cause our hearts in big and small ways, Will keep the love that keeps us strong


    And friends are friends forever
    If the Lord's the Lord of them
    And a friend will not say never
    'Cause the welcome will not end


    Though it's hard to let you go
    In the Father's hands we know
    That a lifetime's not too long
    To live as friends


    thank you for allowing me a glimpse into your journey and your path, and allowing me to share a bit of mine

    it was a bit cathartic for me ... i didn't even know i needed to, so thank you again

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    to an extent that any attempt on it is crushed,

    so that any adversary
    will never make such an attempt in the future.

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    Quote Posted by iota (here)

    it was a bit cathartic for me ... i didn't even know i needed to, so thank you again

    Same goes for me..

    P.S. had to look up Catharsis first,
    (Catharsis ) κάθαρσις = Cleansed. And sounds quite similar to word (Cadia or Cardio) καρδιά = Heart.
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    anyone else missing Strat?

    Last edited by iota; 24th October 2021 at 06:36.
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    anyone else missing Strat?

    I do, but he wants to not be around for some time :/

    Once he comes back, i will bully him to no end!

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    What happened to the guy? He found love as far as I remember. Wonder if he left for that.

    Big loss for the youngling army.

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