A final farewell to the Misty Project Avalon from one who has severed his head

[Bright Garlick]

Dear Project Avalon - my fellow human beings.

It is said that after awakening, Siddhārtha Gautama spent the next 45 years of his life teaching what he had learned in his 6 years of wandering and his one night of full awakening. He did so out of love for mankind, because he recognized the true nature of all beings - that all beings are impermanent and that there is no real Self. He recognized that humans suffer because we are constantly craving things that are impermanent and getting attached to them and because we avoid those things we fear. Only to find that what we seek is an illusion, that feeds perpetual desire.

I have spent much of my life as a seeker and the last decade learning to let go of the seeker. I have tried to ground myself in a 24 hour experience of self awareness, in which I was aware of all my thoughts, feelings, moods, actions and words. But I fail every day to maintain full awareness. I accept that my small I (small self) will remain ignorant. But I know that the big I (greater self) is perpetually awake. This small I is the being you know as Bright Garlick and this greater self is everything, the being that some of us call God. I am in you and you are in me. I am all of those people here who like me, those who are in different and those that dislike me.

The real I is boundless and knows no limit in time or space. There is no special ability, no ego, just awareness. I know you in ways you cannot imagine. As you know me. But many of you do not know how to see.

I first joined this forum in December 2010 and found very quickly, much like in the rest of my life, that it was difficult for me (the small I) to connect with people and even more difficult for others to understand anything I had to share. I was never a popular contributor, which was a blessing.

From time to time I would try to find certain people here but to no avail. They obviously had no interest in such a medium.

I was fortunate enough to meet many fine people here, some of whom became my real friends, for which I am immensely grateful to Bill Ryan. Bill alone had the courage to recreate the real world in this format ! Bravo Bill !

I tried to leave this forum previously, as I was feeling very frustrated with the kinds of attitudes and the general tone of nastiness here. I also found myself reacting in ways which I was ashamed of.

When my tumours came back very aggressively and I felt I might not survive, my dear friend Astrid came into bat for me and along with Meeredas and many other kind people, you offered your kind words and sent me money, which helped me to get through the hardest period of my life.

I never cared whether people believe what I have to share. That's entirely up to you. I cared about how people reacted to myself and others. I allowed myself to be overly sensitive and unfortunately that pressed a raw nerve that has been with me all my life. I suffered needlessly, because of some stupid choices.

I am just an ordinary person. A single Dad with a 16 year old son, just trying to do the best that I can. I am no longer working, as I continue to heal from my tumours. I used to be very active with many different projects, trying to help others less fortunate than myself but now days I devote most of my altruistic desires to helping the natural world.

I was fortunate as a child to have a father who was in the RAAF and then later in the airlines. I saw the world and it completely transformed my entire understanding of human life and our precious Earth.

Later, I became conscious of visits from beings from other worlds and I fell in love with a woman who had spent many years using her unusual psychic gifts working with ETs as part of a covert project based in England. Many years later I urged her to share her truth and to speak about the secrets she knows but after an initial timid interview, she withdrew and swore to never say another word. Partly because if the response from certain people in the public and partly because she felt she had betrayed people she cared about. You go on about all the bad people in power but it's ordinary mothers and fathers and sons and daughters and grandparents who work in covert projects. Not evil, demon possessed control freaks. Rachel had a higher clearance than Clifford Stone and has seen things that would utterly transform your view of reality. In one of her projects,, she and another gifted person profiled many millennia of the human future and discovered, among other things, that humans do not essentially change that much. There is no great ascension or emancipation. Greed is still greed, stupidity and ignorance are still stupidity and ignorance and the human race is still afflicted with all the same problems that it was in the mid to late 1980s and is today. Buddha complained about it 2,300 years ago, Jesus complained about it 2,000 years ago, we complain about it today and human ignorance will be there in 10,000 years. There is NO GREAT AWAKENING. Just greater delusion. Don't fool yourself. Look at the patterns of history and you will see the truth. That doesn't mean we shouldn't try to make the human world a better place. Because we should. But we must start at home, in our own lives.

I lived with Rachel and loved her and I lived with her secrets and it nearly both of us.

Through her and through the ETs that the 3 of us were connecting with, I learned that there are strict rules put in place by what I call the Creator Races, that prevent any civilisation becoming space faring, until it has matured and sorted out it's own ****. If it wasn't for this, for the greater good, we would live in a dystopian nightmare of endless proportions. And it isn't like that. When I hear all this crap about good ETs and bad ETs, I just shake my head. People have no idea of the truth. They are so misled by all the rubbish that passes as truth and so misled by fear and a desire for control, that they cannot SEE. They project their fears over everything. Archetypal Projections rule this planet, not Archons. Those of us who have ET contact, pass through a developmental continuum. With fear and a desire for control at one end and love and acceptance at the other end. Most people who inform the consensus are at the fearful end. They see separation and not unity. And you allow them to inform how you think ? Bill you once used a chicken scenario to describe so called abduction – you were spot on. We are the chickens. But we can choose how to respond !

And when you know the nature of the SELF, you don't see other. You see different manifestations of the ONE. -----*, I send you love, you know not who YOU ARE. And to the others who have disliked me, may you awaken to your true nature and discover the path to freedom – a place that is always within. You don't need to fix the world, only your perception.

In January 2011, 2 races of ETs took me to merge with the light, I came to know as God. So many people judged me and said I was deceived. To them I say, you have never known TRUE LOVE and you have been deceived by what you take to be the self. Some of you will get that, but most of you will not.

I try to live with love and respect and compassion. But the small I wavers and sometimes I have immense anger for the human race. I get so angry with ignorance. And it has been a great source of fuel for the growth of my tumours. But that is my choice and my ignorance. I am slowly learning to let go and dwell in the big I. To dis-identify and re-identify, is the only path that matters.

People will see the ETs how they wish to and use the same filters they use for the rest of their lives, unaware of their conditioning and the wounds that bind them.

I was not always sure why I posted here and infact I think I made some very bad decisions and posted here when I should not have posted anything. I spent a great deal of time before joining and later just observing this forum, trying to understand the human psyche. This is after all a kind of microcosm of the world out there. I did exactly what those you see as having power do. Some of them try to understand.

In 2004 I had an online counselling service and people said things to me they would not even say in a private room. The lack of personal intimacy and audiovisual and tactile cues dis-inhibited them. And I see the same thing here and on Youtube and in every online space. People behave in ways they would not dare in the REAL world. Once we had institutions for the mentally unstable (right or wrong) and now they are free to sprout their damaged perceptions anywhere they want. And those who are well enough to know better, often say things in certain ways, without a care in the world for anyone else.

Everyone suffers and yet we are all trying our best just to survive. No one needs constant criticism or derision. If you don't like a thread or a video, just don't respond. If you can't say something good, why say anything ? What does it gain you ? This is my one regret, that from time to time, I have been a fool and reacted. But there are some people here, who react constantly and deride others in ways they would not dare in the REAL world.

To those people (-----* and --------* I include you among them), who feel strongly about dismissing others and about the hostilities of this cruel world, I say this :

The human world is a cruel place. When you replace a tyrant with power, a hundred others will try to fill his shoes. Stop chasing all the colours of the rainbow and see the rainbow. You keep looking outwards because you are stuck in separation. Take a good hard look at your own lives, at the ****ups you've created and the wounds you have that are festering and unattended. Take responsibility for your own problems and for your own suffering. Spend a little less time in la la land (this fake world) and attend to the real world. Each of you have your own responsibilities to yourself and to people who need you and to EARTH. Look inwards, transform your selves and then you will create the world you seek.

-----*, you like all people are ignorant of who you are and how much you suffer. I worked with vets a lot like you – wounded mothers and fathers, who looked outwards, rather than inwards. They had a history of betrayal and being hurt. They felt empty, alone and misunderstood. Stop imposing your own isolation and help yourself ! Get help, if you need to. LIVE FULLY and not vicariously ! Embrace life. You are only young and have the world at your feet !

-----*, someone else on this forum tried to give you some supportive advice and a host of people turned on that person, including you. Perhaps, just once in your life, you will look in the mirror and look honestly at who you are, instead of seeing others as adversaries. LIFE IS NOT A BATTLE FIELD. No matter how much it feels that way. And to those of you who ran to -----* aid and put down the other person, shame on you for seeing only what you wanted to see. He was trying to help her and you took that help away !

This forum as an ideal is wonderful. But as an actual reality is terrible. There are many good things and many unpleasant things. People get hurt, just as I have. People are real, they have feelings and sometimes they are fragile. They feel. Remember your words, even in text form, have an impact, so choose wisely. I say that having singled out 2 people myself. But my presence here will soon be erased. I breach the terms of use with good intention.

So many people here critique the powers that be and criticise everything and yet, look what you have created with your soap opera dramas. You have replicated the same problems out there, in here. How can it be any different ?

Several of the moderators have been very supportive of me over time and especially now. Thank you to all of them, especially Dennis and Murray. Today Dennis said this :

I'm reminded that the 9th (and final) stage of Buddhist development is "returning to the marketplace", a metaphor for what the enlightened being must face when they meet back up with a cross-section of humanity (good, bad, and ugly - or as the Dude might say, aggressive and non-aggressive.) The metaphor also contains the understanding that when alone on ones mountaintop, it is difficult but possible to achieve enlightenment - but, it is much harder to remain in that state when surrounded by the raucous and chaotic and seductive and unenlightened world.

I have never believed in enlightenment. What is there to enlighten when one knows “What is it that is asking “What am I ?”” and when the doors of perception are eternal ?

But I take Dennis's point, the enlightened one must return to the market place “with gift bearing arms”. In other words, after we've discovered our true nature, we return to the world with love and compassion and wisdom.

I am not enlightened but I enter the market place of life, every day and try to practice loving kindness. When it is necessary I stand up for myself or others. I am angry when I need to be angry. And I am kind when I need to be kind.

I offer you my anger and my kindness. Please, those of you who are seeking, stop seeking. You are the question the answers needs to find. God is within and no where else. All that you seek is within and no where else. Those of you who are angry, understand your anger and let it transform you. Be angry about the right things. Use it as fuel wisely. And those of you who are kind, don't let people walk over you and remember to show yourself the same kindness.

In the coming years we all have a great deal of hardship to endure and none of us needs any more hardship – especially as we are living this shadow game in the online world. Life is very, very short. Our human lives all have a set clock. They are impermanent and we need to embrace every moment consciously.

Remember to be kind and show a little kindness to those who you perceive as having power. As I have said before, you are the powers that be but you give away your power. Get off the internet more and spend more time in the REAL world, with your children, your gardens, your pets, your neighbours, your books, your trees, anywhere but in a place where you only half live.

My great regret is that I have wasted so much time connecting with the world in this way.

Some of you may remember my post about the 7. I never explained what that was all about. But I will tell you this. The 7 walk among you, living and suffering in this world, giving all they can for a better world for generations to come. Nobodies, that no one ever needs to know. They will come and go and the next 7 will replace them and on and on and on.

Each of us has the opportunity to make this a better world and we can do it by opening our hearts and minds and giving all the love we can to those who need our love.

Great anger comes from great love.

Is this Insula Avallonis / Insula Pomorum (Isle of Fruit Trees) – a safe harbour for the weary ? Or is it a place for the Mordreds and the Mayas of the world to sow the seeds of discord ?

Who among you will be the Pontifex Maximus ? https://projectavalon.net/forum4/show...283#post732283

Sadly, this is not a place for me.

Life is so precious, why waste it on conflict and confusion and an all the trappings of ego ?
You create your own heaven and your own hell. Why make the choice difficult ?

Thank you to everyone.

In anger and in love,

Bright Garlick.

PS. Those of you who wish to stay in contact, know where to find me.

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[DeDukshyn]

Well I don't think you should leave just yet. But if you can't be stopped, take care Garlick.

BTW great post.

[ulli]

Posted by DeDukshyn (here)
Well I don't think you should leave just yet. But if you can't be stopped, take care Garlick.

BTW great post.

I agree with DeDukshyn, on both.
I must admit, I was very surprised at Tesla's reaction to your fine thread.
Was under time pressure lately, or would have commented.
My motto is 'live, and let live', and about humanity as a whole I agree with Dude.
A bunch of kids, the best of which have barely left adolescence,
and it is not only the elite who need to face their sociopathy.
The inner journey is not as long and difficult as some think...
I just takes one step, and they can be there, if they can face the truth about the little self.
Thank you again, Bright, for the great reminder.
Be well.

[Feritciva]

This is one of the best posts i've ever read on Avalon. Be well, live long & prosper BG!

[araucaria]

Bright Garlick, it’s a sad day if you and your friend Dude are driven off the forum. If you have moderator support, then you are not breaking the rules to the point of earning a ban, certainly no more than the members you mention. Has this incident been formally reported for moderation by the moderator team as a whole? If not, it should be.

I see no difference between a forum and Buddha’s market place (although technically the word forum refers to the agora next door). The fact that people say things they would never dream of saying face to face does not necessarily imply that they should return to more real-life physical interaction (although they probably should as well), because it also means that they get to hear things about or relevant to themselves that they would not normally hear. Your example of counselling is a very good instance of the way this can be made to work positively.

My point is that the forum is by no means ideal in its present state; but neither is it a monolith. It includes various less hostile environments where you should be able to post your gentle message without interference. If you posted on the Here and Now thread for example, you would get nothing but support from other contributors to that thread. Maybe at some stage you will feel able to take your material back to the open forum where it belongs. It certainly belongs here, since I imagine you are getting the flak because you are saying things that need to be heard, which is a good and healthy thing, otherwise you would just be preaching to the choir. We are not talking about preaching, we are talking about choir members singing up and keeping the thing together.

[Iloveyou]

Being a newbie and still trying to find my way through all the issues and matters, what helps me most - to gain some approximate insight of what is being discussed and to get my own ideas in order – are the very controversial discussions and debates. And following conflicts helps me to get an impression of where I've actually landed here.

I understand that being involved can take a lot of strenghts and can sap your energy. May you take a retreat and recover perfect health but don't leave the ship. Or leave the ship but stay in contact (take a break?) What I'm hearing is that you love this place and it's not an easy decision to leave. I suppose you are still needed here (at least for the younger member-generation). Do get well.

I wish you all the very very best. Iloveyou.

[Agape]

Don't be angry good Bright , it's merely that times are changing .. unbelievable as it sounds but I've seen them changing already 2 or 3 times in my life - big way for human society and that's of course , over-generelasitation and understatement

But we are witness to the change through the virtual walls and windows of this community too , and it may feel confusing to many people that there's rise of awareness happening in such unprecedented and massive way , simultaneously with its decline .
It's as if we are all - out of sudden - trying to reach out for the Stars .. and the time is not ready , not quite yet .. awareness rises and falls .
Up and down . The higher it rises the deeper it falls . This has been so far , the nature of human struggle .
Fall and rise . Rise and fall . It seems to go in rounds ( ...please kindly hold to your chair or table , don't fall ... )

As someone wise said we live forwards but count backwards .

This 'place' did not exist 10 years ago ... so many came to seek refuge here because their own worlds broke apart . In fact I'm surprised that 'this place' is not much bigger now .
Given by its specificity I think ... and what's going 'down there' , under the castle ..the awakenings are massive but slow .

This is an experiment like many other 'social experiments' people invented times to times to help to facilitate and understand level of human awareness , and where is it heading to ..
it's a sample of those who want to be part of such 'truth-seeking experiment' .

It does not cost money . It may help humanity . Or it may not . But better it will ..


There is a shady side to the 'mass experiment' of course that each one of us has to acknowledge personally , with him/her/itself , sooner or later ..

see , as individuals each one of us maybe quite bright . As a mass of interacting quarks we change to 'chaotic matter' . We lose identity, individuality ..
i've never been to mass anything .. but that's me . Some people seem to enjoy it a lot .. square gatherings and protests , mass entertainments , those huge performances where people change to colourful dots to form a bigger pattern ..

so many nations tried to fulfil the objective of creating utopia ..and failed and let me tell you why ..

things , truths, knowledge and understanding , the subtlety of .. start from individuals , are shared between handful of people the best .

Yes times to times each of us has the capacity to attend big conferences and address big stadiums and the power there holds but as matter of organised awareness it's fairly difficult to keep together for long time .

On grassroots level , we all need more likely handful of friends who understand us much better . Who can be fully trusted . Especially for those who are in vulnerable life situations for whatever sake ,
we need to find our real people and small 'families' and be there for them ..

and reconnect .

So I think it's what is on plan for all those sublime and vulnerable .. please find your own isle of safety , and don't live in the mass illusion .
The world is turning to dangerous place and being alone does not feel safe and there are thousands of options you or me won't accept but ..maybe one or two ways to go ..

it's not about 'seeking God' . God is within You . It's about trusting you are worth it ,
life worth living ,

you're not a number , a member , you are free man .


Anger dissipates as fast as it comes because it's so illusory . This all venture is illusory . Pity those who fail to realise it .

If there's still something you need to do in this life simply focus on doing it . My feeling is that 'all these virtual friends' will stay to your support if you need them .


Blessings on your way ..

[Puffin]

I'm fairly new here and have just met you and Dude. I am sorry to see you go - hopefully you will return and then continue to share what to me is a very valuable contribution. I wish people could be kinder when they disagree. I hold back from sharing stuff, don't think I could cope with unkind words directed at me.

[Cristian]

Interesting...

I've come to realize the fact that farewell posts may not be the way to go.

You know, displaying your ego one final time , taking your toys and leaving.

It's just not "a letting go " thing it's an ego thing . Farewell posts are ego driven.

I decide when to leave and I leave.

Still the old I you were trying to escape all life.


And you can choose to not be online anymore...but that was never the problem . Is not the online that kept you from enlightenment. It was still you ; online , offline ...it will still be you.

Not related to you Bright, there is also the "next place" concept.

Next place is always better. Because Avalon is being censored by Bill and the mods team. You just can't see the truth because of them. Not because of you...

Is never about you...

There are various other forums and that's a good thing. Bad thing is , in the end, there is the same outcome. Whatever forum you are on is very nice and cozy until it reaches your ego. Then is time to move on to the next cozy place- usually with a goodbye post.

It was never about you...

[Sunny-side-up]

Still reading through your very interesting post Bright Garlick but just want to make one quick comment (Normally with new posts I catch the end of them)

So just wan't to say 'make sure your not actually running away from the stresses of Avalon community! Make sure it's not something you actually need to live with as apposed to brushing-up-against and leave.

I have always looked forwards to you posts and will miss them, you are an Avalon ingredient (the cake will never be quite the same again!).

Yes we/I now where to find you if you leave, which is good (knowing where to find you that is, not the 'you leaving part), stay in contact if you can.

Love and continued, improved health to you and yours Bright Garlick.

(I will read on through your post latter today)

[mosquito]

That was a beautiful post Bright.
Good luck to you, whatever you decide to do. And thank you for being here.

[Ewan]

I've only been here a few weeks. At first I was so excited to have found the place, like minds and all that. It took less than a week before the disillusionment began to settle. Every other post I saw signs of ego, people stating their beliefs as though TRUTHS. Ego protecting their view against another's view. People talking about spirituality and arguing about what may or may not be correct. Everything being externalised and every other post a new way to fear or worry about something or other.

When you beging to awaken there is always a desire to rush around telling everyone what you are discovering. It usually doesn't take long to realise that people who are asleep would rather stay that way. The ego is quite happy to join you in your external pusrsuits, actively encouraging you to seek new information and assimilate or reject it. What IT doesn't want you to do is spend too much time looking inside. For there you may uncover it, and once you begin to see that truth you will begin to withdraw all support.

Here is where you may feel the most fearful, the most isolated, even question your sanity. But really you have just taken the first step on the bridge to freedom and oneness.

Bright, it is the first time I have seen your name. I will not know where to find you. Godspeed.

[panopticon]

G'day BG,

I don't usually comment on "goodbye" threads but felt a need for some unknown reason.

Hold those dear to you near and love the life you lead.

I hope your tumours are and stay in remission.

I've read some of your writings and agree with some parts and disagree with others.

I've not met any aliens (that I know of) so have no idea whether your writings on that subject are accurate or not.

Truthfully, until you'd said you had brain tumours (I think I remember you first mentioning them in early 2011) I thought you were working on a plot for a novel and running it past us to gauge its strengths/weaknesses.

I agree that power and control are interlinked.

None of this really matters tonight though because Australia beat New Zealand in the IOD. That's what will be getting chatted about in Oz.

Good luck on your journey.

-- Pan

[greybeard]

Posted by Anakie (here)
I've only been here a few weeks. At first I was so excited to have found the place, like minds and all that. It took less than a week before the disillusionment began to settle. Every other post I saw signs of ego, people stating their beliefs as though TRUTHS. Ego protecting their view against another's view. People talking about spirituality and arguing about what may or may not be correct. Everything being externalised and every other post a new way to fear or worry about something or other.

When you beging to awaken there is always a desire to rush around telling everyone what you are discovering. It usually doesn't take long to realise that people who are asleep would rather stay that way. The ego is quite happy to join you in your external pusrsuits, actively encouraging you to seek new information and assimilate or reject it. What IT doesn't want you to do is spend too much time looking inside. For there you may uncover it, and once you begin to see that truth you will begin to withdraw all support.

Here is where you may feel the most fearful, the most isolated, even question your sanity. But really you have just taken the first step on the bridge to freedom and oneness.

Bright, it is the first time I have seen your name. I will not know where to find you. Godspeed.

Hi Anakie
Welcome.
Not all of Avalon is as you describe.
I respectfully suggest you visit this thread
Latest post here
https://projectavalon.net/forum4/show...l=1#post947555

The thread has been running for many years and has not had the kind of interaction you describe.
There are over one thousand visits a week to it.
You might feel at home there.
Best wishes
Chris

[Aurvandil]

Absolutely one of the best posts I´ve read on the forum and a brutal and longed-for honesty with so many truths. I agree with you totally and am happy that you have found your way, I am getting there myself...

I only wish we could have been friends but this is the first time I see your name, I have been gone for a while from the forum.

Take care, BG!

[sunflower]

Hi Bright, I have always read your posts on Avalon. Lots to think about and a ring of truth which I might not always want to acknowledge. I am getting there however! I do hope you will reconsider. You may never know how many here appreciated your presence. Best wishes for continued health and new endeavours.

[johnh]

You're a bright young man, you've taken a good hard look at things, and the world is a far better place with you incarnated now.

Regarding a person creating their own reality, ultimately he/she creates everyone's reality because I am you. No one has gotten to that level yet, that I know of, to be that responsible. At the level of individual (illusion or not), one creates often in opposition or cross-intention to another's creation, or a group's creation. BTW, the Prime Creator created creators, some of whom thought they had a better idea, hence Lucifer. Am addressing here various levels. Also, there are things that cannot be known while incarnated in a body. If you have a body, you have an ego.

Am reminded of what the Buddha said, "No one is enlightened until everyone is enlightened."

Blessings to you, Godspeed. We as a species are at the brink now.

Love you.

[Mark]

Well alright then, Bright.

It is bittersweet when friends move on, but it is also understandable. Often, it is more than the words that determine a response. It is the energy beneath them. The scintillating spirit of the soul typing the words, which is apparent irregardless of what is actually typed.

From your words, clarity and compassion are the primary emotive emanations I have always sensed. Your truth as expressed is valid. Your journey is undertaken in the spirit of growth and knowing thyself. Your compassion is on display, as evidenced by this final effort to help people achieve self-understanding.

You are right. It is only this. Ever.

Blessings, and see you along that pathless path, written in the stars.

[Flash]

Hi Bright,

What a powerfull post, what extraordinary power beneath it! and yes, we feel the love and despair together.

And I have the feeling that this thread is the meeting of the greats - all powerful souls on this thread right now.

To tell the truth, this post of yours touched me much more than Dude's talk, most probably because that post is more grounded in here and now (of course, this would be normal, from human to human lol).

The impact and power you can have for other is exactly on how you wrote that post, in my views. Everything has to be filtered down through human eyes for humans to catch the vibe.

In my eyes, you are far from over with us, you are just truly starting

In my views, you have not infringed any forum rules at all. You are just standing up to some forms of bullying, even if coming from very acutely bright individuals, it is still bullying. Thanks for standing up.

And, for the forum..... I just told a client lately that when there is no conflicts in a corporation, or in an organisation, I worry very much for that corporation / organisation. Conflicts ARE usefull, and often necessary for progression, when RESOLVED actively, mostly when amongst creative worthwile members. Going away or throwing you out is pushing it under the carpet, not resolving it. And it will resurface elsewhere, when moods, drugs, despair or simple reaction to hardship makes members go overboard. A bigger more useful forum means conflict résolutions approaches and a set up allowing it.

We are on a planet of polarities after all, conflict management, anger management and RESOLUTION findings is part of the game. Why not dive in it, with a detached attitude.

Love even through conflicts, isn't this unconditional love? We do not even need to give time to some members if we do not wish so. Just being there is often fine and enough.

Now, as per your post Bright Garlic,

1. I am very sorry for your cancer and the hardship/blessing it broughts. I am also sorry for the worries it may have imposed on your son, since you are his main supporter / security provider. I have empathy for this in all the fibers of my body and heart.

2.

But many of you do not know how to see.

Yes, right, we are a Young race, underdevelop and most of us are very slow learners. Yet, we do teach our Learning disabled and feeble minded kids don't we? Why should the human race get less patience and love from its creators?

3.

You don't need to fix the world, only your perception.

In my daily life, Bright Garlic, I teach. I am a born teacher. If I show up somewhere to teach, they call again and again for more. I have the zest for vulgarisation and touching people at their own level (even if I have been trying to get away from this lately, because it is physically, emotionally and mentally very demanding). Plus I have a definite sense of business, which often is difficult to merge with teaching.

And I realised again and again and again that most the time, I teach what I am in dire needs of Learning myself. In fact, I am first of all teaching to myself - hilarious and paradoxal isn't it?

I see some of what you told us as yourself telling yourself as well.

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But the small I wavers and sometimes I have immense anger for the human race. I get so angry with ignorance.

We all are, Bright Garlic, we are all angry. I personnally hope and somewhat I am starting to see that this will pass too, when Under the spotlights of active consciousness and Under consciousness in action, letting the emotions move through. It is after all just an emotion, like all other emotions, and it will pass, but not before having serve as a springboard to reach higher consciousness. Well, I think?!?

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Stop imposing your own isolation and help yourself ! Get help, if you need to. LIVE FULLY and not vicariously ! Embrace life. You are only young and have the world at your feet !

Bravo, you are entirely right, I had the taste to write that to Tesla many many times. I sometimes think she needs a kick to Wake up, because it is what she is used to, getting kicked around and won't listen otherwise, knowing full well that she had very few loving, tender, compassionate, patient and soul reaching encounters. She just cannot take it yet, but I decided I would refuse to be the other way with her. Bully me, fine, I will be firmed but with love, affection, compassion, patience, tenderness, all what would make her being open up to life. One day it will strike her like a thunderbolt and there will be no way back, her life will change. As mine will when hers does.

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There is no great ascension or emancipation. Greed is still greed, stupidity and ignorance are still stupidity and ignorance and the human race is still afflicted with all the same problems that it was in the mid to late 1980s and is today. Buddha complained about it 2,300 years ago, Jesus complained about it 2,000 years ago, we complain about it today and human ignorance will be there in 10,000 years. There is NO GREAT AWAKENING. Just greater delusion

We are a Young race. And yes, we are in great delusion. 10,000 years seems a lot, but it is nothing in the unfoldment of souls. A blink of an eye.
Great awakenings (plural) is in everyone one of us, individually, making then a collective. One of the delusion is thinking in human perceptions of time and human perceptions of what IT SHOULD BE. As if we could know! Slow, very slow learners we are, aren't we?

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The metaphor also contains the understanding that when alone on ones mountaintop, it is difficult but possible to achieve enlightenment - but, it is much harder to remain in that state when surrounded by the raucous and chaotic and seductive and unenlightened world.

True and false. Enlightenment on a mountaintop is achievable to those who have already put their hand in the manure and have learned to grow the most wonderful flowers out of it, creating the richest soil there is. Then the minerals being spread through evaporation reach the mountaintop for the enlightenment. To go back down to feed the earth.

WE ARE THE 7, THE 49, THE 327......

I have the taste to tell you "welcome back"!

[Deega]

Hey Bright Garlick, I want to wish you a great journey to another venue!

You've been here, you have experience sharing your wealth of knowledge in this Forum! You come out a bit frustrated, and it's really unfortunate! Now you feel it's over, and be blessed on it.

Well my friend, you have made a choice, and I wish you the best.