Losing it?

[6pounder]

i feel like im being disconnected from who i am. its like all i preach about the bad side of human beheiviour is what im becoming now... i cant really put it into words.
simple things that showed me that im losing it:
1. my ego - its kick out in every single action i make if its words or decisions.
2. i lost my kindness - i treat all who surround me like im superior to them.
3. thinking im better - ive noticed that what ever i say sounds like im tryng to proove im better then someone.
4. ive become very angry - practicly about every single thing around me.

does any one feel the same lately or had this issue and can give me an advice to figure out how to get back on my feet? any help will be highly appriciated.

[samildamach]

Switch of the news the t.v the radio.remember what u preach u become.take a break and remember to laugh and smile.yes nearly everyone here has been through this and the sence of feeling alone.does no one understand what's going on wake up,I bet that's how u feel right now

[TargeT]

Seems like a lot of angst.... lots of possible advise on this one, but what works for you only you will find.

you could try realizing that everything is exactly as it is suppose to be and all of these challenges are what you pre-arranged & are nothing you can't handle; that nothing in life happens with out a purpose & your job isn't to struggle, just find that purpose.

You could be thankful that your ego keeps you rooted in individualism so you can fully experience this reality (just be cognoscente of it's influence, once you've practiced avoiding taking action on what ego prompts you to do you'll find it's easier the next time, and the next time.. practice makes perfect!)

in other words.... Our (your) reality is completely dependent on your perspective, on how you interpret the data you receive; maybe you are trying to tell your self something. Are you living too dissonant a life style (moral ideals and life style not lining up, or some similar situation)?

there's probably a year or relevant context that is missing here... can you give anymore?

[genevieve]

6pounder--

Yes, I've been there, off and on for about six years.

Here's what worked/works for me: After hearing someone say something I deem incredibly stupid or ignorant, I shift my focus to my heart for about five seconds before I speak. It really helps. I've learned patience. I still have friends.

Best wishes to you.

Peace Love Joy & Harmony,
genevieve

[RunningDeer]

Don’t be to hard on yourself. You’re honing into an awareness of the voice that believes all ‘should’ be in balance to HIS liking. (ego)

Higher Self reminds, “Let’s play and feel the solace that was momentarily forgotten. No need for controls or to control others. Let them be them. They’ll figure it out when they’ve had enough.”

In addition, do a self-check to see if you are picking up on energy that abounds and labeling it as your own. If that’s the case then one suggestion is a statement of non-consent by Eric Raines a.k.a Eric Pilgrim : “What’s mine is mine and what’s yours is yours. This is my energy, give it back. This is your energy, here you go.”

6pounder, I admire your recognition and decision to get to the to the bottom of it rather than blame others and/or hide in the poor victim game.

I know you know the above. Sometimes it helps to hear in another’s voice.

Peace,
RunningDeer

What do I do to center? I visit with my pigeon friends. (among other things)

Pigeon Medicine

Source: https://youtube.com/watch?v=sKd4IkDB4Kk

[6pounder]

thanks alot guys that gives me alot of clearance. if noticed that my mouth is what making all the truble. i cant control on what is coming out of it towards whats happening around me. i defenetly should take a few moments and "digest" what im about to say. im being automatic with all of what is coming out of me and i dont like it. ill practice being silent and let things be as they are without thinking of myself as being responsible to change the situation towords my liking.

[Matthew]

Good share. Roughly similar for me going back two weeks. I rose and I fell. Now I've fallen I can rise again.

I'm not so angry now.. I was more angry feeling than I usual feel. I figured out what my voice needed to say for my situation and managed to say it.

I think I have gained a little foresight and possibly wisdom, and it's uncomfortable because now I'm not as in denial. The words I usually say as a reflex action no longer fit. It is irritating as I need to think about things I usually take for granted. Perhaps irritating like as it is for creatures that shead their skin. Best of success 6pounder with this transition.

[giovonni]

Posted by 6pounder (here)
i feel like im being disconnected from who i am. its like all i preach about the bad side of human beheiviour is what im becoming now... i cant really put it into words.
simple things that showed me that im losing it:
1. my ego - its kick out in every single action i make if its words or decisions.
2. i lost my kindness - i treat all who surround me like im superior to them.
3. thinking im better - ive noticed that what ever i say sounds like im tryng to proove im better then someone.
4. ive become very angry - practicly about every single thing around me.

does any one feel the same lately or had this issue and can give me an advice to figure out how to get back on my feet? any help will be highly appriciated.

When i was your age, i was working in an emergency room dept, everyday was a reminder to me how fortunate I truly was ... Practice listening more instead of talking ... Smile more ... Nothing is more reassuring to other humans than seeing a vibrant young smile emulating at them ... Find something to do that might lesson the self importance of yourself and then give until it hurts ... And finally practice humility ...

ie example from another your age ...

At age 25, in 2002, I was the top salesperson in the country for Radio Disney. I was making great money. I was productive, successful and confident.

I was also cocky, arrogant, and disliked. I was downright unlikeable.

A year later, I appeared on national TV on the reality show Paradise Hotel, and promptly drank too much and totally humiliated myself in front of millions of people.

It took humiliation in order to teach me the virtue of humility. The thing is, no matter how smart, successful, good-looking or special you are, nobody likes a bragger. Nobody likes arrogance. Nobody likes cockiness.

It's really important to practice humility, to develop into a better leader and a better person. Humility and vulnerability make us more likeable. I have a long way to go still, but each day I remind myself just how small I am in the amazing, wondrous world around me, and that helps me to stay humble. Time with my kids, who don't care about my business success but just want to spend time with me- helps me to stay humble.

PS ~ I have found working/being with animals keeps me centered and in balance ...

[RunningDeer]

Traveler's Journey

Source: https://youtube.com/watch?v=jZ9Pt6UdCHs

Silence is the Thread

Source: https://youtube.com/watch?v=efWUG9QnfDg

Change Your Thoughts

Source: https://youtube.com/watch?v=f16Xj8CWFrg

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[dawnawakeningfreespirit]

Something worth looking into is vipassana meditation. A 10 day course. It is donation/free or you can serve, centres are located all over the globe and it is not of any particular religion. This is a gift to humankind to unplug, learn to meditate and bring yourself back into balance. Look it up, if it resonates go for it. I promise you, you will not regret it and will learn techniques to get you through this world. Be well

[Limor Wolf]

Posted by 6pounder (here)
i feel like im being disconnected from who i am. its like all i preach about the bad side of human beheiviour is what im becoming now... i cant really put it into words.
simple things that showed me that im losing it:
1. my ego - its kick out in every single action i make if its words or decisions.
2. i lost my kindness - i treat all who surround me like im superior to them.
3. thinking im better - ive noticed that what ever i say sounds like im tryng to proove im better then someone.
4. ive become very angry - practicly about every single thing around me.

does any one feel the same lately or had this issue and can give me an advice to figure out how to get back on my feet? any help will be highly appriciated.

Hi 6pounder, Things seems to be coming to scrutiny for you, a result of the period of the unique time we are in which floods whatever it is that needs to come up, quite a bit of intensive energy, but you seem to have catched the ball and do very well by observing, sensing and thinking - 'is that me?', 'is that what I want to be?'

And by that you have won half way. Now, if you take a look at those tendencies, and if you feel that something of it perheps may not serve you well, here is an interesting work for you. Some small steps taken, stopping before reacting, consciously changing your response. It's fun to excercise really (if it wasn't so intense..), and when small changes are made and small reaction replaced, then you have conquered those 'demons'. And most importantly, be forgiving to yourself, you seem to have some good awarness at your bag of tools which is really precious ~

Good luck!

Limor

[onawah]

I think for some people, myself included, those symptoms come along with waking up and becoming aware of how easily people are deluded by TPTB, and of how afraid most are to join us and begin to see the truth.
What helps me is to remember that I was once the same and waking up was a lengthy and very painful process, during which I lost hope and faith in pretty much everything I had formerly believed in (though much of that was later restored, only in a more grounded and sensible way).
I also think that there are Archons who really don't want us to wake up, and persistently persecute us for doing so by whatever energetic means they have at their disposal, which are considerable, since they thrive on fear and hate and there is plenty of that to go around on the planet presently.
If you give yourself credit for having had the courage and intelligence to open your eyes, and forgive others for not having the same temerity...the time will come when they will no longer be able to hide, and when it does, the awake ones will be there to help them get over the worst, just as there have been awake ones helping us all along the way...
...And it will not all have been in vain...

[greybeard]

Posted by 6pounder (here)
i feel like im being disconnected from who i am. its like all i preach about the bad side of human beheiviour is what im becoming now... i cant really put it into words.
simple things that showed me that im losing it:
1. my ego - its kick out in every single action i make if its words or decisions.
2. i lost my kindness - i treat all who surround me like im superior to them.
3. thinking im better - ive noticed that what ever i say sounds like im tryng to proove im better then someone.
4. ive become very angry - practicly about every single thing around me.

does any one feel the same lately or had this issue and can give me an advice to figure out how to get back on my feet? any help will be highly appriciated.

6pounder been there and could still get into that mode.
You are not your thoughts--you did not invite them, you don’t have to buy into them, or act out what comes up.
The moment you get these kind of experiences know that you are winning, you are transcending ego and it is putting up quite a fight.
This stage of your spiritual evolution will pass--then comes a quiet time--what you are currently experiencing will go and come back but it is getting weaker each time.
Kindness comes and goes---compassion will arise when it is required.
Anger arises and dissipates.
The last resort of the ego is to claim specialness--so really you are winning.
As the saying goes "This too shall pass"

Love Chris

[WhiteLove]

6pounder, this might seem bad or wrong to you about what's going on in your consciousness, but I have noticed that things are accelerating really quickly now. During the last week or so things have really accelerated forward even beyond what I have expected. My prediction of the stock markets doing a final suck until it blows like a balloon seems to come true. Every day now I am becoming more and more certain that yes, the markets are going to crash very hard later this year and it's going to be a very cleansing process in many ways. We are heading right into the eye of the storm and we need to, because the false has to untangle from our consciousness, so that we can become who we really are and so that we can harmonize with nature towards the fulfillment of God's grand miracle.

As we are now accelerating forward I encourage you to not judge the "seemingly negative" things that are going on, as things that are there in your life to cause you long term damage, instead re-consider that idea - what is now happening is really what needs to happen, that what is going on only appears negative on the surface but is actually there to support you forward towards not only being in truth but also telling you what is not true, so that you can know that what is now going on serves to make your consciousness more clear and to make you discover new perspectives on things that you never thought of before, totally new things.

So the recipe is to be yourself, to give negative thoughts of what's going on a chance to be observed from more positive perspectives, to understand that we are going through a consciousness acceleration process, that you are infinitely supported by an unconditionally loving God and that in your own soul steps that are truly you, you will find peace and you will find a soft pillow in those foot steps that are there to protect you and to inform you about who you really are as you are now accelerating through this time of positive must-happen change.

Essentially I want to encourage you that you are infinitely important in creation, that you exist in a creation that is infinitely miraculous, that you are here to discover who you are and that you are supported in an accelerated way on this soul journey. We are all in this together and it has been orchestrated by very light density beings so that we can experience more of who we really are, who our soulmate really is and what creation really is. Because those are some of the limitations that are very active in our consciousness, that we are now learning to untangle before we move on to a higher level of consciousness.

The reason why we ARE waking up, why we ARE in an awakening process, is because nature accelerates, we think it's constant, but everything accelerates including our consciousness. Therefore the rate of change is picking up, in every way. And it is to our benefit, because creation is not there to cause us harm, that's not how God is. God is infinitely miraculous and that it is this grand miracle that we are now witnessing.

[Jayren]

You are awake, if you can feel this then i know i am not alone either. Slow down. You have good intentions but what the world has shown you is not what you'd like. Im glad you are being honest.

I have some of these traits but i dont do it intentionally i try to share my knowledge as i know i am equal as to everything else. You're not really preaching, you are telling the truth and most likely you pick up on aggression because people are aggresive to you and its like sometimes you dont even know where it comes from. Best thing i can tell you is dont take **** from nobody and have respect for everybody, respect goes a long way not just for humans but all of creation.

[Sierra]

Posted by 6pounder (here)
thanks alot guys that gives me alot of clearance. if noticed that my mouth is what making all the truble. i cant control on what is coming out of it towards whats happening around me. i defenetly should take a few moments and "digest" what im about to say. im being automatic with all of what is coming out of me and i dont like it. ill practice being silent and let things be as they are without thinking of myself as being responsible to change the situation towords my liking.

I've heard Mars is retrograde in Scorpio for the next six months. That'll do it...

Makes for hair triggered responses.

When my back went out, I was shocked to find what I thought was my good character was only good health. It is a real struggle at first to do what one has to do in the face of adversity to be as "good" as one used to be.

Two steps forward, one step back, we lurch along.

[Matt P]

Posted by 6pounder (here)
i feel like im being disconnected from who i am. its like all i preach about the bad side of human beheiviour is what im becoming now... i cant really put it into words.
simple things that showed me that im losing it:
1. my ego - its kick out in every single action i make if its words or decisions.
2. i lost my kindness - i treat all who surround me like im superior to them.
3. thinking im better - ive noticed that what ever i say sounds like im tryng to proove im better then someone.
4. ive become very angry - practicly about every single thing around me.

does any one feel the same lately or had this issue and can give me an advice to figure out how to get back on my feet? any help will be highly appriciated.

These are all your choice. Now that you recognize them (hardest part out of the way), make a new choice.

Matt

[RunningDeer]

Helpful repost of Mars retrograde:

I dug up some timely reminders. I’m feeling ‘stuff’. Apologies if this comes across as programing anyone. I file it under 'knowledge'.

What to expect? Irritation, frustration and excess energy in self and/or others. The good news is it’s sparks reevaluation, revelation and transparency in self and the world at large.



Heads up. Knowledge brings clarity and understanding or is it forewarned is forearmed? Coming in February is an atypical situation where there’s a Mars retrograde shadow period for six months. Usually, Mars moves from sign to sign in six to eight weeks.

Mars in 2016

Source: https://youtube.com/watch?v=MDCw-kZOerA

Uranus in 2016, by Steve Judd Astrology. Something for everybody. Uranus is about change. Allow change to flow through your life. Uranus is in Aries is here for the entire year and it represents a beacon of hope. It fosters self empowerment for individuals over the coming year.

Source: https://youtube.com/watch?v=tUynocuvP9I

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[enfoldedblue]

Hi,
I think for many of us the initial stages of awakening are often mental in nature. But if we limit ourselves to the mental realm we naturally will experience the exact things you describe. I suspect that what might be happening is that you are on the precipice of a heart awakening. The mind is the realm of the ego. The heart is the realm of oneness. When we shift from a mind dominated perspective to a heart based one qualities like kindness, humbleness and love of self and others comes to the front.
The fact that you recognize that this is occurring and want to change is awesome and a sure indication that you are on the right track!

[seah]

Posted by 6pounder (here)
i feel like im being disconnected from who i am. its like all i preach about the bad side of human beheiviour is what im becoming now... i cant really put it into words.
simple things that showed me that im losing it:
1. my ego - its kick out in every single action i make if its words or decisions.
2. i lost my kindness - i treat all who surround me like im superior to them.
3. thinking im better - ive noticed that what ever i say sounds like im tryng to proove im better then someone.
4. ive become very angry - practicly about every single thing around me.

does any one feel the same lately or had this issue and can give me an advice to figure out how to get back on my feet? any help will be highly appriciated.

hey, 6pounder, this is a very natural reaction for an ego at risk of being diminished. You are on the right track. When the ego feels irrelevant, it inflates itself by any way it can. It will use the very attributes that sets you apart from the pack to reestablish it's power over you. To get it back under control you just need awareness. Watch what it does to gain sustenance, watch it like a hawk, and do the opposite of what it wants.