Cutting/ Self-harm

[jaybee]

Posted by AngelEyes (here)
you know I did a positive affirmation today before I went to work. I wrote down my intentions for the day which of course was loving and positive and then I burned it! had a great day all day today!

I'ts good to hear that you had a great day...


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[greybeard]

Posted by AngelEyes (here)

Posted by greybeard (here)
Angel Eyes
I think it is important to get professional help and there are possibly self help groups in your area which you could get directed to.
Talking to others with similar feelings is important.

Having been through--nobody loves or understands me, to the point of being suicidal. I am well aware of the help a group can give.
In my case it was AA and that saved my life and turned it around.

Sharing here is a good start but you possibly need to be with others who have been through self harming and come out the other side.

Much love
Chris

Yeah I am unsure if my insurance will cover it?! :'( I very rarely go to the doctor because I am hardly ever sick so I never meet my deductible so I always have to pay out of pocket because insurance will pick anything up :/

Hi AngelEyes
Self help groups are free.
Glad you had a good day--first of many
Your day, one day at a time can start any time you decide.

Much love to you
Chris

[silverfish]

Hi angeleyes
Wondered if this was something that you might like to try ,working with paint ,clay . .Allowing these feelings and emotions a clear passage into expression .it feels lile something desperately needs to be expressed. Sorry I keep saying expressed but this is what's coming to my mind .
If you clear yourself a space make sure you're not going to be disturbed, get some paper or some clay (even mud from the garden ) what ever feels right at the time. Stand and go into your self, into your being and decide what your iintention is .. ( to know the source of your pain ? To know who you are ? To be free to express your self..) then slowly start to make marks on the paper . observe the feelings that you hold in your body . just be the watcher . do not judge yourself or your feelings just let these parts of yourself arise and express themselves here in this safe space you have created . This is not about creating a picture or art in that sense it is about allowing something that is internal to be external , to be expressed ,to be seen . what comes up can be quite uncomfortable so take your time. if you need to take a break do so but stay near your work . Take time to look at what has come forward step back so you can look at it from a distance . keep checking into your body ,what is coming up fear ,anger, strength ? Do you need to make more marks ? is it finished ?You might go through many sheets of paper or just keep going until you feel it is time to stop .
I hope this is clear enough and hope it is of some use if you try it . pm me if its not clear .
There is also a wonderful book called ' Art is a way of knowing ' by Pat B Allen which I highly. recommend.

Wishing you strength and love on your journey
silver

[RunningDeer]

I am slowly making some progress which is better than no progress at all

Yay that you’re making progress, AngelEyes. I’ve found the more I clean out the emotional gunk, the anchors, the traumas, and the false beliefs about myself and the world, the more I hear the guidance from my higher self which is a part of Source or a direct line to Source.

I prefer the direct line because in the past I’ve been duped into believing guides were there for me. When in reality they were astral tricksters that benefited from me in worry, fear, grief or sadness. I’d get just enough pick me up from them to keep me off their true intentions, such as manic/false/manufactured joy and bliss.

It takes vigilance and honesty and acceptance of my ‘perceived’ imperfections which as it turns out are guide posts of beliefs that need a redo or in most cases chucked out. I’ve learned, I’m my own worst critic. Which is the good news. I have 100% power to change it. And anyone that is not in alignment of me living the peace and love I’m come here to experience is not welcomed. No friendenemies allowed. (astral nor human)

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Enjoy your day, AngelEyes.

RunningDeer ♡

[betoobig]

i love your new avatar, heads up brave lady... you allready sound/write and look better. don't forget to smile, please.
much love sister

[kirolak]

So glad you are doing better! BTW when I had the problem with my daughter, one of the very kind souls here sent me several long and very helpful articles on dealing with the temptation to cut oneself. If you can read spanish I will, with her prior permission, forward them to you if you like?

[Jules]

I have bouts with depression and battle my own demons. It sounds to me like you are having archon attacks, I would recommend that you please research the subject. I know it is horrible going through these times, it is a spiritual issue. Please know that time will pass as will the attacks, and if you can do so, do your best to resist these urges. Please know that you are not alone, and we do care about you. Please don't feed the archons.

[Constance]

Hello AngelEyes,

I am so very glad that you had a better day dearest one

As Greybeard said, there are lots of free support groups available.

If you take a look around now at what is out there locally whilst you are feeling better, you may find yourself connecting with someone who can be your phone-a-buddy.
Most of the time we forget about all the things we can do when we are in a downward spiral and a buddy helps to remind you of all that you need to do to get yourself back in a good space again.

And of course, there is everyone here

I stand behind RunningDeer with her comments about your higher self.

Have a conscious connection with Source. What I mean by this is that you imagine that you are standing before source constantly. and this is where you anchor yourself permanently.
I'm not sure if you are aware of this but there is a connection between the optic nerve and the higher self. Looking slightly upwards and inwards, will help to maintain a conscious connection.

Your future self is always beckoning you on, so keep on going within because that whispering in your ears is the guidance you need.

I would also heartily recommend and encourage you to take a look at Stig Severinsen's work on the breath.

The breath can be one of the best tools in your toolkit. When we breathe from our lower belly all is good with the world.

Here is a little TedTalk he did recently that is practical and loving.
Stig says that when we can control our breathing, we can control our mind. I have found it to be very true.

Source: https://youtube.com/watch?v=L9c7tkljd3A

with many big earth hugs to you

[kirolak]

AngelEyes dear, please check your pms, I've forwarded the skills that the wonderful member Noir sent me for my daughter - sort of emergency tips! I wanted my daughter to participate in this thread, which is why I was perhaps a bit odd in my responses, but she won't. At least she has stopped cutting herself, as I mentioned (although now she has turned her attention to her once long, lovely hair & has chopped it off like a boy - ah well, it's her hair, as she says. . .) Be well, be happy, be the beautiful woman that you are!

[AngelEyes]

Thank you all for all the loving replies! I am doing alot better and especially since yesterday with all this energy in the world and all over the globe I feel REALLY ALIVE and FULL OF LIFE!!!! my forearm itches pretty bad because its healing and i am sure I will have scarring from it but its okay. learning experience. I plan on spending time with my family this weekend to get out of the house for a little while and hopefully see the tail end of this taurid meteor shower. Theres a local lake where my folks live I can go out there and sit by the water in the dark without anyone bothering me and thats what I plan on doing this weekend!

Thanks again everyone!

I love you all!!! <3

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Posted by kirolak (here)
AngelEyes dear, please check your pms, I've forwarded the skills that the wonderful member Noir sent me for my daughter - sort of emergency tips! I wanted my daughter to participate in this thread, which is why I was perhaps a bit odd in my responses, but she won't. At least she has stopped cutting herself, as I mentioned (although now she has turned her attention to her once long, lovely hair & has chopped it off like a boy - ah well, it's her hair, as she says. . .) Be well, be happy, be the beautiful woman that you are!

Thankyou so much!!!! <3 <3 for all your messages!

[AngelEyes]

Posted by kirolak (here)
AngelEyes dear, please check your pms, I've forwarded the skills that the wonderful member Noir sent me for my daughter - sort of emergency tips! I wanted my daughter to participate in this thread, which is why I was perhaps a bit odd in my responses, but she won't. At least she has stopped cutting herself, as I mentioned (although now she has turned her attention to her once long, lovely hair & has chopped it off like a boy - ah well, it's her hair, as she says. . .) Be well, be happy, be the beautiful woman that you are!

Sending yall my light and love to you today!!! thank you so much you and everyone for the awesome support! tell her to rock that short hair!!!!

[AngelEyes]

Posted by silverfish (here)
Hi angeleyes
Wondered if this was something that you might like to try ,working with paint ,clay . .Allowing these feelings and emotions a clear passage into expression .it feels lile something desperately needs to be expressed. Sorry I keep saying expressed but this is what's coming to my mind .
If you clear yourself a space make sure you're not going to be disturbed, get some paper or some clay (even mud from the garden ) what ever feels right at the time. Stand and go into your self, into your being and decide what your iintention is .. ( to know the source of your pain ? To know who you are ? To be free to express your self..) then slowly start to make marks on the paper . observe the feelings that you hold in your body . just be the watcher . do not judge yourself or your feelings just let these parts of yourself arise and express themselves here in this safe space you have created . This is not about creating a picture or art in that sense it is about allowing something that is internal to be external , to be expressed ,to be seen . what comes up can be quite uncomfortable so take your time. if you need to take a break do so but stay near your work . Take time to look at what has come forward step back so you can look at it from a distance . keep checking into your body ,what is coming up fear ,anger, strength ? Do you need to make more marks ? is it finished ?You might go through many sheets of paper or just keep going until you feel it is time to stop .
I hope this is clear enough and hope it is of some use if you try it . pm me if its not clear .
There is also a wonderful book called ' Art is a way of knowing ' by Pat B Allen which I highly. recommend.

Wishing you strength and love on your journey
silver

I have actually bought some crafting tools one of them is a wood burner! I am really excited about it and I feel it will be therapeutic for me so I wont resort to cutting myself to pieces! <3

[silverfish]

Posted by AngelEyes (here)

Posted by silverfish (here)
Hi angeleyes
Wondered if this was something that you might like to try ,working with paint ,clay . .Allowing these feelings and emotions a clear passage into expression .it feels lile something desperately needs to be expressed. Sorry I keep saying expressed but this is what's coming to my mind .
If you clear yourself a space make sure you're not going to be disturbed, get some paper or some clay (even mud from the garden ) what ever feels right at the time. Stand and go into your self, into your being and decide what your iintention is .. ( to know the source of your pain ? To know who you are ? To be free to express your self..) then slowly start to make marks on the paper . observe the feelings that you hold in your body . just be the watcher . do not judge yourself or your feelings just let these parts of yourself arise and express themselves here in this safe space you have created . This is not about creating a picture or art in that sense it is about allowing something that is internal to be external , to be expressed ,to be seen . what comes up can be quite uncomfortable so take your time. if you need to take a break do so but stay near your work . Take time to look at what has come forward step back so you can look at it from a distance . keep checking into your body ,what is coming up fear ,anger, strength ? Do you need to make more marks ? is it finished ?You might go through many sheets of paper or just keep going until you feel it is time to stop .
I hope this is clear enough and hope it is of some use if you try it . pm me if its not clear .
There is also a wonderful book called ' Art is a way of knowing ' by Pat B Allen which I highly. recommend.

Wishing you strength and love on your journey
silver

I have actually bought some crafting tools one of them is a wood burner! I am really excited about it and I feel it will be therapeutic for me so I wont resort to cutting myself to pieces! <3

sounds great ! be free angeleyes x

[AngelEyes]

Posted by kirolak (here)
So glad you are doing better! BTW when I had the problem with my daughter, one of the very kind souls here sent me several long and very helpful articles on dealing with the temptation to cut oneself. If you can read spanish I will, with her prior permission, forward them to you if you like?

that would be nice. I cant read spanish I have just been using a translator

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Posted by silverfish (here)

Posted by AngelEyes (here)

Posted by silverfish (here)
Hi angeleyes
Wondered if this was something that you might like to try ,working with paint ,clay . .Allowing these feelings and emotions a clear passage into expression .it feels lile something desperately needs to be expressed. Sorry I keep saying expressed but this is what's coming to my mind .
If you clear yourself a space make sure you're not going to be disturbed, get some paper or some clay (even mud from the garden ) what ever feels right at the time. Stand and go into your self, into your being and decide what your iintention is .. ( to know the source of your pain ? To know who you are ? To be free to express your self..) then slowly start to make marks on the paper . observe the feelings that you hold in your body . just be the watcher . do not judge yourself or your feelings just let these parts of yourself arise and express themselves here in this safe space you have created . This is not about creating a picture or art in that sense it is about allowing something that is internal to be external , to be expressed ,to be seen . what comes up can be quite uncomfortable so take your time. if you need to take a break do so but stay near your work . Take time to look at what has come forward step back so you can look at it from a distance . keep checking into your body ,what is coming up fear ,anger, strength ? Do you need to make more marks ? is it finished ?You might go through many sheets of paper or just keep going until you feel it is time to stop .
I hope this is clear enough and hope it is of some use if you try it . pm me if its not clear .
There is also a wonderful book called ' Art is a way of knowing ' by Pat B Allen which I highly. recommend.

Wishing you strength and love on your journey
silver

I have actually bought some crafting tools one of them is a wood burner! I am really excited about it and I feel it will be therapeutic for me so I wont resort to cutting myself to pieces! <3

sounds great ! be free angeleyes x

That's what I am trying to do is free myself from the negativeness

[betoobig]

Hi ANgeleyes, try to embrace negativity... try to have a second before acting or feeling when a negative tought comes... in that very second you can choose to change your focus to a positive thought thus transmuting negativity. You are not your thoughts. You are a beutiful being in a rush moment, blessings to you.You sound just great now.
I´ve been trying to put this proccess toghether for 2 days, thanks you helped me. I just needed some inspiration.
Much Love

[silverfish]

Hi angeleyes
Allow the "negativity" to dance out on to the paper /wood .see what it looks like .
Maybe it will stomp ,gouge or tear at the paper/wood or it might just flow.. Allow. your body to release it out there into being rather than back in .It has something it wants to say
This is just an exercise to try to see more of ourselves. the places that maybe we don't know or hide from our self .
This is one of the ways that has helped me with my personal process but there are many ways and you have a lot of support here to hopefully strengthen you on your journey.
Much strength and love x

[AngelEyes]

Posted by silverfish (here)
Hi angeleyes
Allow the "negativity" to dance out on to the paper /wood .see what it looks like .
Maybe it will stomp ,gouge or tear at the paper/wood or it might just flow.. Allow. your body to release it out there into being rather than back in .It has something it wants to say
This is just an exercise to try to see more of ourselves. the places that maybe we don't know or hide from our self .
This is one of the ways that has helped me with my personal process but there are many ways and you have a lot of support here to hopefully strengthen you on your journey.
Much strength and love x

Thank you silverfish.......this morning I am having a rough time but I am not cutting myself.......just crying it out and letting it all out hopefully wont come back. just really disgusted with my body today :'(.

[silverfish]

Hi angel eyes sorry to hear things are rough . remember you are held in the love of the divine perfect as you are .

[betoobig]

My dear, give this a chance:

Source: https://youtube.com/watch?v=zQHv75ahYDQ

Love

[Sierra]

Posted by AngelEyes (here)

Posted by silverfish (here)
Hi angeleyes
Allow the "negativity" to dance out on to the paper /wood .see what it looks like .
Maybe it will stomp ,gouge or tear at the paper/wood or it might just flow.. Allow. your body to release it out there into being rather than back in .It has something it wants to say
This is just an exercise to try to see more of ourselves. the places that maybe we don't know or hide from our self .
This is one of the ways that has helped me with my personal process but there are many ways and you have a lot of support here to hopefully strengthen you on your journey.
Much strength and love x

Thank you silverfish.......this morning I am having a rough time but I am not cutting myself.......just crying it out and letting it all out hopefully wont come back. just really disgusted with my body today :'(.

Oh dear... Meat suits can be so irritating, so judgmental, so obsessive... It doesn't stop even when one is an old lady, I mean, c'mon!

I have a friend who is a Tibetan Buddhist, and her mentor/guru from Bhutan, says weight or appearance does not matter, it is just a temporary vehicle used to learn and evolve, which is NOT what the meat suit does.

Ever since I heard that, I've slowly come to accept decrepitude, and the wasting of the vehicle can ALSO allow the spirit to shine through clearly.

So, I'm industriously polishing my spirit as best I can between having temper tantrums that I'm a worse klutz than ever...

It was here, on Avalon, on the Here & Now thread that I realized for the first time that I loved myself. What a difference it makes. I dearly want you to love yourself too.

Joining Breal in ho' oponoopono...