Posted by Violet
(here)
That trip back in time sounded very profound, Ulli. There's a fountain in Vienna with a Poseidon (like) figure holding a trident. Nearby the mausoleum. The Donnerbrunnen. One of the alleys leading to this square is a somewhat steeply asc-/descending street, it looks a bit like your last picture, as does the Antwerp Cathedral entourage. Enjoying a drink
....while watching the masons at work
Freud says that unintentional forgetting isn't really unintentional. Your subconscious doesn't want you to remember. He found connections between the thing forgotten and painful, repressed memories. Sometimes as simple as a last name or a word missing in a poetry recitation, one discovery leads to another. It seems this is all becoming easier for me to do now with the 12th house activation. I'm ready to close the circle, looking back. If you are ready, and you allow it, the pain comes back briefly, and somehow it's liberating. I don't remember the details of the man who lured me to come behind the trees in the park that now no longer exists. He was old. It was raining and the streets were empty. He stood behind me and held me in a tight fixed grip. I remember there was a struggle. I escaped but I don't remember how. I never forgot that event, it was just not that important. I escaped, nothing happened, moving on. Or was it? I don't know. I don't really know, now, looking back, if it was really that meaningless with regards to the aftermath. The more I accept that it wasn't so meaningless, the more I remember about how I felt in that moment. And obviously I felt scared, I knew that if I wasn't going to get away from that man, I was a lost case. And I felt that my chances were so small, because I was just a kid, and he was a grown man. And because of the bad weather, there was no one out there to see or help me. I had to do this by myself. That's what I remember, now. But before now, it was 'just' something that luckily didn't end badly.
The best of positive energies from me to señor Ulli. For a full recovery.
Paula, a q about the graphics,...for the younger audience and/or sensitive souls...They're quite...graphic. Maybe it should have a warning?