Thank you guys, thank you Bill, thank you ALL! for taking the time out of your day to reply to what I suppose was a bit of a cry for help. I am not really depressed, perhaps tired of things, and a little disillusioned. And also worried, for personal reasons. This has been a tough, tough year. Even as I write this, my dear brother, a wonderful human being, is fighting for his life in hospital. He has an acute and dangerous strain of pneumonia. Any prayer you can ask, or energy you can send, would be so very deeply and lovingly appreciated!
This is such an amazing place, it really is. Avalon isn't just a resource, a library or a discussion forum, it's actually a family. That's what I think it really is. And I feel blessed and privileged to be part of it.
Many thanks for that! It helped. When I say go home, I'm not sure I know what I mean, because I’m not sure where, or what, home is...Posted by justntime2learn (here)
The following video is helpful for me when I'm screaming inside to go home. Hope it helps! Much Love Star M.
Source: https://youtube.com/watch?v=Ut3Jn-cANMk
Thanks Bill, you're right of course. Earth has many times before suffered these disasters, some natural, some man-made I am sure. The Atlantean upheaval is one such example - and one I feel is very important for humankind to remember, because we are not a million miles away from the exact same (dangerous) place as the Atlanteans were all those thousands of years ago. I know it, and I feel it, that they destroyed themselves (not a natural disaster), through avarice, corruption, and 'playing with fire'. This is what 'those upstairs' are so anxious to prevent from happening again, because it was such a devastating waste, what the Atlanteans were, what they created, and what they ultimately lost. So much progress, goodness, and wisdom went up in smoke - at least partially. I have something of the Atlantean memory in my soul, I feel it but I do not remember any details. But I'm convinced that something was saved in the disaster, and preserved by survivors that fled far away and underground. I think they survive to this day, a hidden civilization still underground.
I think you're right also (in fact I'm convinced of it), that we have averted (or risen above) the worst case scenario disasters that many in the past predicted (and like yourself actually shown). I've been shown things too, and they were consistent with what Henry Deacon stated. The future was only a potential future; ultimately everything was down to humanity, and which way it wanted to go. Growing up I felt, believed, perhaps intuitively knew somehow, that the crunch, for whatever reason, would happen in the future year of 1995. A crossroads would be reached, and a tipping point, in 1995. I was always afraid of that year, fearing what would happen. Thank God nothing did. We pushed past it intact. That's not to say other disasters and calamities would not occur down the road, but the threat of (complete) annihilation on perhaps a planetary scale receded in its potential year by year after that. I also felt if we could also pass beyond 2012 in one piece, then we really would be on the road to not just survival, but greatness. I had just hoped that by now (2016) something would have happened, that big changes would and should have occurred by now - at the very least, we would no longer be in the dark, and that tangible signs of a Greater Reality would be in evidence to all. Peace, stability, freedom, and disclosure. I feel confused and disheartened that this has not happened, that we're still in the dark, still suffering, and the world is still in such turmoil.
I remember reading this, it really is a fascinating story! With your last life ending in 1952, and this one beginning in 53' (a really quick turnaround) you were obviously very eager to jump right back in. You're definitely a man on a mission, Bill. Full respect and admiration for that...! I wish for my part that things were half as clear. I'll explain, if you can indulge me.Posted by Bill Ryan (here)
I have a kind of personal take on this, too. See this thread of mine, also, in which I report on a recall of an abduction experience from my previous life in the late 1940s. Some newer members may not know about this. It was traumatic — not the experience, but what I recalled I was shown.
A warning from benevolent ETs about our future - over 60 years ago
I have no idea who or what I am, where I'm from or why I'm here. I really have no idea at all, and in many ways I envy those who have had successful regressions, or just personal revelations, which have opened the door, even just a little, on their origins, past lives, a mere a hint of who and what they are and why they're in this life. I have never fit in anywhere; although very straight, normal, a typical Mr Average on the surface, I have always been a complete enigma to people (and to myself). I have so say I don’t much like the company of people (the regular sleeping people of the world). I don’t understand people, and in fact many frighten me.
I have had many extraordinary experiences, have witnessed many craft, been on craft (the recollections are strong, but disjointed - typical abduction scenarios), have been 'floated' out of bed, through a solid wall, and into...who knows what, all kinds of stuff. I've met and communicated with a variety of beings, virtually all these being thankfully 100% positive experiences. A couple have freaked me right out, but that's just the fragile human psyche at fault. The grey guys are mostly involved. From what I have experienced, they are very very loving, caring beings. They get a bad rap, but it's my opinion and understanding that some of them are not what they appear - the less than positive 'grey' is not the real thing. Some are not much more than robots, or automatons, and come across very cold. The 'elders', the true greys are anything but. Other grey-types are government creations, used in their own illicit programs and experiments.
I don't claim to be anyone different from anyone else, and particularly nothing special. All I do know is there is something, something in the background of my life which is going on, which I can't explain, nor fully understand. I know this because of the physical, tangible experiences which don't just suggest, but prove, that there IS something there, and it's real.
The real greys are benevolent, and working with us for our benefit. They have been here with us, watching us, helping us, for a long time. Since The Beginning. But I remember so little about my interactions with them. I know so little about what the actual reality, and purpose of it all, is. All that carries me forward is a deep inner knowingness that's it all good, it's all fine, and it's all part of the plan. The only advice I've been given is, "JUST BE". Anyone else been told this? "Don’t worry about anything, don't do anything (I've been told that I don't have to 'do' anything or be anything) - just be". It's comforting insofar that there is a plan, and that I am cared for, loved, and looked after. But it is also very frustrating that I am seemingly not allowed to 'know' anything consciously about who I am , what I am, where I am from, why I am here, or what in the wide world of wonder is actually going to happen, or is going on behind the scenes!
Twice in my life I have undergone hypno-regression to try and get to the bottom of it all, and twice it has been a complete dud. Both regressionists failed to put me under, even slightly. For one of them, it was the first time in her career such a thing had happened to her with one of her clients. There's a blockage there preventing it perhaps. Psychics and mediums don't have much luck either. I wish I had a hint, a clue, about why I am here and what I am supposed to be doing (if anything at all, apparently I'm not 'meant' to do anything) - but I suppose each and every one of us feels that way. It doesn't half make life very difficult when you don't have much of a direction or purpose, even a material one. I hate my job (I am not driven or much interested to 'do' anything, so take what humdrum drudgery I can get), don't have much money (re the crappy job), and lack the support of a partner as well (always been alone, never even had one intimate relationship in my life - I'm not dysfunctional lol, just a bit quiet and withdrawn I suppose and rarely meet new people, and I'm not driven to meet anyone or be with anyone so it's not a problem), yet sometimes it can be hard in that respect. But I am not complaining about it. It is what it is. I am what I am. I consider myself very lucky indeed, because life in my position is a piece of cake compared to so many around me, and around the world. It's just that I wish I had some sort of tangible 'reason' to be here. Even a secular reason, like a career to carry me forward toward some sort of fulfilment.
But anyway, that's my story, a bit of it anyway in a nutshell. From here I don't know where we're going, or where I'm going, or what is going to happen (or when!). I feel we're coasting through 'null time', where anything can happen. I guess what I have been feeling lately is a strong desire for something to change very soon. I feel humanity is mostly very good, actually quite wonderful. It deserves so much to get a break, after millennia of hardship and suffering. But the dross must be removed first. What I envision (long to see happen), is for the wheat to be separated from the chaff - the light from the dark, and the loving from the hateful. Let the best that humanity has to offer carry on and evolve, and thrive by itself, released from the other dark half of humankind that has subjected it to such violence, greed, ignorance and injustice for so long. A dream perhaps, but it's a nice dream to have.




