is it just me...?

[Teakai]

Posted by Ross (here)
Good thread, thank you,

You are certainly not alone. This is a very normal transition for most who endevour to ask the big questions, due to a knowing that there is something very wrong with the picture, which inevitably leads to an almost natural synchronicity of events that leads to the connection of many dots.

There are also many that 'know' somethings very different to the 'norm' who have experienced events of the esoteric kind, other beings, entities and general strange phenomenon who then also start to see the rest of the 'somethings wrong with the picture'. Once this occurs, there is no turning back...to the way it was before...

I went through lots of different emotions, one being angry, when I fully realized just how duped I had been and to the whole of humanity. I came from a generation who went through WW1, the great depression and WW2. Religion was a weekly part of my life till I was 15 yrs. So to a degree, their perception of their reality from the information they received, did naturally become part of mine, My Dad, uncle and great uncle were freemasons, great uncle was top dog, 33 degree in New Zealand so everything was very 'this is how it is'.
My persistent questioning, as a young boy to this very day has got me into a lot of trouble with opposing views and a lot of amazing realizations. It has been an experience that has made this life of mine seem far more worthwhile because of it. Before that, it was somewhat fake.

This 'in limbo' feeling, i have gone and at times still go through. It seems to me to be part of the process of 'ok, now what' which has bought me full circle to what I really knew, but didnt 'see' the importance of, as a younger man. Its all about me...Its all there is to do, to operate my being and all its wonders to the best I can acheive. When I am being honourable to my being, treating myself with respect and care and commonsense and with the knowledge of 'I have been duped and why' It is so much easier...Think of it this way, I have a computor, with all the software, some that are just b/s, leads me down a road of 'wtf' and some that are conjucive to my exsitence, of learning to be in control of my being... but now I understand I am able to uninstall or install what ever software I want. I am learning to be sovereign... For me, this journey has lead me to myself, I am the best version of Ross that has ever been, so, for all the duped-ness, the programming, emotions and the 'in limbo' I am grateful, It has shown me who I am, who I am not and who I can be.

Peace.

Hi Ross, I found your whole post to be profound, but the highlighted part struck me especially. I was only considering something like this a few days ago - this life trip with all it's twists and turns and mistakes - and there are no regrets. Every move has led me to this place, to this me.

[Teakai]

Posted by xbusymom (here)
I am currently sitting out a minor chest injury for a couple of days and felt major anxiety (that limbo feeling) about not being 'productively' at work ... and I don't usually have very emotional dreams,but had a nightmare during a daytime snooze that really rocked my soul... thats when I decided to change up my schedule for moving out to the co-op farmstead...

and ever since making the decision... i don't feel so much in limbo anymore... its weird... my guess is that the limbo feeling is really just 'us' not making a decision...

Hi Xbusymom, I don't feel as though I have a decision to make. There doesn't really seem to be anything different that I ought to be doing. My limbo feeling isn't accomodated with anxiety, more with a sense of watchful expectation.

I hope your chest injury is mended soon.

Want to share the dream?

[xbusymom]

Posted by Teakai (here)
Hi Xbusymom, I don't feel as though I have a decision to make. There doesn't really seem to be anything different that I ought to be doing. My limbo feeling isn't accomodated with anxiety, more with a sense of watchful expectation.

I hope your chest injury is mended soon.

Want to share the dream?

my dream:
I was driving a gas-fuel tanker down the road in a sort of residential area which was almost ghost-town like. The roads were broken and cracked and hap-hazardly placed (not lined up on either side of the street). On a down hill stretch- the brakes were not holding properly and I ended up crashing and rolling the rig. As I got up and left the crash scene, there was a man following me around- not saying anything but he had an expectation of some response from me. And I was trying to reach someone in authority on the walkie-talkie, (police or dispatch- I think) the man kept prompting me with his hand- alternating between bopping me on the arm and showing me the wrecked tanker, So I angrily asked him what he wanted me to do about it. I told him I could not do this anymore (that is when I broke down and cried).

I woke up and had the dream flash a second time (ran through the whole thing again) and broke down again (being awake).

My interpretation: my situation with keeping the bus driving job is going to blow up in my face very soon (it has already started to unravel with the new restrictions placed upon me for the next school year).

any other interpretations I might have missed?

[Teakai]

Posted by xbusymom (here)
my dream:
I was driving a gas-fuel tanker down the road in a sort of residential area which was almost ghost-town like. The roads were broken and cracked and hap-hazardly placed (not lined up on either side of the street). On a down hill stretch- the brakes were not holding properly and I ended up crashing and rolling the rig. As I got up and left the crash scene, there was a man following me around- not saying anything but he had an expectation of some response from me. And I was trying to reach someone in authority on the walkie-talkie, (police or dispatch- I think) the man kept prompting me with his hand- alternating between bopping me on the arm and showing me the wrecked tanker, So I angrily asked him what he wanted me to do about it. I told him I could not do this anymore (that is when I broke down and cried).

I woke up and had the dream flash a second time (ran through the whole thing again) and broke down again (being awake).

My interpretation: my situation with keeping the bus driving job is going to blow up in my face very soon (it has already started to unravel with the new restrictions placed upon me for the next school year).

any other interpretations I might have missed?

I'll have a go. I enjoy interpreting dreams.

It says to me that you are feeling a whole lot out of control (large truck turning over)and a bit useless (brakes not holding properly) and that things aren't at all normal (broken cracked streets) and you don't like it at all. You feel that the burden or pressure is on your shoulders alone (ghost town) and there's people who are relying on you or expecting things from you (man following you around and acting expectantly) and you are feeling overwhelmed and helpless ( rolling the truck, downhill run) and would really love to be able to pass on some of the load/responsibilty (trying to call someone in authority on walkie talkie)

I don't know how this rings for you, Xbusymom, but that's just what I see when I read it.

[HORIZONS]

Thanks Ross - this is a very good insight.

Posted by Ross (here)
Good thread, thank you,

You are certainly not alone. This is a very normal transition for most who endevour to ask the big questions, due to a knowing that there is something very wrong with the picture, which inevitably leads to an almost natural synchronicity of events that leads to the connection of many dots.

There are also many that 'know' somethings very different to the 'norm' who have experienced events of the esoteric kind, other beings, entities and general strange phenomenon who then also start to see the rest of the 'somethings wrong with the picture'. Once this occurs, there is no turning back...to the way it was before...

I went through lots of different emotions, one being angry, when I fully realized just how duped I had been and to the whole of humanity. I came from a generation who went through WW1, the great depression and WW2. Religion was a weekly part of my life till I was 15 yrs. So to a degree, their perception of their reality from the information they received, did naturally become part of mine, My Dad, uncle and great uncle were freemasons, great uncle was top dog, 33 degree in New Zealand so everything was very 'this is how it is'.
My persistent questioning, as a young boy to this very day has got me into a lot of trouble with opposing views and a lot of amazing realizations. It has been an experience that has made this life of mine seem far more worthwhile because of it. Before that, it was somewhat fake.

This 'in limbo' feeling, i have gone and at times still go through. It seems to me to be part of the process of 'ok, now what' which has bought me full circle to what I really knew, but didnt 'see' the importance of, as a younger man. Its all about me...Its all there is to do, to operate my being and all its wonders to the best I can acheive. When I am being honourable to my being, treating myself with respect and care and commonsense and with the knowledge of 'I have been duped and why' It is so much easier...Think of it this way, I have a computor, with all the software, some that are just b/s, leads me down a road of 'wtf' and some that are conjucive to my exsitence, of learning to be in control of my being... but now I understand I am able to uninstall or install what ever software I want. I am learning to be sovereign... For me, this journey has lead me to myself, I am the best version of Ross that has ever been, so, for all the duped-ness, the programming, emotions and the 'in limbo' I am grateful, It has shown me who I am, who I am not and who I can be.

Peace.

[xbusymom]

Posted by Teakai (here)
I'll have a go. I enjoy interpreting dreams.

It says to me that you are feeling a whole lot out of control (large truck turning over)and a bit useless (brakes not holding properly) and that things aren't at all normal (broken cracked streets) and you don't like it at all. You feel that the burden or pressure is on your shoulders alone (ghost town) and there's people who are relying on you or expecting things from you (man following you around and acting expectantly) and you are feeling overwhelmed and helpless ( rolling the truck, downhill run) and would really love to be able to pass on some of the load/responsibilty (trying to call someone in authority on walkie talkie)

I don't know how this rings for you, Xbusymom, but that's just what I see when I read it.

yes, wow... so that reading of the dream speaks of the bigger life picture also , not just to the current crossroads situation...

dimensions within dimensions... thanks

[Teakai]

Posted by xbusymom (here)
yes, wow... so that reading of the dream speaks of the bigger life picture also , not just to the current crossroads situation...

dimensions within dimensions... thanks

Hi Xbusymom I think it's just what's bubbling to the surface in your subconscious at the moment. The subconscious is a doozy. It speaks to us in a sort of code. I might be totally off the mark with my translation of your dream - only you will know for sure if it rings true for you.

And, it could definitely be about dimensions in dimensions. The subconscious is amazing. Have you ever heard of reverse speech? Fascinating. If you record someone speaking and then reverse the recorder, if any lucid words crop up, it will indicate what their mind was really thinking while their mouths were doing the talking.

[xbusymom]

yes I have heard of it, but never come across any reversed recording that was clear enough to supply definative proof. the ones I looked at were muffled, and had odd speach patterns (and when I closed my eyes - I came up with a different out come than what the interpreter did). So unless you know of any that are very distinct- I can't put much credance into it...

[Teakai]

Posted by xbusymom (here)
yes I have heard of it, but never come across any reversed recording that was clear enough to supply definative proof. the ones I looked at were muffled, and had odd speach patterns (and when I closed my eyes - I came up with a different out come than what the interpreter did). So unless you know of any that are very distinct- I can't put much credance into it...

I like Ken Welch's work. http://www.ken-welch.com/PageOne.html
I agree that it is difficult to know what you're hearing. What I like is that you don't have to take their word for it. You can actually try it out for yourself.

[wolfman]

Teakai,

I am with you on this one..

[Esther]

Posted by Teakai (here)
Is it just me, or does anybody/everybody else feel like they're in a state of limbo at the moment, just waiting for the next thing to happen?

Definitely limbo. I think our bodies and minds can only cope with so much. It might be a defense mechanism.

[Esther]

Posted by CetaceousOne (here)
Same here. I was raised as a Jehovah's Witness from about '79 and they always thought that Armageddon was "just around the corner".

I escaped from that 15 years ago, and my path has led me to the place I find myself now. Most of my life has been in anticipation of something big happening.

I am ready for completion and closure to be sure.....

Me too, which is why my pseudonym is Esther, the rebellious and wise woman in the Bible who not take no for an answer. I broke with that eons ago and helped many who were coming out. But, not most do not fare well when they leave cults. Sadly, most do not heal. And the again there is humanity who does not want to hear.

[Teakai]

Posted by Esther (here)
Me too, which is why my pseudonym is Esther, the rebellious and wise woman in the Bible who not take no for an answer. I broke with that eons ago and helped many who were coming out. But, not most do not fare well when they leave cults. Sadly, most do not heal. And the again there is humanity who does not want to hear.

Hi Esther, this is a bit off topic for me to ask, but do you see Jehova Witness' as being a cult - or all religions as being a cult?

[Enlightenment101]

Well the question you might ask yourself is are you better awake or asleep like most the people we all know,
The hardest part I think is knowing things are not what they appear to be, and your not sure what to do about it, when you first wake up your hell bent on finding out everything you can and during those times, you can start out in place direction and before its over with find out you have branched off in many directions and they all seem to connect, you cant seem to learn enough, then you want to tell everyone lol , or end up like me after years of this, you say to heck with it, and find people like you lol

[Teakai]

Posted by Enlightenment101 (here)
Well the question you might ask yourself is are you better awake or asleep like most the people we all know,
The hardest part I think is knowing things are not what they appear to be, and your not sure what to do about it, when you first wake up your hell bent on finding out everything you can and during those times, you can start out in place direction and before its over with find out you have branched off in many directions and they all seem to connect, you cant seem to learn enough, then you want to tell everyone lol , or end up like me after years of this, you say to heck with it, and find people like you lol

I do agree, Enlightenment. Though I've given up on telling anyone/everyone - in my circle anyway. They just don't get it and they don't want to get it. And you can't just explain a little bit because then it just sounds totally ridiculous, because it's so big and so interconnected with other stuff that it's an entire study on its own :D

[Enlightenment101]

lol Tea Trust me I completely understand, I stopped telling people a while back ago, but dont be too surprised as things start falling more and more into place on what you have told people, that those people dont come looking for you for answers because that is what is happening with me, Then you become sorta like a mentor. I just make sure they dont do anything stupid, give them the info on places to look up what it is they will need to know, I let them form their own views on it, there is so much info out there that you need to weed through the people out there making claims and have followings that is all about $$$$$. the Media is becoming involved but its all about Money with them, and you have radio shows springing up out there that are meant to decieve and cause mass panic. that is the Elites agenda

[Teakai]

Posted by Enlightenment101 (here)
lol Tea Trust me I completely understand, I stopped telling people a while back ago, but dont be too surprised as things start falling more and more into place on what you have told people, that those people dont come looking for you for answers because that is what is happening with me, Then you become sorta like a mentor. I just make sure they dont do anything stupid, give them the info on places to look up what it is they will need to know, I let them form their own views on it, there is so much info out there that you need to weed through the people out there making claims and have followings that is all about $$$$$. the Media is becoming involved but its all about Money with them, and you have radio shows springing up out there that are meant to decieve and cause mass panic. that is the Elites agenda

The way I see it, Enlightenment, is that the skeleton is always there, you just have to pick carefully the parts you flesh it out with :-)