"My Purpose ... To Be Human"

[Little Blue]

"Meditation Guided To Seek Man From Utah ..."

My name is Richard (middle-name: Caleb), I respond to either.

My life has been anything but "normal" literally from birth -involving but not limited to; regular personal E.T. interaction/visitation, spirit interaction/communication, psychic and mediumship.

This first post is an introduction to what I am wanting to share over proceeding submissions -my journey.

A journey that has shaped my reality. My perspective. And my personal understanding of the countless levels of reality that surround each and everyone of us, but are not discernible until your own level of perception resonates at that given vibrationary rate.

When my parents were in their early forties, they had already got a family of 3 children; two boys and a girl. And the last thing on either of their minds was another child.
It was at this time that my mother suddenly began to experience severe stomach cramps and pain. The regularity and frequency of both increasing to such a level that medical advice and help was sought very quickly. It was soon determined by numerous and highly intrusive medical examinations and tests that my mother's womb had become seriously infected and was now -as these examinations had clearly identified, no longer capable of pregnancy. It was also extremely evident that she would need to have a hysterectomy as soon as was possible. My parents, and my mother especially; accepted the news from her Doctor gracefully. The fact that she already had 3 children significantly cushioned the otherwise devastating news of no longer being able to have any more.

A date was set for her to go into hospital and undergo the operation to have a complete hysterectomy.

On the day of the surgery, my mother had received her pre-med, was relaxed and wheeled into the operating theatre. All the medical personnel were present, the surgeon running through his final pre-op checks. Then out of the blue the surgeon stated that he had suddenly had an overwhelming thought that he needed to undertake a pregnancy test on my mother. He himself was quite taken aback by the strength of this "feeling", and based on the information and test results he had taken close note of regarding the condition of my mother's womb, it conflicted greatly as to what his medical expertise told him was an impossibility. But undertake the pregnancy test he did.

And to everyone's utter shock, said test clearly identified that my mother [was] pregnant!

Obviously, there would be no hysterectomy.

Later it was discovered that my mother was in fact 3 months into her pregnancy.
A pregnancy that all the medical examinations and tests had clearly stated was not biologically possible. Her womb was too infected, too diseased to enable this. And yet, here she was, 3 months pregnant!

Due to the extreme circumstances of my mother's pregnancy, the surgeon and other consultants took a great interest in her case and wanted to follow her pregnancy throughout.

6 months later, August 29th 1965, a healthy baby boy was born.

Me.

My mother herself told me many years later that further to the extraordinary circumstances surrounding her actual pregnancy, the birth was also completely 'dry'.

At the time I never fully comprehended how unusual this also was in child birth.

My mother also said that upon her discovering that she was pregnant, she had one overriding thought; 'that I was sent for a reason'.

I merely replied, "..absolutely, to piss everybody off.!

I seem to do it with ease!!

My childhood was [not] unremarkable.

In truth it was absolutely terrifying at times, especially from the age of 4 years. This is as far back as I have any recognisable memories from. It is also the time that the "night visitations" commenced. Visitations of beings, whose [initial] appearances in my bedroom would proceed ear deafening buzzing that filled the room (imagine a million bees), and a visceral terror that was so physically palpable as to literally pin me down within my bed, held fast in total paralysis to where all I could move were my eyes, darting frantically in their young sockets as I scoured my bedroom for the cause.

Mentally I was screaming out to my parents to come upstairs and save me, and clearly hearing them down below watching television and not seemingly hearing this overpowering sound of buzzing only heightening my state of abject confusion and terror. They never did come upstairs.

I was totally alone. A child. Facing this reality that now unfolded about me.

Bedtime, as a young boy became a time of dread and fear. Mentally trying to hold back the hands of the clock to reach 7pm.

7pm. The time of my parent's evening announcement that sent shards of terror through my body: "..Right then Richard, time for bed.."

I would beg to stay up longer. I would plead not to have to climb the stairs up to my bedroom. My bedroom. The place where [they] came in the night. In the darkness.
This was [not] I have to clarify here, Sleep Paralysis.

I know there are many academics who love this quick go-to explanation as to the cause of night visitations (alien abductions). Confident in their ignorance of the actual subject, clueless as to the genuine phenomenon that exists and is very real. And most not willing to engage in any genuine scientific [open-minded] investigation as to shatter their own 'safe' and blinkered viewpoint of reality.

I was neither a sleep, half asleep or drifting in and out of sleep. In [all] instances of my adult 'visitor' experiences that I have recalled memories of - I was fully conscious and [wide awake]. And on many occasions during the day and with others present at the time.

Later in my twenties, for several years I was the regional coordinator for one of Europe's largest scientific UFO research bureau's, Quest International. Leading a 15 strong team of field researchers under the subsidiary name of Bristol Quest, we would follow-up and investigate all reported UFO sightings/experiences across the South West of the UK. Being the coordinator it was my responsibility to liaise with the media, military and police forces.

One event whilst holding Quest International's first ever UFO conference in my home city of Bristol, brought home to me in stark and crystal clarity that things were anything but "normal" regarding myself. Mid-way through the morning's conference events, whilst speakers and audience members alike were taking a break from the proceedings and had left the hall practically empty, I noticed a young thirty-something woman staring intently at me from the opposite side of the room. Slowly she began to approach me, until she was literally only a few feet in front of where I stood, bemused at her actions. She said nothing, just started at me intently, almost transfixed. Suddenly she let out a loud shocked scream, was seemingly pushed backwards and landed in a heap upon the floor against some empty chairs.

Naturally I was taken aback, but before I could move to assist her, a few other people close by beat me to it and they helped her to her feet.

Gathering her senses, and seeing she was alright, she was left alone once again. She again approached me but this time explained her previous actions. The following I am paraphrasing, but the jest is practically accurate to what she said. "..I have been watching you all morning from the other side of the hall. You are surrounded by so much light -it's blinding, and you cannot be seen. I wanted to know [what you are?], so I was trying to 'link' in to you. As I attempted to do this, a huge being of light suddenly appeared, stepped in front of you and pushed me backwards -telling me to mind my own business. That's why I screamed and fell backwards.."

The phrase she said "..what you are..?" has always stayed with me. Why did she specifically use those words at that time, and not 'who you are'?

Once again, external events giving physical proof of my own perceived experiences of 'not being alone'.

Since birth I have always walked in two-worlds; that of the physical and that of the psychic/spiritual (and always in light). I am [never] alone. I meditate daily and it's through these daily meditations revelations of who I am, what my purpose upon this planet is, and far deeper insight into who and what those 'Beings' who have surrounded, guided, protected and influenced me since birth are!

Both Extra-terrestrial, Interdimensional and Spiritual.

It has taken me all of my life to begin to accept that what I've personally experienced (and at times those in my presence have), is actually real and genuine. And not merely the figments of a truly overactive imagination. Physical evidence such as X-rays clearly showing unknown objects [implants] under my skin are not imagination. Nor are physical marks, bruises and scratches found after a period of nocturnal visitations and wiped memories. Or that of multiple witness experiences of both solid structured craft and balls of light.

Hypno-regression conducted by fully qualified regressionists revealing a depth of personal abduction experiences not readily accessible in waking consciousness.

Face-to-face encounters with small, light blue skin coloured beings with large heads and big black eyes that would rush, like excited children all around me. Their thoughts filled repeatedly with the same words; "..we love you, we love you... you're one of us... You're one of us!" I struggled with this a lot. They ran contrary to what was populating the mainstream 'alien' description; The Greys. Their physical dimensions and appearances saturating documentaries, publications, TV series like The X-Files and even films. Nowhere had I ever heard about Blue Beings, that is until [only] very recently whilst watching a particular alien abduction documentary that another 'experiencer' described the exact same blue beings that I had encountered many, many years previously.
And at that moment, I cried. Cried with years of relief and self-doubt now finding true expression that [they] were real. That I [had] not only encountered them.

But more relevant and important to me. I. Was. Not. Alone!

I have however also experienced the opposite of 'peaceful' experiences -these concerning a non-emotionally involved ET species, whose sole agenda appears to be the harvesting of genetic material and the gathering of such from myself. Cold, emotionless and at times brutal and trauma inducing. The very act of writing this here conjures up anxiety and an underlying sense of fear. Made all of the more impactful due to these particular experiences having been 'deliberately' wiped from my conscious memory by the perpetrators.

However, despite the trauma and anxiety attached to these particular 'encounters', I understand that personal spiritual growth requires both the yin and yang to truly evolve. And fully recognise the [bigger picture] here.

As for my spiritual experiences (and connection)...

For so long I was at a loss as to how I should refer to those "Beings" who have stood at my side, even prior to my current incarnation -the ego loves labels eh. Eventually after choosing various references; Guides, Angels etc... It dawned on me - "..instead of just coming up with different names from my own ego, why not do the obvious … [ask them] what they would prefer me to refer to them as.." They're response was immediate, and unsurprising -it didn't matter. However, they also "knew" I needed a metaphorical anchor, so gave me what I requested -a name by which I could relate to them by. "Guardians". Immediately that name resonated perfectly with me. That's exactly what they had been all of my life. "Guardians" it was.

And for those now questioning these "Beings" and why would they permit me to undergo such physical and trauma inducing ET experiences as previously described ... Here you need to understand our personal Soul Contract, Life Plan and in simplest terms, the fact that some earthly physical lessons are hard because they need to be. The soul does not grow when the sun is forever shining, but through the struggles and challenges placed before it. Whatever challenges face you in your current earthly life remember -[you] chose it because [you] know it's what you need in order to progress to where you want to reach.

And now I come to the reason for this first posting. After every meditation I immediately write up anything that I experienced. I've found to my cost that memory isn't a good way to record information given during heightened states of consciousness, and "visions" given, seemingly unimportant and not noteworthy at the time, turn out to be anything but inconsequential later on!!

It was during two consecutive meditations that the following "message" was given to me. To clarify I'm going to copy & paste directly the meditations in question and allow the information contained therein to speak for itself.

Wednesday, January 18th 2023.

I was taken to an arid desert landscape of canyons, volcanic rock and sagebrush and grass. I knew I was in America and I was "told" it was Utah. I was again "told" that there was a man in Utah that I needed to connect with. That this was [very important].

I then came out of the meditation.

Friday, January 20th 2023.

I again found myself in the same arid desert landscape as previously visualised. Again the same "impression" [telling] that was previously experienced repeated itself, that there was a man I needed to "connect" with from this location.

I then came out of the meditation.

Naturally I was now bemused and (to say nothing of) being completely at a loss of just how the hell was I supposed to "connect" with this individual? It wasn't as if I could just pick up the Meditation Yellow Pages and search under the section of 'Men In Utah'! If only.

I've never been given a name and initially upon receiving this meditation information I balked at it. It seemed like an impossible task!! Within two weeks of first being gifted this through meditation, and to literally hypothetically slap me across the face in the most loving of ways to overcome my resistance to accepting it, two separate individuals -both totally unrelated and not knowing the other- in my sphere of life, suddenly [announced] that they "felt" compelled to 'give me a message' out of the blue.

One said: "..You need to find your tribe.!"

The other said: "..You need to find your people.!"

That got my attention.

Especially in view of what I had also been shown in my meditations pertaining to my mother, her own connections with extra-terrestrials (and) more significantly, my actual implantation into her womb! 57 years later, and I was finally awakening to the bigger picture of just who and what I was. For sure, a hell of a lot to comprehend, digest and assimilate. But also, making so much sense pertaining to [all] the personal experiences throughout my entire life thus far.

My Guardians know me far better than I know myself, they have access to [everything] about me; who I am, what I am, where I've been (past existences etc), where I am going... And what gets my attention and makes me take notice!

I am by nature extremely sceptical. I [need] proof. I [require] evidence.
My 'Guardians' subtly informed me through direct thought impression, that I was to [wait] until the time was right. The opportunity would then present itself (and I would recognise it).

Naturally did I 'wait' -no! Just as an impatient child I rushed ahead, desperately searching the internet for every conceivable search term relating to Utah, Meditations, etc... I asked my friends and colleagues for assistance (my ego hoping they would directly hand me the answer with little or no effort on my part). Instead, I ran headlong into dead end after dead end. Then, borne from my own impatient frustration and fruitless searches, I got the message "WAIT!"

And more importantly, have 'faith' that what I was told [would] come to pass.

And here I am.

The right time.

I appreciate the heading of my posting states: "Meditation Guided To Seek Man From Utah ..." and that [is] who I seek, you'll know if it's you [I'm assuming, or you'll have received a weird cryptic message that you need to "connect" with a man from the UK]. But, if you "feel" inspired to reach out to me irrespective of your location, please do.

After all, I am also 'seeking my tribe, my people'. But please be [genuine] and appreciate that as I reside in the UK, time zones may be different than yours so responses will not be immediate -but I [will] acknowledge and connect with you in the shortest possible time allowing.

All things occur for a reason -there are [no] mistakes. There are [no] accidents.

And my own personal experiences with the spiritual/psychic realities have clearly shown that answers sought are usually found in the most unexpected and revealing ways. If the answers were merely handed to us on a plate with clearly no effort on our part to discover them for ourselves; we may know, but we would not truly understand nor appreciate at the soul level that which has been revealed to us. In simplest terms, there would be no real [relevant] spiritual growth!

And that is after all, why each one of us is currently incarnated within this physical reality.

More to come …

My latest post: "..We love you, we love you ... You're one of us, you're one of us.." can be found here:

https://projectavalon.net/forum4/sho...=1#post1546381

[Parsi-X]

WOW thank you for your amazing story.. my twin and I had a ufo sighting at age 11- both being in seperate rooms saw and illustrated the same vehicle. Mid 20's i experienced interacting with spirits, 30's were non eventful but in my 40's having a spiritual awakening with the ability to see auric fields starting with myself..I have posted about my UFO experience on another thread and have started some thread's about my recent spiritual awakening. I am sure I am a starseed and will seek out some answers with an upcoming QHHT session.
Reading your post triggered a memory that I have had since childhood that always chills me to the bone.. it is an underground cavern with a wooden door and two flames on either side of the door. when that image pops up in my dreams or awake state I immediately feel a sense of dread... wonder if it is screen memory to a very traumatic experience..
Wishing to seek and connect with like minded souls on Avalon.

[Little Blue]

Posted by Parsi-X (here)
Reading your post triggered a memory that I have had since childhood that always chills me to the bone..

Hi Parsi-X, Thank you so much for your truly kind and supportive words concerning my first post. I'm curious, what aspect of my writing triggered that childhood memory of yours?

[jaybee]

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welcome to the forum White Wizard... that was a humdinger of a first post

very interesting - thanks

[Little Blue]

Thank you jaybee for your genuine kindness. If you thought my first post was a "humdinger", you ain't seen nothing yet ...

RC

[Parsi-X]

Posted by The White Wizard (here)

Posted by Parsi-X (here)
Reading your post triggered a memory that I have had since childhood that always chills me to the bone..

Hi Parsi-X, Thank you so much for your truly kind and supportive words concerning my first post. I'm curious, what aspect of my writing triggered that childhood memory of yours?

it was this line.."Bedtime, as a young boy became a time of dread and fear. Mentally trying to hold back the hands of the clock to reach 7pm. ".

..also I've been doing some research/ quizzes on being a potential starseed myself and am finding a whole bunch of synchronicities popping up.. have started seeing the number 777 everywhere.. phone numbers/ emails/ social media..just wanting now to find out what my star family could potentially be.. or am i going mad? LOL.

recently started seeing a faint yellow energy/ outline around my hands..

welcome to the rabbit hole I say!

[Little Blue]

I'm curious, and please understand, absolutely no disrespect is meant in what I am about to ask, this is purely my own sense of where I am.. But you mention being a "Star Seed". Does this label matter to you then? I have been told and shown what I am, but even with this knowledge I still only view myself as being "myself" without any label attached. I'm simply curious as to what this would mean to you personally, because from what I can tell -and honestly, I do not know you at all, but in truth you [are] a magnificent being whose journey upon this planet is truly a gift to all who come into contact with you. You do not require a label to identify who you are.

[Gwin Ru]

...

... just in case...here is a man who lives in Utah, a Ret. US Lt Colonel, he is not a Mormon nor is he affiliated to any major denomination and the closest would be "Paleo Christian":

A Strictly Spiritual Message For Those Interested 20:14

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Streamed 1 day ago

Source: https://youtube.com/watch?v=gG5qICcqvOA

• Something You Did...

[RunningDeer]

Posted by The White Wizard (here)
My name is Richard (middle-name: Caleb), I respond to either.

Posted by Parsi-X (here)
..also I've been doing some research/ quizzes on being a potential starseed myself

Welcome to Avalon, Richard. Thanks for sharing your experiences.

I didn’t want to flood your thread with Mary Rodwell questionnaires. Here are a few links for Parsi-X and others that may be interested.

Mary Rodwell’s Questionnaires for Research into “Homo Noeticus” Star Children:

• History Sheet
• 

Indicators of Contact/Abduction Experiences
• 
Indicators of Star Children
• Personal History Sheet

[rgray222]

Posted by The White Wizard (here)
"Meditation Guided To Seek Man From Utah ..."

I meditate daily and it's through these daily meditations revelations of who I am, what my purpose upon this planet is, and far deeper insight into who and what those 'Beings' who have surrounded, guided, protected and influenced me since birth are!

More to come …

Welcome to Avalon, I thoroughly enjoyed reading your post and look forward to "more to come." Do you feel that you have a clearly defined purpose for being on this planet and can you shed some light on this insight?

It is my perception that we are all on this planet surrounded by guardians, guides, or some form of ethereal beings. That is precisely why when we turn inward for answers we are not just examing our own intuitions but are linking into the combined knowledge of all the beings surrounding us. By doing this we have access to the book of knowledge of the universe. When doing so patience absolutely must come into play, not a as good earthy virtue but as a spiritual necessity.

[Little Blue]

Hi rgray222,

Thank you for your genuinely kind words of welcome.

You asked me "..Do you feel that you have a clearly defined purpose for being on this planet and can you shed some light on this insight.?" Yes and yes.

Please bear with me, I have so much to share with everyone who is interested to read my words. It has taken me so long to reach the juncture in my life that I now stand at; a position where belief in myself has played as much of an important part, as fully embracing those that walk beside me silently. I do have much more that I am going to post, and in these posts will come the answers to that which you have asked me. I try my best to explain my journey (and the subsequent revelations that have come along the way) in these posts, but I am being "inspired" (guided if you will) to reveal things in a certain order. In a certain way.

Your own perceptions are so accurate. And clearly shine with the enlightened understanding and connection you truly have. In this the truths that have come to you through your own journey. And continue to be revealed to you.

I will be posting again over the next few days. I hope when you read it you will understand and honour my reasons for waiting.

May Love & Light always be your guide.

RC.

[Little Blue]

Hi RunningDeer, what a beautiful name. Thank you so much for your genuinely kind welcome.

My post is the first of many that I will be sharing. And I hope you may find what I have to say in these subsequent posts just as interesting. If you found my post interesting that is?

I am so grateful for the links concerning Mary Rodwell. She is a lady I have admired for such a long time and had planned at some point to reach out to. Now, through your kindness, that opportunity may be a little closer.

May Love & Light always be your guide.

RC.

[Little Blue]

Hi Gwin Ru,

Thank you so much for giving me your precious time and attention and directing it towards my first post. You are exceedingly kind.

And thank you for offering me this opportunity to see this video. Sadly this gentleman is not the man from Utah that my meditation has inspired me to find, but with that said, your intentions are truly honourable and driven purely to help me. And for that I cannot thank you enough.

May Love and Light always be your guide.

RC.

[Pam]

Posted by The White Wizard (here)
I'm curious, and please understand, absolutely no disrespect is meant in what I am about to ask, this is purely my own sense of where I am.. But you mention being a "Star Seed". Does this label matter to you then? I have been told and shown what I am, but even with this knowledge I still only view myself as being "myself" without any label attached. I'm simply curious as to what this would mean to you personally, because from what I can tell -and honestly, I do not know you at all, but in truth you [are] a magnificent being whose journey upon this planet is truly a gift to all who come into contact with you. You do not require a label to identify who you are.

Welcome, White Wizard. I believe you will find understanding here. I no longer see life and spirituality as a different thing. I believe that separation has been created as another technique of division created in this reality construct. One of oodles and oodles of them. Think of the wars fought in the name of division and differences of opinion about what we believe. We still are, although now I see them mostly to serve an agenda for a very few and those that they do their bidding for.

It seems to me like this life is like an onion and we can keep peeling layer after layer of that onion. We can choose to stop peeling the onion at any time , maybe because it becomes to uncomfortable for the eyes or it is getting too messy.

I spent several years believing I was a "wanderer" based on the "Law of One" channellings. I believed it because it was the best explanation for the fact that I have always felt a discomfort in this reality, it took me a very long time to adapt to having a physical body(weird, I agree). I became very depressed when I truly understood that I would become an adult, because I just did not see any beauty in that and a lot of negativity there. So the "wanderer" term was grasped by lack of anything better.

I remember joining a 12 step program, which can be very beneficial because it encourages self investigation. I remember when it came to this part (this is not a direct quote) that indicates if one was to sincerely follow the twelve steps they would be "happy, joyous and free" I am not saying this is not true, for many it is. What I told myself and firmly believed was that It would never happen for me, because the layout of the planet scared the heck out of me. I was in no way equipped to deal with the predator/prey aspect of it. I did not even have a remote notion of the fractal nature of this reality and many subtle layers of predator /prey that are being acted out on earth at this very moment. Unfortunately throwing that expectation (intent or belief) into the neutral field that allows us to co-create made a very challenging reality for me.

Sorry, I have a habit of writing a book when someone else could share the same sentiment in a few short sentences. Here is the part I would like to share. I have no definitive truth of what I am. In a way I was (not intentionally) seeking a bit of comfort in identifying with that group, whatever that means. That doesn't mean others haven't had experience that they feel absolutely validates whatever group they affiliate with. They may absolutely know what they are, I don't.

There is a weird sort of freedom in having everything I believed about myself, my life, my profession, my way of looking at myself was in fact, a construct. Each of these realizations are hard to take and yet they are freeing. I am in the process of getting rid of much of my "stuff". Material items that I don't need, haven't used in a while. I have a habit of giving an item value based on my sentimental connection to it. Once again, tough to do, very freeing.

I see this a process, it's a stripping away process and for me that includes labels and a story line, picking and choosing memories that confirm the label.

Enough of my babbling. Welcome, welcome , welcome. Lots of interesting, creative and bright people that can still reason , use their gifts and understand so much more than you will find in many places. The other thing I love here is the international community.

[Parsi-X]

Hi Richard ..
Thank you for your kind words .. They’re very true and good point that we don’t need labels.. but then I don’t know who I am or where I’m from?.

I never ever got along with my biological family and feel no love from them.. isn’t it curious that sometimes you can connect on a soul level with people that may not even be in your location let alone your family…

I’m possibly naive when labelling myself as a star seed but I know in my heart that earth is not my origin and since childhood I’ve been drawn to more esoteric areas of life rather than the material thing people possess themselves with… sorry for my rambling….

@Pam thank you for providing me with those links to Mary Rodwell..
I have reached out to Mary and waiting for the stars to align (no pun intended) to have a session with her.. I’m so nervous about my upcoming qhht session but look forward to sharing my results here if that is ok by you?

Sending love and positive vibes from Down Under! 🙏🧿❤️

Posted by The White Wizard (here)
I'm curious, and please understand, absolutely no disrespect is meant in what I am about to ask, this is purely my own sense of where I am.. But you mention being a "Star Seed". Does this label matter to you then? I have been told and shown what I am, but even with this knowledge I still only view myself as being "myself" without any label attached. I'm simply curious as to what this would mean to you personally, because from what I can tell -and honestly, I do not know you at all, but in truth you [are] a magnificent being whose journey upon this planet is truly a gift to all who come into contact with you. You do not require a label to identify who you are.

[RunningDeer]

Posted by Parsi-X (here)
...thank you for providing me with those links to Mary Rodwell..
I have reached out to Mary and waiting for the stars to align (no pun intended) to have a session with her.. I’m so nervous about my upcoming qhht session but look forward to sharing my results here if that is ok by you?

That's definitely okay by me, Parsi-X.
Lucky you if you're able to book a session. Mary Roswell is a busy woman.

Paula/RunningDeer ♡

[Delight]

Posted by The White Wizard (here)
Hi rgray222,

Thank you for your genuinely kind words of welcome.

You asked me "..Do you feel that you have a clearly defined purpose for being on this planet and can you shed some light on this insight.?" Yes and yes.

Please bear with me, I have so much to share with everyone who is interested to read my words. It has taken me so long to reach the juncture in my life that I now stand at; a position where belief in myself has played as much of an important part, as fully embracing those that walk beside me silently. I do have much more that I am going to post, and in these posts will come the answers to that which you have asked me. I try my best to explain my journey (and the subsequent revelations that have come along the way) in these posts, but I am being "inspired" (guided if you will) to reveal things in a certain order. In a certain way.

Your own perceptions are so accurate. And clearly shine with the enlightened understanding and connection you truly have. In this the truths that have come to you through your own journey. And continue to be revealed to you.

I will be posting again over the next few days. I hope when you read it you will understand and honour my reasons for waiting.

May Love & Light always be your guide.

RC.

WHAT a miracle baby! You would be interesting to hear on a podcast like Jeff Reynold's "jeffmara podcast" and you'd have a wide audience for seeking the person in Utah.

[Heart to heart]

Thank you and welcome White Wizard

A more than interesting introduction to the experiences in your life and I look forward to reading further.

My nephew also had that dread of bedtime as a child as he experienced nightly visitations from unwanted visitors. He has spoken of this in videos that can be seen on this forum and has been channeling cosmic information since 1995

With love and blessings on your work

Adding for reference:
link to one of Carolyn Morgans video with her nephew Ronin here in one of Corolyn's thread below.

Introducing Carolyn Morgan, new Avalon member and Medium extraordinaire

[Little Blue]

Posted by Delight (here)

Posted by The White Wizard (here)
Hi rgray222,

Thank you for your genuinely kind words of welcome.

You asked me "..Do you feel that you have a clearly defined purpose for being on this planet and can you shed some light on this insight.?" Yes and yes.

Please bear with me, I have so much to share with everyone who is interested to read my words. It has taken me so long to reach the juncture in my life that I now stand at; a position where belief in myself has played as much of an important part, as fully embracing those that walk beside me silently. I do have much more that I am going to post, and in these posts will come the answers to that which you have asked me. I try my best to explain my journey (and the subsequent revelations that have come along the way) in these posts, but I am being "inspired" (guided if you will) to reveal things in a certain order. In a certain way.

Your own perceptions are so accurate. And clearly shine with the enlightened understanding and connection you truly have. In this the truths that have come to you through your own journey. And continue to be revealed to you.

I will be posting again over the next few days. I hope when you read it you will understand and honour my reasons for waiting.

May Love & Light always be your guide.

RC.

WHAT a miracle baby! You would be interesting to hear on a podcast like Jeff Reynold's "jeffmara podcast" and you'd have a wide audience for seeking the person in Utah.

Hi Delight,

Thank you so much for giving of your valuable time to my post -bless you for that gift (and honour). I am genuinely humbled by all the beautiful souls on this platform and their kindness and support shown to me. I am so new to all this and have so much I want to share ... My journey has been extraordinary, and it is only recently that I have begun to be gifted with long sought after answers to questions I was only holding as parts of a jigsaw puzzle for so long. The bigger picture being the Who and Why of myself. Much of what people are asking me is contained in my following next posts, but I don't wish to bombard everyone with everything all at once, hence leaving space in between. As for a podcast, I would not know (truly) who to approach for that and in all honesty, I am still coming to terms with the simple realisation that people are genuinely interested to hear what I have to say!!

But what I am discovering very quickly is that the level of love and genuine warmth found here on AP is a beautiful testament and tribute to everyone who is part of this amazing family. A family to which I am now beginning to see I am also part of. In so many ways - I've come home.

May Love & Light Always Be Your Guide.

RC.

[Little Blue]

"..We love you, we love you ... You're one of us, you're one of us.."

A statement that conjures up imagery and emotional resonance of deep connections. Unity. Strong emotional ties and bonds. A statement that would not be lost on any one of us interacting with family members or close friends. Yet these words were not spoken in the instance I am now describing by any human being. They were in fact the very first telepathic communication given to me by "Light Blue Skinned Visitors" upon their gate-crashing into my reality -and the front room of my flat in the late 1990s. As the shock of their very presence overwhelmed my senses; both physical and psychic, their small childlike forms moved rapidly about the room eager to physically touch and engage with everything present; furniture, ornaments, plants … me. I've likened their actions and behaviour to kids let loose in a toy shop. Rushing everywhere, they themselves overwhelmed by the brand new explosion of visual and tactile experiences surrounding them at every turn -intent on assimilating everything all at once in an unspoken finite moment of time.

Their appearance, almost celebratory in its innocence and joyous intent towards me personally, was the culmination of ever-increasing psychic and interdimensional activity, experienced not solely by myself but my partner at the time and many of our friends visiting our home.

And regrettably some of our friends eventually deciding that they could no longer subject themselves to the myriad of phenomena manifesting itself there; balls of coloured light appearing and disappearing, red laser beams shooting across one room (witnessed simultaneously by several people) to disappear through the wall, only to be witnessed by the person in the adjacent room as the exact same laser beam traversed the brickwork to continue its journey across that room unchallenged or even slowed. Unseen entities suddenly affecting us individually with an energy that literally had us upon the floor in uncontrollable laughter. Laughing so much for seemingly no logical reason whatsoever, being brought to tears of joy and genuinely begging for it to stop as you couldn't catch your breath for laughing so much. Then as quickly as this energy affected you; it stopped, as did your laughter, as if in direct response to your plea. And on to the next person in the room it focused its attention to and so the same repeating laughter cycle continued. The vibration level within my home has always very "heavy"; very intense (wherever my home may be). Many of those visiting just could not stay within it for any length of time as this resulting vibration seemed to send them almost immobile. They felt drained. As many would describe being: "..completely out of it.!" They felt as though whilst present within this energy; this vibration, they were being taken [somewhere else altogether].

I myself have experienced strange moments in my own personal perception of time, as though there had occurred a sudden 'hiccup' in reality, which suddenly left me with the confused but definite impression that "something" had just happened (?) -that a section of time had just been excised from my personal memory and the two remaining sections intercepting that 'missing period' had been re-joined together in the blink of an eye like reels of film in a Hollywood edit suite. This has happened to me on several occasions.

As has the sudden shift in my mental and psychic perception of a wall in my home becoming almost transparent. I am literally "perceiving" not into the adjacent neighbour's home interior, but a completely different dimension altogether. Another reality where unknown beings are literally observing me -studying me. And their sudden shocked reactions when realising that [I] am now aware of them as they are of me. My ability then to perceive them quickly blocked and the wall returning to its solid three dimensional state.

One former friend, an engineer for Rolls Royce, a very matter-of-fact, meat and potatoes type of guy whose feet were very much planted on the solid ground of scepticism and firmly entrenched in the mentality of "..I'll only believe it when I see it..", did indeed [see] something. Something that rocked his own well established perception of reality to its very core, and sent him departing from my home without a 'by-your-leave'. His association, and sadly his friendship alongside, severed irreconcilably. And to this day I am still none the wiser as to what exactly he experienced. He would never speak of it. But it terrified him. His sudden and visceral change of character, mannerisms and rapid departure laying stark claim to that assertion.

Once again, armour against those who view my "experiences" as nothing more than being 'all in the mind', 'illusionary' or suggestions of 'schizophrenia'.

But it would be a further 24+ years before the truth behind that statement "..You're one of us, you're one of us.." would finally be revealed to me, and in its very revelation; a deeper understanding as to the magnitude and meaning of just who and what I was, and my [purpose] on this planet.

More to come …

For those who have not already read my first post, it can be found here:

https://projectavalon.net/forum4/sho...=1#post1546230