The Journal of Little Blue

[Little Blue]

What I wish to share here and over proceeding posts are my own personal journal entries, meticulously recorded. The information contained within was conveyed to me directly by beings closely connected with my journey. They have deliberately guided my consciousness during meditation to remote locations—journeys detailed herein—for the express purpose of instruction, education and enlightenment -all of which is to be shared. For what good is knowledge if not to be shared to others.

As the author, I present this account without definitive interpretation. I invite each reader to draw their own assumptions and conclusions, relying upon their own current level of understanding and awareness to navigate these experiences.

This is a continuation of the information release as described in my previous posts.

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There are two questions; the most profound and fundamentally searching questions that at some juncture of their lives, every individual will ask of themselves, and in that asking; in concert, to a higher divine authority; "why am [I] here?" And "what is [my] purpose?"

Many through their own efforts and growing spiritual and conscious awareness, become enlightened to some reassuring truth and guiding justification to those questions for themselves. Most do not, and remain ensnared within a mire of societal imposed ignorance and restricted perspective.

From my own memories as a very young child of the brutal awakenings to one simple truth; established reality and its prescribed doctrines and the rules imposed by narrow-minded ideologies, are fundamentally wrong! My innocence brought into sharp focus to a reality so much more expansive and wondrous than for those around me whose own minds had been closed by those same narrow-minded ideologies. Each extraordinary event, from my very first terrifying childhood encounter with the "things that came for me in the night" to various visions of other realms, realities, and dimensions, forms an unending catalogue of personal experiences that has been my one singular constant companion.

And yes of course, I too have asked those questions. Pondered the stark contrast behind why so much of what is perceived by those same prescribed doctrines and narrow-minded ideologies as being impossible, I have experienced and encountered as absolutely real!

And in my own asking of those two questions, the answers I received in response have taken me even further into that reality of the impossible and the wondrous ... And made that reality even more true and relevant as a result ... And ever more so expansive.

Friday, April 25th 2025.

Normally, when entering into my morning meditations I do so without a specific objective or intent, preferring to hand the significance and path I am taken, over to the guiding wisdom of my Guardians.

However, the following meditation account was very different. In that I decided specifically to ask to be "shown" who I truly was; where I originated from, alongside my actual purpose and intention for incarnating into a human body in this current physical expression of being.

In response, I received a very strong and precise "vision" of myself with light blue skin, which was clearly radiating as part of its natural process, a blue light [aura]. The coloured texture and appearance of my skin resembled very much an Abalone shell’s visual effect; but blue, with all varying hues shifting in degrees of intensity as the natural light caressed its surface.

Physically I was definitely not human, but far more similar to an EBE [Extra-Terrestrial Biological Entity], but taller.

I was "informed" that my purpose was - through my experiencing of what it was to be human, the knowledge and insight acquired would "better facilitate communication and interaction with the human species moving forward." (End quote)

I have been previously "informed" that I did agree to incarnate into the human experience for this purpose of gaining insight and knowledge, and that it would assist the specific "group" to which I belonged.

I do know that no other members of this "group" to which I belong are incarnated as human.

I was the sole volunteer for this specific task.

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Addendum:

Saturday, April 26th 2025.

During my meditation session at 5:30am, I again asked for further insight into who I truly am. In response I received the following information given whilst in my meditative state.

• I originate from a desert planet [within] the system of Arcturus. The climate is warmer and drier than Earth’s, and although much of the planet is desert, there is vegetation but not to the extent that is found on Earth.

• I am in comparison to the human body, smaller and more fragile, being very light in body weight and construction. My current state of consciousness perceives the human body as a dense, heavy structure, and feels as cumbersome and restrictive as a heavy suit of armour.

• My race is extremely gentle and peaceful -we are [all] connected mentally and emotionally.

• Our emotions, which we do have, are not as intense and raw as that experienced by Humankind. Ours are more refined and purer, emanating on a higher frequency and vibration. Human emotion is far more undisciplined and extreme in its nature and responses.

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For anyone interested, I have now created a new community on Reddit called PortalExperiencer. This portal is a safe and supportive haven for individuals to share their personal experiences regarding a wide spectrum of reality and consciousness phenomena. We welcome accounts related to: NHI, alien abductions, and interaction with Extra-terrestrial Biological Entities (EBE). Expanded States of Consciousness: Contact with higher realms of existence, other dimensions via meditation practices, UAP Sightings and all transformative aspects of the awakening consciousness and disclosure movement.

I will always be posting here, I love this forum and the people that make it such a great place, but PortalExperiencer is also the new home for my posts.

Please drop by, share your own experiences and lets make this community something to be proud of.

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[Heart to heart]

Thank you Little Blue.

Such interesting information and somewhat on the lines of those I have worked with, one of whom has recently been told she is a PORTAL MEDIUM. Does this description resonate with you?

[Little Blue]

Hey Heart to heart, many thanks for reading my latest post. PORTAL MEDIUM. I understand the meaning. Do I resonate with it? Honestly speaking, I do not believe I am at all qualified to make that assumption. I would rather leave that determination to someone better versed and qualified in that field of understanding.

[Little Blue]

As the author, I present this account without definitive interpretation. I invite each reader to draw their own assumptions and conclusions, relying upon their own current level of understanding and awareness to navigate these experiences.

This is a continuation of the information release as described in my previous posts.

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A core component of the alien abduction experience is the phenomenon known as "missing time". This period of amnesia, often discovered only when abductees notice a time discrepancy on a clock, is a nearly universal companion to claims of being paralysed or levitated. Countless narratives in books, documentaries, and personal testimonies describe this scenario, with each episode of lost time reportedly as unique and individual as the Experiencer who recounts it.

I have not been immune to this phenomenon myself, occasionally experiencing what I call "time
jumps"—suddenly realising my perception of reality is flawed. For me, this sensation is akin to a film editor cleanly removing a segment of footage and joining the remaining parts. Yet, in my cases, this splicing of time wasn't clean; I was distinctly aware of the sudden disparity. Indeed, these "time jumps" emphasised the very difference they attempted to conceal.

What follows is just one example of a most recent experience that occurred to me involving "missing time".

Friday, April 25th 2025.

Journal Entry

Late afternoon, 5:15pm. Location: Bedroom.

I was sat on my bed watching an episode of Linda Moulton Howe's Gaia series "Truth Hunter", only about five minutes remained.

I was alert. I was not tired.

I glanced at the wall clock hanging above the television. It clearly read 5:15pm.

A sudden, undeniable shift in my reality struck me as I turned my attention back to 'Truth Hunter', as if time itself had hiccupped. The realisation then dawned on me -I was watching the beginning of the next episode. In the infinitesimal moments it took for me to look at the clock and then return my attention to the television screen, time and reality seemed to have merged, almost seamlessly advancing me past the end of the previous instalment and several minutes into the new one.

Instinctively I looked at the clock again – it now read 5:19pm. Only seconds ago, it had been 5:15pm, with the last four minutes having vanished in an instant.

I was really confused, primarily because a persistent nagging awareness was now present and overriding my thoughts completely, telling me I had been "somewhere else". But where? And why did I feel this so strongly?

Remember my analogy of a film editor cleanly removing a segment of footage and joining the remaining parts. Something I could not comprehend had just happened to me in that segment of my conscious recall which had been "edited out" of my memory. The only signpost to that divergence was my being cognizant of time's "hiccup".

And why couldn’t I shake this feeling –my gut instinct shouting "YOU'VE BEEN SOMEWHERE!", replacing in their absence, all traces of any actual tangible memories or flashes of insight supporting this perception. These had been completely erased.

This was not my first experience with such "jumps" in time, and I found myself in a familiar predicament; one of genuine confusion and bewilderment.

I immediately stopped the current episode and reviewed the final minutes of the previous one. Trying to find some logical explanation to the chaos now running amok with my sense of reality.

The episode played to its natural conclusion without any technical issues or abrupt cuts from the
streaming platform. There was nothing faulty with the content that could explain my total lack of recollection of viewing it.

I was wide awake. I was in truth very awake and alert!

More undeniably focused and alert to my current surroundings than I had been a few moments before this "jump" had occurred. I was also clearly not feeling the typical "sleep drunkenness" normally associated with waking suddenly from having been asleep, so I knew right away that I had genuinely missed seeing that part of the programme.

Though only a four-minute gap exists in my conscious memory, it is crucial not to assume this represents the total duration of the event. If the intelligence orchestrating these "time jump" manipulations possesses such capabilities, my removal from my physical environment and subsequent displacement outside of time itself could have spanned a far more significant period than my current awareness acknowledges.

The experience was bewildering as I struggled to rationalise it, but no plausible explanation ever felt right, so I simply added it to the ever-growing mountain of similar unexplained experiences that have been the mainstay of my life since birth.

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Hope to see you soon.

[Little Blue]

"Transition Portal"

As the author, I present this account without definitive interpretation. I invite each reader to draw their own assumptions and conclusions, relying upon their own current level of understanding and awareness to navigate these experiences.

This is a continuation of the information release as described in my previous posts.

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Tuesday, October 25th 2025.

6am.

I was shown a tall oval stone structure, framed by two tall pillars. I was told this structure was specifically made from Granite rock. This I was told was a "transition portal", the naming of this structure was very precise and relevant to its purpose. It allowed, through stepping through the oval, instantaneous travel to the other side of the galaxy.

I remarked [in thought] "like a Stargate"

"Yes", the response came, "like a Stargate"

I was told that this structure was located in the high desert of Iraq. It was within many ruins. But its actual location has been lost and obscured, however, certain desert Bedouin do know of its location.

Meditation ended.

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[Little Blue]

"Group Consensus"

Monday, December 22nd 2025.

4:45am.

I can only describe this particular meditation as being "very heavy" in energy. I was clearly taken to some other realm, and was immediately met by a tall Mantis being, one that I have seen before during meditation. It seems to be connected to me in some way as the regularity of my perceiving it is definitely increasing.

As previously experienced, it emanates a distinct benevolence towards me. The atmosphere of the place in which I find myself within is peaceful. And on this occasion, I was clearly aware of "others" being present; EBEs, taller than the normally reported height of 3-4 foot, and all with a chalky-white skin colour. Wherever I was, they were [all] clearly aware that I was there. And all present; EBEs and Mantis, were discussing amongst themselves whether I was ready! And there seemed to be a complete group consensus that I was ready, without elaborating or making clear to me, what I was ready for?

No words were spoken amongst themselves. The communication was purely telepathic, and although it was not directed at me at any time, I was fully aware of what was being discussed.

I appeared to be in some kind of ... I do not want to say "craft", because actual visual details were not that clear. They appeared to be deliberately withheld from my ability to perceive them, my surroundings were soft and out of focus. I did ask specifically for, and I quote: "the vail to be lifted" end quote. Why I used this specific terminology I cannot explain, but I was definitely in some enclosed "other environment".

I was then returned to my body with a very real physical jolt, which caused my body to react with a jump - I have previously experienced this same physical reaction during a meditation that I documented where I was taken "somewhere else"; my consciousness removed directly from out of my physical body.

The single takeaway and core message from that thirty-minute journey, is a phrase etched firmly into my consciousness, a direct quote: "You are being prepared to walk with them" end quote.

And as experienced with that previous meditation, upon rejoining my physical body this time I was again overcome by the strong physical sensation of nausea. The explanation for this physical reaction was previously explained to me. As a consequence, although immediately unpleasant, there was no alarm or concern attached.

To summarise, although much detail of my surroundings during this meditation event was obscured from me; beyond the recognition of the Mantis and EBEs being present, that did not seem to be the paramount importance of it. It was my connecting again. It was the raising of my consciousness again.

I did ask the Mantis being for a name, and in turn I was given one but, I am not confident in my receipt or perception of what was offered, so for now, I am keeping it to myself until I receive additional clarification.

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For the sake of clarity and further insight and detail, I am going to share the previous meditation journal entry that I touched upon briefly. Please view it as a clear precursor to the events described above -as I can now see that the two are absolutely connected.

Wednesday, December 3rd 2025.

4:50am.

This following meditation was very different from all preceding ones that I have had.

I cannot overstate the weight of the words I carefully choose now, the significant importance they hold. While each meditation possessed its own unique character and content, this morning's experience stands entirely apart with a staggering and very personal implication I have yet to fully understand or realise.

The most perplexing aspect is the scarcity of recall that I have, unlike all previous mediations. Details literally evade me, yet I possess an absolute, unwavering "knowing" that I was transported. Taken "somewhere else"; removed directly from my physical body.

The implication in that alone I cannot yet grasp, but one that resonates with intense, undeniable intelligence behind it.

The single takeaway and core message from this thirty-minute journey, is a phrase etched firmly into my consciousness, a direct quote: "You are being prepared to walk with them" end quote.

This pivotal phrase is securely held within the single, detailed image I did retain upon my return: a tall, chalk-white EBE—Extraterrestrial Biological Entity. It possessed a large head, disproportionately large eyes, a thin, slender body, and long, spindly arms and legs.

My return from the meditative state was as impactful as the experience itself. I literally felt a sudden drop, a plummeting back into my physical form, seated motionlessly on the sofa. Reasserting myself within my physical body and coming to full conscious awareness was a process in and of itself; and one that came not without a direct physical reaction.

A reaction that was completely distinct and entirely unprecedented in all of my previous and in numerous meditations: a wave of slight nausea, a lingering disorientation. The "somewhere else" was real enough to cause an actual, physical response upon my return.

Addendum: I have since been "told" why I felt nauseous. In the simplest of terms, my physical body reacted this way due to my consciousness having been taken to a level of awareness that vibrated at a vastly higher rate of frequency than that of the physical dimension. Upon my consciousness being returned and again rejoining its physical avatar, this difference in vibration caused the physical body to react with nausea until both were once again in sync with one another.

That made perfect sense.

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r/PortalExperiencer is my brand new subreddit community Please drop by, share your own experiences and lets make this community something to be proud of.

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Hope to see you soon.

[Little Blue]

As the author, I present the following account. I invite each reader to draw their own assumptions and conclusions, relying upon their own current level of understanding and awareness to navigate these experiences.

This is a continuation of the information release as described in my previous posts.

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"An Orchestrated Meeting"

As of November 7th, 2025, a swift succession of personal events, each one triggering the next like falling dominoes, has reshaped my life's direction entirely. This sequence has provided powerful and profound confirmation and testimony to my NHI involvement, interaction, and unfolding purpose. And with it, new people and connections which in turn continue the unending process.

It has not been lost on me through these new associations, that none of these personal events now reshaping the course of my life, have been by chance or mere coincidence. They have clearly been orchestrated by design—the ultimate conclusion yet to become apparent.

One such example I present below when detailing a recent event of mine directly involving those NHI guiding my life’s course.

Tuesday, December 23rd 2025.

I was guided through a dim, unfamiliar corridor, led by a small, chalky white-skinned EBE [Extra-Terrestrial Biological Entity], whose gentle grip on my hand instilled a profound sense of peace, despite our silence. At no time was anything communicated to me from this EBE.

We stepped down 3 stairs into a vast, circular chamber situated off to the right of this corridor. I noticed immediately to my left; a wall lined with sealed and empty vertical receptacles. These were not cryogenic chambers in our normal understanding; they were highly sophisticated vessels that suspended the very passage of time itself, allowing occupants to endure vast journeys without aging a single day.

My attention was directed towards an adult man who now stood before me, his presence quite ordinary yet his face remained impossibly blurred. Each time I tried to direct my sight upon his features, my eyes simply refused to focus, a deliberate, purposeful concealment by the NHI.

Telepathically, the entities revealed that this man—who, like me, had been shaped by a lifetime of NHI contact—was destined to enter my life soon. They had orchestrated our upcoming meeting as a necessity for both of us, hiding his identity only to ensure that our connection would unfold naturally, at exactly the right moment.

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[petra]

Posted by Little Blue (here)
You do not require a label to identify who you are.

The part about not requiring a label really resonates with me.
I was once asked, in my head, "What do you think you are?" and something else replied for me which said "I'm only little". I was LYING
I'm not as little as some might think, and neither are you guys. We all have our own parts to play. Little or big.... doesn't matter.

[petra]

Posted by Little Blue (here)

I myself have experienced strange moments in my own personal perception of time, as though there had occurred a sudden 'hiccup' in reality, which suddenly left me with the confused but definite impression that "something" had just happened (?) -that a section of time had just been excised from my personal memory and the two remaining sections intercepting that 'missing period' had been re-joined together in the blink of an eye like reels of film in a Hollywood edit suite. This has happened to me on several occasions.

Thanks for this excellent description. This is exactly how it feels, and you worded it beautifully. PS: I know I'm still sane too lol

Edit: "in the blink of an eye" is also very apt. It happens so fast. I remember blinking fanatically in the hopes of helping. Maybe it worked, maybe it made things worse. In my case..... I trust the editors.

[petra]

Posted by Little Blue (here)

Posted by Sue (Ayt) (here)
Amazing reads, Richard. Welcome!

Just yesterday Clif High posted an essay which somehow seems to tie in to your hypnotic session responses above.
https://clifhigh.substack.com/p/the-...nual-of-aether

I wonder if the high-pitched screeching sound some describe is how we perceive that vibrational quickening?
This song, at 40 seconds in, captures that tone just somewhat.

Hi Sue (Ayt),

Thank you so much for your genuinely supportive words.

I will definitely look at the Clif High essay you brought to my attention, thank you for this.

The blue beings I have a close affinity with (my kin so to speak) have said that when they speak verbally (and they can verbalise, but prefer to use telepathy), the sound they make is extremely high pitched (and squeaky) sounding to our hearing.

I missed the part about blue beings...
I have a memory of being a blue being. I was blind and female. I was telepathic too which explains how I knew I was blue
I'm curious do you have any connection with Scientology? I have a memory of obliterating the universe similar to whats described in scientology and I am very interested in your memories also. I've recently returned from hiatus so please excuse me while I attempt to catch up.

[petra]

Posted by Little Blue (here)

Posted by pueblo (here)
Can you define what you understand by the term 'human'?

Hi pueblo,

In direct relation to my own expression of this and my own "mission" -I am here to experience what it means to be Human. The emotions: positive & negative. How this species perceives its surroundings, its reality and constructs of such. How it is and feels to be physically Human. Everything that being "Human" and existing within a human society gives the experiencer. I expressed the following under a particular hypno-regression session I underwent: "They cannot experience the Earth experience in their current physical state. So we experience it for them and it's a passing of information. They learn from us what it's like to walk down the street, what it's like to wear clothes, what it's like to eat, breath, sleep, talk, watch the television. Everything that is to do with the Earth existence. They want to know about it -and the best way to know about it, apart from doing it yourself is ... they connect directly into our experiences and our memories. They don't have to experience themselves, we experience it for them".

I hope that gives you a little clarity my friend.

RC.

I've already made several posts and I don't know if someone can combine them for me, I hope you don't mind

Your mission differs from mine. Mine is more like "studying humans".

I have 2 missions, 1. Make sure this never happens again (I think I'm referring to my own breakdown here) and 2. Help the children (because I had a child but he was scammed away from me by child services)

When you say They Learn From Us.. yes I felt at one point I was teaching entities how to be human! This differs a bit with connecting directly I think, it was as if something is there with me as I drive my car for example. Trying to explain what hazard lights are for was funny. "If you're a hazard, you press this button"

Furthermore, I got the feeling "they" didn't just want to learn about being human, they also wanted to learn what it was like to be a car.

Nothing talks to me while driving anymore, but maybe it will again once I've weaned myself off Abilify which is an anti psychotic drug that I think inhibits this kind of interference. I have vivid memories of what I call "sleep driving" and I'm curious if you have had any experiences in a car which you might consider to be interference.