Last Friday, I broke a seven-day water fast with some homemade bone broth. That effort was the culmination of a 103-day commitment to spend far less time in my recliner and on my computer, and, more importantly, to address the chest pains and swelling in my ankles.
I'm on Day 111 now. I've lost 19 kg (42 lb), although I've put a little back on over the last week, which is normal after a seven-day water fast. I'm not new to water fasting, but it's been a long time since I've truly committed to looking after my health. I could still stand to lose at least another 20 kg, but I'm in no rush. I'm still recovering mentally after the big push to reset my body for as long as I could last.
WALKING - I've been doing a lot of walking. Getting out of the house has been good for me. I've worked my way up to being able to stay on my feet for a couple of hours at a time. I now take a camera with me, not my phone, but a proper camera, so I'm not distracted while looking for interesting things to photograph.
I use a small compact superzoom with an image sensor that's smaller than that of a smartphone, but I like the ability to remain unobtrusive while using a long zoom, something I can't do with my phone. I apply digital filters and enjoy the framing, the subject, and finding the light. I find that more than makes up for the lack of image quality.
Things are not always as they seem. I've often enjoyed making the most of lesser things, or getting more out of what many people overlook, dismiss, or simply fail to appreciate.
I still take my phone and will podcast from time to time. In the mornings, when I get up around 4:30 AM, I leave my earbuds at home and spend an hour walking with no devices. That's part of my meditation, for lack of a proper routine. Admittedly, I need to get back on that path starting this Monday. Again... I hit a low after the seven-day water fast, but I'm really glad I pulled it off.
Forgive me if this blurb is out of place. I'm glad I found this forum and just wanted to find a relevant space in which to post freely before focusing on anything more intently.
I'm still trying to find me feet in this forum. I just enjoyed taking in an astrology reading:
"When The Bough Breaks" - NEW MOON at 21°59′ Cancer, Tuesday 14 July 2026, 09:43 UTC
Ang Stoic
Jul 10, 2026
I particularly enjoyed your section on how diluted both our language and the general flow of information have become. It rings so true. On a related but separate note, I sometimes wear my ANC earbuds with nothing playing, not for music, but simply as a shield against the relentless noise this world now constantly outputs when walking outside my door. Other times, I have to use them just to drown out the neighbours as well. Thankfully that is less of an issue for me at this new dwelling.
At any rate, I think starting Monday I will refocus my efforts on my body's health and respect my antenna to all things concerning what's within. Perhaps I will take my camera out again and start a new collection of images under my profile in the new album I have just made.
I've taken a break from geopolitics. I've got a good grasp and I'm not going to get caught up in the hype. What's coming will come. It needs no input from me, other than perhaps whatever healthy connection I can make on my end. I would have reached out in that last thread I just read, but I didn't want to break such a clean thread.
I might perhaps attempt a thread on my latest interests surrounding some of the podcasts I've given time to, though I'm cautious that it might also drain me in some way.
The qualtiy of many in here is way above me, but I would still like to try. The irony is that with that last reading in the link above, I 100% agree in how words today have lost thier appeal. Yet the rate at which they keep comming is problamatic which is why I am being much more selctive in what I take in.
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Here's what I have been mulling over spread acorss a number of sources:
I find the Flavian conspiracy theory plausible. Not as proven fact, but as a framework for understanding how belief systems are engineered for control. I can't say for sure whether the Flavians literally invented Jesus. What I can say is that the pattern, power manufacturing religion to pacify populations, feels relevant to today's mass control.
What interests me more is how the Gnostics, a century later, adopted the same Jesus figure, possibly unaware of his engineered origins (if one is to accept the Flavian conspiracy), and reinterpreted him for liberation. The Flavians shaped a Jesus of submission. The Gnostics turned him into a figure of inner knowledge. The same character, two opposing uses: control versus awakening. To be sure, the Gnostics could have drawn from earlier Christian texts, so there are many variables.
Whether the Gnostics knew they were using a manufactured figure or simply manifesting a Christian facsimile doesn't matter. Their reinterpretation is sincere, and their Jesus became a divine messenger.
That tension, between manufactured belief and authentic awakening, between external control and inner liberation, is what resonates. It's not about proving the theory. It's about recognising a pattern that repeats across religions and the broader politics.
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I know that is all over the place and I've reached my limit in trying to make sense of any direction. But I am in no rush. I remember also thinking how Gnostics and Christians during those earlier times would make for a good Hollywood drama, as do both their narratives, which could as easily borrow from one another as is pretty much the case across many religions. This being yet another dynamic that begs even more questions. Sigh...
But what is not lost on me is the intricate deception management that plays across a number of conspiracy theories. I'm just gleaning, is all.
I see so many patterns now presented in earlier conspiracies before Constantine, which now makes me question so much more. I am not so easily swayed by fanciful and charming words surrounding secret buried vases as the clincher to proving anything, nor the emotional vulnerability of needing to believe in something, needing to belong. I don't doubt the innate conditions, and in my gleaning, I am fascinated at how all the programming works from the level of creation, manufacturing, to the problems, solutions, recruitments, marketing, workshops, roll up... roll up! If you like what you hear... just la la and la.
Out go the earbuds... in comes the camera and back to finding the light.
No flying saucers for me... yet. I have no inclination to look either. I opted out of that movement long ago, having already experienced several bouts of evangelical cults. That's not to say none of it's not real, but just as I have flown around out of my body and had a number of my own experiences... well... ZZZzzz... when you get older, been abused enough times, or played a perpetrator in one's own past, whether in this life or a previous one—and that statement I give no real onus as to real.
I am careful with just how much weight I give anything anymore when it comes to such terms as believe. I sense. That's the best I can describe as I now move through what I sense as my nearing the end... on day 111 I am sleeping a lot better but having dreams once again. They don't frighten me in any way, but they could be coercive to some degree. A distraction to be sure, and something I care less for. I'm done playing with all those doors, yet it is interesting how when I quieten all the noise... what comes to mind in my sleep.
Hmmm... I best hold off on writing anything. All good. I'll revert back to that last read in the astrology thread and put it down to information overload.
( ˵ ¬‿¬˵) Maybe I should do another seven-day water fast.
I really have no idea but open and reading others.
Hope this find others as well as can be in these uncertain times.





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