What's so bad?

[petra]

Posted by Raskolnikov (here)

Posted by petra (here)

Posted by Raskolnikov (here)

Posted by petra (here)
I'm afraid to watch the video! I first heard of this posting in an AI summary I asked Grok to do about Raskolnikov. It thinks this is one of his most important postings and I see why.

Stunning. You think the summary would have something to do with Dostoevsky's character in Crime and Punishment. The post did feel important at the time but now I'm more concerned that Grok is evaluating PA postings. Kind of hits close to home you know. You put yourself out in the public and you become the product. Thanks sister.

It's weird I admit. I summarized myself too and it felt awkward.

I really wanted to be able to contribute but the title of the video is very off putting. That in itself speaks volumes. It's nice to see people interested in darker stuff.

What is "bad" to me?

It's when people know they're doing the wrong thing but they go ahead and do it anyway.

Guilty as charged, doing the wrong thing that is. Got me into a lot of trouble in my youth and late 20's but you slam your head into a wall enough times that you finally learn not to do it. The video still works and centers on the orchestrated invasion of America at our southern border. The whole thing hit me in a very dark and ominous way at the time. Think I was in a dark place and tired of seeing the full spectrum dominance hitting us from all sides you know. A sad state of affairs if that's one of my best postings, lol.

How was your summary?

Maybe your summary will be different if I do it again. I'll PM you. I did one for Squareinthecircle too and he thought it to be accurate but ultimately unfeeling.

I posted mine on the Journey Through Psychosis thread. I just can't link to it from my phone but it's not hard to find. It was very accurate.. eerie even.

I was in a dark place for a while in that thread! Happens to all of us.

As far as I'm concerned someone is watching me (and PA by proxy). I don't know why but this thread is important and thanks for sharing your feelings at all. Someone's listening anyway.. I certainly feel like it.

[Raskolnikov]

Posted by petra (here)

Posted by Raskolnikov (here)

Posted by petra (here)

Posted by Raskolnikov (here)

Posted by petra (here)
I'm afraid to watch the video! I first heard of this posting in an AI summary I asked Grok to do about Raskolnikov. It thinks this is one of his most important postings and I see why.

Stunning. You think the summary would have something to do with Dostoevsky's character in Crime and Punishment. The post did feel important at the time but now I'm more concerned that Grok is evaluating PA postings. Kind of hits close to home you know. You put yourself out in the public and you become the product. Thanks sister.

It's weird I admit. I summarized myself too and it felt awkward.

I really wanted to be able to contribute but the title of the video is very off putting. That in itself speaks volumes. It's nice to see people interested in darker stuff.

What is "bad" to me?

It's when people know they're doing the wrong thing but they go ahead and do it anyway.

Guilty as charged, doing the wrong thing that is. Got me into a lot of trouble in my youth and late 20's but you slam your head into a wall enough times that you finally learn not to do it. The video still works and centers on the orchestrated invasion of America at our southern border. The whole thing hit me in a very dark and ominous way at the time. Think I was in a dark place and tired of seeing the full spectrum dominance hitting us from all sides you know. A sad state of affairs if that's one of my best postings, lol.

How was your summary?

Maybe your summary will be different if I do it again. I'll PM you. I did one for Squareinthecircle too and he thought it to be accurate but ultimately unfeeling.

I posted mine on the Journey Through Psychosis thread. I just can't link to it from my phone but it's not hard to find. It was very accurate.. eerie even.

I was in a dark place for a while in that thread! Happens to all of us.

As far as I'm concerned someone is watching me (and PA by proxy). I don't know why but this thread is important and thanks for sharing your feelings at all. Someone's listening anyway.. I certainly feel like it.

Oh my f@cking God! I just typed out two long responses to your last post petra and they both vanished like farts in the wind! I'm so goddamned angry with technology and this whole world at this moment that i want to throw this God forsaken blasphemy of technology (my computer) right throught the window! How may times do i have to write this!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

So earlier, in the second draft, I wrote:

Ok, now I'm a little sad. I just typed out the longest response to your post petra and then tried to attach a meme to it and everything vanished. I poured over a half hour into that mf'er! I'm a little pissed off at this point, and no that doesn't mean drunk you brokeback brits and aussies, it means angry, though I am a little pissed I'm going to try one more time, but if AI's going to continue to F my world then F it all, i'm done with tech and outta here. And big love to all the mods but I hate that I have to write everything out in a word document in order not to lose everything i've written for the last half hour with the push of a button. Honestly, I know you guys work hard but wft!!!

I just lost a half hour or more of my life and some damn good innuendo, but alas, let me try in Word and see if i can transfer it when I'm through...

The gist of the story went something like this: I’ll be honest, I completely forgot about this thread, but thanks to petra’s occult AI conjurings she’s managed to bring it back to life. So since I started this thread, one of my most important postings according to Grok, let’s see what our little friend has to say about me. After petra informed me where to find the summary I’d asked for, she was having some trouble linking it through her phone at the time, she pm’d me my Grok summary which I share with you now:

As I suspected it didn't list the Why so bad? Thread when I tried again. Here is your summary

Raskolnikov (user ID 33960) is a long-time, active member of the Project Avalon Community Forum. 
He joined on 23 July 2018. His profile lists location simply as “Here.” As of late 2026 he has roughly 2,800 posts and has received a high number of “thanks” (over 24,000 in recent snapshots), indicating he is a well-known and frequently appreciated contributor. 
Posting style and topics
He is a regular poster across multiple sections, especially those dealing with conspiracy research, elites/deep state, current events, spiritual questions, personal experiences, history, and alternative narratives. Typical themes in his contributions include:
• Questioning mainstream narratives around control systems, depopulation, media manipulation, and historical cover-ups (e.g., giants, ancient civilizations, “the Old World”).
• Sharing and discussing videos/interviews (SGT Report, Max Igan, etc.) on dark or unsettling topics such as child trafficking and systemic corruption.
• Engaging thoughtfully (and sometimes at length) with Orthodox Christian theology, scripture, and related spiritual questions when interacting with other members.
• Reflective, sometimes darkly humorous or existential posts about the nature of reality, good vs. evil, and the sense that “something is amiss.”
He often starts threads or posts source links with personal commentary, invites discussion (“Thoughts please…”), and replies in a conversational, introspective style. He has described himself in posts as someone who has long felt an intuitive sense that something dark underlies the surface of the world, and he uses humor as a “pressure release.” 
Name origin
The username is taken from Rodion Raskolnikov, the protagonist of Fyodor Dostoevsky’s Crime and Punishment. The name derives from the Russian raskolnik (“schismatic”), traditionally referring to members of the Old Believer movement that broke from the official Russian Orthodox Church.
The member profile page itself requires a login to view full details (join date, post count, etc., are visible in public thread posts). No public biographical details beyond forum activity (real name, exact location, occupation, etc.) appear to be shared.

Yes, it managed to be pretty accurate and I was rather impressed with a few lines:

• Questioning mainstream narratives around control systems, depopulation, media manipulation, and historical cover-ups (e.g., giants, ancient civilizations, “the Old World”).
• Sharing and discussing videos/interviews (SGT Report, Max Igan, etc.) on dark or unsettling topics such as child trafficking and systemic corruption.
• Engaging thoughtfully (and sometimes at length) with Orthodox Christian theology, scripture, and related spiritual questions when interacting with other members.
• Reflective, sometimes darkly humorous or existential posts about the nature of reality, good vs. evil, and the sense that “something is amiss.”
He often starts threads or posts source links with personal commentary, invites discussion (“Thoughts please…”), and replies in a conversational, introspective style. He has described himself in posts as someone who has long felt an intuitive sense that something dark underlies the surface of the world, and he uses humor as a “pressure release.” 

Dark humor as a pressure release. Thanks Grok, now fetch me a beer. I typed this all out in a more amusing fashion in the first and second responses. Now I'm so tired, it's so late, I'm so fed up, that i still can't believe this parasitic thing called technology robbed me of two hours of my life. I'm beginning to understand the frustrations of our own home-grown bombers, "Yes, Mr. Kaczynski, what was the address for your package?"

Sorry petra, this is not aimed at you but this unjust world in general; been sitting at this computer way too long and I'm done. Here's a little fun to counter my current unfun...

















Shoutout to the Aussies!

[petra]

Occult AI conjurings hahaha

I would have never found this thread if it wasn't for ThePythonicCow changing the search, and he used AI to help with performance as well (Claude).

[Raskolnikov]

Had to take a step back. After some introspection, I’ve decided to return to my youth by giving myself a timeout. Maybe Arcturian108 was right because I felt my dark passenger take the reigns that night. Got my mom’s emotions and anxiety and my father’s temper, cursed from the start. Not sure those two were meant to marry.

Apology to the mods, it’s all about the reaction, the only thing we can control. Technology shouldn’t make me that upset, but it does. Couple that with the horsesh!t we’re being bombarded with on the screen on a daily basis and by the end of the day I feel like I’ve been in the ring with Mike Tyson. And honestly, everything is so divided that both camps are dug in and unwilling to even entertain an opposing view. Do people still change their minds today?

And so I will return to nature, which around here includes a healthy dose of cow and goat sh!t, lose myself in my duties, use my hands and work the soil, get some creative projects off the ground, and just escape the tech-haze that’s continually clouding my thoughts. When anger enters the picture, it’s time to step away, figure out why, and do the work.

Anger is unacceptable. It’s subjective, unreasonable, and easily misunderstood and misinterpreted by who(m)ever may be on the receiving end (and I call myself an English major). Apologies to anyone I may have offended. I’ve always been the passionate type, stubborn and defiant, but a bit old for tantrums.

If something captures my interest or they finally use one of those new “wildfires” on D.C., I may drop back in. I just need some time to get centered. With whatever’s barreling down the track right now, being centered and balanced and establishing a strong connection with your Creator is going to be of extreme importance and I feel that strongly enough to realize I still have work to do in that regard.

To the few friends and acquaintances I’ve made please feel free to pm me anytime and I will most assuredly get back to you. I’ve enjoyed our conversations and appreciate the friendship. Bill, I recently saw you in a thread standing next to and displaying some sort of free energy device you said was operational. Now that’s what I’m talking about. Oh for the day when our world’s great minds can bring forth such inventions without being bought, blackmailed, or assassinated. It’ll change the world in a heartbeat. Please be careful Mr. Ryan, I don’t want to read about a return of the men in black.

Keep up the good fight y’all!



(So interesting because the only novel I wrote begins with me ascending the stairs to my third floor San Francsico flat and ends with me descending the stairs of a rattrap hotel in Frankfurt, Germany. What took place between makes the mythological symbolism extremely accurate.)

[Mike]

Posted by Raskolnikov (here)
Had to take a step back. After some introspection, I’ve decided to return to my youth by giving myself a timeout. Maybe Arcturian108 was right because I felt my dark passenger take the reigns that night. Got my mom’s emotions and anxiety and my father’s temper, cursed from the start. Not sure those two were meant to marry.

Apology to the mods, it’s all about the reaction, the only thing we can control. Technology shouldn’t make me that upset, but it does. Couple that with the horsesh!t we’re being bombarded with on the screen on a daily basis and by the end of the day I feel like I’ve been in the ring with Mike Tyson. And honestly, everything is so divided that both camps are dug in and unwilling to even entertain an opposing view. Do people still change their minds today?

And so I will return to nature, which around here includes a healthy dose of cow and goat sh!t, lose myself in my duties, use my hands and work the soil, get some creative projects off the ground, and just escape the tech-haze that’s continually clouding my thoughts. When anger enters the picture, it’s time to step away, figure out why, and do the work.

Anger is unacceptable. It’s subjective, unreasonable, and easily misunderstood and misinterpreted by who(m)ever may be on the receiving end (and I call myself an English major). Apologies to anyone I may have offended. I’ve always been the passionate type, stubborn and defiant, but a bit old for tantrums.

If something captures my interest or they finally use one of those new “wildfires” on D.C., I may drop back in. I just need some time to get centered. With whatever’s barreling down the track right now, being centered and balanced and establishing a strong connection with your Creator is going to be of extreme importance and I feel that strongly enough to realize I still have work to do in that regard.

To the few friends and acquaintances I’ve made please feel free to pm me anytime and I will most assuredly get back to you. I’ve enjoyed our conversations and appreciate the friendship. Bill, I recently saw you in a thread standing next to and displaying some sort of free energy device you said was operational. Now that’s what I’m talking about. Oh for the day when our world’s great minds can bring forth such inventions without being bought, blackmailed, or assassinated. It’ll change the world in a heartbeat. Please be careful Mr. Ryan, I don’t want to read about a return of the men in black.

Keep up the good fight y’all!



(So interesting because the only novel I wrote begins with me ascending the stairs to my third floor San Francsico flat and ends with me descending the stairs of a rattrap hotel in Frankfurt, Germany. What took place between makes the mythological symbolism extremely accurate.)

Anger is justified all the time! We probably need more rants, not less. It sounds like your PR agent wrote this, so you wouldn't get cancelled. I love you Raskolnikov. You're one of my favorites, for what it's worth. You have my email.

[RunningDeer]

Raskolnikov, I finished reading the thread and I see I’m way off topic.
I deleted the passage and will find a more appropriate thread.

[Sue (Ayt)]

The same tech frustrations happen to the mods, too, Raskolnikov. Believe me! I try to copy as I go along, or type it all out on text-edit before pasting the post in, but have had too many GRRRR moments to mention, losing some time consuming posts.

Also, time-outs from the forum can really help, in my opinion. Lots of members disappear for a break, and them come back refreshed when they feel ready.
It helps me to restore balance, cause I could quite easily turn into a giant, blobby, screen-addicted blowfish.


(Hope the image made you laugh, Ras, cause it sure helps dissipate anger quickly!)
Be back soon, friend.

[petra]

Posted by Raskolnikov (here)
Sorry petra, this is not aimed at you but this unjust world in general; been sitting at this computer way too long and I'm done.

Those were fun!

We will miss you during your break. I kinda feel like I need one too, something feels off around here...

I'm being watched. I have to be careful what I say.

I dare not take any breaks though, 'fraid I might miss something important.

[Raskolnikov]

Posted by Mike (here)
Anger is justified all the time! We probably need more rants, not less. It sounds like your PR agent wrote this, so you wouldn't get cancelled. I love you Raskolnikov. You're one of my favorites, for what it's worth. You have my email.

Ha! I had Grok write that up for me, how'd you know?

Thanks Mike, I've really enjoyed some of our exchanges, not counting the pistol misfire in our recent duel, hand still smarts. Always enjoyed reading your stuff because even if I don't agree it usually makes me laugh. A valuable commodity these days. Love back atcha brother!

[Raskolnikov]

Posted by Sue (Ayt) (here)
The same tech frustrations happen to the mods, too, Raskolnikov. Believe me! I try to copy as I go along, or type it all out on text-edit before pasting the post in, but have had too many GRRRR moments to mention, losing some time consuming posts.

Also, time-outs from the forum can really help, in my opinion. Lots of members disappear for a break, and them come back refreshed when they feel ready.
It helps me to restore balance, cause I could quite easily turn into a giant, blobby, screen-addicted blowfish.


(Hope the image made you laugh, Ras, cause it sure helps dissipate anger quickly!)
Be back soon, friend.

That made me laugh, thanks for the feedback. Good to know I'm not the only one with the GRRRR moments. Enjoyed many of our exchanges as well. Cheers sister!

[Raskolnikov]

Posted by RunningDeer (here)
Raskolnikov, I finished reading the thread and I see I’m way off topic.
I deleted the passage and will find a more appropriate thread.

Hey, thanks again for those 5 exercises. They are not easy, especially at first. My legs were literally shaking. But they're getting easier and I'm actually seeing muscle definition in my quads that I haven't seen since my 20's. You're a life saver. No old guy wants to be the one with chicken legs at the summer bbq. Cheers sister!

[Raskolnikov]

A fun one. Since this thread began with me recalling an old flame, thought it’d be ok to bookmark it with another. Vicus and I have been having a spirited discussion about the opposite sex. He’s very versed in archetypes and symbolism so it’s been fun comparing histories and experiences. I hit him with a line from Bukowski and he fires back with Homer and the Fall of Troy! Ok, point made my friend, nations have fought wars over a single woman. Just when I’m finally convinced all wars are banker wars.

Then yesterday he hits me with a low blow by sending me a picture of an absolute goddess. One of those eastern European types, finely sculpted with that absolutely perfectly unblemished golden-olive skin, and she’s wrestling an alligator in a low cut dress that’s nearly falling off and he says, “See ya later alligator.” See, low blow. I told him that was a cheap shot.

Posted by Vicus
haahaaaaaaaa.... well,you got already your 5 minutes peace... isn't difficult to give you incentives...

Posted by Raskolnikov
I don't know where you found that picture but that's ridiculous. That, my friend, is what's commonly referred to as my kryptonite.

Bet some of you were hoping to see the goddess. Better left to the imagination, different for everyone. But ultimately, it's a deep appreciation for beauty. It's built into us. It inspires and fills us with wonder again. Don’t know about you, but I could sure use more inspiration and wonder in my life. Wars once fought for beauty, and now a war on beauty itself. I for one refuse to live without it, even if I have to create it myself. This one always makes me smile.

"At the bar we commenced the game, tip-toeing and dancing about each other artfully, cautiously flirting and dropping hints, testing boundaries, probing for strengths and weaknesses, all the while feigning indifference. From the corners of my eyes I studied her. Everything about her said class: the stylish and becoming clothing, the polished golden skin, the exquisite curves and exotically round and regal face, the high cheek bones and perfect bone structure, the flawlessly straight hair of the orient spun in golden bronze with its magnetic and phosphorescent sheen, the poise with which she carried her tall and slender figure, the low, sultry, if slightly masculine, voice, that magnificent smell. She was trouble, yes, but classy nonetheless. Like a child reared to inherit a kingdom, she told me she was of Danish and Mongolian descent with an air of detachment and haughty pride, as if this were a rare and prized pedigree and as such I should surely take note while to her it was all of no consequence. And while I found her privileged air amusing, in her defense and to her credit, I must say I found the results downright intoxicating, quickly beguiling me after even the tiniest initial hint of a taste. Standing close to her I felt invincible, superhuman, like a soul who'd crossed the universe and traversed the depths of hell to prove himself, broke out and earned his redemption to be greeted by a golden goddess come in person to reward him for his herculean efforts. I could tell she was game but, as of yet, couldn't quite completely fathom why, but I quickly buried this modesty and in my own offensively charming manner became the man she wanted me to be."

[Casey Claar]

Following.

[Vicus]

Raskolnikov: Include die hard Romantics need a call sometimes...

Homer was a Poet... not a Historian...

The REAL Troy war has total different story...

... The third was trade, and this is where the geography becomes deliciously ruthless, because if you happened to control the spot through which all trade had to pass, you could sit there collecting tolls like a glorified highway bandit with a crown.

That spot, the chokepoint of the ancient world, the logistics hub through which every caravan and every ship had to navigate, was a place called Troy.

Troy - yes, that Troy, the one with the horse and the Helen and the whole sordid, blood-soaked epic that Homer would later immortalize.

For centuries, wars were fought over Troy, not because of any woman's face, however lovely, but because controlling Troy meant controlling the flow of wealth across the known world. If you held Troy, everyone paid you.

It was the toll gate of civilization. (YES,Bankers wars...sorry dude...)

The Greeks who eventually sacked it were not, despite what the poets would have you believe, engaged in some noble rescue mission. They were pirates.

From: https://www.bibliotecapleyades.net/c...manidad434.htm

[Raskolnikov]

Thanks Casey. We’re all trying to find our way through the maze and you’ve been doing the work and leading the charge. Nothing but love, support, and encouragement.

And Vicus, you’re conceding all wars are banker wars? I’m not as well versed in the classics as you are. I’m ashamed to admit I never read The Illiad. That one book you’re supposed to read but never do. It sat there in my bookcase staring back at me like a neglected puppy for decades. Loved the reptile/snake symbolism you incorporated into your goddess pic. Seems some things never change eh? Are you implying I’m still miserably failing that test?



I admit, it was a lot more fun before I realized they’re plugged into the mainframe. Thanks for all your subtle and not-so-subtle reminders my friend. Stay in touch. And Mike, if you’re ever in the Rockies...

Enough chit-chat. Love you all and see you when the work is done.



That has to be the dark soul talking right...

[Vicus]

Raskolnikov: I just wanted to say that the Troy "story" from Homer,was just a Blockbuster from his poetic literal compose ...and The Odyssey too! (fictions)

Another "Blockbuster"are Hamlet,Camelot,Lord of the rings ,Don Quixote,and so on...(all of them just fiction),but Class entertainment...books and/or movies...and on and on...

This Troy movie is good,ignore the critics, there are always some...and then if you want more read the book...https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Troy_(film)

at best is Troy 2004 Director's cut...or not...depends many factors...check all of them...