Here and Now...What's Happening?

[astrid]

Sleep eludes me dammit .
Feel much more grounded, but still exhausted.

Don't stress a out the food talk I meant that in jest.
Today was a challenge, hostess duties required
that I provided lunch
for dad and an ex who dropped in after dad.

Normally I would have cooked up a storm
but being very olfactory i knew the smells would
have thrown me off . So just bought bakery lunch
for them . Pies etc. When I had to re heat things
later on the smells through the house were making
me feel sick.
They say after fasting you really get to
know what foods your body agrees with and what it
doesnt . We mostly all have sensitivities to varying
or lesser degrees . I found out that all be deadly
nightshade group are too inflammatory for me .
So my love for curries and chilli had to go.
Although I have got some tomatoes growing
this year . Guess in can still make curries minus
chilli too , spicy but just not hot.
I like use heaps of cummin and coriander and garlic
and always have lots of pots of fresh herbs on hand.

It occurred to me the other day that it's vital
for me to always have herbs growing , feels a bit
past life -ish actually that .

Anyways just ramblings ,
Kundalini very noticeable tonight .
Both from feet to heart and other way,
head to heart flow. I think my throat is stil
a weaker point, will make a note to work on that.
Also quite a lot of heat increases spasmodically,
Mainly in my head but sometimes whole body .

Been sleeping with some citrine is helping
With night time clean ups .
Might get up and rehydrate and try sleep again .

Back to hermit mode from tomorrow
will be good to just rest and reflect .

Stay in love
Astrid

[ThePythonicCow]

Posted by Fred S. (here)
If there's an issue with abusive pm's then it's a different story, but that is not the stated reason here.

In such actions, the mod team does not usually state all its reasons or present all the evidence on which it relied.

[ulli]

Posted by Paul (here)

Posted by Fred S. (here)
If there's an issue with abusive pm's then it's a different story, but that is not the stated reason here.

In such actions, the mod team does not usually state all its reasons or present all the evidence on which it relied.

Thanks for clarifying that, Paul. I've also learnt lately that with some people neither evidence of injustice,
nor apology and plea for understanding can lead to any reconciliation.
Some things and people are better let go of....The real damage was done long before Avalon even existed...
the triggers which are provided by our little posts, however, can bring a lot of the ballast that has been carried for years
out in the open. Unfortunately an Internet community is not in a position to do all that repair work.
Some can be helped with therapy. It doesn't always work, however.
Spirit has the last word.

[transiten]

Posted by modwiz (here)

I have to say that I found the neurolinguistic message here a bit daunting. I will send you some of the distant energy healing you don't believe in because you asked for it and I would like you to feel better.

"Neurolinguistic"? An Aquarian invention? What does it mean? Neurosis something? "Distant" healing how appropriate mr aquarian mod-wit being nr.1

Thankyou All so far, and there came "The Dark" into the "Light" i somehow foresaw. Actually i think this was my prime reason for joining the thread since i knew what transits were going to hit me and ulli didn't do astrology anymore and so i found her here. Even if i can interpret my own transits one wishes someone to give an alternative perspective and just as IRL it's easier to look into anothers chart than into your own...

[WhiteFeather]

Guided Healing - Golden Light - Energy Body Cleanse

Sending some light and healing to you great peeps on P.A.

Source: https://youtube.com/watch?v=nDk9P-6Khns

[ulli]

Posted by transiten (here)

Thankyou All so far, and there came "The Dark" into the "Light" i somehow foresaw. Actually i think this was my prime reason for joining the thread since i knew what transits were going to hit me and ulli didn't do astrology anymore and so i found her here. Even if i can interpret my own transits one wishes someone to give an alternative perspective and just as IRL it's easier to look into anothers chart than into your own...

That is very true, transiten, and I wish I could have been there more for you.
This illness of yours now is the final stage of your loss and grief process.

In bio-energetics I also learnt that grief is stored in the upper chest, just like you said.
Beat your chest with your fists, to loosen things up there, gorilla style. I know it helps, even if at first it brings out a lot of tears.

I also wish that I could have been warned of my own events recently...
Even though the Sun-Pluto square was hitting me that day, I ignored it since there are several such angles in one year.
But there must have been another biggie somewhere which you might have spotted.
Maybe you would have directed me to pay more attention to my recent Saturn square sun in mid October, which I had thought I was clear of now.

Since nothing too difficult happened then I must conclude
that mid October was already the beginning of what took several weeks to unfold,
and looking back I must admit I did feel a bit like my thread was under attack by a troll,
and wasn't too sure what to do about it. I should have consulted you earlier.
Could I have helped you over your loss? They say shared grief becomes smaller, shared joy becomes larger.
Saturnian things are often slow brewing.
I lost my 17 year old cat on January 1st...my cousin January 12th, and mid January lost two really good Internet friends, one was hit by a train near Vancouver, the other one died of cancer within 6 weeks of diagnosis. Then a huge shock when Dr. Brian O'Leary suddenly died, I had met him several times, he always stayed with friends when he came to visit Costa Rica. So this has been a year of loss, and yet also spirit has given me more tentacles with which to stretch into the world behind the veil.
A tiny stray kitten appeared at the end of April...very traumatized, it took a whole month before it let me touch it...now it is making our life very happy with it's naughty antics. When I call my old cat's name it responds. But mostly I just call it Kittiekittie.

[transiten]

ulli

Thankyou for sharing! All the things we have been through is The Truth, the light and the dark, good and bad, selfinflicted or projected and nothing we should forget or repress. The challenge is to step out of the Victimconsciousness, but that should not be interpreted as not being vulnerable. Difficult to be strong and weak not getting stuck in one role.

Yes ulli as a voice therapist i know that tapping someones upper back can bring out tears...There's a saying in Sweden that the children of the shoemaker always have the "poorest" shoes...

Also Saturn has this quality of "hanging on" as for Mars is always in a hurry, the energy manifesting at least 1-1½ days in advance as I experience it.

[Calz]

Posted by transiten (here)
WOW Calz What an energyboost, just what I needed...

One of our valued Villagers enjoyed this so why not share it with the rest of the Village???

From James Gilliland and posted in the Ranch thread:

Source: https://youtube.com/watch?v=O2l5Z9T_x8A

[ulli]

So much is being cleared now. Just now got a Skype from my husband in Costa Rica.
He just finished composing a letter addressed to American Airlines stating the nightmare
story I went through due to their website not being up to scratch.
Can you believe that when one books a flight from Costa Rica they don't give an English language web page.
So I went on their international page to book my flight.
Paid with a credit card.
Totally by accident, when I went back to check the schedule.
I discovered the flight had been cancelled. It didn't even say whether just my part, or the whole flight in general.
I call the 800 number
Long wait. They then tell me to call the local office in San Jose Costa Rica. That call lasted nearly 2 hours.
It turned out that they cancelled my reservation for 2 reasons...
I booked on the English language page, so they assumed I was booking from within the US
which meant they assumed I was paying through a US bank account credit card,
which meant there was a difference of $4 with the tax,
and so they just cancelled the reservation, without informing me via e-mail.
So they would correct it.
Two days later, one day before travel....same thing.
My reservation was cancelled.
Another 1 1/2 hours on the phone before it got cleared up.
The flight cost me $160 which was the tax...the rest I paid with my free miles.
The second hitch came because they don't have their Advantage Miles thing in order.

When I got to the airport I had everything printed out to make sure I had a green light.
This time another problem...
because I have a European passport I have a visa waver, but need an online thing called ESTA
which the airlines notified me of.
I got it two years ago. Well, there was nowhere that said that after two years it expired.
During the booking of my flight there was nowhere that even requested nor reminded me of ESTA.
All of this for travel between two countries that have nothing to do with the US.
But AA have killed all attempts for airlines flying between Central and South America and the Caribbean. All those flights go through Miami.
If a Costa Rican want to fly to Argentina they have to go via Miami.
Guess who is behind all of that??
Anyway, my husband fired off this great letter pointing out the inconvenience caused to travelers
by not having the AA website make provisions for proper communications.
The woman at the check-in desk was unusually hostile. I don't normally get unfriendly treatment.
At the end of it all, after they took me to some far-away office inside the airport to apply for the new ESTA form online
I found out that this sort of thing is happening all the time.
Her anger had nothing to do with me, but was aimed at a system that wasn't functioning properly.
She was just fed-up with her job.
In the end she was very friendly, when she discovered I wasn't going to get mad at her, due to the frustration all of this had caused me.
Communications break-down between US Homeland Security and AA.

Anyone who read this far, wish us luck. Thanks for reading this far.
Your own travel experience may one day benefit from a positive outcome.

[Calz]

Have not had a chance to listen yet ... in the "hear" and "how" ... but with so many people in the Village interested in crystals perhaps this is worth sharing.

David Sereda is always an interesting interview and Mel does a good job at Veritas.

Source: https://youtube.com/watch?v=IN-taxThluk

S y n o p s i s

You might want to put on your physics hat to listen to this Veritas interview. And be patient. While David Sereda spends the entire first hour explaining the definition of "quantum communication" in full science mode - transistors and crystals and bio-photons and Molybdenum - things get gripping when he mentions that the quantum communication device he built sent a question out on August 20th, and a voice answered him. A voice from the Pleiades.

Some people have all the luck.

"We received your transmission. The technology you invented works," the voice said. "What do you want to ask us?"

Turns out this was the second time in his life that Pleiadian friends were investing in Sereda's education. At seven years of age - in 1968, Berkeley, California - Sereda, and a lot of other people, watched a UFO hover clearly above them. The following week, Sereda says, "They were showing me how things work, about super conductivity."

Spirituality and science converge easily in Sereda's world. His explanations segue from black ops to the Bible, from directed energy weapons to the Pyramids. He was director of the Tesla Foundation. He's worked for the Department of Defense.

Angels talk to him. He knows how to imbue stones with energy. And one day he is going to tell everyone how they too can communicate with other intelligences in the universe.

In the fast second hour, Sereda weighs in on the end of the Mayan calendar; the false alien invasion; Sedona, Arizona as ET portal; that the Challenger was shot down, and lots more, but Sereda never does divulge what the Pleiadians told him this past summer. That's all on a new DVD, Reverse Engineered, which comes out in January.

He does say that we are in the midst of a huge cosmic event. And that the motherships are watching.

[PurpleLama]

Source: https://youtube.com/watch?v=JgSl32t_kuM

[Calz]

Nice message PL

Thanks for sharing.

[Ernie Nemeth]

PL, that's exactly how I've felt my entire adult life: God said No!

Everything I've wanted, which is the only thing I want, I've been turned down. No angels come to me. No visions. No luck at all. No success.

And the harder I try, the louder the no! It's so frustrating. I no longer know what to do. I cannot afford to try because the downside is severe - measured directly by my efforts. At the start of this year I decided that I would push the envelop. I began extensive yoga/meditation. But I had no food, no money. I faught the feeling of panic for two months. But no work came for that entire period. And since I would not get into a panic about food and rent - I came down with a sudden rash instead, and that turned into boils. So, reluctantly, I gave up my training. Within a week the rash went away and work came in.

Then a few months ago I decided to try again. I began a vigorous training regime and again my life fell to pieces. No work, no money. Until I was starving again and close to panicking. Then I quit the training and work and money came in again.

This is a theme in my life. The harder I try, the worse my life gets. I don't understand it. It's giving me a complex. Why am I not worthy? That's what I ask. Which alternate me in what universe is getting all the glory while I balance the equation with my bungled life? My potential was enormous but I managed to accomplish absolutely nothing concrete. This hurts me immensely.

Lately I've been wondering if perhaps I'm part of the dark side. There seems to be no other explanation. Only bad happens to me. Oh sure, good happens - as long as no money is involved. Or success. Or a business opportunity.

I don't get it. People come here and call themselves visitors. They talk of other threads I've never heard of like what?, Shaman thread, warrior thread, there was another one but I forget. Why am I always the last to know? Another recurring theme. Why am I always left out? I try to stay above these thoughts but they weigh on my soul.

I feel useless. I feel like I've failed. I feel like I am not wanted by this universe and the light team. I feel like I should change sides, if such a thing were possible for me. Even the Torontonian Avalonians have dropped me and will not answer when I call. Why? What did I do to them? Or didn't do?

God said no indeed.

[starsha]

Posted by Ernie Nemeth (here)

I don't get it. People come here and call themselves visitors. They talk of other threads I've never heard of like what?, Shaman thread, warrior thread, there was another one but I forget. Why am I always the last to know? Another recurring theme. Why am I always left out? I try to stay above these thoughts but they weigh on my soul.

I feel useless. I feel like I've failed. I feel like I am not wanted by this universe and the light team. I feel like I should change sides, if such a thing were possible for me. Even the Torontonian Avalonians have dropped me and will not answer when I call. Why? What did I do to them? Or didn't do?

God said no indeed.

Hi Ernie (hug)

For what it's worth, in my experience a feeling of 'not important' often comes before a shift in consciousness. At least that seems to be a repeating pattern that i have observed in friends and clients over the last few years. The thing i have been seeing a lot of lately in my circle of friends and such is that a lot of people are going through a shift in consciousness from a 'personal' and individual level of consciousness to an impersonal and unity level of consciousness.

From the perspective of unity consciousness in a way the individual is 'not important' and impersonal consciousness doesn't really 'care' about it. Just like how the air doesn't 'care' if you breathe it. Yet on another level, everything we do here as an individual soul is stored somewhere in consciousness (sometimes called the akashic records) and so our experience of a unique individual has purpose and does matter.

What i have seen in a number cases is that when someone has that shift in consciousness from personal to impersonal, there is often a feeling of desperation right before. A feeling of wanting to 'matter' but feeling a sense of rejection from life or being left out. From everything i have seen in the last 2 years, i would guess that you are getting ready to go through a shift in consciousness or perception and you are feeling the growing pains of that.

Just know that you ARE loved,

big hugs from Starsha

[ulli]

If only I had known, Ernie. You have always had a huge slice of my heart.
But unless you open yours and tell what is going on with you, here and now,
how can one then make a meaningful bond or connection?
Let's keep the dialogue box open.
You have come to the right place...here and now.
This is the space that is yours, and yours alone.
No one can ever take that away from you.
Here you can discover that in reality you have always been rich.
Poverty and scarcity are all illusions.

[Carmody]

One of the problems of actual knowing and being is that one is stepping out of karma and into consequence. From this also comes complacency and a lack of learning. One has a given life that they incarnate into, a flow in time and it bears the hallmarks of the previous lives and lessons, with in it. A continuance, if you will. Major points are taken along and given further opportunity to clear themselves, to evolve, to change with the flow of action-reaction. To remain as they were (sort of, ie a culmination of their original situation as an entry point or 'hangover'), to further the being involved, with regard to development of a full, evolved personality.

When this series of avatar has evolved enough, then it too will serves as a vehicle for incarnation of the evolving beings who had a hand in it's creation. Build your car, your vehicle, at the same time you build yourself. Then...over the generations of lives....finally... live in the 3d temporal universe/dimension, as the being that you are. Both dimensional and timeless, and as a window into the 3d temporal dimension of 'this space'.

It's shop class. Today, kids, we learn how to build our own cars. And perhaps we will learn something along the way.

[ulli]

Posted by starsha (here)

Posted by Ernie Nemeth (here)

I don't get it. People come here and call themselves visitors. They talk of other threads I've never heard of like what?, Shaman thread, warrior thread, there was another one but I forget. Why am I always the last to know? Another recurring theme. Why am I always left out? I try to stay above these thoughts but they weigh on my soul.

I feel useless. I feel like I've failed. I feel like I am not wanted by this universe and the light team. I feel like I should change sides, if such a thing were possible for me. Even the Torontonian Avalonians have dropped me and will not answer when I call. Why? What did I do to them? Or didn't do?

God said no indeed.

Hi Ernie (hug)

For what it's worth, in my experience a feeling of 'not important' often comes before a shift in consciousness. At least that seems to be a repeating pattern that i have observed in friends and clients over the last few years. The thing i have been seeing a lot of lately in my circle of friends and such is that a lot of people are going through a shift in consciousness from a 'personal' and individual level of consciousness to an impersonal and unity level of consciousness.

From the perspective of unity consciousness in a way the individual is 'not important' and impersonal consciousness doesn't really 'care' about it. Just like how the air doesn't 'care' if you breathe it. Yet on another level, everything we do here as an individual soul is stored somewhere in consciousness (sometimes called the akashic records) and so our experience of a unique individual has purpose and does matter.

What i have seen in a number cases is that when someone has that shift in consciousness from personal to impersonal, there is often a feeling of desperation right before. A feeling of wanting to 'matter' but feeling a sense of rejection from life or being left out. From everything i have seen in the last 2 years, i would guess that you are getting ready to go through a shift in consciousness or perception and you are feeling the growing pains of that.

Just know that you ARE loved,

big hugs from Starsha

Hi Starsha.
I really appreciate you joining us here.
Just before I read your post I also had a vision of Ernie being on the threshold of a doorway into a great new beautiful world,
the one he has been looking for all along.
And just a couple of days ago Carmody came and gave us all a great lecture about how to help people into that brightly-lit room.

You can take Ernie's left hand and I will take his right hand and together we can show him how close he is to meeting his Beloved.
Bummer that the Internet is so slow here again, I'm missing out on all these videos, so I can only guess what they are saying.

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Ernie, do i think i know how you feel?

"If i didn't have all this bad luck, i wouldn't have no luck at all".......i can't give you any advice, i don't want to but i hear you. I don't want to reveal the whole story of my life, although i've spread some of it out on the forum...but there is a meaning to it all even if some things happening to many humans are almost unbearable to take in. Did they choose a life of starvation or torture as a gift to others to discover and practice compassion?

I'm too tired to elaborate, fighting a cold, my spirits raise and fall but i'm thankful for this village waterhole....Gosh, that made rhymes:

[starsha]

Posted by ulli (here)

Posted by starsha (here)

Posted by Ernie Nemeth (here)

I don't get it. People come here and call themselves visitors. They talk of other threads I've never heard of like what?, Shaman thread, warrior thread, there was another one but I forget. Why am I always the last to know? Another recurring theme. Why am I always left out? I try to stay above these thoughts but they weigh on my soul.

I feel useless. I feel like I've failed. I feel like I am not wanted by this universe and the light team. I feel like I should change sides, if such a thing were possible for me. Even the Torontonian Avalonians have dropped me and will not answer when I call. Why? What did I do to them? Or didn't do?

God said no indeed.

Hi Ernie (hug)

For what it's worth, in my experience a feeling of 'not important' often comes before a shift in consciousness. At least that seems to be a repeating pattern that i have observed in friends and clients over the last few years. The thing i have been seeing a lot of lately in my circle of friends and such is that a lot of people are going through a shift in consciousness from a 'personal' and individual level of consciousness to an impersonal and unity level of consciousness.

From the perspective of unity consciousness in a way the individual is 'not important' and impersonal consciousness doesn't really 'care' about it. Just like how the air doesn't 'care' if you breathe it. Yet on another level, everything we do here as an individual soul is stored somewhere in consciousness (sometimes called the akashic records) and so our experience of a unique individual has purpose and does matter.

What i have seen in a number cases is that when someone has that shift in consciousness from personal to impersonal, there is often a feeling of desperation right before. A feeling of wanting to 'matter' but feeling a sense of rejection from life or being left out. From everything i have seen in the last 2 years, i would guess that you are getting ready to go through a shift in consciousness or perception and you are feeling the growing pains of that.

Just know that you ARE loved,

big hugs from Starsha

Hi Starsha.
I really appreciate you joining us here.
Just before I read your post I also had a vision of Ernie being on the threshold of a doorway into a great new beautiful world,
the one he has been looking for all along.
And just a couple of days ago Carmody came and gave us all a great lecture about how to help people into that brightly-lit room.

You can take Ernie's left hand and I will take his right hand and together we can show him how close he is to meeting his Beloved.
Bummer that the Internet is so slow here again, I'm missing out on all these videos, so I can only guess what they are saying.

Yes Uli!

i am in!

Lets walk him into that brightly lit room together. sounds very beautiful to me.

[ulli]

He's gone again. No longer on-line.
I could make some astrology comments here,
but after recent events I decided it would be best to keep my big mouth shut.
Unless people ASK for advice it's not a good idea to volunteer it.
Lesson learnt.
Ernie if you are reading this, be assured we are here for you.
Expressing suffering is one thing, and asking for help is another thing altogether.
Both must be done, for any real change to take place.
When asking for help one must be specific, that's another important part of self definition.
Because a general cry for help might bring some unwanted results.