Here and Now...What's Happening?

[astrid]

@ Carmody ... I think I'm better at working remotely,
my focus suffers when I'm doing face to face work.
A friend recently had major surgery, i worked with
him for 4 weeks prior then i was "in" the surgery
and worked a lot with the energy in the room
to increase focus, etc. It was an 8 hour
operation, and tricky. The surgeon said to him after
that it was the best one he had ever done.

And recently with my Mother, i knew that this time it
was serious. I had a dream, where there was three knocks,
knocking dreams are always big warning
dreams. She was bleeding internally, and they couldn't stop it,
then when they did her veins all collapsed. Her body was black
from the bruising. She has been in hospital for 6 weeks ,
and she comes out on Saturday. Both her specialists told my
Father that they don't know how she did it.

Now as part of the daily intense work i was doing on her
i located an ancestor, my great great grandmother, who had
never crossed over, not one part of her. She was still attached to
the female linage, and creating quite a lot of power loss
and depression for us. So i helped her cross.

I had spoken to my Mother previous to this and
she was her usual negative, complaining, always focusing on the bad stuff, self.
After i did that cross over, i called her and she was in great positive spirits.
Now.. it gets even more positive, she is coming out on Saturday,
still walking on sticks, and is going to see a Andrew Llyod Weber thing
in Melb that night, which is a Bus trip and lots of people.
Very out of character of her. And also very ambitious
seeing she has been so ill. But, hey.. its pretty good news.
If that's not full power back, i don't know what is.
My Dad is a bit taken aback, but as i said to him today,
its great she is so optimistic.

But yeah... remote work, easy. Live 3D is where i need to
sharpen up.

[9eagle9]

I want to hear more about this. Is this something you've always had a sorta of social phobia as you referred to it or did it begin to develop when you started to live in a more highly expressed way?

Posted by astrid (here)
last night i was dreaming of eating Peking Duck, lol.

Ok my mission for the day, and this is how silly my social phobia gets at times.
My front "nature strip" as we call it here in Aus, the strip of grass between the foot path
and the road, is 2 ft high. But i'm freaky out about mowing it, Why (And it makes no sense,
as i walk my dogs all the time, so i can leave the house), but it's a "being seen" thing, being exposed.
Which i guess is based in vulnerability, or something, not sure, but whatever it is
it has to go. I had the same issue in my last place, even worse, because all the land was
at the front very showy Victorian garden, but i hardly ever went out there.
Irrational fears, time to say goodbye to them, me thinks.
So i hereby pledging to the village that i will tackle this one today.
Deep breath, first step is see if the mower starts.
I have a push mower, which i love, but that means more time out there.

[astrid]

@ 9eagle9 , i have a long history of trauma, both at home and bullying at school. Then a string of abusive relationships.
I'm working with this right now with a Shamanic practitioner, so far we have found one past live origin for it,
conducted soul retrieval for that, and other one from around my birth when i was unsafe because of my
Fathers raging. So I'm getting there, I'm in a position now where i can really tackle these things more head on.
Fasting is helping to with my clarity.

But for sure I'm getting more sensitive, which is what I'm aiming for anyways, i just need to get a bit better at
opening and closing the gates when i need too.

So its a bit multi-faceted, and as such I'm tackling it from a few angles.

Having long periods where i don't leave the house also, gets me out of practice
for dealing with 3D, especially over winter.

[ulli]

I think most of us agree that we are here to be of some kind of service. The trappings of this planet aren't that fantastic that one would want to get stuck here.
I have looked at some pretty paradisical places and they all still have their plumbing problems.
So if you have an ability to do energy work from a distance, yet still be this dimension I would think there is a need for that.
Because forcing yourself to go deeper into 3D might cause some of your abilities to be lost.
Anyway, if you ever do have to you can always call on me for help, and I'll be zapping you with energy from my little hideyhole. Equally, I get nervous before I travel so I might be calling on your services.

[astrid]

@ Ulli, I know i will never be an extrovert, nor do i want to be.
I'm more aiming to be able to walk more between both worlds,
rather than just being stuck in one. I know that way i can connect
more with like minded others in the physical, and also be able to
help more in 3D.
It's more about finding a balance rather than being so extreme in one direction.
And as you know i am wanting to go off and study next year ,
so this is partly towards that aim. And that is a big step, traveling without getting
lost, working in a group for 8 days, and eating an sleeping with them,
including shared rooms.
-That part i might have to chicken out on, i can't see myself getting any
sleep with someone else in the room. Which means i won't
get the most out of the course, without sleep I'm a wreck.

I have been talking to the trainer about my challenges, and she is
very encouraging an supportive of me going. I just want to do the most
between now and then to maximize my chance of success.

[eaglespirit]

Moreso than ever I feel and see Us at a Spiritual Roundtable passing Energy back and forth and around and Helping...Above and Below and Beyond!
Everyone is opening up to Helping...Those silent Watchers too!
The Waters all around and through Mother Earth are flowing purer and purer carrying Higher Messages...Everything IS Becoming more integrated!
I Love You All!

[ulli]

Posted by eaglespirit (here)
Moreso than ever I feel and see Us at a Spiritual Roundtable passing Energy back and forth and around and Helping...Above and Below and Beyond!
Everyone is opening up to Helping...Those silent Watchers too!
The Waters all around and through Mother Earth are flowing purer and purer carrying Higher Messages...Everything IS Becoming more integrated!
I Love You All!

That is my dream EagleSpirit, because a united group is so much more than just their number.
Nine individuals who no longer argue, debate, not even do just innocent, friendly banter,
but send each other energy, honor and love one another, share their reality and build new ideas on top of the inspiration received...
such a group can become in strength like 81, which is 9x9.
And that is what true integration is about. Become as one.

[Ernie Nemeth]

Geeze, stay away a single day and so much happens, here - and now.

Carmody, your story is amazing. Ulli, what a gift you are! Astrid, incredible sharing you are doing.

But so sad to hear Starsha might be leaving us. She has helped me alot. We spoke on the phone yesterday, and she is as genuine in real time, let me just attest. I look forward to many more talks with her. She has presence. I will miss her, here.

I love all you guys.

[Calz]

Anyone in the here and now up for a few UFOs??? Short clip with some *super sized* objects of interest around the Sun ...

Source: https://youtube.com/watch?v=Gl0Y-um5Qn4

[starsha]

Posted by Ernie Nemeth (here)
Geeze, stay away a single day and so much happens, here - and now.

Carmody, your story is amazing. Ulli, what a gift you are! Astrid, incredible sharing you are doing.

But so sad to hear Starsha might be leaving us. She has helped me alot. We spoke on the phone yesterday, and she is as genuine in real time, let me just attest. I look forward to many more talks with her. She has presence. I will miss her, here.

I love all you guys.

awwww

I'm always here for you Ernie

*hugs you*

[ulli]

Posted by Calz_Avaretard (here)
Anyone in the here and now up for a few UFOs??? Short clip with some *super sized* objects of interest around the Sun ...

Source: https://youtube.com/watch?v=Gl0Y-um5Qn4

I believe there is more going on around the sun than just Mercury. My Internet connection is too slow today to be able to watch that video.
Maybe someone else could comment. The thing to remember is the enormous size of the sun, so often these objects are planet-sized themselves.
I studied James Horak's work and believe his theory that those huge intelligent objects are there for our protection and benefit.
Not all higher intelligence is from evil aliens or from oppressive conspirators.
There is a balance behind all the goings-on. Or else we could not even exist.

[ulli]

Posted by starsha (here)

Posted by Ernie Nemeth (here)
Geeze, stay away a single day and so much happens, here - and now.

Carmody, your story is amazing. Ulli, what a gift you are! Astrid, incredible sharing you are doing.

But so sad to hear Starsha might be leaving us. She has helped me alot. We spoke on the phone yesterday, and she is as genuine in real time, let me just attest. I look forward to many more talks with her. She has presence. I will miss her, here.

I love all you guys.

awwww

I'm always here for you Ernie

*hugs you*

Grouphug time.
I'm not a huggy huggy type
but love virtual hugs.
They smell much better.

All my 3 D life I got hounded after meetings
by scratchy-beard guys who stuck their sweaty faces into mine
without checking first for my consent.
Old age is going to be one way to feel safe in a 3D environment
as being ignored is nearly a given. One of the only consolations of being over 60.

[PurpleLama]

Source: https://youtube.com/watch?v=w5et0AFlgxY

[Calz]

Posted by ulli (here)
I studied James Horak's work and believe his theory that those huge intelligent objects are there for our protection and benefit.
Not all higher intelligence is from evil aliens or from oppressive conspirators.
There is a balance behind all the goings-on. Or else we could not even exist.

Horak

What you said yesterday regarding our influence on the Sun

Don't even think about geting Libra started on balance ...


Caveat ... bad boys know these things quite well and are pushing the envelope to create fear and misery (ie adding to intensity of sun activity).

2nd Caveat ... what if a nice burn-off is what is needed for Gaia to cleanse (followed with her bath of course)???

3rd Caveat ... if we are going to experience a "split" do the gemini twins get seperated???


Balance

[Carmody]

Posted by ulli (here)
I think most of us agree that we are here to be of some kind of service. The trappings of this planet aren't that fantastic that one would want to get stuck here.
I have looked at some pretty paradisical places and they all still have their plumbing problems.
So if you have an ability to do energy work from a distance, yet still be this dimension I would think there is a need for that.
Because forcing yourself to go deeper into 3D might cause some of your abilities to be lost.
Anyway, if you ever do have to you can always call on me for help, and I'll be zapping you with energy from my little hideyhole. Equally, I get nervous before I travel so I might be calling on your services.

Therin lies the trap for me.

I try to give the people I meet what they need, or what they feel they need. Most of my contacts now with strangers are mini psychotherapy sessions. But then again, I drove cab for 5 years. and THAT is one 10-15 minute session, one after another. My contacts are designed to push forward the issues within them to bubble them to the surface. If not today, then... tomorrow.

To push the idea of simple and honest opening of the self via doing it as a 'natural act' of 'normal communication', as if everyone does this at all times. Perfectly normal and only weirdos would not get my undercurrent, is the feeling and flow I give them. I give the a window of understanding that type of living and being...as a human norm. Some think I'm being severely self affected or egotistical. However, they cannot fail to get the message, it is only a matter of time before it percolates out of them. For if the idea exists in their mind, via 'monkey see' (they have witnessed)..it is literally only a matter of time, before subconscious recall and subconscious gearworks ends up bubbling this to the surface, within them (monkey do). I've been doing this since I was a kid... and consciously, since about the age of ..14? Or so. Monty Python, for example, forces people to 'witness' via the hook of humor.

Only when I withdraw does the deepest aspect come out. Otherwise I'm stuck doing the job in 3D, which is frustrating, due to delayed response. Saving souls from loss and destruction, directly, 'In situ'...well, I'm not sure that there is a more powerful form of doing such, regarding gaining 'instant gratification' for a given job done. To meet another's pain and loss, on has to go there and be there, then have the strength to pull both out. Thus the price, which is, over time, less of an issue than one would think.

[Carmody]

Posted by ulli (here)

Posted by starsha (here)

Posted by Ernie Nemeth (here)
Geeze, stay away a single day and so much happens, here - and now.

Carmody, your story is amazing. Ulli, what a gift you are! Astrid, incredible sharing you are doing.

But so sad to hear Starsha might be leaving us. She has helped me alot. We spoke on the phone yesterday, and she is as genuine in real time, let me just attest. I look forward to many more talks with her. She has presence. I will miss her, here.

I love all you guys.

awwww

I'm always here for you Ernie

*hugs you*

Grouphug time.
I'm not a huggy huggy type
but love virtual hugs.
They smell much better.

All my 3 D life I got hounded after meetings
by scratchy-beard guys who stuck their sweaty faces into mine
without checking first for my consent.
Old age is going to be one way to feel safe in a 3D environment
as being ignored is nearly a given. One of the only consolations of being over 60.

"Don't wash, Josephine, don't wash!" -Napoleon Bonaparte

[Calz]

Carmody ... you have my vote for the most interesting soul on the rock ... fwiw




After scrambling my brain trying to follow some of your amazing threads ... it warms the heart when you hang out here in the village and give us simple villagers a taste of what you are experiencing.

[dan33]

Posted by Carmody (here)
Found this photo of my home town. This lake is in the middle of the town. There, in the background, is the tower I climbed, high on blotter acid, and meditated as the sun went down. Warm light wind, summer breeze. Acid will increase the connectivity in your neutral complex by an average of 20%. I was in this space, this place, young... and a full life of mystery and unknowns in front of me. A place of desolation, but also of breathtaking beauty. One could walk nearly 500 miles in any direction, and never meet a single person. In some directions, over 4000 miles. knowing me, I was probably thinking of this tune, at the time. I was 16 years old. it was a bizarre combination of being about 140+ years of experience of both conscious and unconscious connection as child - and overlay. My friends shortly afterward had nicknamed me 'the librarian' due to my extensive knowledge. (compared to theirs, for their age). I tend to not, as you may have noticed ...let on my location, and such. I thought you might like this photo. I know I'm grateful for it.

In the lyrics it says,"When I was a child, I had a fever, and my hands felt like two balloons".

Well, I had a fever just like that, where reality kept fading in and out, non stop rushes, for days. That fever broke loose my Kundalini, besides the mediation of the void, the highest form of meditation... that I had accidentally come to, the stilled breathing method. The ones the monks use when they leave a non-decaying corpse. I was 8 years old. Later on, in reading, as I read quite a bit, I found that this was the age that they tended to have the new Dali lama's (or monks, specifically) 'active' themselves (I can't quite remember the context). Always an interesting thing, that. What about that age is connected to such things? What part of development brings that out?

"When I was a child
I caught a fleeting glimpse
Out of the corner of my eye.
I turned to look but it was gone
I cannot put my finger on it now
The child is grown,
The dream is gone."

I had already, at age 16, spent 3 years as a holy terror tearing down my life, twisting everything, tearing everything down, trying to find that starting point that would bring something new, something like that - back. I was numb. You have to be at the bottom to find the desire, the direction, for the top. Clean slate, I reckoned.

I spent the rest of my life up to the age of 36 trying to get that back, chasing it down, through every kind of stress and pressure I could bring on myself.. And I finally did find it again.

Nice! Thanks Carmody

...and i love this song

"When I was a child
I caught a fleeting glimpse
Out of the corner of my eye.
I turned to look but it was gone
I cannot put my finger on it now
The child is grown,
The dream is gone."

Source: https://youtube.com/watch?v=9936-P2YhKw

[ulli]

As you know, Carmody, I have a full 6th house. Which is the Virgo equivalent. Service and helping are a compulsion one is born with, and the first hard lesson is that not everyone wants to be helped.

My second lesson came from the MC in Aries, (MC is the mid-heaven of the chart, the indicator of one's professional attitudes)
Having MC in Aries doesn't only make me want to have control of my work, i.e. no more bosses after age 21, but impatient about results.
I went from knitwear (slow production) to beading necklaces and bracelets (fast production).
But the main problem is the impatience I feel when people don't get what I have to offer.
Unlike Cancerians who don't mind repeating seventy two thousand times 'don't put your dirty shoes on the sofa...'

The taxi driver as therapist...that reminds me also of hair dressers...the limited time at one's disposal to get heard.
I always had cool taxi drivers in NY, even though people had told me they were so rude...not my experience
Once I was taken from Manhattan to JFK by an Iranian lawyer who had become a taxi driver in NY.... a real thinker,
and who shared lots of good advice freely.

[Calz]

Here it is here and now.

A song for the village.

Amazing people are pouring out their hearts in the most remarkable ways.

What is it about this thread???

Source: https://youtube.com/watch?v=o9Or4QGI80Y