Here and Now...What's Happening?

[Cottage Rose]

Posted by Nora (here)
This time of year for me now is strange. My mom passed on some years ago. For a long time we battled wills.... on different levels. It appeared that i was my father's favorite for a long time..... but all of those years he drank and was violent -what a lot of with her was that i was angry at her for not doing something about it -i mean my siblings and i were just kids so blamed i her and was terrified of him...... Plus he grew up during the depression so there was this scarcity base playing its part too.

I spent the last year of her life with her. That Christm sas i wheeled her around in a wheel chair through the stores. It was a hell of a year for her she was in and out of the hospital 6 or 7 times. The last time she went in shee spent 13 days in there went into a coma on the operating table and died 2 days later.

I worked w a gestalt therapist over the family issues and dramas that i was was still emeshed..... My mom and i were able to become good friends and had a great relationship but it took time and a lot of work.

So i miss her this time of year for her was always magical

Nora

We are all related

I understand exactly what you speak of Nora. Whatever occurred....
Those moments of connection...... live on in our hearts.

[astrid]

Yes the children or no children dilema , but for me it
was very clear . I knew that I would never have any
even though various males used various ways to try
trick me into entrapment through pregnancy .
One even going into a major grief meltdown when I
made my position more than clear. A string of women
had terminated pregnancies with him but still he didn't
think for one second it was a pattern and about him.
I knew with him it was about control and that it
would be a prison sentence .
My experiences growing up left me with the full
knowledge that having children comes with the
highest responsibility . Because i was
so broken and so was my ancestral line i was
adamant that the buck stopped with me.
If I achieved nothing else I wanted to make sure
no more abuse continued down this line.

And I don't regret it for a second .
Probably makes me the crazy dog lady but
so be it

[ViralSpiral]

[astrid]

Here and now - a summer storm brews after
a sultry hot Aussie day. I had a friend drop in
for Japanese food and a glass of bubbly .
That's my Xmas done and dusted.
Dogs both panting in the heat , Louis was
a bit more perky this morning but he still has the
wobbles. I have been feeding him up to put more
weight on him , back to puppy food and three times
a day. Least he is eating .

Serious thunder claps now and light rain,
just lovely .

[astrid]

[jorr lundstrom]

Ladies, I love your honest way of describing the experiences youre carrying.

And Viral, I love the bunch of Passer montanus, including the cocky male. LOL

Source: https://youtube.com/watch?v=997RTKzc39c

[Lisab]

Guys I need to ask for healing energies to be sent to my little sister please. She was taken to hospital last night, 21 weeks into her pregnancy. The baby is still inside her and her contractions have stopped but her cervix is still dilated and very open. The baby, a little girl is alive but the doctor's have told her its just a matter of time.
I believe in miracles as I know we all do here. Please pray. My sister's name is Abbie, she wont mind me telling you that. As some of you here already know, she lost a child prematurely earlier this year. Thankyou x

[astrid]

Abbie is in my thoughts and prayers,
please keep us updated.

Much love
Astrid

[modwiz]

Posted by Nora (here)
This time of year for me now is strange. My mom passed on some years ago. For a long time we battled wills.... on different levels. It appeared that i was my father's favorite for a long time..... but all of those years he drank and was violent -what a lot of with her was that i was angry at her for not doing something about it -i mean my siblings and i were just kids so blamed i her and was terrified of him...... Plus he grew up during the depression so there was this scarcity base playing its part too.

I spent the last year of her life with her. That Christm sas i wheeled her around in a wheel chair through the stores. It was a hell of a year for her she was in and out of the hospital 6 or 7 times. The last time she went in shee spent 13 days in there went into a coma on the operating table and died 2 days later.

I worked w a gestalt therapist over the family issues and dramas that i was was still emeshed..... My mom and i were able to become good friends and had a great relationship but it took time and a lot of work.

So i miss her this time of year for her was always magical

Nora

We are all related

Oh yes, mothers. Xmas time was always difficult with her. Poor, tortured, headstrong mom, spreading the pain. Old news and very well dealt with, no sweeping things under rugs or wounds unattended to. I have developed a very healthy relationship with her since she crossed over. Much of it a natural progression that might have occurred had she stayed on planet. Her passing and the sense of lost opportunities was a catalyst. It was a quick shift of seeing my self and her in a very different and more clear picture. The sense of loss lasted a few minutes. The relationships we forge with other spirits do have a very long shelf life. When you talk the spiritual talk, death of loved ones and parents gives you a sterling chance to walk the walk.

It is nice to be able to take a decade and a half of what were once perceived as hellish xmas times and throw them in the cosmic recycler. When we walk this Earth as broken and beaten up humans, sh!t happens. Once that perception is achieved it is time to fix yourself, forgive whoever you feel wronged you, or made you feel like and victim, take your power and walk this beautiful planet with purpose and love.

My xmas gift to mom is lots of love and acknowledging a still strong connection that laughs at Death. She resides knowing that all ills have been resolved and she is free to pursue whatever lives, on or off planet, that her path takes her on. I do not need another meat dance with her. Karmic account zeroed from my side of the equation.

Obviously, this could go on for a great length. Happy Holydays. This Solstice is one to remember.

[ulli]

Posted by jorr lundstrom (here)
Ladies, I love your honest way of describing the experiences youre carrying.

And Viral, I love the bunch of Passer montanus, including the cocky male. LOL

Source: https://youtube.com/watch?v=997RTKzc39c

That 'cocky male' could just as easily be a female with vertigo.

[ulli]

Posted by Lisab (here)
Guys I need to ask for healing energies to be sent to my little sister please. She was taken to hospital last night, 21 weeks into her pregnancy. The baby is still inside her and her contractions have stopped but her cervix is still dilated and very open. The baby, a little girl is alive but the doctor's have told her its just a matter of time.
I believe in miracles as I know we all do here. Please pray. My sister's name is Abbie, she wont mind me telling you that. As some of you here already know, she lost a child prematurely earlier this year. Thankyou x

I prayed for Abbie and her little baby.
Could it be that she has a subconscious fear of 'blowing up'?
Maybe she needs positive affirmations...saying over and over
'I am accepting the baby growing inside me and will hold it for as long as is necessary.'
And then be calm and accepting of whatever outcome....

[ulli]

Posted by astrid (here)
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Posts like this one make me acutely aware of how obsessively curious I really am.

[1inMany]

Rolled out of bed at 6am. Eyes are scratchy, and my body is asking my mind "what's the deal?" I have two minds this morning, one is sleepy and wishes to crawl back in bed, the other wants to start this magical day. Woke up with good energy tingling in my chest, good sign and much better than having the pull in my stomach (which is my own symptom of lower energies swirling). Wondering if energies will be flipflopping all day. Remembering my Mom today. Feeling nostalgic about my brothers and sisters, and feeling the love I have for those younger selves. Before they made their own choices and became so much different. Excitement is in the air. Much to do today...baking and cooking...spending time together because we want to not because we have to. Even cleaning house will be a big togetherness activity today, and my kids even look forward to that lol. Will put much effort into paying attention to my bubble and surrounding my home. I see a nap in my very near future. Please, bipolar, mind your manners today.

[ulli]

Posted by modwiz (here)

Posted by Nora (here)
This time of year for me now is strange. My mom passed on some years ago. For a long time we battled wills.... on different levels. It appeared that i was my father's favorite for a long time..... but all of those years he drank and was violent -what a lot of with her was that i was angry at her for not doing something about it -i mean my siblings and i were just kids so blamed i her and was terrified of him...... Plus he grew up during the depression so there was this scarcity base playing its part too.

I spent the last year of her life with her. That Christm sas i wheeled her around in a wheel chair through the stores. It was a hell of a year for her she was in and out of the hospital 6 or 7 times. The last time she went in shee spent 13 days in there went into a coma on the operating table and died 2 days later.

I worked w a gestalt therapist over the family issues and dramas that i was was still emeshed..... My mom and i were able to become good friends and had a great relationship but it took time and a lot of work.

So i miss her this time of year for her was always magical

Nora

We are all related

Oh yes, mothers. Xmas time was always difficult with her. Poor, tortured, headstrong mom, spreading the pain. Old news and very well dealt with, no sweeping things under rugs or wounds unattended to. I have developed a very healthy relationship with her since she crossed over. Much of it a natural progression that might have occurred had she stayed on planet. Her passing and the sense of lost opportunities was a catalyst. It was a quick shift of seeing my self and her in a very different and more clear picture. The sense of loss lasted a few minutes. The relationships we forge with other spirits do have a very long shelf life. When you talk the spiritual talk, death of loved ones and parents gives you a sterling chance to walk the walk.

It is nice to be able to take a decade and a half of what were once perceived as hellish xmas times and throw them in the cosmic recycler. When we walk this Earth as broken and beaten up humans, sh!t happens. Once that perception is achieved it is time to fix yourself, forgive whoever you feel wronged you, or made you feel like and victim, take your power and walk this beautiful planet with purpose and love.

My xmas gift to mom is lots of love and acknowledging a still strong connection that laughs at Death. She resides knowing that all ills have been resolved and she is free to pursue whatever lives, on or off planet, that her path takes her on. I do not need another meat dance with her. Karmic account zeroed from my side of the equation.

Obviously, this could go on for a great length. Happy Holydays. This Solstice is one to remember.

Modwiz, you just gave me a major assignment which could help me with a break-through.
I only have one son, Aquarius. His relationship with me is on and off, like the moon.
He was born with Saturn square moon, which speaks volumes about his relationship to his mother.
The need to restrict, maintain distance, aloofness.
Equally my Pluto moon square which shows intensity, possessiveness, passion...yet I have to keep it under a tight lid as I realize one cannot ever make an Aquarian do something he isn't volunteering.
Still, it would have been nice to get just one call from him since he knew that I was sick.
Now Modwiz post. No more meat dances with mother....ever again? There's a scary thought.
Yet if I were to have that thought about my own mother...whom I still miss every day....still, there is a feeling of relief.
This is one area where I have to do some more figuring...that whole karmic dance thing...so confusing.

[astrid]

Bah, humbug!

[astrid]

Source: https://youtube.com/watch?v=yN4Uu0OlmTg

12.24am Australia
Happy Xmas everyone
the war is over.

[eaglespirit]

Each of You have hit upon some emotional aspect of my own growth and healing which went galactic in January '07
...losing my son '03,
...blind(at age 36),alcoholic(sober at 55) father
...mother that raised 8 of us with selfless passion
...dysfunctional/functional loving brothers and sisters that excelled in their own life choices.

I was the only child that was cared for pre-school by an elderly couple down the street, they became my second parents to the pre inner knowing of mom and why she was reluctant to have them help but made the decision anyway and had little choice because of work schedule.

After the anger subsided of many life roulettes...I could only be grateful for the immense gifts of love throughout my years and then that higher gift of wonder and wisdom on that Nipmuc hill 5 years ago.

I , too, could share on and on...but synopsis is telling enough.

Each one of us has so much to give once we awaken to the receiving!

...
Lisab, I wish Abbie the highest good at this time!

[astrid]

Posted by ulli (here)

Posted by astrid (here)
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Posts like this one make me acutely aware of how obsessively curious I really am.

I was trying to post a gif and it wasn't working.. i just fixed it.
( Thanks Paul)

[ulli]

Cool pictures of snowflake magnified x3500

http://www.2loop.com/snowflakemag.html


It's Christmas, after all.

[9eagle9]

Astrid, a close friend of mine is a dog groomer and she would assure you that you are not a crazy dog lady.

Crazy dog ladies bring their dogs in for hair extensions, dye-jobs, and to have their toe nails panted. My friend maintains the dog would probably rather spend a Saturday afternoon with it's owner than being tortured in a dog salon.....