Here and Now...What's Happening?

[modwiz]

Posted by Carmody (here)
All the home cooking I had to endure for a week has caused me to cook, just a bit. However I don't peel my potatoes. How such a thing could freak some people out. Ewww! Unpeeled potatoes! ucky! However...the skins are the good part, the healthier part.

It made me think of Wes Craven's younger half brother, Wilbert Craven...who tried to follow fame, and get some of that gravy...on his plate, to follow in his Brother's footsteps. The formula, sadly, did not work twice.

Good try, though.

I think peeled potatoes is just more work to remove a part I really enjoy. I stopped peeling potatoes when I had my first apartment and cooked for myself. That would be in 1972.

[modwiz]

Posted by 1inMany (here)
I saw a video recently of a lady who was saying that nature can and should be the charge of our individual batteries. We can get enough energy from the sun, the trees, the grass, the water, and the air to replenish ourselves. Currently, human beings take energy from each other when they feel depleted. But that just feeds a cycle. After spending more time outside, and absorbing what I could of the sun, I believe that. That also explains why there are certain people who...for lack of a better word...demand to speak to me constantly, and why I am exhausted after spending time with them. I have learned to distance somewhat, but that angers these other people because then they feel I am detached emotionally. It's a catch 22 when it's so close to home.

consequently, here and now...numb

I am unapologetic to people who suck my energy and want to talk to me about drivel and that includes my wife. If you want to talk to me you need to have something to say and it can't just be pissing and moaning kind of stuff. People need to grow up and get over themselves.

Moon in Aries, I'm on fire. LOL

[modwiz]

Posted by astrid (here)
I have a stack of old pics of me somewhere.
When i had my hat studio there was a photographer in
the building and we often did barter work, he using me
as a model for promo work and me using him for
hat shots. Although i soon feel in love with the art myself
and before long i was shooting my hats myself with a classic
Nikon F2 that my BF at the time had bought for me for
Xmas. I still have a bit of a collection of old cameras,
one of them is a camera that takes square format,
like a poor mans Hasselblad. I found that one in
a second hand shop for $15, and most of my
photographer friends tried to buy it off me.

I might post some pics if I'm feeling brave a
bit later.

Haha.. I googled Hasselblad to make sure i got the
right spelling, and second on the drop down list was
Hasselblad potatoes.

You made me feel like posting a funny picture from some years back, about 1997.

This was my shapeshifting phase. I did it all in a two week period from the New to Full Moon.
The long, to shorter to shortest, for me.

I am wearing the same lounge pants in pic 1 and 3.

[astrid]

Totally Mod, i cant handle complaining, drama and venting just for the sake of it.
If they want solutions i will sit up all night and all day if i have to , to help them
shift. But if they just want to stay in the same cycle and use me to vamp off,
I'm pretty brutal and set strong boundaries. Mind you its taken me a very long
time to get here, and not feel guilt. But dumping the Christian programming
helped alot with that process.

I cant do anything for anyone unless they are ready.
In fact jumping in when they are not, there is a very real
danger of blocking their cause and effect path.
In a word that's enabling. People normally have to
experience the full blow of consequences before they
get it and then commit to growing up.

[1inMany]

People need to grow up and get over themselves

Modwiz...yes! yes, yes and yes!!!!! Hasn't been going over too well, but I'm totally there.

[modwiz]

Posted by astrid (here)
Totally Mod, i cant handle complaining, drama and venting just for the sake of it.
If they want solutions i will sit up all night and all day if i have to , to help them
shift. But if they just want to stay in the same cycle and use me to vamp off,
I'm pretty brutal and set strong boundaries. Mind you its taken me a very long
time to get here, and not feel guilt. But dumping the Christian programming
helped alot with that process.

I cant do anything for anyone unless they are ready.
In fact jumping in when they are not, there is a very real
danger of blocking their cause and effect path.
In a word that's enabling. People normally have to
experience the full blow of consequences before they
get it and then commit to growing up.

Thank you for the clarity here. Like you I am willing to assist in problem solving. Whether people are interested in that shows up quickly. If they're not in for some work I'm out of the conversation. Some people just need to complain, and I understand that, but I'm not your huckleberry there. Find somebody who does the drama dance.

[1inMany]

Oh lordy, Astrid,

intense, passionate, very vivid, touch, smell,
taste sounds, full color, and X rated encounters.
And all night.

That's the Kundalini speaking? Maybe mine's up & running and I just didn't know what it was. Boy, do I feel better. Phew. Any other things you notice because of it?

[Marianne]

For my buddy Calz.

Source: https://youtube.com/watch?v=2HVO4vldgf0

[1inMany]

If they want solutions i will sit up all night and all day if i have to , to help them
shift.

Oh my gosh, yes I will also. Somehow, that is being mistranslated. On the one hand, I am responsible for that. I need to be strong like you guys and have a boundary that doesn't shift. It seems that I can do that sometimes, but others I get sucked in not seeing what's coming. On the other hand, it seems like it is also something pushing against me.

It seems to take a lot out of me to interact with anyone, and I'm working on beefing up for that. But really I don't understand why that happens. Do you think that everyone is really getting that much stronger? Is that possible? I know the times they are a changin.' But I'm still so early in terms of learning things that my brain is trying to understand and there is insufficient material. Oh, there's plenty of stuff out there, lol, but I would have to read for a week and wade through so much bs that it isn't really tempting.

[modwiz]

Posted by 1inMany (here)

If they want solutions i will sit up all night and all day if i have to , to help them
shift.

Oh my gosh, yes I will also. Somehow, that is being mistranslated. On the one hand, I am responsible for that. I need to be strong like you guys and have a boundary that doesn't shift. It seems that I can do that sometimes, but others I get sucked in not seeing what's coming. On the other hand, it seems like it is also something pushing against me.

It seems to take a lot out of me to interact with anyone, and I'm working on beefing up for that. But really I don't understand why that happens. Do you think that everyone is really getting that much stronger? Is that possible? I know the times they are a changin.' But I'm still so early in terms of learning things that my brain is trying to understand and there is insufficient material. Oh, there's plenty of stuff out there, lol, but I would have to read for a week and wade through so much bs that it isn't really tempting.

Let me tell you, just entertaining these thoughts and understanding the validity of them puts you in the vanguard. Being an adult is not being harsh it is just wanting to be an adult. Let the children go to their own room and play, nobody is forcing them to stay in emotional diapers. It is a choice and enabling them is not helping them, tantrums be damned.

[1inMany]

Thank you, I see what you are saying. And I understand the wisdom in your words. This is going to sound odd, and I'm sorry about that, but your energy has allowed me to refocus. Those in my life, adults and children alike, are on their own path. They may depend on me, and I may allow it in the role I play, respectively. However, each one has a path and it is important for them to NOT be allowed to dump their sh*t on me Aw, I love you modwiz.............

thank you

[astrid]

@ IinMany, you will find more and more, when you watch for it,
that every single person that you deal with,
in small ways and large ones are your teachers.
Learning to set boundaries is a very important lesson, and until you get it,
you will keep getting "sent " people to overstep yours.
It's how it all works.
Strong boundaries are actually a way you can help them faster.
As one of the big problems is people avoid sitting alone with themselves and their core
issues at any cost, instead they run from one to another to another, telling
their story over and over. And all they want is validation from you to confirm they are
right, rather than to be totally honest with themselves.
I'm tough like thati refuse to agree with people just to make them feel better.
I just stand there holding up a mirror so they can see themselves as they
actually are. If they want to shift i can assist in that and fast, but only if they stop
running from themselves.
They have to do at least 50%, the universe will pitch in with the rest.
If you have people around you vamping of you,
the lesson is for you to learn all about setting that line, where you
start and where another begins. And process the guilt that comes up
when you turn people away.
One good trick i find is to give people links, and info to go away and
read up on, that way they are less likely to get dependent on me.
The last thing you need is for them to get clingy, then your job has failed.
I know many that are addicted to helping and its a form of self abuse,
their own life in total shreds. I learnt that one the hard way also.

These days i make sure i have the resources, before i make
any offers. But ultimately is ALL about you and not them
anyways. Or mission her is to evolve our souls as much as
we can, as selfish as it sounds. But that then ripples out and
effects everything around us. People start to grow just by
being in our vibrational space , healing work is actually
quite effortless then, and you get a huge dose of high
frequency energy yourself. That's when you know you have
found that balance.

[ViralSpiral]

Great pics Mod. Flirt.

I too have low tolerance for drivel. No idea whether my Moon is in the house or behind the shed
Ulli knows, I forget.
I do aspire to be as compassionate and humanitarian as my mate Jesus. Alas, tis tough going. One day




NO guessing what I had for dinner.......





SPUDS!!! With skins, onions, herb butter and pepper-dews. And that was way before any potato-talk here.

[modwiz]

Posted by ViralSpiral (here)
Great pics Mod. Flirt.

I too have low tolerance for drivel. No idea whether my Moon is in the house or behind the shed
Ulli knows, I forget.
I do aspire to be as compassionate and humanitarian as my mate Jesus. Alas, tis tough going. One day




NO guessing what I had for dinner.......





SPUDS!!! With skins, onions, herb butter and pepper-dews. And that was way before any potato-talk here.

The Moon is currently in Aries.

[markoid]

Happy here and now everyone! I'm poking my head in for a minute to say hello.
I have been on line very little for the past month, and what a nice break it is. I have looked at the forum briefly
a few times and always a check on the village as there is not much interest for me in the other stuff that has been
happening at PA.
Driving home today I was having the sensation that I was still and the world racing under my car... it became a bit
disconcerting so I pulled off the road so as to not endanger anyone. The sensation subsided and I drove home
chuckling to myself at the fact that my defintion of a 'strange' experience is broadening in a huge way.
Best to everyone for a uber excellent 2012!

[bill.zen]

Hey people. What's going on? Me? Well I'm trying to write an essay and it's going slowly for some reason, even though I'm interested in the subject.

Cheers!

[ViralSpiral]

Posted by modwiz (here)
The Moon is currently in Aries.

Oh. Thought you were special.




which you are of course

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Markoid! How are you??

Happy, happy to you too

[1inMany]

Thank you, Astrid, for sharing so much. I am getting better with helping no matter the cost...the costs are getting smaller lol. I am a work in progress, that's for sure.

I set a lot of responsibility down when I began to be pulled to wake up and smell the coffee. It was a lot easier than I thought it would be to let go of expectations that were superhuman and stupid any way (having a spotless house all the time, etc., etc.) I think the reason I almost lost my mind is because I fought so hard to keep meeting my own unreal expectations in the physical world while following the little voice inside wherever it led. At some point, all that went out the window, and the search became all. Nobody died because I was reading or trying to meditate or trying to learn the language of the little voice. It's like putting on your breathing mask before putting your children's on them, isn't it? It felt selfish at first because that's been the external message for me my whole life. It's liberating to live in a house that looks...lived in lol. Now the struggle is for spiritual balance...being here to help my children & family specifically, help people in general (which is somehow part of why I am here) and still actively become...for myself (and the greater good.)

Thank you for sharing my path for a moment. It helps immeasurably to be able to connect this way since you all seem to be the only ones who get it.

[Mike]

Posted by modwiz (here)

Posted by 1inMany (here)

If they want solutions i will sit up all night and all day if i have to , to help them
shift.

Oh my gosh, yes I will also. Somehow, that is being mistranslated. On the one hand, I am responsible for that. I need to be strong like you guys and have a boundary that doesn't shift. It seems that I can do that sometimes, but others I get sucked in not seeing what's coming. On the other hand, it seems like it is also something pushing against me.

It seems to take a lot out of me to interact with anyone, and I'm working on beefing up for that. But really I don't understand why that happens. Do you think that everyone is really getting that much stronger? Is that possible? I know the times they are a changin.' But I'm still so early in terms of learning things that my brain is trying to understand and there is insufficient material. Oh, there's plenty of stuff out there, lol, but I would have to read for a week and wade through so much bs that it isn't really tempting.

Let me tell you, just entertaining these thoughts and understanding the validity of them puts you in the vanguard. Being an adult is not being harsh it is just wanting to be an adult. Let the children go to their own room and play, nobody is forcing them to stay in emotional diapers. It is a choice and enabling them is not helping them, tantrums be damned.

there's a reason the ol' saying isn't "when the teacher is ready, the student will come."

i've been the unwilling student and the willing student, the unwilling teacher and the willing teacher. i'm now the willing student and the willing teacher, realizing that i'm likely ahead of some and likely behind others. playing all these roles has allowed me a sort of panoramic perspective in the sense that i can spot an unwilling student from a mile away. and i won't even waste my time or energy on them. not for a second.

in the past, since i was so eager to share the type of knowledge discussed here on Avalon, i would overzealously bludgeon friends and fam with the info i felt was responsible for my 'awakening'. this, of course, was no different than a fundamentalist Christian showing up at my door eager to "save me", or teach me about Jesus. i'd make fun of these people too, not even recognizing my hypocrisy. i was doing the same thing!

now i save my energy, waiting for appropriate moments when i can share my knowledge. then i just let in marinate. i've had many people follow up with further inquiries, and i've been able to suggest books, web sites, people and so on. it's great fun to see their enthusiasm and feel part of the genesis of their journey. i like doing this, but also feel a sort of obligation, a sort of karmic balancing in response to those who got me started.

[ViralSpiral]

Posted by 1inMany (here)

Thank you for sharing my path for a moment. It helps immeasurably to be able to connect this way since you all seem to be the only ones who get it.

No, no. Thank YOU for sharing.

This is the place.... no judgement, only shoulders and ears

Seemingly "having it" is also an illusion. Of course, some are a little more ahead of the illusion than others however, we are all still 3D prisoners of so called "free will" and I am still so far behind dropping everything. Getting there. Have been through Alice's looking glass, totally lost my sense of humour discovering the level of deceit, but am happy to report that even though I am not really who I think I am, I am happy