Posted by 9eagle9
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You know Jack, I completely understand attempting to use one's own power stand for the betterment of humanity..it seems that we should but......
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The reality of it ....is its just not going to happen...or rather somehting is going to have to happen in order for them to wake them up.....and you and I have seen it with own good eyes here in Avalon. We see it everywhere.
I have done that for many years, showing people not only why they need to get rid of the social conditioning but what its goign to do for them in terms of life enhancement when they do. Given them tools to use to rid themselves of the affliction of not knowing who they are. They don't want it. They want to be able to do the things I do but when you show them how....they want what they don't want. So half my life has been taken up in this. I'm not supported in this. I don't mean financially, it doesn't support who I am, my power, and all this whining about how I have something that no one else 'gets to have' is wearing thin. It's throwing power away.
I'm tired of people complaining about what they don't have and then throwing every excuse in the book at me to resist having it. I don't want to hear about it anymore. It's like watching starving people at a buffet complaining they can't eat because they can't find a napkin. Real power doesn't need excuses, or stories, or something outside of one's self.
All I ever wanted to do was work with horses as a child, as a young adult, as an older adult . Work with horses and people. But all my life there was some person who was uncomfortable with the notion of me doing so. My mother, my ex husband, someone who trivialized this place because they didn't like the idea of it, I had to be something meaningful and do 'for others'. Service to others. Be safe so they could feel safe. Or there's no money or support in it. But there is where I see my power coming back to me in the people who transform themselves using the medium of horses. I'm not implying everyone needs to jump on horse, but where my power is really at and I couldn't go there because 'people were uncomfortable ' with the notion. The same way they are uncomforable with people who are expressing the living part of themselves because it doesn't mesh with some holy rolling role that people adopt.
My mistake is that because this is so effortless for me, and everything is effortless when you are in your power, that I figured I should just give it away.
Not anymore.
I had to keep disempowered people feeling safe. I have already decided I'm not keeping that space anymore, If someone is that disconnected from themselves I'm not helping to create a space where they can be comfortable destroying themselves, but neither am I putting my life, my spirit, on hold anymore.
Or people pattting me on the head and treating it like it was 'her little hobby'. A horse really brings out your power . But always I have to go help humanity . Well I can't help anyone who doesn't want to help themselves .I will only support people who are willing to share power, and that means finding their own. People who say maybe I haven't found it yet but its not in this clutter of BS that people want to use to resist real empowerment.
Why am I denying my life because those people don't want to get their life in order? I'm up to my ears listening to people deny their own power, and then blaming it on others espeically those who are attempting to help them find their power.
I decided in a half ass way that my life, my power, needed to be nutured .
So I leased a horse. Then the universe gave to me three horses. Then on top of that a space to train and instruct with horses. Just fell in my lap , I didn't have invest anything but just by accepting that there was my power. But I can't devote as much time as I want to it because ...there's humanity wandering around in circles waiting for a ufo to come get them. I don't want to do this anymore. I don't 'need' to do this anymore.
I'd like to say let them all run over the cliff, and that is essentialy what I am saying but not in those terms exactly but i have invested so much time and money in creating a safe place and a safe way to do intiate empowerment only to have people act like I'm their abuser. If they want what they don't want, let them have (or not have it) . But I have put my power, my LIFE, my living spiritual expression, on hold for these people who are running over cliffs for no appreciable reason. What reason do I have to do that? I've asked Spirit and Spirit just says "You don't'. I just give them something to think about, to react to to keep their stories going, they don't want to 'do' it.
Enormous talent and abiltiy but its being wasted. There's no fruits of one's labor being reflected back in my life except for a few .Every task I put my hand to should be fruitful. There is no power to see in others only but a few. And those few, you don't have to expend vast amounts of energy, you only have to hold that space with them.
So I thought , You are powerful you are not standing fully in your power by using it to help humanity, they don't want this. They resent you for having what they don't want.
Power is reciprocated.
I see you, your power, you see mine. You put your power out there, they want it , but they don't want to reciprocate so power is not shared so energetically its not kept in motion. They are not standing in their power or even attempting to find it. They use it to keep their stories and excuses going. That is abuse of power, they can't find their own so they will abuse others and then complain about the abuse of power up at the top of the pyramid.
So over the weekend I called some friends and clients who actually do, do their empowerment work and I said, I will always be available to you but I'm not doing this anymore. I am not being true to my own power and half my life is gone to this and the rest of my life, my living expression, is going to be mine. It is my gift, my life to manage and I'm managing it . And they were shocked: If I had your ability I'd not back away from it. They could not imagine me not doing this anymore.
No. No no. YOu do have my ability, I'm not the one backing away I'm just swining the pearls here. And that was it ,and I told Spirit I'm going to put myself where true power is expressed, I'll use the medium of horses and if I'm on not the right track or if I am I know you will show me. So I ran an ad on Monday. The response I had to that ad overwhelmed me, in one day it equaled a years worth of response and intiation from the disempowred people 'I was attempting to help'. This is what is going to support me, because I'm giving it away in baby sitting but using the third party medium of a horse to bring out their own power. They want to do it, they can't do it fast enough. Just that simple re-framing back into my power. It has been so overwhelming I've had to field work off to other people in my community which empowers them, and supports them. Just in one day its all being reciprocated. Instantly given the means to expand on our power. I'm dumb founded.
and the shils and the cons will be delighted that I'm not going to be there anymore but I am, I'm just doing it a different way. Know they will have more to contend with since this is freeing up my power, rather than wasting it.
And the whole time this was under my nose, watching people transform themselves with horses, losing thier fear, becoming aware of that something pure is communicating with them, accepting them, being aware of something greater than themeslves being created by their particpation. This was occuring the whole time, and out of 'obligation' I was watching the people playing with their own feces.
And the only people I'm sticking my neck out for from this point on are the ones who are willing to empower themselves. Who are doing their work, to find where they got lost at. For the ones who know something is wrong with todays 'new' social conditioning but don't quite know what it is. People like you, I'd stick my neck out for. For those who stuck in their co dependency on artificial emotions, and stories, and crap like that....no not anymore. They can run over the side of the cliff but they are not taking my power with them.
Posted by jackovesk
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Posted by Dig
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What does it mean to stand in your own power?
Use It for the betterment of Humanity..!
I watched the film Gladiator again the other night, witnessing the Corrupt Roman Empire's Rein enforcing The People's Serfdom through Terror brought a Tear to my eye...
The battle between the loyal Roman General Maximus Decimus Meridius and the Evil Emperor Commodus is exactly what is going on today i.e. Humanity vs TPTW...
Metaphorically...
I allow myself to feel the Emotional Rage at times and during the film just after Maximus took out Commodus, whilst sitting in the dark in my favorite chair I drew the Emotional Energy from Within and with both raised fists in the air pointing skywards...
I visualised that pent up Emotional Energy circumventing the Earth asking the Universe to make those who are responsible for causing Earth's Problems in (ALL) Shapes & Forms Accountable for their Crimes against Humanity..!
I was locked in a Powerful Trance for about a minute and after I could literally see the Energy Flowing out of my raised fists...
I knew I was heard, and this Madness will STOP..!
Re: Standing in your own power
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