Here and Now...What's Happening?

[Carmody]

My favorite part of Bladerunner (soundtrack):

Source: https://youtube.com/watch?v=KdSeQKcrk-s

(IIRC, it was a chance thing..but...that snake... was actually her snake)

[ulli]

Posted by Reirrac (here)
I have a request for help. The first one is help with detoxing my body of mercury and other things that are in a Tdap shot. I was told it is close to the tetanus shot. So for this I had my Dad's horse statue fall on me tonight and received a puncture wound from it. I don't know any naturalpathic remedy's for Tetanus off the top of my head so I went and got the shot and if it contained mercury, I would deal with that using detox (which it does). I am asking for healing and/or advice on detox.

I wasn't horsing around with the statue, we were actually moving it from the house out to the driveway and with the statue being about 12-15 feet tall as a rearing horse constructed with rusted metal it was a bit top heavy and it fell over. My advice for everyone is if a horse statue is falling nearby, don't try to save it, just let it fall gracefully to the ground.

The second request for help is for helping me clear out my old patterns relating to me thinking I'm not good enough as well as rejection. With the payoff being looking for sympathy and testing to see if either or both are still there. As I write this post, I am trying to stay in a balanced place and I'm not looking for sympathy. Sometime I just feel like I need a boost and for whatever reason I don't feel like I have enough energy to get myself through it. I recently have been thinking of asking a woman out and when I started to think heavily on the process itself, it raised all my old patterns. I have a much greater awareness of them, just feeling a bit overwhelmed at the moment. My request for help is advice and/or healing.

By the way, this is difficult for me asking for help as I've wanted to delete this post about 4 times now in the process of writing it. I thank my defense mechanisms/old patterns for being there, I honor you and I ask for you to choose a different path.

Side note: As I write this, I am grateful for awareness as I see my patterns going off all over the place. Frustrated/annoyed to an extent and yet grateful for the awareness. I know I am shifting, though sometimes I just want it all now, ie goal at the end of the journey, rather than, oh look its actually the journey itself.

Thank you. I greatly appreciate you. Be well.

You most likely received a Boostrix shot, according to my husband, who is a GP.
Here is the website,which shows the composition:
http://www.gsk.ca/english/docs-pdf/B...0091021_EN.pdf
Aluminum adjuvant (as aluminum hydroxide and aluminum phosphate), sodium chloride and water for injection.

The other possibility would have been Tetavax.
http://drug.fda.moph.go.th/zone_sear...1C%2017_51.pdf
QUALITATIVE AND QUANTITATIVE COMPOSITION
The active ingredient is tetanus toxoid (≥ 40 I.U. / 0.5 ml) adsorbed on aluminium hydroxide dihydrate (0.6 mg of aluminium).

He said that Mercury was used long time ago, but is no longer now.

Asking for help is the first step. I know it is hard. I guess it took me months, too. Don't worry, the effect will become evident really soon. Like opening a tap of miracle water.
Each time another Villager comes online and reads your post you will feel another boost.
Your confidence will return. I'm sure this is something all the others here can testify to as well.
Wishing you a swift recovery.

[Carmody]

Posted by Reirrac (here)
I have a request for help. The first one is help with detoxing my body of mercury and other things that are in a Tdap shot. I was told it is close to the tetanus shot. So for this I had my Dad's horse statue fall on me tonight and received a puncture wound from it. I don't know any naturalpathic remedy's for Tetanus off the top of my head so I went and got the shot and if it contained mercury, I would deal with that using detox (which it does). I am asking for healing and/or advice on detox.

I wasn't horsing around with the statue, we were actually moving it from the house out to the driveway and with the statue being about 12-15 feet tall as a rearing horse constructed with rusted metal it was a bit top heavy and it fell over. My advice for everyone is if a horse statue is falling nearby, don't try to save it, just let it fall gracefully to the ground.

The second request for help is for helping me clear out my old patterns relating to me thinking I'm not good enough as well as rejection. With the payoff being looking for sympathy and testing to see if either or both are still there. As I write this post, I am trying to stay in a balanced place and I'm not looking for sympathy. Sometime I just feel like I need a boost and for whatever reason I don't feel like I have enough energy to get myself through it. I recently have been thinking of asking a woman out and when I started to think heavily on the process itself, it raised all my old patterns. I have a much greater awareness of them, just feeling a bit overwhelmed at the moment. My request for help is advice and/or healing.

By the way, this is difficult for me asking for help as I've wanted to delete this post about 4 times now in the process of writing it. I thank my defense mechanisms/old patterns for being there, I honor you and I ask for you to choose a different path.

Side note: As I write this, I am grateful for awareness as I see my patterns going off all over the place. Frustrated/annoyed to an extent and yet grateful for the awareness. I know I am shifting, though sometimes I just want it all now, ie goal at the end of the journey, rather than, oh look its actually the journey itself.

Thank you. I greatly appreciate you. Be well.

Growth comes from finding balance..from within imbalance.

Can't say I care for the imbalance myself, nor do I know anyone who does.

It's like eating cardboard (my comment), it tastes like crap, feels gross...and it's rather painfully dry.

[Reirrac]

Posted by Carmody (here)
Growth comes from finding balance..from within imbalance.

Can't say I care for the imbalance myself, nor do I know anyone who does.

It's like eating cardboard (my comment), it tastes like crap, feels gross...and it's rather painfully dry.

That image of eatting cardboard is going to stay with me a while, thanks.

[Anchor]

Posted by Reirrac (here)
I am trying to stay in a balanced place and I'm not looking for sympathy.

Sympathy.... none on offer... deal ?

Your post is excellent.

Here are my random contributions.

Don't even give the shot you got a second thought - just "know" its made safe.

(Nothing I did, BTW, I reckon that was already covered before I read anything)

Second, as for the patterns thing - this is so cool and so typical of now.

You feel conflicted for asking for help, but here is why I think that it is ok: you are taking action anyway before asking for help.

That way there is actually something to help with.

Whatever I can do, it will be done.

Finally, my guess is that you are not learning anything at the moment in regards to all this - you are remembering what you already knew

[Eram]

Reirrac,

good vibes coming your way.

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Tonight was my first attempt for astral travel. (Astral travel as a means to discover more about the truth of who we are/I am.)
There's definitely something to explore there.
2 semi-lucid dreams that were very out of the ordinary dream range that I usually experience while sleeping.

Tired now, staying up a part of the night because of the efforts.

Listened to Simon and Garfunkel this morning... one of my all time favourites

Source: https://youtube.com/watch?v=VP15Qd_gJ7M

Have a lovely day/night

[Jenci]

The sun is out. I love the sun. There's nothing more to say really


Jeanette

[eaglespirit]

And So It Is...the People of the First Light

Wampanoag/Oneness unto One by One by One, Together All Now!

[Anchor]

Ulli, is your cat eating again?

[Marianne]

Reirrac, sending you loving thoughts, and I put you on the Reiki grid. You're in good hands with good advice and guidance from those who've posted, and I'll bet some who haven't.

Eaglespirit, as I recall, the Wampanoag tribe are native to the New England region? Are they the ones that lived in 'long houses' made of wood? People think of native Americans as living in teepees, but that was only the plains tribes, since they didn't have much wood to build with, they devised the teepee. Clever people. It's comforting to know we are preserving these traditions.

Jeanette, yah for the sun! Here in the southern US, we are in for over 100F today. Early for it to be this warm.

Waky, thanks for the Simon-Garfunkel. All the music seepin' through ... now I'm dancing out the door to work.

Here's another song from Alabama Shakes. 'I ain't the same'

Source: https://youtube.com/watch?v=Ut4Cw84Rfu8

love to all ...

[ulli]

Posted by Anchor (here)
Ulli, is your cat eating again?

Both cats are eating us out of house and home. Or maybe it's time to modernize that phrase....
Both cats are eating us out of house and garden....( cat food from the house and mice and snakes and lizards from the garden.
Cat not eating is a very rare event around here.

[astrid]

Reirrac, asking for help was a real hurdle for me also.
but once i got over that one, it was like the waters parted.

To give and to receive equally seriously increases your energy
flow through and around you. That and learning to forgive can and does shift
mountains.

As for the request, consider it done.
It is my wish that any thing detrimental to your total whole body health, is
removed and transmuted. Then anything you might need for your best and highest good,
to increase and boost your own healing is then added, and sealed in.

And so it is done.

[PurpleLama]

I have a serious case of the gardening bug. No vaccine for that one. Six rows were not enough, now I've begun planting in mounds all over the yard.

Edit to add: twenty-five mounds, so far, with many, many more to come.

[benevolentcrow]

Posted by PurpleLama (here)
I have a serious case of the gardening bug. No vaccine for that one. Six rows were not enough, now I've begun planting in mounds all over the yard.

Edit to add: twenty-five mounds, so far, with many, many more to come.

Just for you PL, I have 9 3x5 raised garden beds and I want more!

[benevolentcrow]

We are all becoming one! Hope it looks, tastes and smells like chocolate!

[WhiteFeather]

Posted by Carmody (here)

Source: https://youtube.com/watch?v=NPMbBTCeVzQ

Saw anothr UFO today. Looked like a plane in the sky.

A few problems.

1)no sound

2) too close for it's size, or too big if far away (tied to point #1, far too large to be silent)

3)moving too slow to stay in the sky.

4)no windows

5)shape was odd

In the past two consecutive nights here in NY. I observed a very high moving craft to what appeared to be a star. To high up for a plane. And Moving too fast for a satellite. My son observed it as well. He thought i was crazy when i called him to come out of the house and view this anomoly. " Dad that was weird".

Perhaps i could have manifested and or called these objects into my reality. I often feel i could do this at times.......... Scouts Honor

[Carmody]

http://consumer.healthday.com/Article.asp?AID=665625

'Mindful' Meditation Tied to Healthy Brain Changes: Study
Differences seen in white matter with 'integrated body-mind training'

Just a few hours of meditation training may change your brain for the better, a small, new study suggests.

Researchers using imaging technology have found that people develop measurable changes in the white matter of the brain after learning "mindfulness meditation." Also called "integrative body-mind training," it involves periods of intense focus and concentration.

"The notable physical changes suggest that short-term meditation can improve self-control, mood, stress response and immunity response," said Michael Posner, a co-author of the study and a professor emeritus at the University of Oregon, in Eugene.

The study was published online June 11 in the journal Proceedings of the National Academy of Sciences.

The researchers randomly assigned 68 undergraduates at Dalian University of Technology, in China, to either a meditation or a relaxation-training group. None of the students had any previous training in meditation.

The authors say their earlier research showed that learning can alter white matter, which affects how the brain learns, acting as a relay system and coordinating among different brain regions.

In the latest study, the researchers set out to measure the degree of alteration, focusing on areas of the brain that they felt were most likely to change from the training the participants received.

The authors used what is called "diffusion tensor imaging," a noninvasive MRI-based technology to delineate white-matter fibers in the brains of participants. They also applied other technology to measure the structural plasticity -- the ability to change and adapt as a result of experience -- of the brain's white matter.

Key areas of the brain were measured before and after the meditation training, which involved 30 minutes of either integrative body-mind training or relaxation training over a two-week period. The training totaled five hours for each group.

The researchers found evidence of measurable changes in white matter associated with a part of the brain network related to self-regulation -- the anterior cingulate cortex -- after short exposure to focused meditation. The same changes did not occur after relaxation-oriented meditation, which emphasizes sequential relaxation of different muscle groups.

The authors note that many problems, including addiction and mental disorders such as attention-deficit hyperactivity disorder (ADHD), anxiety, depression, schizophrenia and borderline personality disorder, involve the anterior cingulate cortex. They say that understanding the impact of learning, training and human development on white matter in the brain could lead to new ways to improve or prevent these mental disorders.

"This study builds on other work that has confirmed that you can demonstrate structural changes in the brain," said Dr. Nicholas Schiff, an associate professor of neurology and neuroscience at Weill Cornell Medical College, in New York City.

"What's so impressive to me is that, in this study, they actually quantify that there's evidence for changes in the structure of the brain and a dynamic process at work," Schiff said. "It's very important to characterize how the adult brain modifies in response to the environment. This study is a substantial contribution."

More information

The Benson-Henry Institute for Mind Body Medicine has more information on the mind-body connection.

SOURCES: Michael I. Posner, professor emeritus, University of Oregon, Eugene; Nicholas Schiff, M.D., associate professor of neurology and neuroscience at Weill Cornell Medical College, New York City; June 11, 2012, Proceedings of the National Academy of Sciences online

[Carmody]

Posted by Carmody (here)

Posted by Reirrac (here)
I have a request for help. The first one is help with detoxing my body of mercury and other things that are in a Tdap shot. I was told it is close to the tetanus shot. So for this I had my Dad's horse statue fall on me tonight and received a puncture wound from it. I don't know any naturalpathic remedy's for Tetanus off the top of my head so I went and got the shot and if it contained mercury, I would deal with that using detox (which it does). I am asking for healing and/or advice on detox.

I wasn't horsing around with the statue, we were actually moving it from the house out to the driveway and with the statue being about 12-15 feet tall as a rearing horse constructed with rusted metal it was a bit top heavy and it fell over. My advice for everyone is if a horse statue is falling nearby, don't try to save it, just let it fall gracefully to the ground.

The second request for help is for helping me clear out my old patterns relating to me thinking I'm not good enough as well as rejection. With the payoff being looking for sympathy and testing to see if either or both are still there. As I write this post, I am trying to stay in a balanced place and I'm not looking for sympathy. Sometime I just feel like I need a boost and for whatever reason I don't feel like I have enough energy to get myself through it. I recently have been thinking of asking a woman out and when I started to think heavily on the process itself, it raised all my old patterns. I have a much greater awareness of them, just feeling a bit overwhelmed at the moment. My request for help is advice and/or healing.

By the way, this is difficult for me asking for help as I've wanted to delete this post about 4 times now in the process of writing it. I thank my defense mechanisms/old patterns for being there, I honor you and I ask for you to choose a different path.

Side note: As I write this, I am grateful for awareness as I see my patterns going off all over the place. Frustrated/annoyed to an extent and yet grateful for the awareness. I know I am shifting, though sometimes I just want it all now, ie goal at the end of the journey, rather than, oh look its actually the journey itself.

Thank you. I greatly appreciate you. Be well.

Growth comes from finding balance..from within imbalance.

Can't say I care for the imbalance myself, nor do I know anyone who does.

It's like eating cardboard (my comment), it tastes like crap, feels gross...and it's rather painfully dry.

dimensionally speaking, one could say that we are dimensionally related and flowing (across or at boundaries) organized patterns of energy,and flow. We flow, in our self organized fashion, or surf energetics in dimensional boundaries and dimensional relation. Thus, we seek to remain organized and 'together' in a vibratory flow that is patterned AND disorganized. Basically to surf potential pattern and randomness with a parameter of a history of flowing as an accumulated knowledge base..to look into that flow future, at the same time we hold the organized state..and grow.

does this sound familiar?

[ulli]

I had a vivid dream just before waking up. I was in Barbados, in some resort type place and was picking up a sofa they had borrowed from me, some months earlier.
I was carrying this heavy metal- frame futon all by myself through an open air type of restaurant and pool area to take it to my mini moke, which is a small jeep without a roof. At that moment the manager stopped and asked me what I was doing, and I explained that this was not the hotel's sofa but my own and I was taking it back.
Just as I was getting to the car park and loading the sofa onto the jeep I discovered that my keys and cell phone were missing. Panic struck, mind racing, suddenly Freddy Mercury stops as he was walking by.
"Everything alright?" He asked. I said, "no Freddy, just at this moment I'm standing here discovering my keys and cell phone are missing."
So now Freddy pulls out some fancy million dollar gadget that only rich rock stars can afford, and starts scanning the whole place, and the gadget spits out a handful of images, all laminated in clear hard plastic. And I go, "wow, Freddy, what IS that thing?" and then he starts chatting, and I'm reminding him of how we used to chat like this in the old days when he was helping his sister in the Kensington Market, and I was working in the stall next to his, Ruskin, which belonged to a Scottish cobbler by the name of Ken Calder, and then chatted about what happened to the other neighbor who's name was Lloyd Johnson ( but in the dream I could only remember his first name, and got frustrated about my bad memory) who later opened a shop selling really cool 1950s second hand clothes from the US, in the Kings Road next to Virgin Records where we all bought our music back then. That area was called The World's End, and there was a pub there by that name, too.
So here we have a major clue what the dream might mean.
Anyway, as the conversation got deeper into our mutual memories of that period when Queen had not even yet released their first album and we were all struggling with survival in swinging London, we started arguing about Freddy's sister's blouses. I had a friend who was a designer and had a bigger stall downstairs and very talented, and a true original, and Freddy's sister used to copy her blouses, using cheaper materials and not as well made as hers....
amazing how this dream refreshed all sorts of details I had totally forgotten... Anyway, Freddy did not like the fact that I referred to his sister's blouses as patchwork blouses and started quarreling defensively. But they were, I said. He walked on and at that moment I found my keys and cellphone which were all along in my pockets. Later I saw him sitting by the pool on a sunbathing lounge with one of those debauched looking music business executives, deep into their conversation. Very strange dream. After waking up I suddenly remembered that one of my first posts on Avalon in February 2011 had a Queen YouTube on it. And moments after posting it I noticed someone else had posted a Queen song as well, but I had not been aware of it until I started reading the whole thread, which was about At!icus, I think.

[Carmody]

And my friend was telling me yesterday evening..that when he was in London for a few months, that he used to go to the pub and See Elton John. Very Energetic and amazing performer, he said.