Niki, i think you have catched "information overload". Take a break from PA and other alternative information sites. You will probably not miss anything importantAnd if "anything starts" you and everybody else on Earth will notice it anyway
What will be will be. And whatether it will be you will get other it. Do not take too seriously anything someone is telling you. Including my postTrust yourself.
Ask your parents for day off from your family business. Stay away from human distractions (TV, computer, internet, books etc.) on that day. Try to find a way to go into wilderness. To be face to face with Nature. Plan in advance. Use satelite images to get familiar with the place you plan to visit. Tell your parents and friends about your little trip. So they will not worry when you turn off your mobile phone when you will be hiking. Mobile phone is a nice device for calling for help when in trouble. But it do not need to be turned on permanently while enjoying intimate moments. Prepare some food and drink. Take as little stuff with you as possible. Preferably take nothing.Comfortable clothes do not count as "nothing" while hiking
Try to not judge and to not analyze your surroundings. Feel it with all your senses. Try to be present in "here and now". Try to be real.