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    Wakytweaky, thanks for Finefeather's post. Just 10 minutes ago, I added a message to his personal site. It was powerful. It seemed unfair to thank him and exclude others on the "Horus-Ra as the Archontic Alien Parasite: A follow-up interview with Maarit" thread. I don't spend enough time on it.

    Another powerful "same but different" letter is from James Gilliland. It's from the "Up At The Ranch - James Gilliland & Trout Lake" thread, post #2243.

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    For those of you that read parts of the Horus Ra thread, but don't keep track of every page, I would like to draw attention to this post from Finefeather.

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    Quote Posted by Wakytweaky (here)
    For those of you that read parts of the Horus Ra thread, but don't keep track of every page, I would like to draw attention to this post from Finefeather.

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    I would like to offer some additional thoughts for consideration on this thread.i
    We have now spent over 100 pages on this thread and IMO we have become stuck in a groove where it would appear that all our woes are caused by some alien force we have called archons. This has given many a misconstrued, almost warm contented feeling, that we only need to eliminate the archons and we will be fine...as if we havep all arrived on this earth all innocent and rosy for a picnic, and along came this bunch of thug archons and ruined our fun.
    Emotion is a negative state of being, because it is born out of ignorance and wrong thinking, and the thing we all need to make clear in our minds is that we need to transcend this state and move into a state of wisdom, which can only be achieved by knowing the facts. Once we know truth we become true beings of light and darkness ceases to exist.

    In summary of this thread it might be correct to state that we have identified a few phenomena which are our greatest concerns. I will use these for the sake of the post as they seem to cover most, if not all of the 'evils'. In writing this post I do not intend adding any links to the statements I will make, I write from inside and you can do the research yourself to verify what you are unsure of.
    1. Human Abductions, by humans or alleged aliens.
    2. Human Sacrifice, by humans or alleged aliens.
    3. Human Molestation, by humans or alleged aliens.
    4. Human Consumption, by humans or alleged aliens.
    5. Human Imprisonment, by humans or alleged aliens.
    6. Human Rape and other Sexual Molestation, by humans or alleged aliens.

    Each and every one of these phenomena can be traced back to the animal kingdom and to this day they remain the strongest instincts of that kingdom. These are the qualities instilled inside the animal kingdom, at creation, to ensure their continued presence on the earth and also to ensure balance and harmony in nature.
    When we stand back and contemplate the natural world we are struck down in awe at the beauty and spectacle of it all, as well as the sheer complexity of such a mind boggling creation. When we look a little deeper into the animal world, we find things which shock many today, we find that these creatures abduct and sacrifice and molest and consume and imprison and rape each other. We are taught that it is natural and that's just the way 'God' made it...and so be it.

    Animals have no individual rational minds, they are herd/family orientated to support continuation of the species. There are slight variations (for good reasons) to this general statement, but this is by and large the norm.
    Human beings on earth became rational when they achieved rationality and prior to that they were just as animal as the pooch in your back yard. So what does this mean? This was the moment when individualised spiritual beings incarnated into the human animal form. So you can understand that we have the same instincts as all animal have. Some of these are slowly been rationalised and we are meant to 'back off' with the pure savageness of these instincts and use our rational minds to manage our lives. This process is in various stages of been rewritten in our DNA. So the truth of the matter is that younger less enlightened beings who incarnate into human bodies still find it difficult to control these instincts. All through our history we have seen this instinct at work in the form of killings, wars, plundering, rapes, and sacrifices to name a few. Those who become increasingly enlightened, and enlightenment is a gradual process, are more able to control the savage instincts which are present in our animal bodies.
    What people do not realise is that the body has it's own separate mind which is NOT part of the Spiritual Being who incarnated into it. This has been called the lower mind by some, it is this lower mind we are fighting to control in our daily lives and we have also called this the ego. This mind is situated in the solar plexus area and just by co-incidence? really? the solar plexus is the seat of the emotional/astral forces and chakra energies,...this should start to make you think about astral entities and alleged aliens. All animals, some more than others are expert astral travellers. How do I know this?...My cats told me.

    Now before I finish I need to say that in NO WAY am I saying it is just fine to act like animals, because it is NOT...but we need to know where we get some of our worst qualities from. These are the instincts/qualities in our bodies which are being exploited by the dark forces to arrest the human-animal evolution and thus DNA growth which would allow easier control of the body in incarnation. Do not however be mislead by what I say, because this body is controllable and never forget that we, as spiritual beings, are having a physical experience and not the other way around. These forces called the archons, I prefer to call them the material forces, are like animals, they do not have the same minds as we have and we have stepped into their domain, or the physical and lower astral realms, and they are not happy about it, and to top it off, as seen in the Nag Hammadi, they are extremely jealous of us because we are immortal and they are not, but they do love the emotional energies we exude when they 'frighten us to death'.

    We need to arrest those who are performing these horrendous atrocities and we need to heal them and educate them, not destroy them, they are our brothers and sisters. The biggest problem is when will we as the human collective be strong enough to place the right people at the heads of our governments. When will we learn that one of the biggest choices we make in life is when we choose who leads us. It is useless and folly to believe that these acts will cease until we have achieved this realisation and you may all know this, but the other 7 billion do not.

    Just think about it.
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    Good evening villagers....my brief encounter has already given me a comfort I didn't know I needed. I'm sure there are more posts after the one I quoted, but I wanted to write this while it was fresh and I had the courage to....

    My son is 7, and last year on 10/8/11 it was revealed to me by a combination of intuition and my son's declarations that he was being sexually abused by his father, my husband--the person I had known to be my "soul-mate". It was this moment that brings me to my current life situation...single mommy hood. Of course the emotional end of this for everyone is a mess, and of course the whole legal aspect. But what both my son and I have struggled with is how someone who we loved so much could become so entrenched in darkness. And the quote above or idea really resonates with me.....because there was a point in our marriage right after I gave birth to my son that I felt my husband had somehow became fractured...separated, not whole....hard to explain.

    But my whole point in sharing my tale is that realizing there are dark forces out there and I am sure my family would make an excellent target for them, helped give me a gift in allowing me and my son to still love the "him" as we originally knew him as while still holding him accountable for his choices. I don't think I'm explaining it as well I'd like...but I can now move on in a place of love instead of resentment and hatred and the worst guilt.

    I can hold onto my precious children knowing I acted in love...and just being in their presence validates that we are right where we need to be right now....away from darkness and in place where our lights can shine brighter..even if materialistcally it's a bit rougher ...lol.

    Sorry if that is really off topic, and rambling but that is my here and now...and reading the everyday battles of other villagers has given me much encouragement.

    Love and light and thank you everyone for your warm welcomes
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    Quote Posted by amandapoet (here)
    But my whole point in sharing my tale is that realizing their are dark forces out there and I am sure my family would make an excellent target for them helped give me a gift in allowing me and my son to still love the "him" we originally knew him as while still holding him accountable for his choices. I don't think I'm explaining it as well I'd like...but I can now move on in a place of love instead of resentment and hated, and the weirdest guilt. I can hold onto my precious children knowing I acted in love...and just being in their presence validates that we are right whee we need to be right now....away from darkness and in place where our lights can shine brighter..even if materialistcally it's a bit rougher ...lol.
    Thank you for sharing these intimate matters, Sister!

    Sending our heartfelt intent for deep and complete healing -- both for your son, yourself, your ex-husband, and all others involved.

    Blessings!

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    Quote Posted by amandapoet (here)
    Sorry if that is really off topic, and rambling but that is my here and now...and reading the everyday battles of other villagers has given me much encouragement.
    Suffering in a village setting is rarely off topic.

    One of the things that is so cool about a Village environment is the sharing, and the potential for magnified support.

    We are not in this alone - the village reinforces that concept.
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    Quote Posted by niki (here)
    so now, again, my most fundamental/basic question:
    what's really real now, and what's not?..... and how to differentiate, for god's sake?
    (or maybe like someone said quite well above: maybe I should just start turning-off this forum, and just "plant the back garden", or basically: do the usual 'materialist/3D-worldly' business-as-usual everyday tasks/things/jobs again....rather than dwelling in this endless madness...)
    What can be more real than the inquiry itself?

    I explained to someone just now that I thought that the outer universe is a holographic reflection of our true inner reality - that which is the creation, part of the creation and the creator all wrapped up into one - spending its timeless moment knowing itself.

    We exist in a limited incarnate form, understanding these paradoxes are not for us at present.

    Our task is to make choices. We present ourselves with situations and we decide do I react out of love or from fear? What can be more real than that? Is any proof necessary?
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    Quote Posted by amandapoet (here)
    I can hold onto my precious children knowing I acted in love...and just being in their presence validates that we are right where we need to be right now....away from darkness and in place where our lights can shine brighter..even if materialistcally it's a bit rougher ...lol.
    Hello Amanda, I agree with you. Loving intentions reign pure. Light trumps darkness always & all ways.

    Quote Sorry if that is really off topic, and rambling but that is my here and now...and reading the everyday battles of other villagers has given me much encouragement.
    Love and light and thank you everyone for your warm welcomes 
    There’s no off topic at the “Here and Now”. That’s one of the great things about our home. It’s freeing, supportive, and loving.

    Love and heart,
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    Good evening villagers....my brief encounter has already given me a comfort I didn't know I needed. I'm sure there are more posts after the one I quoted, but I wanted to write this while it was fresh and I had the courage to....

    My son is 7, and last year on 10/8/11 it was revealed to me by a combination of intuition and my son's declarations that he was being sexually abused by his father, my husband--the person I had known to be my "soul-mate". It was this moment that brings me to my current life situation...single mommy hood. Of course the emotional end of this for everyone is a mess, and of course the whole legal aspect. But what both my son and I have struggled with is how someone who we loved so much could become so entrenched in darkness. And the quote above or idea really resonates with me.....because there was a point in our marriage right after I gave birth to my son that I felt my husband had somehow became fractured...separated, not whole....hard to explain.

    But my whole point in sharing my tale is that realizing there are dark forces out there and I am sure my family would make an excellent target for them, helped give me a gift in allowing me and my son to still love the "him" as we originally knew him as while still holding him accountable for his choices. I don't think I'm explaining it as well I'd like...but I can now move on in a place of love instead of resentment and hatred and the worst guilt.

    I can hold onto my precious children knowing I acted in love...and just being in their presence validates that we are right where we need to be right now....away from darkness and in place where our lights can shine brighter..even if materialistcally it's a bit rougher ...lol.

    Sorry if that is really off topic, and rambling but that is my here and now...and reading the everyday battles of other villagers has given me much encouragement.

    Love and light and thank you everyone for your warm welcomes
    Hi Amanda and warm welcome here. I am truly sorry for your whole family, including you, children and husband.

    A place of love, you are right it may end up like this. However, in my experience, albeit with less traumatic events - well, I think, maybe - is that everything, absolutely everything, has to have a place to be expressed in order to heal. Expressed verbally or by moving, sport, etc. with full acceptance, whatever the feeling is, it is accepted. If it is hatred, be it, if it is confusion, be it, if it is frustration, be it, if it is love, be it. And not only with full acceptance but also with deep, unshakable love and some adult wisdom for feedback on the feelings.

    I am saying this for your children. Because you want to regain a place of love, they may want to help you in it, loving you, and repress their remaining anger, frustration, distress, etc. They may also repress it towards each others as brothers and sisters (the brothers/sisters often hate the abused because the declaration of it has transformed their life, so they think - as if the hidden harm was not felt by everyone prior anyhow).

    If everything is supported with love and full acceptance, as well as some wisdom, they will go through it healed.

    As for your husband, be careful not to put your son with him too early, out of love. He has to feel 100% protected, from all sides. Your husband may find this listening and acceptance in therapy, not using his children or you for it.

    This is of course my humble opinion. Children are often so harmed and powerless, and they do not see with situations with our eyes, that I often want to think of them first.

    Take good care of yourself as well, in order to take good care of your children in turn.
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    Totally agree, my only goal is that my children be safe and loved...me too, but I'll let my son decide when he has matured enough to do so to choose the relationship he has with his father, daughter as well-- she is only a toddler now. My intuition tells me that healing is only possible in the now in distance. I forgive my husband more to free myself and children from being under the influence of his darkness anymore. I sincerely hope he finds some peace in this life...but that will be acquired without me being in his physical presence-- and my children can decide when they are of age.

    Thank you everyone. It is refreshing to be able to open about something I have to restrain myself from discussing in everyday life. Yesterday was nice because finally my soul's acceptance of this life course was finally accepted by my heart's.

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    Quote Posted by amandapoet (here)
    It is refreshing to be able to open about something I have to restrain myself from discussing in everyday life. Yesterday was nice because finally my soul's acceptance of this life course was finally accepted by my heart's.
    That, is utterly fantastic and quite inspirational.

    I think I know what you are talking about. You must have been able to feel the expansion of faith as it occurred.

    Despite all the sh1t that you have been through, you see/have seen in a real sense, all is well, and that all will be well.

    What cosmic irony that it takes such deep challenges and "harsh" things to push us to this point.

    I am, or at least consider myself to be a fifth density wanderer, called to Earth both to learn and teach with other brothers and sisters of sorrow who are not from around here, and who at times feel lost and adrift.

    I find myself armed with an almost compulsive obsession to characterize scenarios in deep metaphysical terms that I barely grasp myself. I am told I am often dry and lack feeling when doing this - but I "tear up" a lot, so I don't think that is true - I just keep it out my writing

    I am happiest when I am at play in mental pools of paradoxical thoughts and structureless chaos. I know I/we have no real need to penetrate these mysteries - other than to present some context, that it is all ok, it was always ok, and it all will work out in the end - stamped with a cosmic guarantee.

    Everything fits into my model. It is so biased toward wisdom that I often forget love - this thread (H&N) reminds me of that on a daily basis. I am going through an expansion of my own which is pretty wild. More and more of the puzzle pieces are fitting together for me. If this is what ascension is all about - then bring it on!

    My lessons have not, for the most part been learned through personal tragedy though that said, I have had some moments - and my body has from time to time provided me with sufficient learning catalyst and challenges to keep me on my toes. Mostly, I have experienced vicariously the suffering of others, learning to meter the opening of my heart to find resonance with suffering of others without overwhelming myself (love vs. wisdom again) - and allow a flow of compassion to the extent I can manage.

    Every little helps.

    All this has eventually taught me or allowed me to recollect some cool healing skills - without having to suffer too much emotional/mental/physical damage of my own.

    John..

    If TL;DR : Welcome to Hear and Now - LOL
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    Wow that was quite anchoring post! Anchor settled down into the heart...

    The HERE and NOW IS whats Happening
    We X Billions want to change the world and it appears we are......
    PARADISE IS POSSIBLE EVERYWHERE 4 EVERYONE

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    Ah, not to be cut off,
    not through the slightest partition
    shut out from the law of the stars.
    The inner- what is it?
    If not intensified sky,
    hurled through with birds
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    Vilage, I need help. I'm currently in a state of fear (well I did a dump in the mod chat room so I feel much better). My husband is going to go into the emergency room today, to see a psych. Suicidal and having a very bad time with his boss apparently, whom he thinks is on the verge of firing him. He is beating himself up. I don't want him ending up on psych drugs you can never get off.

    Lots of fear. If I were honest I'd call it terror, waves of.

    I need a miracle of your intent and will that he safely navigate the medical system without harm and only with benefit to his situation. I need a miracle of a changed heart by his boss. I need a miracle of your choosing.




    I give thanks for what I have observed this time around. I am grateful. I finally SEE, when he is this far down, his brain simply does not work. Then he beats himself up terribly, when there is nothing to beat himself up for. It is just the way it is. He can't accept himself. That hurts the most.

    There is one phrase that keeps coming to mind. I think it is from a Sting song. "... the stillpoint of perfection"

    Amanda, haven't caught up to you introducing yourself. I'm usually pages behind, sigh. Welcome to the village. Safe place this iz ...

    Sierra

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    Hi, Village

    amanda, my heart breaks hearing your story. I wish I had words for you, please accept my love.

    Anchor, your post is so appreciated here, as is your presence.

    I am grateful to be among such light and love, and individuals who are taking on daily struggles in the most graceful manner.

    I have stopped taking Effexor, the last of the prescribed chemicals. I have been thinking about it for several months, and after forgetting to take it for a couple of days I just figured that's that. Unfortunately, there are symptoms associated with its discontinuation. For me, this process of detox, or withdrawal, or whatever it is, includes a "brain-zapping" sensation, vertigo, vision troubles, nightmares, flu-like symptoms...oh, I can't even list them all. I will be glad when this is over, because I really can't think all that clearly either. I might not make a lot of sense for a little bit, but, laughing at myself, that may not be so much different that usual

    Much Love,

    oh, sweet, sweet Sierra, I am so sorry...I will do what I can, know that you are loved and appreciated just as you are...terror I understand....oh, love, be well...
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    For Sierra








    When I am down and, oh my soul, so weary;
    When troubles come and my heart burdened be;
    Then, I am still and wait here in the silence,
    Until you come and sit awhile with me.



    With you!
    .... be gentle with your anger. Sixto Rodriguez, Cape Town 20.02.2013

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    i poo poo my fear of not belonging and instead i offer my most sincere tender-hearted love and support to everyone..my heart goes out..deeply touched by the sharing here, i can relate with so many people here..let the miracles begin!

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    Quote Posted by Free Will (here)
    i poo poo my fear of not belonging and instead i offer my most sincere tender-hearted love and support to everyone..my heart goes out..deeply touched by the sharing here, i can relate with so many people here..let the miracles begin!
    Greetings, Free Will! (That's fun to say, now isn't it?)
    I hope you don't fear not belonging in the Here and Now...the Village is a most accepting place full of support and healing and more than anything else, real Love!
    Life is a road we don't travel alone. But everyone's on their own journey home.

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    Sierra, I was just sitting here pondering this whole situation with manic depression, as M has decided (unbeknownst to anyone else) to get off all her meds. The reality of one who is living in that brain, in that mind, is so difficult for some people to truly empathize with or to truly understand. Not that I'm arrogant and would ever say I know how you feel, because it is also so individualized...no two beings the same here. But what comes to mind is the movie A Beautiful Mind. When I first watched that movie, I felt I was living vicariously through the schizophrenic mind. And it occurred to me that this must be what it is like for each person with a disorder labeled psychiatric by the rest of the world. Grandiose thinking in manic depression, or the perception of being completely worthless...these are real to the sufferer. Real to the point that any other REAL cannot exist alongside it.

    I was reading recently that many Wanderers who come at this time to help experience these types of disorders...I am not saying I believe this or do not, but whoever these beings are that come with these afflictions already decided, or programmed (obviously I am not the one with all the answers), have such resolve and love as beings that they risk all and believe somewhere way down deep that they can see the light through this magnified confusion.

    In my opinion, they are to be nurtured and loved and accepted and appreciated. (Wow, what is with me, today?) True, everyone falls in this category for me, but I mean I can't begin to imagine how difficult it would be to crawl back into the light following only the faintest memory of what it is and traveling through this mess of confusion...

    Gosh, guys, really sorry. I think today must be a big "receiving" day for me or something...I am in awe, I guess, that there are so many coming here and risking not finding the way...So much respect from me.

    Love to All on this very, very Full day,
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    Quote Posted by Sierra (here)
    I need a miracle of your intent and will that he safely navigate the medical system without harm and only with benefit to his situation. I need a miracle of a changed heart by his boss. I need a miracle of your choosing.
    Hello Sierra,

    I’ll just write the flash that I saw:
    Hubby is walking away. He’s choosing life over hellish situation and control. He only needs a little push of encouragement that it is okay to make this choice.

    These action steps also tells me a couple of things: Hubby’s okay and thriving, though it might take any where from three weeks to three months for it all to settle in his bones.

    If I could make a leap from what my gut says: the biggest bump is only fear of change. (the word 'only' is intended to explain how close Hubby is to experiencing his custom-made Bliss.)

    I know you know this, eliminate anything from diet or drink that triggers depression; incorporate activities that promote bliss.

    My heart goes out to you, Sierra and Hubby,
    With Love and a Hug,
    Paula

    I send the Highest and Best into all the multi-dimensions of
    Hubby, and Sierra, and Boss
    so that each may direct to where it serves them.

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    Sierra and 1inMany I am sending my love and intentions for healing to both because I can truly emphasize on so many levels of both your ordeals --- I know that it will all come out all better in the end...it's just that the journey of getting three can be more than arduous at times....

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