Here and Now...What's Happening?

[1inMany]

Oh, yeah, I call one of these...

[ulli]

Posted by donk (here)

I know this is true, but in my case I am forced to be the hope. I have to find a way to teach the schmuck (that I can't even bear to think about being around) personal responsibility, if his brother and family and rest of friends let him get away this, nothing will stop him from victim #4--as I was the only one materially effected. I have to use time and energy I barely have or that wonder and hope will instead be another tragedy. UGH

This is to help you over the hump in your life, donk.
Can't think of much else to offer you.

[donk]

Oh, yeah, I call one of these...

owww...too late for the other one?


ah well, if so...my mind has been here all day anyway...where I'll be if I can ever catch a break:

[donk]

This is to help you over the hump in your life, donk.
Can't think of much else to offer you.

thanks so much...I'll get over it. It is jut that I feel like get so much thrown at me at once...I need to get one or two of the challenges down at a time. The perspective comes once I get a little discernment in.

Like: how many people alive and who ever lived would kill to have my life? Answer: Most. I've done more living the past week than half the people I know have done in years...

Just gotta get it out, then let it go. My main (material) problem is that I'm hook for the cash this clown blew through. I don't even really give a crap about that, it is just the betrayal, someone I talked many hours of integrity and responsibility, the motha****er was just joking with me about the last junkie that got me...I knew this dude since I was 14 (he was 11, one of my best friend, and so MY little bro). I thought we were good influences

[Carmody]

I've been through that before Donk.

The second last one, not exactly the same, but close enough..just a while back (about 5 years ago) cost me $35k. And I'm broke right now and could use that $35k.

The latest one cost me about $.25M. Could use that cash too.....(yeah you read that right, $250k)

[ulli]

Posted by Carmody (here)
I've been through that before Donk.

The second last one, not exactly the same, but close enough..just a while back (about 5 years ago) cost me $35k. And I'm broke right now and could use that $35k.

The latest one cost me about $.25M. Could use that cash too.....(yeah you read that right, $250k)

It's a new world. How to get what one needs without using cash....
Lets look at it this way...creative potential is still there, but may need to be redirected.
at least these people are still having fun:



and what about this
Gingerbread crack house:



and my secret message to Playdo
(from one goat to another)...please come back soon

[1inMany]

Amazing...

Eve the central light pillar and chalice. Lilith to her right is painted on the reverse (hidden) side of the blossoming of creation. Sophia in the background above her painted on the spines of the books of religion and tradition is the holy grail and chalice of wisdom that is the blessed inheritance of all humanity within Olandar and the painted library and wonder-study the Hieroglyph of the Human Soul.
Artist Leigh J Mccloskey

[astrid]

Weird , none of my posts from last night here are showing
Maybe I just dreamed i was posting
A story about the shape shifting rabbit I work with
sometimes it appeared again last night

My nights are getting more and more interesting since
my sleep has been fractured . So I'm starting to embrace
more this new normal .
I will need an afternoon nap though if this keeps up else
my days are going to be an unproductive blur
Either that or I go more extreme and adopt the uberman
sleep schedule .. Which I could do given my current lifestyle
Would certainly mean acceleration in development .
The jury is out though on the health risks though
You sleep 20 min every few hours , continuously, 24/7
and you can't miss a sleep . It take some adjusting its way
tough in the first week , but after that its ok .

Anyways sleep has always fascinated me , what really
goes on , etc....

[1inMany]

Feeling lost is when we can pause and embrace the Mystery - the fertile soil of all possibility and potential.

IT is where we can be in the NOW and in the essence of our divine truth. It is where flashes come and everything makes sense, un
til it doesn't make sense anymore.

When it is a time of inaction - it is a time to dream, envision, pray and rest and when it is a time of action, much can be actualized and manifested, because our dreams, visions and prayers become our intentions, passions and creativity, which guide the choices we make, which become the actions we take.

We don't need to do anything but flow with it and make each moment one that is growing, transforming - gaining wisdom, acceptance and strength.

Each moment is a chance to really add to our selves and fill ourselves up with creative power and certainty, rather than take away from ourselves and fall into confusion or fear.

Artist: Sam Carlo

Yes! It's Okay...

[donk]

Wow!! Quarter mil!! My ex might have approached that, but was long strung out (year+) and you'd have to throw in house and car...250k in one hit is gut shot, damn I hope I learned before I get to that level...

Funny how it works (take out ex)...$650 cost year long friendship, mixing biz and pleasure got me for $5k, then junky cost me 25 now im looking at about five stacks of high society** my take away? Debt spirals are exponential, and no one should ever never ever let me touch me money ever, I got reverse Midas touch

Well, thanks for more perspective, my thoughts are with you. We should team up run a hedge fund!

**anyone know the movie reference? Apropos I just watched it weekend I found I got a real bad beat

[ulli]

Posted by donk (here)
Wow!! Quarter mil!! My ex might have approached that, but was long strung out (year+) and you'd have to throw in house and car...250k in one hit is gut shot, damn I hope I learned before I get to that level...

Funny how it works (take out ex)...$650 cost year long friendship, mixing biz and pleasure got me for $5k, then junky cost me 25 now im looking at about five stacks of high society** my take away? Debt spirals are exponential, and no one should ever never ever let me touch me money ever, I got reverse Midas touch

Well, thanks for more perspective, my thoughts are with you. We should team up run a hedge fund!

**anyone know the movie reference? Apropos I just watched it weekend I found I got a real bad beat

more distraction for donk

[astrid]

Don't get me started on money gained and lost
But these days when I look back I'm totally grateful
for all of those experiences, every second, the good
the bad and the hideously ugly . All of it has got me to
this place of power where I'm able to facilitate great
transformation, both for myself and others .
So really I just now sit in gratitude to what I have
been gifted as experiences, and the best is yet to come
I'm sure of it . From that place of peace and acceptance
the journey becomes the path not the path itself

With material wealth comes also many distractions
with spiritual wealth you always have what you need
exactly when you need it, it's all in the asking and the
trusting that you are in the arms of spirit , always .

[Flash]

Posted by ulli (here)

Posted by Carmody (here)
That's what I thought it was. I'm in many ways similar.

I was never here. You never saw me.

Remember everything you've heard. Do not go back to sleep.

Internet browsing is either quest or service. When quest is completed service begins.
Sometimes there are still overlaps, but mostly once one discovers that life's purpose is to give service to others
then all need for personal identity also can dissolve.
There won't even be any virtual parties for the 30,000th post ...
as this one has learnt an important lesson with regard to Internet fun and games.
As Neptune goes deeper into Pisces I predict that even Tom Lescher will be hiding his face a few years from now.

What did you learn about internet parties, I still does not understand what happened truly, so my learning may not have been done.... to tell the truth, without knowing or undestanding exactly why, I feel a bit responsible since I am the one who kind of started the party.

[ulli]

Posted by Flash (here)

Posted by ulli (here)

Posted by Carmody (here)
That's what I thought it was. I'm in many ways similar.

I was never here. You never saw me.

Remember everything you've heard. Do not go back to sleep.

Internet browsing is either quest or service. When quest is completed service begins.
Sometimes there are still overlaps, but mostly once one discovers that life's purpose is to give service to others
then all need for personal identity also can dissolve.
There won't even be any virtual parties for the 30,000th post ...
as this one has learnt an important lesson with regard to Internet fun and games.
As Neptune goes deeper into Pisces I predict that even Tom Lescher will be hiding his face a few years from now.

What did you learn about internet parties, I still does not understand what happened truly, so my learning may not have been done.... to tell the truth, without knowing or undestanding exactly why, I feel a bit responsible since I am the one who kind of started the party.

You did nothing wrong. Don't worry.
It was about me, and how I handled the situation when the party got pooped on...

[Marianne]

Here and Now, doing a 4 element blessing for my friend and his family to increase his business. Salt for earth, sandalwood incense for air, a green candle for fiery abundance, and water for water. I gaze at the flame, and pass my hands through the incense smoke, drink a bit of the water and take a grain of salt to bring the elements into my body... then raise power to send in the right direction.

Those little specks are citrine crystal chips, for prosperity.



I got a new Steampunk deck this afternoon on the way home. I passed it through a sage-frankincense-myrrh incense smoke to cleanse it, then held it in my hands on its red velvet bag, and blessed it to be of good use.

The house smells good with the incense burning.

I pulled a card for the village, the first reading for this deck.

The High Priestess (2)
Her wisdom resides in the heart and can be understood only through a direct experience.
Have faith the universe has your back.



My love to you all,
Marianne

[Michelle Marie]

Posted by astrid (here)
Interesting themes here of late, referring dreams being reported here.
Last week i journeyed and found all these lost children, i was able to bring one out and
i came back totally exhausted. I was fascinated though as to what this place is, and some further
digging has lead me to now know that its the place were children's souls go when they go through unspeakable
acts of trauma. I only get shown things if they are important and relevant for me to work in and with, so looks like
its another area i will be working in.

Been a very busy few days, and the intensity is building yet again with a new round of flares.
Sleep for me continues to be very on and off.. but being in that twlight state more often does make
for much more "bleed through" have been having some very interesting past life recalls, in particular
in relation to my current family and what had happened previously to set up the dynamics in this life
Very eye opening stuff.

Love to all

Interesting that you used the term "bleed through" because I had just started hanging around a new friend and had what I called "past life bleed through." I felt like acting way too familiar with this person than what was warranted in this lifetime.
It was a very strong sensation. I felt like holding hands and acting like we were a couple but we were just barely getting to know each other. We're still trying to sort out what we are to each other in this lifetime and it's been over a year now.

It's the strangest relationship I've ever had. Our diverse conditioning would not be conducive to being a couple. But our depth of closeness is so natural that it feels really comfortable and enjoyable to be together.

I bet stuff like "past life and other realm bleed through" is and coming very prevalent.

Thanks!!!!
Michelle Marie

[ulli]

Posted by 1inMany (here)
Yes! It's Okay...

This is for you, 1inMany.
You did well.
CONGRATULATIONS!!!!

[Flash]

Donk and Carmody, I am all heart with you.

I learned in my twenties what is was to be without money and I am still again somewhat revisiting it too.

I lost a lot (well peanuts compared to Goldman Sach bankers wealth) of my own money to/because of my ex husband (it is not always men who get pruned out), lost few 5k here and there (one with an investment crook), and last year and half I lost a lot in real potential revenues because of lies on another contract, money I would have made if not lied to. Plus lost 1/3 of my little RRSP (retirement placements) that went away in 2008 that has not been recuperated yet, for a meager left over.

Finally, I got to the point where I am getting relatively poor, not able to work as much anymore, getting older. When losses would occur in the past, I would start working like crazy to make up (good 60 hours per week plus taking care of a child with learning disabilities and motor disabilities), mostly because I was in dire need of money for treatment for my daughter and because I started to have a decent living only in my thirties, so no money had been put aside before.

I ended up able to pay everything my daughter needed, at least that has been ok., but I lost so much that I will not be able to redo myself before retirement.

This makes it so that I won't be able to retire at 65 like everybody, and I am now looking at ways to be physically/mentally able to work until 72.

In fact, I am basically very depressed since last may, I tried to take off in silence, tried to understand why I was caught with the wrong people around me (no support or love), trying to find what in my ways attracted those situations/ people as to stop these patterns. I am making some strikes in finding why, but I hope I would have seen what happened and why before.

Bad karma altogether, except for being born in Canada and having my beloved daughter (I was born to parents that were stressed out because of hospitals to pay, my mother having been quite sick before free medicare in Canada - all my dad's money went to hospitals during all my youth - I am reeaaaaall pro medicare because I know the consequences of being pitch into poverty even if having good salaries and working much).

Gosh I am depressed. I have done about no work since May, I am trying to push myself to find work/contracts, but the will is just not really there.

I truly am very sad and depressed.

Should have been a gold digger when younger , I now think it may have been easier and I was pretty enough (but did not know it )

May be I should take Astrid advice in above post.

[Marianne]

Donk, Carmody, 1inMany, Flash ... everyone : )

[astrid]

when i am truly short of money, it usually means i have not been giving enough back the other way.
so i give my last dollar away, and within very short time i have flow again.

It's all just energy, and that balance is needed for it to flow right.