Here and Now...What's Happening?

[donk]

I let myself get walked on, taken advantage of, get my heart broken. Wouldn't have it any other way.

...well, the blatant walking on--that stops. No good for anybody. But being taken advantage of, well, I am at peace, able to lose anything. Except a friend, my respect for a person, the ability to the see the good--the innocence lost...thats what crushes sometimes.

But all of that, it is what it is and i can let go any given momeng. It's the bull**** hassles that I am dreading. The unwanted responsibilities, the fine print in those one-sided contracts I keep thoughtless get sucked into that taint the here & now every now & again.

I'll get through it, won't let it consume whilst I have no power to do anything about, total surrender. Don't know how to relate it to you flash--I'm trying, thinking about you. The depression is the worst, if only I could pinpoint the second I got control of mine--& share it with those who need that.

You have the village's love, for what it's worth. A place to stay if you find yourself on the east coast in the states (yeah, I'm s that nia--trusting...). And promise if I figure out how I got out my slump when I could kinda relate to how your feeling, I'll let you know. Somehow I figured out how to let go of nearly all my attachments and get over nearly all my fears--which makes life easier, going through this is a cakewalk compared to the tortuous hell the $650 ordeal was for me in my victim
state...it sounds so easy: just let go and don't fear. Heh, if only

[Calz]

Posted by ulli (here)

and my secret message to Playdo

(from one goat to another)...please come back soon

... perhaps we need some serious village vibes ...

[amandapoet]

In light of the challenges facing so many of our villagers and at our varying points of working through them, I thought I'd share a poem. Yes, a poem-- I haven't written one for far longer than I care to admit. And yes it is still in rough condition and in need of fine tuning--but I actually feel it is worthy to share.
Finally my poetic voice is re-emerging, which is a real tangible turning point in my self-evolution. And, no it isn't the best or most profound construct of words-- but it's mine. Like an out of practice singer, I know its off key-- but knowing that "she" is still there despite how long she remained mute and devoid of inspiration-- actually becomes a renewed source of inspiration for this self-identified poet to carry on...

Respiration

Drowning in the restraints of detachment
Suffocating in the reliance of faulty equipment
A respirator cannot circulate the air due to a tubing error…
when you choke on the forced artificiality down your throat
wake up to awareness that inside your chest are functioning lungs—
The ability to breathe on your own was never lost—
But the attachment to this failing constructed machine feeds the oxygen deprivation
And the sparks of currents flowing through the mind grow dim and slow—
Embrace the discomfort, let instinct take over, choke on the hardness shoved inside and rip it out—
Rip it out, cough up the debris and feel your first real breath—air striking the raw lining of your throat.
Jolting shocks, increased currents all disconcerting, all temporary and momentary.
Too soon this newness will pass, and purposeful action transforms into automation
Another ability taken for granted if not wise, so keep that plastic piece your lips once encased
A souvenir of what was and is not.



Thank you for letting me share my first steps into poetic pondering since feeling safe enough to leave the mental survival zone I resided in too long...

~Amanda

[modwiz]

I apologize for not having anything sad to say and that my posts generally are about me and my wonderful life. I guess someone has to have one.

Anyway, I just received this picture of my band 'Radagast'. It was taken in the 88-89 time period.

I will have to request a higher resolution scan. The pixelation in this one is terrible. I can pull bit of drama out of this picture though and save the day. The dark haired woman in the middle was my third wife. The man she is resting her arm on is our drummer. She ended of leaving me for him. Boo hoo.

She was really hot then. No more. He has her now.
BTW, we are all good friends and have taken care of each other in many ways.

Sh!t, even my sad stories turn out well. I'm just no fun.

The other woman I married. I mean, I performed the ceremony. Their 20th anniversary is coming up and her husband wants me to conduct a renewal of their vows.

I am an Interfaith Minister.

[Guest]

Here's to a different vibe




Watching a soft gentle breeze blow through the trees in the forest and
mellowing out to some Peter Gabriel tonight. Listening to an album I haven't
heard for a while now.

Peter Gabriel's Passion

Source: https://youtube.com/watch?v=lPlPOJd8QLs

Good Night


Love


Nora

[Calz]

Just spotted the perfect gift for my xmas wish list ...

[RunningDeer]

Posted by modwiz (here)
I apologize for not having anything sad to say and that my posts generally are about me and my wonderful life. I guess someone has to have one.

Anyway, I just received this picture of my band 'Radagast'. It was taken in the 88-89 time period.

I will have to request a higher resolution scan. The pixelation in this one is terrible. I can pull bit of drama out of this picture though and save the day. The dark haired woman in the middle was my third wife. The man she is resting her arm on is our drummer. She ended of leaving me for him. Boo hoo.

She was really hot then. No more. He has her now.
BTW, we are all good friends and have taken care of each other in many ways.

Sh!t, even my sad stories turn out well. I'm just no fun.

The other woman I married. I mean, I performed the ceremony. Their 20th anniversary is coming up and her husband wants me to conduct a renewal of their vows.

I am an Interfaith Minister.

[modwiz]

Posted by WhiteCrowBlackDeer (here)

It is hard to tell, but I designed, cut and sewed the mid-thigh length, open bell sleeve tunic being worn by me in this picture.

[RunningDeer]

Posted by modwiz (here)

Posted by WhiteCrowBlackDeer (here)

It is hard to tell, but I designed, cut and sewed the mid-thigh length, open bell sleeve tunic being worn by me in this picture.

Are there no end to your talents?

[modwiz]

Posted by WhiteCrowBlackDeer (here)

Posted by modwiz (here)

Posted by WhiteCrowBlackDeer (here)

It is hard to tell, but I designed, cut and sewed the mid-thigh length, open bell sleeve tunic being worn by me in this picture.

Are there no end to your talents?

Being a husband is a talent I lack in. It just took me 4 wives before the realization hit me. There were some outside chemical factors impeding this epiphany.

We can't be good at everything, so I will stop entering into marital contracts.

[meeradas]

Source: https://youtube.com/watch?v=6-6e3yTg6lc

Whenever i stay there too long, the physical hurts as if beaten up, upon returning to it.

[Calz]

Posted by modwiz (here)

We can't be good at everything, so I will stop entering into marital contracts.

[since I am plenty old enough ... I can get away with this ]

[AwakeInADream]

Posted by modwiz (here)
I am an Interfaith Minister.

What does this mean?

Can you marry a Muslim to a Jew?

That may sound like a joke but I am serious,
I've not heard of this before.

I like the sound of it, because I myself love all religions,
I will not choose between them.
I choose God alone.

Does 'Interfaith' mean you have all religions in one?
(that sounds stupid, but it is close to my ideal)

[astrid]

http://www.lifestraw.com.au/page/lif...al/default.asp

I just came across this water filter product, it looks great and also very well priced!

[astrid]

http://www.bbc.co.uk/news/magazine-20028490

The fundamentalists are going to have a field day with this one.

"Weird weather is predicted in the UK this week and could include "blood rain"."

[astrid]

Source: https://youtube.com/watch?v=auS126yhYwM

Going to be a wild week this one

[astrid]

Mammatus Clouds Over Saskatchewan


http://apod.nasa.gov/apod/ap121023.html



More fun stuff

Source: https://youtube.com/watch?v=nO0bSSXmr1A

[1inMany]

Money reminds me...

Em and I had gone shopping for school clothes, and walked in the house with several bags and her cowboy boots. She announced, much to my horror and Peanut's too, "Wow, Dad, we spent $200!!!" (Oh, the innocence.) Peanut and I looked at each other with our mouths gaping and we both said something like, "Um, Em, that's not really the way to go about telling Dad about a shopping trip..."

At that, we all laughed and Mike said, "Well, Em, that's okay. Money is not a multi-function tool. You used it for what it's designed to do."

Which made us really gaffaw...

Money is not a multi-function tool....hahaha

Much Love,

p.s. Thanks, Astrid, I haven't been watching sun activity and had no idea...an M9 followed by an X flare...strap in!

[1inMany]

Might need this........

[PurpleLama]

Black Tourmaline....

Never Leave Home Without It.