‘Psychosis Different’ 2007-2012 – Confronting my own ‘demons’

[ExomatrixTV]

~after having a “psychosis-different” in 2007 (for Dutch researchers see: PsychoseAnders) when I lost almost everything that was dear to me… I had a total “nervous breakdown”.

ExomatrixTV ‘Psychosis Different’ 2007-2012 – Confronting my own ‘demons’ & how to Move On!


... a lot happened to me in a very short time-span:

1. My 5 year DVD conspiracy research-project of 100+ Radio & TV interviews I made (see: this link ) was destroyed because of a MBR (Master Boot Record) attack and my SATA drive could not be accessed because there were 2 Hard Drives interlinked with each-other & depending on each-other … thus recover lost data was/is a total nightmare).



2. that DVD was part of presenting myself for the first time in USA, I was invited (thanks to the conference organizer Victoria Jack, Founder & Executive Producer ‘The Bay Area UFO Expo’ to speak (give lecture presentation + workshop!) about the Dutch & German Military UFO Cases (as I also study German language UFO cases since 1990) & Dutch/German UFO Contactees & Abductees with hard evidence that Dutch Defense & Military Intelligence are involved!

The moment I was clear that she was serious for me to go to USA, like flight tickets going to be payed, stay in Hotel & food all payed etc. Multiple weird strange things happened to me in 2007: as I said before my DVD-project destroyed (see 1.), my mother asked me to turn on the mobile phone because my Father was ill and I could get an emergency call to got to him, will be picked up by my sister, so she asks me to keep my mobile turned on that night, and I forgot that it was very close to my head when I was sleeping that night, I heard extreme strange frequencies it woke me up at 4.00 AM (approx) and went to sleep again, that morning I was trying to spit in the toilet and I couldn’t do it anymore because half of my face was totally paralyzed (1 eye was not able to close anymore and half of my mouth stayed open & speaking was very difficult) … when I looked in the mirror I thought I had a brain-stroke or something. The Doctor said I have the illness called; Bell’s Palsy (half face paralyzed) which lasted for half a year to recover / heal, see: http://goo.gl/X6pxb so I was NOT able to go to USA for the first time.



3. same week, my cat was poisoned & died!
4. motorcycle was stolen that week too.
5. I had to cancel my lecture & radio + tv presentations tour in Holland.
6. lost my Internet connection long time. (and some other personal stuff (like 07. relationship ended) all of it combined made it too much for me to handle emotionally.
But it seems it was connected to something deeper that was already “brewing” which has to do with my long list of paranormal experiences & confirmations of many visions I had after my Near Death Experience onward.
8. plus I was threatened (long story).

Source: https://youtube.com/watch?v=TrubEC3Wybk

I felt huge pressure or urge to DO something about my (very personal) knowledge & insights, but at the same time I was forced to 100% stop and re-evaluate everything, which was very confrontational to say the least.

Now after 5 years of going a total new direction and living 5 years almost like a “hermit” … I decided to come back again in the “real world” (not just only “internet based reality”) that means that I have to work hard to get in good (physically) shape, good health. For a long time I did not care about appearances, that means I need to physical exercise again, maybe do martial arts etc. WHY? because only if you really in good health it is possible to do what I want to do again.



Thanks to Iris, who I recently interviewed about “Psychosis Different” in Dutch (soon also in English!). Her Dutch article made ripples in some of the ‘conspiracy aka suppressed news researchers’ sites in Holland.

I think it is very important to discuss the mental, psychical, emotional & spiritual issues dealing with (sometimes heavy) confrontational (conspiracy) awareness facing all kinds of problems & turmoil dealing with relationships, family, friends, colleagues etc. who often do not (want to) understand why you do what you do and how deep the rabbit hole really goes.

That is why Iris & I have decided to create a soon to be launched website dealing with those specific issues +much more. I have created an extra youtube channel called “TrutherCouncelor” which sounds ridiculous to many, but it is not meant for those who do not appreciate what we try to do, like building bridges & help (Counseling/Coaching) others to cope & deal with relation issues connected to conspiracy research, suppressed news research & paranormal and/or UFO experiences etc.


Soon you will see the interview made by me (ExomatrixTV) in Dutch & English, Iris eye-opening article translated into English & the new website I help (co-create) build to make it more professional, but most of the content is coming from Iris of StichtingROOI ‘Recht Op Onafhankelijke Informatie’ translated: Foundation ‘Right to Independent (alternative) Information’.


stay tuned,
John Kuhles (ExomatrixTV)
http://whynotnews.eu/?p=1868

[sandy]

Can hardly wait John>>>>>>>>>>very much looking forward to your update

[westhill]

Much of what you outlined was so familiar. I am very interested in your new information and direction.
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