Your good thoughts and energies (needed) ;-

[Deega]

Condolences Limor – sending you love, hug, to meet this great challenge, all the best to you and your family.

[GloriousPoetry]

Limor,

I feel your pain. I don't know if you had the opportunity to say good-bye to your mother before she moved on. When my brother died in a car accident years ago I wished I had had the chance to say good-bye. Six months after his death he came to me in a dream showing me that he had not died to the world he was now in, he had just finished his physical journey in this world.


Sending you light and love,
GLORIA

[Limor Wolf]

I am overwhelmed with gratitude to all of you. so much energy is flowing towards my family and myself, and today was a GOOD day, there is no doubt that this was a great and supportive wind, a 'tool' to change the atmosphere, the vibrations that were pretty heavy for me..turned to be lighter and more comprising.
I Thank you from my heart!

About four years ago I recieved a sudden knowledge that my mother will be on a health crisis at her age of 71, she will be at a certain crossroad where she will have to decide if she wants to make a change in her life and in her state of mind. If she will not do that, she will not live much longer. for some reason, I repeatedly got the (in)famous date of 21 december 2012 as the final time she will be on earth. This year, a day before her 71st birthday she felt unwell and a day after she was hospitlized for the first time. months passed and although she tried, she didn't seem to be able to make the needed changes. I tried to do what I can to help her change the way, we had many talks and managed to spent quality time together, very different vibrations, but I gave her a glimpse to my world. we got closer. About two weeks ago, after a difficult day, but not so much an immediate risk of life, I had the strong urge to take a break and completely be with her, help her with her transition, which had no outward signs. no one has imagined that such a thing is coming, but me. I had a very intensive inner knowing . she was about to have quite a simple procedure to allow her heart to return to a normal pace, nothing which is life-threatening, and return back home. I had a great feelings of sadness and shame the day after I posted about it in Avalon, since I saw my mother laughing and being positive. However, she has died a sudden death On the 26th of december, five days after the date in question.

I probably shouldn't share this here, but It feels wierd.I know Avalon is quite a safe place to share our 'wierdnesses'...

There is no doubt in my mind that she is now more free than she ever was in this body, and that I will be able to connect with her maybe even in a greater depth than we ever used to. There seem to be many here who are releasing loved ones at this time, I appreciate and humbly give thanks to all your words, your thoughts and your good energies which gives me so much strength.

DEEPLY THANK YOU

Limor

[CdnSirian]

Dear Limor, your level of knowing ran deep in regards to your mother. I'm sure you will remain a great value to her, as she will to you.

You bring to us here that same heart and knowing, which will always be valued. Thank you.

[jp11]

Dear Limor, so many heart felt messages speak to the connectedness we all share. May I add my love and condolences to you and your family and blessings to your mother as her journey continues.

[GCS1103]

May you and your family be blessed with peace and healing from your mother's sudden departure. Her spirit is free now and experiencing joy beyond our understanding. Love and strength to you, Limor.

[Bill Ryan]

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I wrote this to Limor eleven days ago, and re-post it here.

Dear Limor,

I very much feel for you. I was very close to my mother, who died in 2007.

At that time she and I were the only remaining members of our family: no brothers, sisters, aunts, uncles... just herself and me. So when she passed, I was alone in the world (an interesting feeling!). Not many people get to experience what it is like to have no family at all.

Photo attached: I took her on safari to Kenya in 2004. She was always an adventurer. Here's another photo of her in Nigeria in the late 1940s, before I had arrived, holding a black baby. She was an extraordinarily beautiful, positive person. Everyone loved her, and loved to be with her.

She was first diagnosed with cancer in 1979, and when she was in the hospital ward she looked around her and thought: "My God, all these people think they're going to die." The thought that she might die never occurred to her, and she made a full recovery after surgery.

The cancer returned in 2005 (soon after this photo was taken) -- just when she was planning another trip, this time to Alaska. Her immediate thought was: "Damn! I'll have to postpone my vacation." She again went into the hospital for surgery, and again recovered fully. She went on her Alaskan trip the next year.

The cancer finally got her in 2007, third time unlucky. She was 89.

She was always very young: her voice was that of a much younger woman, and her friends were all half her age. She loved to tell the story of a salesman who had chatted her up on the phone, thinking that she was in her 30s or 40s. He was visibly shocked when he came to the door!

One day, a few years before she passed, she had her handbag stolen in the street. The local newspaper gave it a few lines, reporting that "an old lady had had her handbag snatched." She was indignant. "They called me an old lady!" she complained. I had to gently point out to her that she was 82.

Her final year was difficult. She was starting to lose her memory, and was no longer very nimble. The cancer had struck again, and she no longer had the strength to fight it or deny it. Kerry and I traveled to Northern England -- Skipton, where she lived -- to be with her. (This was when we met and spent so much time with Henry Deacon, who was living just 45 minutes away.) We rented a small apartment nearby, and I spent time with her every day, although I had organized the local social services to help with all the household logistics.

One day, I was delayed and arrived at the house 15 minutes later than when I'd told her I would be there. I found her on the floor of her bedroom, in great pain. She had fallen and broken her pelvis, trying to get the bathroom on her own -- because I was late and she could no longer wait for my assistance. I called the ambulance and we took her to the hospital. She was extremely frail.

That was when she gave up, knowing that she could not recover. She let go and died two days later. The night before she passed, I visited her at the hospital. She held my hand and simply said: "Thank you." That was the measure of the person she was, and I still miss her.

[Christine]

Dearest Limor --

My heart is with yours in love never ending and beauty everlasting. May you and your family find comfort and peace.

Love,
Christine

[pugwash84]

peace and love to you xx

[Guest]

I'm truly sorry for your loss Limor. Wishing you Peace and Love.

What a wonderful gift the time you got to spend together with your Mother.



Hugs and Love



Nora

[M6*]

Stay strong Limor!

You are the Troubadour Now!
Much Love, Melanie

[lelmaleh]

Love is eternal, thinking of you and your family. May you find peace and transformation.

[Tane Mahuta]

Sorry to hear of your loss Limor.

As difficult as it seems...life must go on!!!

TM

[Sith73]

Sending love your way!

[karamba]

Dear Limor<
I am sorry to hear that...
sending you my Love and Peace to you and your family.

[sineck]

hello limor, how is one to give love? think,,,,,,,,, through life. basic, your mother loved you, i feel the sentiment, mama is life, she gave it to you. and you to her, i give you a big hug, because you need it, i know, my mommy i do miss, may you feel light and love in all that surrounds you.

[conk]

Love and blessings, Conk.

[Phoenix1304]

Hello Limor

I linked to this thread from Fred's Sacred Circle thread, I'm sorry I didn't see it before, I would have added my love and blessings to the wave directed at you and your family. Though I'm sure it's all still quite raw and you are still adjusting to life without her physical presence and perhaps finding that you're more 'with her' now than you ever were. That has been my experience following the death of my mother in 1998.

I was interested in your experience of 'knowing' and of being there for her, even though you were unable to change her perspective, that time together talking was healing for both of you.

I could say that my mother and I did not see eye to eye, although there was always respect and even though she poo-pooed much of my spritituality, she gladly drew a card from my Medicine cards when she visited and got Butterfly, I remember thinking 'I wonder how much time you have left for this world?'. Butterfly being transformation from one state to another, of course. It didn't seem to worry her, (as it did me), she liked butterflies and had three large decorative ones on the outside of her home. It made me extra gentle and patient with her that week she stayed. She died suddenly on the last day of that visit. Unlike, the death of my father that was also sudden and unspeakably traumatic for me at age 23, I felt I had closure with my mum, peace, harmony and love prevailed in those last days.

At her wake, a butterfly fluttered in amongst the assembled mourners and around the room. "It's Nana!" said one of her young granddaughters. I do believe it was. I also believe that, for some time, at least, the personality survives death.

Sometimes I still shed tears for my mother but they are usually of joy mixed with sadness at some deeper understanding of our karmic relationship. I guess we're never really parted from our soul group and the love and learning goes on and on.

I am always comforted by a Native American proverb, "They are not gone that live in the hearts they leave behind".

Blessings, love and my deepest condolences to you.

Helen

[zebowho]

HI Limor, I too am sorry I missed this and for your loss. I had a felling when you mentioned you were taking time off for a bit, on Wade's thread. I sincerely hope the space you've been in has more peace and the light that surrounds your mother now than the sadness we all feel at times like this. We too lost someone this past Dec to a 6yr long fight with cancer and every time I hear or know someone that leaves this collective party we call life I have to remind myself of something I had a very small glimpse of when my grandfather passed many many years ago. The angels in Heaven are celebrating each one's return, much like we do a new born life here but on such a purer and grander scale. We will see them again.

Any peace, calm and serenity I have that can find its way to you, I freely give.

-z

[Limor Wolf]

zebowho, Thank you very much, I appreciate your words of support and am sorry to hear about your own loss, battling cancer can be long and full of ups and downs, I hope that you as well are at a place of peace and acceptance, I know I am. we have a something unique that is to our aid here, and that is the knowing that we are actually immortal beings and that death is an illusion. It makes the seperation easier.

Hello Helen, Just read your post, how amazing! I find common grounds with your own mother's departure as was with mine. my mother's death and everything surrounding it was a so unreal to me, I am not talking about the normal usual sense that is a struggle to everyone, but from the sense of having so many 'unnatural' things happening. I was given knowledge, slightly too much knowledge for my taste.. to assist her and to assist myself along her last couple of years. I practically knew what was about to happen. every step of the way, even when she was healthy and smiling. I had a battle inside of me because of this, and feelings of shame. four years is a long time to preper and to be prepered.
It seems that your mother pulling the butterfly card was your own sign and your own "knowing" of her transition to come, it must have felt pretty strange when it happened.

There were no outer signs for us, so no one of my family suspected that my mother will not recover. ten days before she passed, I phoned my brother, my sister and an aunt and gently asked them to be prepered for this option, not to pressure her anymore to do 'this' or do 'that', but simply be with her in love.
Nine days before, I wrote in my notebook: " I am getting information..mom is not in a good shape.." that same night when I went to bed, I reached my hand to the clock, and found it was turned off, stopped working for some reason, when I turned it on again it kept flashing 01:00, which is a number I am often prompted with, a kind of an energy signature.

Three days before she passed, I was woken up at night at exactly 3:33, I looked at the clock and went back to sleep, after an hour I suddenly woke up again, hearing my mom screaming inside my head, I could not understand why.. went back to sleep, woke up again at exactly 05:00 and as the morning came I forgot all about this. when I arrived to the hospital my mom told me she fell at night out of bed, the nurses came to pick her up from the floor at around 04:00, and she was screaming.