Last night something very peculiar was happening as I laid in bed. I want to describe this the best I can, but it's bound to be a bit confusing. I want to see if anyone here can relate.
I was laying down, eyes closed but still fully conscious. I was not very tired, but quite relaxed, so I decided to meditate in that state. I began having strong sensations around the third eye area, with great ease compared to my usual endeavors. You see, I am very undisciplined when it comes to this important practice. It is one of the things I have resolved to work on. Last night it was coming on quite freely however.
After what I suppose was a few minutes (though I'm not sure how long it was), something else accompanied these energies.
Words started coming to me, only they weren't words I knew. I did not 'hear' them as an external voice, or the voice of someone else inside my head. It was more like a distant memory coming back, spoken through my own internal voice.
The weirdest part was that I could not pronounce these words. I nearly came out of the meditative state entirely, but managed not to somehow. These words sounded vaguely English, but clearly did not belong to that or any other established language. They were like gibberish, but there was a strange yet distinct sensation that they were somehow significant. And although I could 'hear' these words in my internal dialogue, I could not repeat them. As I tried, it was like struggling to pronounce an unfamiliar word written on paper. This seems most absurd of all because I did not visualize them. It was as if I was simply incapable of uttering them.
Has anyone else experienced anything like this? It reminds me of glossolalia and the idea that language carries mystical properties beyond our recognition. Suffice to say, this might have caused me to question my sanity if it had continued, or if I was anything but lucid today, as I type this. I would love to remember those words, even if they were merely gibberish (but again, I had an inexplicably strong notion that they were not).
Feel free to speculate, even if you haven't encountered anything of this sort. It is interesting how language can be both enabling and limiting when it comes to communication. One has to wonder if language can continue to progressively evolve, or if it has reached the limit of its capacity for expression.




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