So far I’ve been doing my best to use the word “meditation” in a different sense than what is known as “contemplation”. Contemplation is often known as a form of “meditation”, particularly in Judeo-Christian and Muslim traditions and cultures. The difference is that in what I prefer to call meditation proper, what you’re doing is emptying your consciousness of thoughts. That emptying, rather counter-intuitively I suppose, is in itself a liberation from slavery.Posted by AwakeInADream (here)
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I have been mulling over an idea for some time, an idea for a prolonged meditation that I feel would be of great benefit for me. The reason I have put off it's execution is because I also feel that it could be of great harm to me. It could go either way, so I have as yet done nothing with this idea. So I will ask your advice.
My idea is this: That I should meditate for an extended period on only one subject, and that this should be a complete exploration and acceptance of my own death. That I should think of nothing else but my own death for many hours, and thus drain out a lifetimes worth of fear. To die fully in the mind, but still live.
Should I do this?
Could this harm me psychologically? Would it help? Could I go insane?
I have a very strong desire to kick 'death' right up the ass, but I am a little afraid that it might bite back....
Contemplation is what happens where you take a topic and you concentrate on thinking about that topic only. You keep focusing only on that topic, even after you’ve completely run out of being able to come up with any more of your thoughts or ideas about it. For a while after the thoughts stop you’ll probably just feel the energy of your emotions regarding this topic. Then they’ll give way to something subtler, which you may or may not perceive as “energy”. But you just stay with the topic – stay focused on it, that is.
Do I think that the question: “What does death really mean to me?” is a good one for contemplation? Absolutely. I think it’s brilliant. For anyone. But particularly for you, AwakeInADream.
Do I think it’s a good idea for you to spend many hours or days or weekends just contemplating that one topic? Well, to begin with I’d suggest doing it for no more than an hour or so at a time. My intuition says you would be well advised at present not to do it more than twice in a day, unfortunately. But certainly, it would be a great idea for you to do it every day, if you’re so motivated.
I do appreciate the strength of your intention to become free of all fear. I applaud that. Overcoming fear at a deep level is a real biggie, though. It takes work, and awareness. The energy of fear is the energy of freezing, or else of running away, or going invisible. Inwardly you have to keep overcoming the impulse to not be fully present, when you do this practice.
But going to extremes is something I see as belonging to the clever Western mind. Just spend a reasonable but substantial amount of time facing that fear each day, but also give everything plenty of time to percolate through your subconscious. And do get very grounded before you start. The way to face fear is with stillness. But the stillness comes first: you need to be able to always find that stillness easily before you try something like an all-day marathon, I feel. I don't believe that thinking of death for many hours in one hit will drain out the entire fear of death, or fear in general, I'm afraid (so to speak).
Also, dying fully in the mind isn't something you can will yourself to do. It has to happen organically, coming de profundis. It has to have its own momentum. It can't be forced, any more than one can ever force love.
Does anyone else have any thoughts or relevant experience?
Another practice which may very well be helpful to you is a type of walking meditation the same as or similar to that practised in Zen Buddhism. I'll do my best to describe how one does that in my next post.




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