Here and Now...What's Happening?

[ulli]

Posted by araucaria (here)

Posted by 1inMany (here)

Posted by Paula (here)

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Posted by donk (here)

ps...Eram is Wakytweaky? Holy crap, I do live under a rock...haha

I was as surprised as you were!! And glad to know

Starseed is now Wind.
christinedream7 is now CD7.
And Heather2012ish is now Heather2017.
And whatshisname is now Chris.

And Chris is still greybeard and Bob's your uncle

Different Chris. whatshisname a.k.a. Chris is 1inMany's daughter's karmic partner.

And who's Bob?

And who's on first...

Thank you for the giggle this morning, even if it was unintentional

Much Love,

Even unintentional giggles have intention behind them

If no one else has an Uncle Bob, well I had one, although that was a very long time ago.

And I'm still auracaria (nice: aura) or auricaria (golden aura) or something unspellable like that. My apologies to the dyslexics out there, but I'm not changing it to tree

Edit: 'Bob's your uncle' is a phrase that may not travel very well. It is just a kind of verbal exclamation mark (or point)

I recall "bob's yer uncle" as being Cockney slang...maybe it was once part of a Cockney nursery rhyme...

[araucaria]

Posted by ulli (here)

I recall "bob's yer uncle" as being Cockney slang...maybe it was once part of a Cockney nursery rhyme...

I didn't know that. I rather like the cockney alphabet, A for gardener, X for breakfast etc.

http://www.smh.com.au/news/Big-Quest...582700584.html

[RunningDeer]

If something out of the ordinary happens today, I’ve been forewarned. This makes twice that Wolfie chose to skip breakfast and stay outside in the cold, dank, snowy weather. It’s as if he’s on watch for something. He circles and checks around corners that aren’t even there. His body shivers.

....maybe I ought to use this energetic time to my advantage.

[1inMany]

George Burns is one of my all time favorite people.

I'm just weird that way

Source: https://youtube.com/watch?v=wSH71qz-ypQ

Source: https://youtube.com/watch?v=mh6saG57kPE

[1inMany]

For heaven's sake, donk. Why did you not mention this? Well, I'm mentioning it...

https://projectavalon.net/forum4/show...for-my-love...

Now, to see if that link works...

[ulli]

Posted by 1inMany (here)
George Burns is one of my all time favorite people.

I'm just weird that way

Source: https://youtube.com/watch?v=wSH71qz-ypQ

Source: https://youtube.com/watch?v=mh6saG57kPE

My son looked just like George Burns for the first year of his life...although more like Donald Pleasance right at birth...
It was funny to see all these old men appear on his baby face.
Now he looks more like Hugh Grant with glasses.

[4evrneo]

Posted by Kraut (here)
A few months ago, while I was always processing my JW experience I wrote this:

We see not what eye cannot behold,
only hear the stories told,
often helpless when our lives unfold,
shaking heads as history unravels,
moving on with baby steps,
sometimes it seems a pointless travel,
reaching out for the spark divine,
striving to overcome the ends of time,
if only it weren't such a struggle,
when all we want is to discern,
surrounded by fog and darkness,
when all we seek is to learn,
to find the purpose behind it all,
grasp the light and warmth of stars,
transcend such terms as near and far,
we wish that we had angels wings,
not held back by weight of sin,
but deep inside in everyone,
there is warmth and brightness,
if we believe, if we have faith,
we have weightlessness and lightness,
shake off the dust and clear our minds,
we can surpass the end of times.

It's about the struggle to find truth and meaning, to leave behind our "outer shell" and the confines of this life here, how sometimes it almost seems pointless but you just can't quit, it's not an option. Came to my mind again today, when I was thinking about the experiences you've all had. I'm definitely not a writer but sometimes I have this stuff just pop up and I can't help but put it on paper.

I can really relate to this Thank you,

[4evrneo]

Posted by Kraut (here)

Posted by 1inMany (here)
Oh, Kraut, I wish I had the answer for you. As it is, your expressions have led me down a hole in myself that used to be extremely painful and I am finding out now that it was a crucial turning point in my soul development.

I was born into a JW family, born into the Truth. My father was the director of music for the district back when orchestras played at assemblies. I grew up napping on concrete floors being lulled by beautiful interpretations of Myriads and Myriads of Brothers before the assemblies started. I grew up being paraded around and showered with positive reinforcement because I was a good girl, answering questions during the Watchtower Studies as soon as I could speak. I was on stage from the time I could walk, a good example. I learned to read using the Watchtower and Awake, and of course the Bible. We went to meetings on Thursday nights and Sundays, and usually held the Tuesday night Book Study in our living room. Saturday mornings our house was full of Brothers and Sisters, and families, getting ready to go in Service. On Monday nights and Wednesday nights, our family sat in a circle and every member took a turn reading something aloud, usually studying for Sunday, but very often we had some part or other at the meeting that we needed to prepare for. I was a proficient public speaker at about 6. I placed many, many magazines before then, countless number probably, just on the cuteness factor alone.

When my parents divorced, there was the necessary Disfellowshipping of one party or the other, my Mom took that one. Upon remarrying, she relocated all of us across the country, which was so far away that we actually did not get to see our Dad even annually. What this did, of course, was send me into a tailspin of nightmares (because of course my Mom was demonized at this point) and secret (forbidden) midnight calls to my Dad so that he could pray with me. Many, many nights I awoke from a nightmare of demons, and after I got the courage to get out of bed (which it felt like took an hour), would get in bed with my Mom shaking with fear. I would make her say "Jehovah" out loud, the only way to make the demons go away. This, I'm certain, infuriated her, having been disfellowshipped and trying to give me a sense of normalcy.

When I moved in with my Dad at 15, I did so because I missed him very much and it seemed the only way to be able to touch him. Upon making this decision, my mother put everything I left behind at home into a pile and lit it. Literally. Every item of clothing. Every picture. Every award since grade school. I no longer existed.

My father then took me out of high school to watch my younger brother, an infant. He wanted, first and foremost, to keep me from becoming worldly. My Dad and step mother also could not afford day care. And, to them, it seemed the perfect opportunity for me to Pioneer. So, here I was a 16-17 year old girl, Pioneering with my brother on my hip. My Dad made frequent trips to Bethel, and helped to compose many songs in the new song book. He also helped record all the "new" music, now heard in Kingdom Halls all over the world. I used to play the piano at assemblies, Circuit and District, Dad standing on the stage directing the music. 2,000 or more people's voices behind me.

I understand the emotional and spiritual abuse that takes place in fundamentalist religions. Even opening up this much, I still could not explain how much a part of my life "the Truth" was.

Upon moving out at 19, maybe 20 years old, I was disfellowshipped as well. (Already shared that elsewhere, not going through that whole story again.) The Truth was such a part of me, and I a part of it, that I cannot describe the sensations on the morning I woke up knowing the Elders had met the night before to decide my "fate." I sat and cried for hours, literally, because the birds were still chirping, the train still blew at 6am outside my window, the traffic noise still existed, the alarm still went off, and I looked in the mirror and still saw myself. I am not joking, here, in the least. I am not sure what I expected to happen, but that moment of realization was the worst and best moment I have ever experienced.

Years ago I had to face a judicial committee, it was terrible. But back then I was still a firm believer and "took my medicine", at least that's how I felt. One Elder was really abusive, so much that the other two weren't happy about it. When I started figuring out the truth about the truth I felt very liberated knowing that the Elders have absolutely no authority over me. In my years I've seen plenty of Elders that are dorks, to say the least, which often got me frustrated, so many like the glory but they care little about others. I'm glad I have to answer to none of them, not all are bad, but still...

Posted by 1inMany (here)
And in one night, I went from having a million brothers and sisters and aunts and uncles to not one. None. And you know what? Had that one moment not occurred, I would not be here. And now.

For a while I felt that all Christians were my Brothers, then and now I feel that all people are my Brothers and Sisters, regardless of what they believe or don't believe. The JW view of Brotherhood is really messed up and friendship among them is as conditional as can be. That was a sad realization for me, I have to hide who I am, how I have progressed as a person because no one will understand.

Posted by 1inMany (here)
I am so, so sorry, Kraut, right along with you, that religions are more than "just" religions. After having the experiences I have had, I would venture a guess that there is not one single thing you will be able to say to your mother that would even make her comfortable being around you. I tried calling my Dad, for years actually, and only once or twice did I ever get him to come to the phone. I visited him a couple of months before he died, in the hospital actually. He could not speak, so they had made him a poster of common words and letters, and he had a pointer. After 6 or 7 years, finally seeing him in person, do you know what he said? He said, "are you going to meetings?"

The coldheartedness that many Witnesses have even towards their own children is something I will never understand. All this talk about love, but what do they practice? What a shame. I'm very sorry it was that way for you. The bond between me and my Mother is strong, so for me there is still hope. But I have to be careful so none of the Elders know about my "apostate tendencies", I don't want to force my Mother to have to choose.

Posted by 1inMany (here)
When this is ingrained so deeply, and especially from birth, it takes a shock to get away from it. But it isn't the kind of shock someone else can give you. I was disfellowshipped for something I actually didn't do, but for one reason or another didn't feel like battling the whole thing. So I let it happen. But this haunted me for 20 years. Twenty years of my life, every waking moment and every sleeping moment. The guilt. The fear. At some point, in therapy even, I decided that there would be no way to get any peace unless I just went back. (This is quite an undertaking, following this rule and that, doing first this step and then that, until the Elders decide to re-instate you.) I went into a Kingdom Hall, asked to see some Elders. Told them I was considering coming back to the fold. But before I did, I wanted to study with them first, because I had been born into all these beliefs, and I wanted to ask questions as an adult. They refused. That's not the way it was done. First you jump through the hoops, then you can ask questions. The only way past after that, was to accept that I would die at Armageddon. So I did.

And you know what happened? One day, out of nowhere, a thought popped into my head. It was something like, hey wait a minute. Jehovah knows my heart, and is a just God. I will wait to talk to Him and see what He says.

The Elders hold far too much power, how many people have had to suffer because of that? They are just like Pharisees. Not asking questions? Even that is clearly against biblical principles. I am glad that you overcame the fear of Armageddon. It's a tool that keeps most in check for all their lives.

Posted by 1inMany (here)
After all this, the only advice I would give you is to not share too much. The risk of alienation is HUGE. Let your light shine, let your attitude show her that Jehovah didn't forsake you, turning His back on you until you get your **** together. Build on what is still in common, we are all actually moving toward the new system of things.

Thanks for the advice. I hope you're right that there's a new system coming, I doubt it.

Posted by 1inMany (here)
But even saying that, only you will know if there is a way to reach her. Look at me, here. Some point after 20 years away from it, I let every single bit go. I learned about the Law of One, something that resonates with me like nothing else I have ever found. I know to the core of my being that Jehovah is not "God," just wanted to clarify for anyone reading that I'm way past all this now. This was a painful share because I accessed some memories in such a way as to put myself back there for a moment.

The way I see it (the gnostic view makes sense to me) is that Jehovah is not God at all, just the opposite, it's interesting how JWs resemble Jehovah far more than the Father or Christ. Doom, death and destruction that's what they focus on, all wrapped up in some tasty bits so it isn't too obvious.

Sigh. I'm grateful that you shared your experience. Sending some peace and positive energy your way.

Posted by 1inMany (here)
Why did I do this? ****. I have no clue.

I got home from the city, and all I could think about was rest. I'm so worn out. But, being how I am, I thought I would check in and catch up in the village...and Kraut, I simply could not dismiss your posts.

There is always, always hope. Always. Follow your intuition. And know, please, that you are not alone. None of us is, your mom isn't either. And when the time is right, and I hope this is in your lifetime, she will awaken to All that Is. The work you are doing now will mean that you will be such a source of strength and love for her when her awakening begins. You know as well as I do, it won't be easy. She will be absolutely blessed to have your support.

Much Love,

Usually I'm not much of a huggy person but you deserve a hug or two.

Posted by 1inMany (here)
Oh, Kraut, I wish I had the answer for you. As it is, your expressions have led me down a hole in myself that used to be extremely painful and I am finding out now that it was a crucial turning point in my soul development.

You wish you had the answer for me? I wish I had one for you, your experience was far worse than mine. Mine can still get worse, but not as bad as yours. It's sad you had to go through it and I hope you can let go of the pain once and for all soon.

Most likely I forgot to say a hundred things, my tired brain isn't working that well anymore. And I'm slowly getting older too.

Dear Kraut and 1inMany,
My heart aches for you and is with you. Please know, through great suffering comes great healing....
Thank you for your courage, there are no words to describe the emotion I feel for you.

Blessings to you both,
4evrneo

[donk]

[For heaven's sake, donk. Why did you not mention this? Well, I'm mentioning it...

I started it here and realized how long it was, and also that I wanted those who haven't found out about this place yet (waky...I mean eram--who originally pointed me here--can't possibly reach everyone after all...), and I been trying to make sense of it all...this was this past Friday, tons of other (now meaningless) nonsense was cluttering my consciousness.

Having to be sneaky at work on the Internet is such a pain, I so took it for granted (I still have tons of free time here, I just got babysitters now, ugh!). So I gotta pick and choose my spots.

Anyway it's been amazing how even before this, she had committed to my drama-removal initiative (sparked by an ulli comment, thanks!) and so is facing this more bravely and maturely than I could have dreamed.

I just hate being caught in the institutional medicine paradigm, you guys are the only ones in my life I can even approach the topic of alternative healing modalities with...and bitch about the traditional "treatment" to..

.I so hate that the only options (& our doc is the best and most open available, but still stuck in the paradigm) is to be at the mercy of glaxosmithclinedowpfizerastrazeneca-whateverthe****bigpharmacallsitselfthesedays... It feels like a sentencing rather than treatment plan: take all these pills and when that don't work we'll cut you open...yikes

I been trying to nudge V in the direction of healing for a while, and just started trying to do work on it myself...I struggle to meditate or find time to focus there though. Who knows...at least a long unaddressed issue is no longer swept under carpet.

Thanks for the concern and thoughts and everything

[dsanders1980]

Thank You for the welcome. Well this is about what is seen by the 5 senses. I'm sure many of you have noticed the same types of things around you. I was at Starbucks a few months back. I remember seeing a group of friends sitting around a table. They were all on there smart phones. There was no exchange of conversation. I have seen this before but this time it started to dawn on me how insane this was. They were so disconnected from each other and life around them. I then thought about television, video games, facebook, myspace and so on. I realized that this disconnection was not by accident but by design. I became quite depressed at the current state of humanity. What are we being distracted from? What secrets await in our awareness? I am now beginning to see that there is a creator just waiting to show us the way through our senses. Life speaks to us all we just have to pay attention and recognize it when it does.

[Guest]

Nora the cedar tree still here.

This has been one of the strongest and powerful Spring Equinox that I have ever experienced. Very beautiful.

I've been away down in the Baja. Had to don my Spanglish hat. Went into Mexico to visit with a family and their Elder who is a curandero and Nagual. I also participated for 2 days in some of their Spring Equinox festivities -Danza de Sol. The Elder calls it the Fiesta de Maria.

This year I got to see a Deer Dance, Coyote Dance, (lol), and a Coyote-Deer Dance. A very rare site to see.
It was a lot of fun.


araucaria -trees are very important in a village. My avatar tree i believe is a species of deodara cedrus.


Love

Nora

[ulli]

This is to all who are depressed and ailing. I still believe what triggers the body's natural healing powers faster than anything else is to feel excited by some new toy.
The surprise of novelty, discovery, being busy and creative. Having goals and the vision how to get there.
Of course the basics of life should not be neglected, so having some routine in place is paramount.

When I hear of someone dying young I fear that the soul wanted to escape from here, and from now, as in "dying to get out".
It really seems such a waste of a life.

However, if one can BE one's eternal self, the real self which incarnates here for a crash course in spiritual development...
and especially if one wants to learn how to become a life seeder in distant galaxies one day, then this earth is the best training ground there is.

Due to this diversity of beings, starting with minerals and rocks, then plants, animals, humans,
there is such an infinite variety of possibilities, and of experiences,
and to say it is all bad or negative is wrong, AFAIC, as it leaves out the positive end of that huge spectrum called life on earth.

Unfortunately this is where loads of Avalonians have their vision directed...
being in the early stages of awakening and of course seeing that part of reality
that protective people have hidden from them.
This reminds me of the young Buddha, who was protected from the reality of all sickness, old age and death, before he left his palatial home.
But after the awakening it is important not to get totally stuck in the lower reality.
The principle of infinite goodness is real, and just getting a glimpse is enough to charge our batteries. The sun still shines even when clouds cover it.
Remembering this we can return to our jobs as healers, and be effective,
instead of wringing our hands in horror at the "awfulness" we perceive around us.
Perception is everything, ultimately. The eye (I) of the beholder. Aye, aye!

At all times there are so many good things going on, and now more than ever...
and furthermore, this business of us being able to manifest good stuff is the greatest surprise of all. And this is perhaps what makes the earth experience unique.
It shows that there is a link between the divine and our own little selves
and once we know how to tap into that source we can be truly creative.

It really does work, I have seen this with my own eyes. My problem is finding out first what it is that I want to see...
before I set out to make it happen...
I often become overwhelmed by the vast choices out there....

Here and Now...going to study this site:

http://mylifescoop.com/2013/03/25/mu...writes-itself/

[Calz]

Posted by 1inMany (here)
For heaven's sake, donk. Why did you not mention this? Well, I'm mentioning it...

https://projectavalon.net/forum4/show...for-my-love...

Now, to see if that link works...

Me thinks a connected Oklahoma lady should be added into every thread for the most appropriate insights ...

... but hey ... what would a midwestern boy know of such matters???

[Lisab]

Posted by araucaria (here)

Posted by Lisab (here)
Just finished reading Graham Hancock's Entangled. Bloody brilliant (very bloody actually! And a bit scary). Had me on the edge of my seat. Couldn't put it down.

Sorry Lisab, I thought it was rubbish

Nnoooooo!! Like bad fiction?! The friend who gave it to me didn't like it either. Said I could keep it! I'm hoping for a part 2!

[donk]

I became quite depressed at the current state of humanity. What are we being distracted from?

heh...I feel ya...I distract myself from those exact thoughts, with the very things you list

Key is to not let it get you down, no matter how easily it is to take such a "waste" personally...and do what you can to make it better, bring the light.

Welcome!

[ulli]

So, I decided to look for some of the old garageband.com tunes I used to love so much...
and found this instead...
There is a synchronicity here.
This tune was uploaded the day after the Here and Now thread began...September 15th, 2011.
Yet only had 309 views so far. It really deserves a plug. Please, everyone, click the 'like' button to make their day.

Source: https://youtube.com/watch?v=h5EY0TrVv9s

[donk]

Nnoooooo!! Like bad fiction?! The friend who gave it to me didn't like it either. Said I could keep it! I'm hoping for a part 2! Parent Post

Ugh...I didn't wanna hear that--I been looking forward to checking it out.

I started a thread where he's interviewed by Mike Ruppert (a personal hero) and he mentioned that while the ayehuasca or whatever called him to write fiction, he's currently being told to write a sequel to his "Fingerprints of the Gods" (non-fiction).

It's a good interview by the way, you should check it out if you haven't already

[araucaria]

Posted by Lisab (here)

Posted by araucaria (here)

Posted by Lisab (here)
Just finished reading Graham Hancock's Entangled. Bloody brilliant (very bloody actually! And a bit scary). Had me on the edge of my seat. Couldn't put it down.

Sorry Lisab, I thought it was rubbish

Nnoooooo!! Like bad fiction?! The friend who gave it to me didn't like it either. Said I could keep it! I'm hoping for a part 2!

Yyyeeesss!! Like bad fiction! No chance of a part 2. Where would he find the characters after killing off so many?

Edit: sorry donk, maybe you'll like it?

[Heather2017]

Hi all. Donk, sending healing energy and best wishes for both of you.

Really appreciating the info at http://www.energeticsynthesis.com/in...ass-transcript today. (Is that really abbreviating into ass-transcript? )

A couple of excerpts:

"Here, we are existing within the harmonic universal structure of the earth that is the densest possible reality that you can experience in a spiritualized form... this is about as dense as we can get and still be connected into the One Source, God Source Light."

"Ascension is a literal, tangible scientific process of the evolution of consciousness and biology within specific laws and energy mechanics that apply to a multidimensional reality system."

"Within the cosmic God energy egg, there is a dimensionalized structure that creates multi-dimensional reality systems, or a universal time matrix system of which consciousness has chosen to experience various forms... as God takes an out-breath, the breath outward creates the lower, the descending spirals of creation moving outward from the center of One, the God source... the further out we go dimensionally, descending through that spiral, we feel separate from God Source, even though we are not. That was a part of the role of that experience that we have chosen to take part in on earth. And now, the ascension is the inbreath. We are now collecting all that was in the outbreath of God that pushed outward into the periphery of the dimensional realms. Now we’re calling all of that back to be reintegrated. That’s what the ascension is, the inbreath, breathing back in to the One source from which we have originated."

Carmody, this part makes me think of you:

"In terms of ascension mechanics and the physics of ascension, a dimension is a frequency band. So it’s a repeating sequence of flashing on and off scalar standing wave points that exist within a grid and that grid is called a morphogenetic field... Now, everything in creation has an instruction set, a blueprint, or a morphogenetic field. So, that’s what that morphogenetic field is, is an instruction set, and again it directs the energy in the scalar wave points to form in certain ways, so that our consciousness when we are stationed at that level of reality of perception, we start to perceive our holographic reality within that frequency band that our consciousness is actually stationed in."

"A dimension is a full frequency band of repeating sequences of flashing waves going on and off. That’s the particle/anti-particle universe that we are working with, and is what we are actually existing in the same simultaneous space with."

"Dimensions are composed of stationary points of the vibration of sound and light which together form a fabric of tone and into which smaller morphogenetic fields are woven. So, from each fixed point of sound vibration and within each dimension of manifestation field, an electrical current of consciousness emerges. So there is layer upon layer upon layer of morphogenetic fields and dimensional reality systems."

Wow...

Love,
Heather

[donk]

Nice posts kiforall and 1inmany (a page or so back--still trying to catch up, going backwards through here & nows...there's a cliche in there somewhere)

Anyway, stay strong ki...nicotine is an SOB, well done--and I really like what you said

1--I think the secret to the seemingly contradictory instructions is that you gotta try to not take any of it personally (if you can do that, it might make more sense). That's what I've found anyway--it has served me well.