Here and Now...What's Happening?

[Sierra]

I’m still working (integrating) my way through this, but here is hopefully a chronological story of events that happened while I was gone for … four months.

Last November, my husband said I need help, I’m going to get help. So he got leave from work, got adhd and bipolar drugs straightened out, got a therapist, and got in group therapy. This lasted four months. As you can imagine, the marriage structure became extremely fluid.

At around the same time (August through November 2012), too much of my energy was getting sucked up by the 9E drama, and it was clear it was important to put my focus on the changes coming up in my marriage. I could no longer hear myself either since I was in a polarized position, which meant it was time to go be a hermit (within the constraints of my 3D environment).

Every fantasy I ever had about how good the marriage could be if only this and only that came true. Well it did. Miracles. Days of hours and hours of bliss, as if the sun was in the room. It got so I really looked forward to him sharing when he came home.

This part I keep forgetting, my mind REALLY doesn’t want me to say or remember. Dammit. It will come back. There were two hard parts for me:
1. I got bitter that I had to wait 25 years for this bliss. I expended so much energy holding things together. I did it in absolute I don’t know where it came from faith and trust that my waiting in free will, leaving him his free will, was going to cause a transformation. But … I got tired, and resentful of the drain, started to wonder if it was worth it, though it was clear as a bell to me, that this is where I was supposed to be.

2. It was now safe to express rage, at all the times over 25 years that he invalidated me or put me down or ignored my information. It wasn’t safe before, because he’d threaten suicide or just plain get mean if I got too honest. 25 years is a lot of rage stored up and I choked a bit on it. I was able to say one night, I’m feeling rage, and I know you’ve talked about it in therapy, how it feels to the “rest of the family” to see the asshole get happy while they are left holding the basket of **** so to speak. And that I was feeling that way, and to give me space, which he did.

We are learning new ways to cope with one another in a conflict. Fights are over quickly now, I can nail him efficiently, when he gets out of line, partly from Ulli’s astro-training, and partly because he is very aware of the need for a change in his behavior to have a happy marriage. When he has an issue now, I don’t get the kitchen sink filled with blame thrown at me, just a simple declaration of how he feels about what is happening right now. All through the months of therapy he’d come home and apologize for this, apologize for that, it was oh boy, he sees me now. My husband sees me.

I pray a lot, because it keeps me focused on where I want my energy to go. During the hard parts of this process, the most important thing I learned is that my thoughts are real, my thoughts create, and I have a lot of clean up of bad mental habits, and repointing of my mind to do. Don’t ask me how I got there, I don’t know. It was just there, experientially rather than intellectually. It is both emotional and mental. Doing ho’oponoopono helps a lot.

After four months of self work, my husband has been back at work for a month plus, and his work is going extraordinarily well. Excellent review from his old boss, a new manager who happens to be a very old friend… As he said, walking out the door to go back downstairs to work, ‘Life is good.’

My marriage is on new ground, a new field. It is awesome.

So now I worry, things are TOO good, my husband is happy, my home is wonderful, my sister is close and happy too … heck it is time for the world to end lol.

It is awesome to be back at Avalon too. I’d forgotten how intelligent the conversation can be. And how compassionate The Village is.

Thank you for your warm and loving welcome home to the Village. I felt so good reading y’all.

Love, love, love, Sierra

[donk]

I'm happy for you Sierra, and can relate to a lot of what you went through. Love love love to you too!

[Ernie Nemeth]

God Bless Sierra. Thanks for sharing.

One Heart, One Love, One Spirit.

Many souls, many stories, many lives.


Heaven weeps as we rejoice.
We Are One.

Peace to the villagers, Avalon and all people of good heart - we shall prevail, it is so ordained.
And so it is. So it is. SO IT IS!

hugs

[Samsara]

Source: https://youtube.com/watch?v=7NAI1FFg-uM

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[eaglespirit]

Posted by Marianne (here)

I was wondering the same about our Eagle. I like to think he's just really busy with construction in Peru.

And that we'll hear from him soon, with a post reminding us to love, love, love.

Let's just remind ourselves until he's back.

Love to All..just been busy, that's all...Onward and Upward and Beyond : )

[RunningDeer]

Posted by Sierra (here)
As he said, walking out the door to go back downstairs to work, ‘Life is good.’

My marriage is on new ground, a new field. It is awesome.

So now I worry, things are TOO good, my husband is happy, my home is wonderful, my sister is close and happy too … heck it is time for the world to end lol.

Love, love, love, Sierra

Hello Sierra,
I love happy endings that turn into happy beginnings. "new ground, a new field"...delicious. Glad you are back!
Love,
Paula

[Mikelodium]

Hi Avalonians!

I want to share a band I discovered the first day of 2013 on youtube, when I arrived home after giving 2012 a farewell with some friends. I can't remember how I arrived there, just browsing related music videos I suppose.

Source: https://youtube.com/watch?v=6tnl-dDgCBk

Source: https://youtube.com/watch?v=qWneUac1Kv8

Since I discovered this band I've been feeling something new with some kind of songs, its the top of my head tickling! It is new for me because I usually feel the music in the top of the stomach or the chest, more like an emotional feeling, but this is different... I know it is related with chakras, I want to do some research about it!

I hope you enjoy this band as I do. Peace!

[araucaria]

Posted by ulli (here)

Posted by araucaria (here)

Posted by ulli (here)
Lots of funnies here from Jon Stewart
Let's see if he can finish Monsanto off.

Source: https://youtube.com/watch?v=2K4pfiYK2IQ

Thanks for that Uli. Jon Stewart gets flak like everyone else, but I think he is doing a pretty good job - if it makes you laugh, he has got to be doing something right.

Tonight I have something I think is important that I want to get progress on, only swimming way out of my depth in many respects. Wish me luck folks.

Not just wishing you luck, but swimming alongside, with extra life vests and gear...
if you think it's important then so do I.

Thanks Ulli and everyone, and my apologies for my chronic underuse of the thankyou button, especially since the Internet went dead slow (still a problem here).

A few thoughts on the notion of important. Generally speaking, I take it to mean things that go beyond little me. There is a time component involved – when important things seem to become urgent. Sometimes they only seem that way because an opportunity is seen as a make-or-break affair when it may just be pointing to a further, possibly more interesting stepping-stone. This happened to me on Monday, and the disappointment wore off on reaching that realization. Being normally patient to a fault, I am learning impatience; but not to a fault, that would be impetuous and inconsequent: studied impatience. Timing is everything; not easy, because synchronicity means synchronizing with the unknown.

Metaphorically, the important event is the pivotal point or fulcrum that takes the strain and provides leverage. A hinge can be brought into operation to open a door and a whole new dimension, with no going back. Disclosure with a small d, finding yourself in a way that can be shared more widely. You cannot do more and you cannot do less.

No more swimming dangerously, I’m heading for the next stepping-stone - mixed metaphor, never mind

[ulli]

Astrid needs our prayers, right now.
Her heart is racing for no apparent reason, and it is midnight there...
Lets all pray, please.

Ten minutes later...it appears that things are normalizing.
Basically I told her to drink lots of water, since she has no baby aspirins in the house, listen to the most beautiful music to help her relax, breathe deeply, and if by tomorrow things aren't better see her cardiologist.
(Better still..see one even if things are better)
There are definitely astrological indications here, like Mars (rules iron, rules red blood cells) in Aries (Mars' own sign), currently transiting opposite her Libra Ascendant (which rules the physical body)...
So perhaps, like paint is thicker on some days than others, due to the moon, Mars caused the molecules in her blood to expand, causing stressed heartbeat.

The astrologer Ray Merriman who was also a metallurgist, did a study with hospital nurses, and discovered that blood transfusions were harder to administer during days of a Mars Sun conjunction...once a year.

Astrid, you will be ok. You can rely on us to be there for you.

[RunningDeer]

In the last 6 days, I’ve had dreams of lots of different animals. Last evening a cow asked me to assist in the birth of her young. (one leg was already out.) There was a flood of sheep and goats jumping over stone walls, that took my attention away in another direction, all talking at once.

The scenery in the dreams is one of beauty and diversity. I usually spend dream time in buildings teaching and learning. Some of the animals are not of this world.

A couple of nights ago there were dolphins and chimps, and people sharing their accounts of ETs. I’m glad I wrote the dreams down because I’m reviewing them and totally forgot them.

My favorite dream was two birds were on my bed conversing with me. I don’t know what they were saying. That dream recall kept popping up the next day.

My hunch is that the animals are interdimensionals. They know I relate to critters. Which was what kept me sane amongst the insane growing up. What’s changed is that I’m excited to go to bed because of the dreams. I wake up rested. Though, I’m questioning the times I go from wide awake to have lie down for a 10 minutes nap, only to wake 2-3 hours later.

Another thing I’ve noticed is loud sounds going off just as I’m going off to sleep. Like the preverbal door slamming or a loud popping. What surprises me is that I don’t flinch nor does my stomach jump. Those noises happen while I’m awake, now.

Oh, I just remembered this. Crazy. Yesterday, a person with a three wheel bike with flashing lights drove by into the other driveway. S/he got off and rummaged around in the storage section in the back and shouldered a brief case. Then went in to the new neighbor’s place. What’s unusual is that I live in the country. Those bikes are not meant for the roads. If it was a service person, it’s certainly not the way to run a thriving business.

Then for some weird reason, I wondered if s/he was an ET. I went back to work, checking for the next 10-15 minutes to see if the bike was still there, even though there is only one way to come out. It’d have to pass right by my window again.

Natured called. The bike was still there. While in the bathroom, that’s when I had a flash to hurry and check. I was away from the window no more that 45 seconds and the bike was gone. I used my binoculars in the three possible directions s/he could pick from. Nothing 1/2-1 miles down the roads.

Maybe it was just a biker doing an honest days work. If I had a relationship with the new people, I could ask. The reason why I questioned it was because I wondered it s/he was ET, not the usual train of thought. I’m feeling like I’m on alert. (and don’t know what that even means) And the noise in both ears is louder and more frequent.

PS Just logged back on here to add a post. Sending to Astrid...

[Michelle Marie]

Posted by Paula (here)
In the last 6 days, I’ve had dreams of lots of different animals. Last evening a cow asked me to assist in the birth of her young. There was a flood of sheep and goats that took my attention away in another direction, all talking at once.

A couple of nights ago there were dolphins and chimps, and people sharing their accounts of ETs. I’m glad I wrote the dreams down because I’m reviewing them and totally forgot them.

My favorite dream was two birds were on my bed conversing with me. I don’t know what they were saying. That dream recall kept popping up the next day.

My hunch is that the animals are interdimensionals. They know I relate to critters. Which was what kept me sane amongst the insane growing up. What’s changed is that I’m excited to go to bed because of the dreams. I wake up rested. Though, I’m questioning the times I go from wide awake to have lie down for a 10 minutes nap, only to wake 2-3 hours later.

Another thing I’ve noticed is loud sounds going off just as I’m going off to sleep. Like the preverbal door slamming or a loud popping. What surprises me is that I don’t flinch nor does my stomach jump. Those noises happen while I’m awake, now.

Oh, I just remembered this. Crazy. Yesterday, a person with a three wheel bike with flashing lights drove by into the other driveway. S/he got off and rummaged around in the storage section in the back and shouldered a brief case. Then went in to the new neighbor’s place. What’s unusual is that I live in the country. Those bikes are meant for the roads. If it was a service person, it’s certainly not the way to run a thriving business.

Then for some weird reason, I wondered if s/he was an ET. I went back to work, checking for the next 10-15 minutes to see if the bike was still there, even though there is only one way to come out. It’d have to pass right by my window again.

Natured called. The bike was still there. While in the bathroom, that’s when I had a flash to hurry and check. I was away from the window no more that 45 seconds and the bike was gone. I used my binoculars in the three possible directions s/he could pick from. Nothing 1/2-1 miles down the roads.

Maybe it was just a biker doing an honest days work. If I had a relationship with the new people, I could ask. The reason why I questioned it was because I wondered it s/he was ET, not the usual train of thought. I’m feeling like I’m on alert. (and don’t know what that even means) And the noise in both ears is louder and more frequent.

PS Just logged back on here to add a post. Sending to Astrid...

This is fascinatiing, Paula. I was told in a reading a couple of months ago that I could communicate with animals. Then one day, I was at a friend's house who has 3 dogs. One of them communicated to me!!!!!

It let me know that it was getting old and did not like this one other dog picking on it all the time. She wants to rest more and be left alone. She's suffering from old age. Her name is "Rosie." I told her owner, but I don't know if she did anything about it. At least she got the communication.

"Not the usual train of thought"...I understand these impressions. Kind of like apparitions, very vague, makes you wonder...

Being on alert...that seems right for some reason.
I saw/posted all those cloudships and have been feeling kind of excited...hopeful.

I love critters, too. I'm looking forward to having a home again and having some pets. I've been wanting a kitty for awhile now. I used to have a golden retriever. He was so special to me. He went to live with my ex-mother-in-law when I got divorced. I guess he got the dog and I got the baby. Sad loss. He was my pal for 10 years. Apollo Maximillian Golden Angel - I called him Max.

I've had soul communication with him. I've seen signs with golden retrievers right after I thought of him.

Love lots,
MM

[Sierra]

Praying for you Astrid ... and loving you dearly.

[donk]

2nd day in the row my girl's oldest (high) school locked students IN on a bomb threat. Ugh

I would think they'd get them out. Obviously they don't take the threat seriously. Guess they have reason to...though they are stingy with details.

[Michelle Marie]

Posted by ulli (here)
Astrid needs our prayers, right now.
Her heart is racing for no apparent reason, and it is midnight there...
Lets all pray, please.

Ten minutes later...it appears that things are normalizing.
Basically I told her to drink lots of water, since she has no baby aspirins in the house, listen to the most beautiful music to help her relax, breathe deeply, and if by tomorrow things aren't better see her cardiologist.
(Better still..see one even if things are better)
There are definitely astrological indications here, like Mars (rules iron, rules red blood cells) in Aries (Mars' own sign), currently transiting opposite her Libra Ascendant (which rules the physical body)...
So perhaps, like paint is thicker on some days than others, due to the moon, Mars caused the molecules in her blood to expand, causing stressed heartbeat.

The astrologer Ray Merriman who was also a metallurgist, did a study with hospital nurses, and discovered that blood transfusions were harder to administer during days of a Mars Sun conjunction...once a year.

Astrid, you will be ok. You can rely on us to be there for you.

That is a yucky scary feeling. I've had it. I've had intense stress on my heart and I've had to greatly reduce stress and recover from all of the physical labor stress on my heart. Sometimes I felt like if I didn't take it easy, I would have a heart attack. I've been watching over my heart, too. My grandfather died of an enlarged heart.

I'm praying for you, Astrid. Soothing peaceful energy to you.

Yesterday I had intense pain behind my heart chakra. We are transmuting energy for the Hearty of Humanity.

I feel like a regulator would be beneficial. There is transformation taking place.

Archangel Raphael, please assist Astrid now. Thank you.

Lots of caring love Astrid, (thanks Ulli)
Michelle Marie

[Michelle Marie]

Posted by donk (here)
2nd day in the row my girl's oldest (high) school locked students IN on a bomb threat. Ugh

I would think they'd get them out. Obviously they don't take the threat seriously. Guess they have reason to...though they are stingy with details.

American High schools are dangerous.

I was a high school teacher until recently. I had to quit when I saw/experienced what was happening.

BLUNTLY PUT: They've been usurped and infected with the military industrial complex and their antics. I would NOT send my child to such a place.

MM

[Orph]

While most of you have been contemplating the meaning of life, or who is God, or why does chocolate ice cream taste so good, I've been contemplating the meaning of Avalon member "enfoldedblue" website name -- mysticalchemyarts". Now, we all know that web addresses don't use spaces between words, they just scrunch everything into one long list of letters leaving the reader sometimes befuddled or scratching their head wondering if they've come across some ancient language or something. So what-the-devil is mysticalchemyarts?

The brain tries to make sense of this stuff by ignoring the belly's plea for chocolate ice cream while it analyzes the string of letters. The first thing my brain sees is "mystical chem yarts". It's mystical alright. My brain is spinning in circles. What's a yart? Had a neighbor once who came from Sweden. All that green grass outside his front door, .... well that was his yart. Neighbor on the other side of me came from the backwoods of Kentucky. He'd say stuff like "Yart consider washing yer truck". So what does enfoldedblue mean by "mystical chem yarts"? Things that make you go "Hmmmmmmmm".

But, we have to consider another possibility. Maybe it's "mystical chemy arts". Maybe she's mixing chemicals to create art. Makes a little more sense. But if ever there's an accidental ignition of the mystical chemy's, the worlds going to see one of the most beautiful and dazzling expulsion of sparkling globules of color such as never has been seen before.

Then of course, there's the third possibility. Took me six weeks for my brain to figure this one out, but it could be "mystic alchemy arts". Haven't got a clue what that's supposed to mean, but that's okay. I'm kind of way down at the bottom of the ladder when it comes to this enlightenment stuff. Problem is, that's a bit of a tongue-twister. Just try to say it out loud, -- mystic alchemy arts. Phoooey on that. It's a whole lot easier to say -- mystical chem yarts!!


EDIT by Orph: This post was not meant to be disrespectful to our Avalon member "enfoldedblue". I was merely having some fun with a phrase I found to be funny.

[ulli]

Today we had Suzie spayed.
She is sitting very still right now as she must be in quite a lot of pain.
She is bigger now than in this picture, but still not fully grown.
Dare I ask for healing energy for Suzie?
I know there are more pressing issues in this world, but she means a lot to me.

[WhiteFeather]

Astrid. May you find calm and rest right now. Incoming stream of Lavender Thoughts your way my friend.

Sierra Its Good to hear your bliss. Asquali for sharing.

Id like to share this video with The Village. Its special.......Enjoy

Source: https://youtube.com/watch?v=6cOOvMB0R2M

All my Love Village XOXO

Vince

[astrid]

Thank you so much everyone
now i am suspecting its a Thyroid issue,
caused hopefully just by too much iodine or
an iodine sensitivity.

Now that i read up more this sounds like more like
what i am dealing with.
Not being person that gets sick its all freaking me out somewhat.
But as terrifying as it is, it nears a full blown panic attack at its worst.
at least now i can look i the right direction.
Will order some blood work and an ultrasound today,

Thanks again everyone.

Love to all XX

[RunningDeer]

Posted by Orph (here)
While most of you have been contemplating the meaning of life, or who is God, or why does chocolate ice cream taste so good, I've been contemplating the meaning of Avalon member "enfoldedblue" website name -- mysticalchemyarts". Now, we all know that web addresses don't use spaces between words, they just scrunch everything into one long list of letters leaving the reader sometimes befuddled or scratching their head wondering if they've come across some ancient language or something. So what-the-devil is mysticalchemyarts?

The brain tries to make sense of this stuff by ignoring the belly's plea for chocolate ice cream while it analyzes the string of letters. The first thing my brain sees is "mystical chem yarts". It's mystical alright. My brain is spinning in circles. What's a yart? Had a neighbor once who came from Sweden. All that green grass outside his front door, .... well that was his yart. Neighbor on the other side of me came from the backwoods of Kentucky. He'd say stuff like "Yart consider washing yer truck". So what does enfolded blue mean by "mystical chem yarts"? Things that make you go "Hmmmmmmmm".

But, we have to consider another possibility. Maybe it's "mystical chemy arts". Maybe she's mixing chemicals to create art. Makes a little more sense. But if ever there's an accidental ignition of the mystical chemy's, the worlds going to see one of the most beautiful and dazzling expulsion of sparkling globules of color such as never has been seen before.

Then of course, there's the third possibility. Took me six weeks for my brain to figure this one out, but it could be "mystic alchemy arts". Haven't got a clue what that's supposed to mean, but that's okay. I'm kind of way down at the bottom of the ladder when it comes to this enlightenment stuff. Problem is, that's a bit of a tongue-twister. Just try to say it out loud, -- mystic alchemy arts. Phoooey on that. It's a whole lot easier to say -- mystical chem yarts!!

Hello Orph,

I find enfoldedblue to be insightful. In fact, I have a folder for some of her posts. They often synch up with insights I've had days or hours earlier. The most recent one was on discernment. Here's her thread called, "Discernment."

I had a look-see at enfoldblue's mysticalchemyarts.com. She's multi-talented in not only in the 3D arts, but written expression as well. The sample below is from her "Inspirational & Share the Love" card collection.

Peace,
Paula