Here and Now...What's Happening?

[1inMany]

Thank you all for keeping me company this week. Not feeling very much like talking. But that doesn't keep me from being present, being a presence. I hope.

Another round of ick came through, a different one. So this brings the total to possibly four in the past six weeks, no days with everyone healthy. My lungs are crackling and wheezing, and I think I'm about exhausted. I will know for sure when I regain my ability to think.

Saw K and Chris' new apartment. Eh, it's okay. It's truly better than what I started out with so I don't know why it bothers me. I guess because it is a step down from where she was, and a couple steps down from where I want her (and from where she deserves) to be.

Keeping my head above water. Barely, but I don't think it matters how much above, so long as my nostrils stay above the water line.

Much Love,

[RunningDeer]

Posted by 1inMany (here)
Thank you all for keeping me company this week. Not feeling very much like talking. But that doesn't keep me from being present, being a presence. I hope.

Another round of ick came through, a different one. So this brings the total to possibly four in the past six weeks, no days with everyone healthy. My lungs are crackling and wheezing, and I think I'm about exhausted. I will know for sure when I regain my ability to think.

Saw K and Chris' new apartment. Eh, it's okay. It's truly better than what I started out with so I don't know why it bothers me. I guess because it is a step down from where she was, and a couple steps down from where I want her (and from where she deserves) to be.

Keeping my head above water. Barely, but I don't think it matters how much above, so long as my nostrils stay above the water line.

Much Love,

A free smile for the One that's keeping her head above water. Oops, nostrils above water. xo

[meeradas]

Someone asked me "can you put German(y) in a nutshell for me",
and i gave 'em this: https://youtube.com/watch?v=vosz5gKLaTw

Deliberately not embedded, as it is... just too much to take.
I'm aware of the fact that this is a bit over-biased and one-sided... but it still nails it, for me.
[Note: I have to listen to this every day... nowadays. It's part of the 'corporate muzak'. Wait... i don't work at Gitmo.]

[Calz]

This should bring a smile to those with a pulse ...

Source: https://youtube.com/watch?v=GWqD7GyJBVM

[Mikelodium]

Not "here and now" but last night I went with a couple of friends to a night show in a medieval castle called in spanish "Castillo de Bellver" (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Bellver_Castle). There were a show with an actor and two guitar players, remembering a few history events that occurred in the castle in medieval epoch. Time passed so fast as it was a wonderful show! Here are some pics I took, no flash allowed and without tripod so it was a hard scenario to shoot at!











Have a nice weekend Villagers!
Peace from Spain.

[Flash]

We both had a long and difficult week. My daughter is litterally in crisis. She does not like her school nor the student in it, she never liked her dad, she is pushing me away, and on and on, more than just teenager stuff. I went to the doctor and they offered us a thourough analysis of depression versus Learning disabilities (although she is good at school, it is demanding), saying that depression seem more prévalent amongst those children (no way.... they just have it ten times tougher!!). Finally, we were sent back with a paper to call a shrink. Thank you very much.

All this while having one of her song recorded for a contest, plus a song of Carla Bruni she is singing.

The contest is for a fund raising for 3 children hospitals we have in the province. It is one of the biggest telethon we have in the province.

She has, I think, good chance to participate having come out of handicap difficulties herself.

So, here is my beautiful 16 years old daughter, a premiere (you are litterally the first ones who will see this, I won't tell her her friends were not the first)

Source: https://youtube.com/watch?v=fv2QZGlugtI

Source: https://youtube.com/watch?v=OGjhg6Pw5gU

[sheme]

What at a pretty young lady, super music and great voice. Well done and thanks for the share.

[Mikelodium]

Hi Flash! Good luck in that contest.
I hope you daughter crisis ends soon. I had some awful teenager years and I know my parents suffered a lot. I was completely absent, never talked to dad, not even a "hi" when I arrived home and stuff like that... Patience Flash! Better times will come for sure. We humans are living a strange epoch of changes, stress and challenges. IMO this can be even more challenging for a teenager musician, because teenagers and musicians are usually more sensitive to their environment and your daughter got it all mixed!!

My best wishes for your family!

[Mark]

Great videos, Flash, your little girl has definitely got skillz. I wish her the best in the contest, she certainly has the looks and the voice to be "in it to win it", as Randy of American Idol might say. I know you raised her to know what is important in life beyond the material, so whatever she's going through now, her base is strong and love will not fail her or you. Bless, my Québécois friend!

[Samsara]

Zaréma est une magnifique jeune fille, Flash. Elle s'en sortira et toi aussi. Elle a une très belle voix, j'aime beaucoup "Bon Sort". Elle est très talentueuse! Laisse-moi savoir où et quand le concours s.v.p. J'aimerais beaucoup l'encourager.

Courage !

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Posted by 1inMany (here)
Thank you all for keeping me company this week. Not feeling very much like talking. But that doesn't keep me from being present, being a presence. I hope.

Another round of ick came through, a different one. So this brings the total to possibly four in the past six weeks, no days with everyone healthy. My lungs are crackling and wheezing, and I think I'm about exhausted. I will know for sure when I regain my ability to think.

Saw K and Chris' new apartment. Eh, it's okay. It's truly better than what I started out with so I don't know why it bothers me. I guess because it is a step down from where she was, and a couple steps down from where I want her (and from where she deserves) to be.

[B]Keeping my head above water. Barely, but I don't think it matters how much above, [B]so long as my nostrils stay above the water line.

Much Love,

Hello 1inMany,

You'd like this photo by Mary M. I'd add it here but it didn't seem right. Have a restful weekend.

Love,
Paula xo

Posted by Flash (here)
We both had a long and difficult week.

Hello Flash,

Belle voix. Talentueux Fille. Merci de partager cette vidéo magnifique.

What a beautiful and talented daughter! Ya done good, Mamma! She knows that on all the important levels. Teenage years. No amount of money could you pay me to live them over again. Especially in these Crazy times! (That's Crazy is a capital "C".)

Love,
Paula xo

[donk]

I love how the best works of true art are multidimensional, I haven't read Salman Rushdie's "Haroun and the Sea of Stories" since high school, I appreciate it on such a different level now.

In this passage I felt the desire to share, Haroun catches the water genie from the sea of stories attempting to disconnect the invisible tap for his father's (the great story teller Rashid) supply of Story Water...apparently Rashid had sent them "a message" to do so, this tickled me:

'I don't believe you,' he said to the Genie Iff. 'How did he send the message? I've been right with him almost all the time.'
'He sent it by the usual means,' Iff shrugged. 'A P2C2E.'
'And what is that?'
'Obvious,' said the Water Genie with a wicked grin. 'It's a Process Too Complicated To Explain.' Then he saw how upset Haroun was, and added: 'In this case, it involves Thought Beams. We tune in and listen to his thoughts. It's an advanced technology.'


Anyways, written in 1990, it is delightful, he has a way with words. I remember trying to read "The Satanic Verses" back then (mid-90's) but was not old (experienced enough) to get past first page, I look forward to trying again, I love the way he writes...

[Michelle Marie]

I've heard this saying before: the two worst times in your life are 1) being a teenager, and 2) having one. LOL I decided when my son was a teen, I would just do my best to live through it. It was hard to get him to go to school, so I home-schooled him in the end.

Zaréma is doing great! She is already developing her talent of singing, and she is just coming into her own. I'm in another phase like that, and somehow the crisis stimulates or catalyzes the changes that are necessary for the next step. It's difficult, but from what I see, she is doing great. She will come to understand that getting along with people and expanding kindness and respect to all, even family, is essential to her overall success. Her talents will soar as she comes into her authentic self, which it takes a little writhing with the growing pains of figuring it all out. (Self expression.)

Overall Flash, you have a lot to be proud of! You're a good mom.

Youth are coming to me. Yesterday I gave a free reading for a girl who I met through a mutual text from another friend. It turns out her and her mom are homeless and getting emergency places to stay. She thanked me over and over again and said I just didn't know how much this means to her. It turns out she is also a singer. We will get together again and I will meet her mom. I'll give her mom a reading, too. I told her I was in the same boat, but that I wanted to launch my work and create events. She offered to help me in any way she could.

The homeless support the homeless. This is my experience here and now.

Hi! Everybody!!!
Off for a bike ride...

Love,
Michelle Marie

[Guest]

Reilly I'm so envious that you can plant your garden (beautiful by the way) in early spring. Too cold here in the mountains still to plant. All I can do right now is start some seedlings in my kitchen, prep the garden and wait for the new moon in May.

I'm expanding the garden this year adding another box and going to plant the tomatoes in large pots. I have to be diligent or the dratted moles will get everything if I'm not. It's a war I tell you. lol. I wake up one morning and the garden is surrounded by mole holes and mounds. Every year a few plants are given to the moles, but they don't get everything. They come in and in a day or two ravage my garden, eat the roots all up and take my good organic vegetables. But they do leave me a gift, freshly dug mole dirt. I collect it every year mix it with mulch and compost and use it for next year in the garden.

Love

Nora


Astrid I hope you are feeling better. I'm thinking of you and praying for you.

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[ulli]

Lots of stuff happening. Yukondiva's husband arrived yesterday from Alaska and we are having a great time getting to know one another. He is originally from this area but has not visited Costa Rica in ten years. Been preparing the guest cottage for them, so haven't had time to check on the Village.
On the less bright side...our house at the beach club was destroyed when a giant tree fell on it yesterday. So much for our weekend vacation on the beach...The living room terrace is now without a roof and there is no electricity as the column which houses the meter is totally destroyed. The main trunk of the tree fell on our neighbor's house, smashed their entire roof and broke all their windows and doors, including a small electric car that was parked inside. How to coordinate the repair work with so much on our plates right now.

[cosmic.maura]

Sitting in my room, it's cooler in here. I smell my fizzy pop incense burning, and my roommate chatting with his grandma in the other room. His poodle is crying out to play and is folicking throughout the rooms. I love my room. I want to be one with nature, especially today; earth day! I have been pondering the fact that we are all one. 'Humanity.' We are a tiny speck in the universe, an earthly family. -ONE-
Whoohoo first post!
~LOVE TO ALL!!! [/FONT]

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Posted by cosmic.maura (here)
Sitting in my room, it's cooler in here. I smell my fizzy pop incense burning, and my roommate chatting with his grandma in the other room. His poodle is crying out to play and is folicking throughout the rooms. I love my room. I want to be one with nature, especially today; earth day! I have been pondering the fact that we are all one. 'Humanity.' We are a tiny speck in the universe, an earthly family. -ONE-
Whoohoo first post!
~LOVE TO ALL!!!

Welcome to the 'Here and Now Village', and to Avalon, cosmic.maura. Here's to sharing a little Earth with you, too.

Peace,
Paula

[RunningDeer]

Posted by ulli (here)
Lots of stuff happening. Yukondiva's husband arrived yesterday from Alaska and we are having a great time getting to know one another. He is originally from this area but has not visited Costa Rica in ten years. Been preparing the guest cottage for them, so haven't had time to check on the Village.
On the less bright side...our house at the beach club was destroyed when a giant tree fell on it yesterday. So much for our weekend vacation on the beach...The living room terrace is now without a roof and there is no electricity as the column which houses the meter is totally destroyed. The main trunk of the tree fell on our neighbor's house, smashed their entire roof and broke all their windows and doors, including a small electric car that was parked inside. How to coordinate the repair work with so much on our plates right now.

Wow, Ulli. I had to read it twice. I'm glad everyone's okay. xo
Happy reunion to Yukondiva and Hubby.

[1inMany]

Feeling better today than yesterday. Slow recovery around here, but progressing and that's something.

Emotions are swirling this evening. It looks like Little One will be going home for good next weekend. And it looks like M will be relocating her base camp from here to the city. It looks like M will be watching Little One, sort of a nanny.

There is a lot in there. I say "it looks like" because if there is anything I have learned in the past few weeks, it is that things will work out how they are supposed to. All the times that one thing or another could have happened, they have not. It appears that Little One got sick on the day he was to return home, and I felt strongly there was a reason he did not go at that time. Something tells me this is the time, and because of this I am trying very hard to settle with the idea. It takes a huge amount of effort to come to peace with this.

There will come a time, and this time may be now, that I can no longer protect Little One. I will always ask Angels to watch over him, and I will always be here...connected. And there will come a time when I have to put him back into the arms of his mother. Whether those arms will cradle him, teach him, adore him, really hear him, play with him, protect him above all else... This is very hard.

And M not being with me all the time, this is also an adjustment. This is a next step to total independence while not being completely on her own. This is a huge step for her. An intermediate step between living at home and living on her own.

What an adjustment for her, and even bigger adjustment for Mike. He has grown to love his quiet life during the week. Having a 17 year old, and without the benefit of the buffer (me)...this means having another person around all the time, 24/7.

I must find a way to process these changes, while Trusting that if they will not serve the Highest Good of all concerned, they will not happen. And that if they do happen, that means they will most definitely serve the Highest Good of all involved. And if that is the case, it will all be just fine.

Stay in this moment, this is what I must do. I cannot let my mind wander to this worry or that, what will or will not happen, just this moment. Nothing stays the same. Everything is fluid. But my awareness and my Trust are this moment. There is a bigger plan. It is in motion, and it will play out as I stay centered in my strength and watch. I feel unsettled and anxious, uncomfortable not knowing what will be. If something happens that seems at the moment to be simply terrible, horrific even (as has happened repeatedly in the past 6 months), I will do the best I can with what I know at the time. And as the crisis passes, maybe the real reason for the crisis will unfold. And if it doesn't, I will know in my soul I did my best.

I tell my kids all the time that no one can ask more of you than your best. It is simply impossible to give more than that. I will remind myself of this, now.

Much Love,